My Love Song
She saw his soft side and for once she was happy
But can he ever forgive Ashley for her mistakes?
Contains; Romance, Drama
Main Characters; Ashley, Spinner, Terri, Paige
Chapter One; Even In Death
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I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, anymore than I do
"Turn it off!" I yell after Ellie as I lie on my bed. I know she's looking at me evilly. I hear the button click and the rhythm of the guitar stops. That song just gets to me. Hurts me, like I hurt Spinner. It's sad, like a burning house. I hear Ellie's shoes come towards me but I don't look at her, I know the look she will show. The look of how stupid I am, how childish.
"What's up with you, Ash?" Ellie asks looking down on me.
"I just don't feel like listening to those stupid sappy songs, all right?" I say finally turning to her. Her blank face tells me everything. We stare at each other for a moment. She rolls her eyes.
"Oh, I get it, you are still 'heart-broken'," she says putting up two fingers on each hand as she rolls her eyes. She walks away from my side. I push myself up and stay there with my elbows for support.
"You don't know anything about this, Ellie," I say offended. She looks at me.
"Well, since I'm the one who is obviously stupid, I'll be the one to leave," she grabs her bag and walks out my door, shutting it with a vast slam. I tremble from the vibration. I moan and put my hands on my forehead, falling backwards onto my bed. I can't hate life any more right now.
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I walk into the school tired as ever. I couldn't sleep last night; I kept waking up thinking that stupid love song was on. I hold onto my binder as I reach my locker.
"Ash, can't wait till tomorrow," Terri says appearing to the locker next to me. I smirk.
"Yeah, you can't, but I can. When you leave, all hope is lost for me, no one to talk to," I say joining her by leaning against the locker.
"C'mon, Ash. You have Ellie," she says. I shake my head a little.
"Not exactly, I think she's mad at me," I say squinting my eyes at Terri.
"Oh, well, ya know, you two will work it out," she assures me.
"I wish I was going to Europe, I need it right about now," I say raising my eyebrows. She smiles.
"Ash, you make it sound like your life as come to an end. Spinner is just trying to be hard to get," Terri rolls her eyes.
"Yeah but I wish he could understand that I never wanted Craig," I explain.
"Listen, Ash, he'll soon realize that he's an idiot and come crawling back," she exaggerates. She removes herself from the locker as I smile. I watch her walk off. I really hope Spinner will realize that it was a mistake, and I don't want to be with Craig. I want to be with him. The bell finally rings and I roll my eyes annoyed. I walk off with a slouched back to Mr. Simpson's class.
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I wait for Terri at the empty round white table. I didn't get anything to eat. I'm not really that hungry. Only stupidity fills my stomach.
"Hey, loner," Jimmy sits beside me. I look over at him and smile.
"Yeah, the loner for a while," I say looking away. He chuckles. I look at him. "I'm so stupid," I say crossing my arms.
"No you're not," he says. I sigh.
"You know Terri's leaving tomorrow, Ellie's mad at me, Paige hates me, Spinner hates me, god I am the outcast," I arise from my seat. He grabs my arm.
"Ash, no one hates you," he stands up.
"I'm a total screw up," I say putting my hand to my head. I feel like crying and I know Jimmy can tell. He puts his arm around me and we start out of the cafeteria. I stare straight ahead as we stand outside the cafeteria in the empty halls of silence. He takes his arms back.
"You shouldn't be saying that," he tells me.
"Look what I've done to him! I'm the worst girlfriend anyone could imagine," I say loudly. He holds onto my shoulders.
"No you're not! We all make mistakes, Ash! I know I have made them," he whispers the last part. I look at him. "And one was letting you go," he mumbles. I don't think I was meant to hear that, but I did. My eyes are wide and my body's stiff. He looks away not knowing I heard him. I swallow. Jimmy still has feelings for me? Even after everything? He finally looks at me.
"But I hurt you too," I say breaking the silence. He knows I heard him. "After Craig, I knew how you felt," I whisper. "I'm sorry," he nods.
"You're sweet, Ash," he says smiling. I smile too. "You have a chance," he tells me. "With Spin," his eyes fall onto the floor.
"Do you really think so?" I ask. His eyes shift. "Are you okay?" I ask. He nods and sniffles a bit. Is he crying? He steps away from me and hurries down the hall. I watch him. I never knew this would affect Jimmy. Out of all people, I thought we were over. Maybe were just beginning. No, that's crazy, Jimmy and me all over again? I love Spinner. No one else but Spinner, and that's who I want to be with. The doors fly open and out comes the giggling Paige and Terri. I observe them as they stop laughing.
"Uhum," Paige folds her arms. "I remember that face," she says coldly. I look down at the floor.
"Paige, c'mon," Terri butts-in.
"Whatever, I have to meet up with Spinner," she rubs in. After a while of being in grade 11, Spinner and Paige became friends again. I think Spinner did it to get back at me. Paige convinced herself it was my entire fault that Spinner went against her. I thought Grade 10 was bad.
"Okay, Paige, just go," I say firmly. She walks closer towards me.
"Too bad that you couldn't hold onto him, Ash," she whispers. "But I know someone who can," I look at her. She smirks and raises an eyebrow before walking off. I look over at Terri.
"Ash, you know Spinner will never date Paige," Terri comforts me.
"Paige does whatever can do get what she wants, and in the end, she gets it," I say. I look down the halls at Paige's trail. I shake my head and walk hurriedly away from Terri. I find myself against a random locker for I can't hold it in any longer. I feel the tears well up and as I blink, one of pain runs down my cheek, I let it fall and many more too, but it doesn't matter if I counted a million see through tears, Spinner won't be here to wipe them away.
A/N: How is it so far?
She saw his soft side and for once she was happy
But can he ever forgive Ashley for her mistakes?
