Chapter 4: The Heart-Broken Heartbreak Kid

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Rating: PG13 for some curse words and mildly intimate scenes

Genre: Romance/Angst

Disclaimer: I don't own squat. Don't sue me.

Characters: Chris Jericho, Shawn Michaels, Eddie Guerrero, Jay Reso

Desc: (COMPLETE) –slash- The sequel to Yhu's story, May Roses In Cold December. Read and Review please! This is my first fic.

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"It's okay, Shawn, it's okay." Jay embraced Shawn and patted him soothingly. "I'm here for you."

Shawn's face was buried in Jay's shoulder. There was no stopping the tears now. "I...I loved him so much...but he never really loved me. He was always thinking about Eddie."

Jay pulled back so that he could look Shawn squarely in the eye. "Shawn, Chris does love you. Why do you think he can even manage to smile now, after all that happened to him? Why do you think he hasn't self- destructed yet? It was you, Shawn, you gave him the strength to move on."

"Yet he was never completely mine, was he? It was Eddie that he was missing...Eddie...at least he's happy now. And that's all I want for him."

Silence filled the room...Jay had run out of things to say. All he could do now to comfort Shawn was hug him.

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Eddie hummed gleefully as he prepared a delicious breakfast for the both of them. He felt on top of the world...Chris was his now. "Good morning, mamacita!" he said excitedly as Chris entered the kitchen.

Chris laughed. Eddie always loved that laugh of his. "Okay, you have got to stop calling me that."

"What words could describe such a beautiful thing as you?" he toyed with Chris's hair playfully.

"This," he took Eddie in his arms and passionately kissed him.

"Ooh, mami, I love it!"

Chris sat himself down by the table, as Eddie placed the food in between them. "You know, I was thinking, man," Eddie told him, "it's been a while since I've seen mi familia. I want to go back to visit them."

"Great!" Chris exclaimed through mouthfuls of food. "I'm coming with you. When do we go?" Eddie smiled at this.

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Shawn was now fast asleep. Jay left the house, and got back in his car. He had a lot to think about on the drive back home. Shawn and Chris looked so perfect together, but he had to admit, Chris did seem a little distant at times. It broke his heart to see his best friend feeling so empty, yet it also tore him apart to see Shawn like this...so sad, so broken. He looked even worse than when he broke up with Hunter. Shawn deserves better than this, Jay thought. Shawn deserves someone who loves him with all his heart...

His cellphone rang. "Hello?"

"It's me."

"Hey, what's up, Chris?"

"Meet me later?" he asked, "I wanna talk to you."

"If it's about you and Shawn, I already know what happened. I'm driving back from his house, man, he was a mess."

Chris paused a moment, startled at the fact that Jay knew about their break-up, not to mention a little saddened at the thought of Shawn so depressed. "Well, yeah, I was gonna tell you about that too, but I got something more important to say to you."

"Okay...what is it?"

"You like El Paso?"

The following week, the three of them were on board a plane to El Paso, Texas, to meet Eddie's family. Eddie had gone to use the restroom, leaving Chris and Jay sitting next to each other on the airline seats.

"So...are you doing alright?" Jay asked Chris, subconsciously staring at Eddie's perfect, muscular behind as Eddie walked towards the restroom. It's been seven years and he's still as hot as ever...if not hotter...

"Yeah, sure...I got Eddie now. What more could I want?" Chris said, looking out the window. "Umm...is Shawn okay?"

Jay sighed. Of course Shawn's not okay! He's been crying his eyes out since you two broke up...

"Well...I can only hope so," Jay replied distantly.

Silence now hung thick in the air. Chris had convinced himself that he wanted Eddie more. Eddie was more exciting, more passionate, and Eddie loved him desperately. So why did he feel this way? Why was he thinking about Shawn now, when he had longed for Eddie for all these years? Something was wrong here. This wasn't supposed to happen. Love with Eddie was supposed to be perfect, waking up together, days filled with fun, nights filled with passionate lovemaking. Life now was supposed to be a perfect fairytale, but somehow, he didn't feel that way.