Chapter 9
The past returns

I walked to the door. (What is Carlos yelling about now? He and Chris always fight.) Tarron walked back in my room. "That damn asshole. How stupid can you get?" She said. She turned to face me. "What's wrong? Who is infected? Who does Carlos what to kill?" I asked. I was afraid of the answer. "When you fell we were attacked. You got scratched. Your S.T.A.R.S friends saved you. At that time I could have cared less if you lived or died. Don't worry though. Your not infected in the way that asshole thinks you are though. It will just make you feel dizzy and a little sick." She said. (Oh great. Not that Carlos and I have ever gotten along. Now he has even more of a reason to hate me.) I shook my head. I headed for the door when Tarron grabbed my arm. "Look, I hate S.T.A.R.S Officers but don't be stupid. I don't doubt his threat. Wait, what am I saying? Go ahead be stupid. I'm not gonna save you ass when you get in over your head." She snapped. "Look you fucking bitch. You don't even want to butt into things in my life. You don't know what it's like, knowing you have parents that don't give a damn. I have been in way over my head. I have been in river, drowning with my hatred for this world, for my family, for everything. How much I hate waking up and having to live a life I hate." I yelled as I broke free from her grip. The hatred filled my whole body. Tarron look at me with a grin. (How could I say something like that? I know I am hateful, but she has gone through a lot worse then I could ever. Here I am yelling at her for no reason.) I opened the door when Tarron spoke. "I now see why my brother chose you. You have the same hatred that I have. My brother could have talked to any of us. Unless." Her voice trialed off. "Never mind. We have to get you out of here. Any Ideas?" She finished. I shook my head in defeat. "Good, I guess we will do things my way then." And with that she was out the door.

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"What do you want with me? Let go of me!" Jane screamed at the top of her lungs. "You will see in do time. Let's just hope your friends and family really loves you." A sinister voice said. "Help Me!!!!!"

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"Tarron wait!!!!" I said as I ran after her out the door. She stopped at the top of the stairs and turned to face me. "Just don't hurt Carlos too badly. I don't think his girlfriend would like that to much." I said. A smile appeared on her face. "Aw, no fair. You're no fun." She said as I walked up to her. "Damn it Carlos. I don't think Becky would like it if you killed her only daughter. I don't think you would live long if you even harmed a hair on her head. Leon and Claire would kill you not to mention Becky and Billy. You also have me!" Chris yelled back. His voice was hard. I shivered at the sound of his voice. (I have only heard that tone once before and that was when. well never mind. I hate thinking about that time. I hope I don't ever go that far again.) I shook my head hoping to rid of my thoughts of the past. I walked down the stairs slowly behind Tarron. I could hear a gun click. "I want her dead. I would rather take my chances with you guys then a goddamn brain eating zombie." Carlos said. "Oh really? What about me?" Tarron asked as she stepped off the last stair and walked towards the living room. "Move out of my way you fucking psychotic bitch. I don't know who the hell you are and I really don't care. I am not gonna have her change into a zombie." Carlos said as he walked up to Tarron. He stopped right in front of Tarron. "Carlos you are out of line." Chris said. I walked off the stair that I had been standing on. I walked up next to Tarron and push her out of my way. I stood eye to eye with Carlos. "Sarine are you gonna make this easy or hard?" He asked. "Carlos." Chris started to speak. "Don't even try to fight this battle for me." I yelled at Chris. Carlos pushed the gun up to my head. Right as he was about to pull the trigger I smashed my fit into his face. Tarron pulled the gun out of his hand and kicked him in the stomach. Carlos landed on the ground, out of breath. Chris ran up to him and pulled him up and pushing him into the computer chair not to far away. "Carlos I have hated you since the first time I met you. You did always have something stuck up your ass when it came to me. I had always guessed it had something to do with my mom. I guess I was right. I won't become a zombie, but if I do you will be the first I eat." I yelled with such hatred I have never possessed. Tarron looked at me with an amazed look on her face. I turned to Chris, his mouth was wide open. "What?" I asked. Tarron shook her head and replied. "Nothing, Chris find some rope and tie him up. I think Sarine and I can handle him. We also need you to stay here with while we go. out." Chris nodded and walked off. I looked at Tarron. "Tarron what's going on? I have never felt like this.well ok once before." I said hoping she wouldn't want to talk about the past. "What do you mean 'once before'? You never get rid of hatred. You harbor it until you are pushed to you limits. Tell me about before." She said. (Great, way to go Sarine. I hoped to forget about the past, yet tonight it is all I can remember.) "About two years ago I was really hateful I guess you could say. I hated school, my friends, my family, hell I hated life in general. I hated everything. I hated life so much that on a night just like this I tried to commit suicide. I hated everything, I had to get out of this life that I had no control of. When everyone left to get something to eat I walked into the kitchen and got the butcher knife. I walked in to the bathroom and tried to slit my left wrist. At the time I didn't know that I had missed my vain, so I slit my right wrist. I had hit my right vain, or a least I thought I had. I remember the feeling of dieing. I couldn't feel my body, it was almost like my body and spirit were two different things. I don't remember much after I passed out. I woke up a week later in the hospital. I guess Leon had a bad feeling and turned the car around. He was the one who found me laying in the bathroom bleeding to death. I was also told that I was lucky to miss both of my veins." I held my wrists out for Tarron to see. I still had the scars. Looking at the past was hell. "Now I don't you to treat me like some little idiot kid. I'm not stupid, if I got the chance to do it again and knew that I would die. I would." I finished. I could hear a radio turn up in one of the rooms. A door opened and closed three times before I saw who it was. Kyle, Bailey and Jake walked up to us. "What did you do to Carlos, Sarine? Or better yet what did Carlos do to you?" Bailey asked.