Contains; Romance, Drama
Main Characters; Ashley, Spinner, Terri, Paige
Chapter One; Even In Death
+ - + - +
I will stay forever here with you, my love
The softly spoken words you gave me
Even in death our love goes on
And I can't love you, anymore than I do
"Turn it off!" I yell after Ellie as I lie on my bed. I know she's looking at me evilly. I hear the button click and the rhythm of the guitar stops. That song just gets to me. Hurts me, like I hurt Spinner. It's sad, like a burning house. I hear Ellie's shoes come towards me but I don't look at her, I know the look she will show. The look of how stupid I am, how childish.
"What's up with you, Ash?" Ellie asks looking down on me.
"I just don't feel like listening to those stupid sappy songs, all right?" I say finally turning to her. Her blank face tells me everything. We stare at each other for a moment. She rolls her eyes.
"Oh, I get it, you are still 'heart-broken'," she says putting up two fingers on each hand as she rolls her eyes. She walks away from my side. I push myself up and stay there with my elbows for support.
"You don't know anything about this, Ellie," I say offended. She looks at me.
"Well, since I'm the one who is obviously stupid, I'll be the one to leave," she grabs her bag and walks out my door, shutting it with a vast slam. I tremble from the vibration. I moan and put my hands on my forehead, falling backwards onto my bed. I can't hate life any more right now.
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I walk into the school tired as ever. I couldn't sleep last night; I kept waking up thinking that stupid love song was on. I hold onto my binder as I reach my locker.
"Ash, can't wait till tomorrow," Terri says appearing to the locker next to me. I smirk.
"Yeah, you can't, but I can. When you leave, all hope is lost for me, no one to talk to," I say joining her by leaning against the locker.
"C'mon, Ash. You have Ellie," she says. I shake my head a little.
"Not exactly, I think she's mad at me," I say squinting my eyes at Terri.
"Oh, well, ya know, you two will work it out," she assures me.
"I wish I was going to Europe, I need it right about now," I say raising my eyebrows. She smiles.
"Ash, you make it sound like your life as come to an end. Spinner is just trying to be hard to get," Terri rolls her eyes.
"Yeah but I wish he could understand that I never wanted Craig," I explain.
"Listen, Ash, he'll soon realize that he's an idiot and come crawling back," she exaggerates. She removes herself from the locker as I smile. I watch her walk off. I really hope Spinner will realize that it was a mistake, and I don't want to be with Craig. I want to be with him. The bell finally rings and I roll my eyes annoyed. I walk off with a slouched back to Mr. Simpson's class.
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I wait for Terri at the empty round white table. I didn't get anything to eat. I'm not really that hungry. Only stupidity fills my stomach.
"Hey, loner," Jimmy sits beside me. I look over at him and smile.
"Yeah, the loner for a while," I say looking away. He chuckles. I look at him. "I'm so stupid," I say crossing my arms.
"No you're not," he says. I sigh.
"You know Terri's leaving tomorrow, Ellie's mad at me, Paige hates me, Spinner hates me, god I am the outcast," I arise from my seat. He grabs my arm.
"Ash, no one hates you," he stands up.
"I'm a total screw up," I say putting my hand to my head. I feel like crying and I know Jimmy can tell. He puts his arm around me and we start out of the cafeteria. I stare straight ahead as we stand outside the cafeteria in the empty halls of silence. He takes his arms back.
"You shouldn't be saying that," he tells me.
"Look what I've done to him! I'm the worst girlfriend anyone could imagine," I say loudly. He holds onto my shoulders.
"No you're not! We all make mistakes, Ash! I know I have made them," he whispers the last part. I look at him. "And one was letting you go," he mumbles. I don't think I was meant to hear that, but I did. My eyes are wide and my body's stiff. He looks away not knowing I heard him. I swallow. Jimmy still has feelings for me? Even after everything? He finally looks at me.
"But I hurt you too," I say breaking the silence. He knows I heard him. "After Craig, I knew how you felt," I whisper. "I'm sorry," he nods.
"You're sweet, Ash," he says smiling. I smile too. "You have a chance," he tells me. "With Spin," his eyes fall onto the floor.
"Do you really think so?" I ask. His eyes shift. "Are you okay?" I ask. He nods and sniffles a bit. Is he crying? He steps away from me and hurries down the hall. I watch him. I never knew this would affect Jimmy. Out of all people, I thought we were over. Maybe were just beginning. No, that's crazy, Jimmy and me all over again? I love Spinner. No one else but Spinner, and that's who I want to be with. The doors fly open and out comes the giggling Paige and Terri. I observe them as they stop laughing.
"Uhum," Paige folds her arms. "I remember that face," she says coldly. I look down at the floor.
"Paige, c'mon," Terri butts-in.
"Whatever, I have to meet up with Spinner," she rubs in. After a while of being in grade 11, Spinner and Paige became friends again. I think Spinner did it to get back at me. Paige convinced herself it was my entire fault that Spinner went against her. I thought Grade 10 was bad.
"Okay, Paige, just go," I say firmly. She walks closer towards me.
"Too bad that you couldn't hold onto him, Ash," she whispers. "But I know someone who can," I look at her. She smirks and raises an eyebrow before walking off. I look over at Terri.
"Ash, you know Spinner will never date Paige," Terri comforts me.
"Paige does whatever can do get what she wants, and in the end, she gets it," I say. I look down the halls at Paige's trail. I shake my head and walk hurriedly away from Terri. I find myself against a random locker for I can't hold it in any longer. I feel the tears well up and as I blink, one of pain runs down my cheek, I let it fall and many more too, but it doesn't matter if I counted a million see through tears, Spinner won't be here to wipe them away.
A/N: How is it so far?
