This was bad... for one thing I had NEVER even thought about this question or for another, I have never wanted a girlfriend... such things are not important enough to occupy my mind...
And here I was now blushing like an idiot in front of Jeanne-sama stuttering helplessly... what she must think of me!
So now my current dilemma... what IS my ideal girlfriend...?
Chapter Two: Revelations Abound
© Jess-chan/Kari
"Anou... can I think this over for a minute?"
She only nodded and smiled. Sighing in relief I made a silent prayer to God almighty, that Jeanne-sama was a very understanding person...
Understanding... yes it would be nice to have someone close to you who understands you... someone who knows all your pains, and someone who would always be aware of, of what I'm going through right now... Jeanne-sama knows...
And she has gone through the same things... and she's very patient too...
A felt a smile cross my lips... it nice of her to let me think over the question. Involuntarily I raised my head and looked directly at Jeanne.
Understanding, patient, and kind... and somehow I remembered mother's words...
As long as she loves you for whom you truly are...
For some reason I liked the feeling the way I saw my reflection against those crimson orbs... the image seemed so bright, and happy... everything I could never be.
Another sigh, and I tipped my head unto my hands... the question was much harder than I have first thought.
That was it... understanding, patient, and kind... everything what Jeanne was... a plus factor that she was also pretty and very smart too...
Unconsciously I banged my head on the table... Marco would
be committing homicide against me, when he learns of what I'm thinking... what
was I thinking?!
It was just like telling myself that Jeanne was my ideal girl—
God. NO.
I couldn't help myself sweat drop... Lyserg-kun had just banged his head against the table... it must've hurt... he seemed to be taking an awful lot of time with this particular question... I sure can relate... I never really bothered myself with such things...
Although... I really don't wonder why, why lots of girls would like a boyfriend... I think I know the reason... it would be nice to have someone worry about you, have someone to comfort you, to make you smile, to make you laugh... someone who would do things willingly for you...
Someone gentle and kind, honest, and very caring... someone like Lyserg...
"Jeanne?"
I don't know why but I felt my cheeks burn when I met her gaze... I mentally kicked myself... I called her 'Jeanne'... Marco would really want to kill me...
Thankfully she didn't seem to notice, she seemed really deep in thought right now.
"Gomen..."
She looked up at to me with a puzzled look... I never really noticed but she really looked cute like that...
Marco is going to shoot me.
"J-jeane-sama..."
"Hmm?"
"I-I'd like to answer the question now..."
Another smile, and she acknowledged me, "I-I really don't know what kind of girlfriend I'd want but..."
"... Mother always told me... it doesn't matter as long as she loves me... that would be my answer. It doesn't matter as long as she cares deeply for me... I'm sorry to have taken so much time."
Another one of her smiles... "It's all right."
... I could never get enough of them.
"My turn now." Taking another delicate card from the neat stack, I could feel his eyes on me... it reminds me of that song...
What would you feel like wishing right now?
"... Wish?"
"Jeanne...?"
I looked up at him. I liked the way he said my name... it felt so nice to hear... making me feel my name is special...
"I-I mean Jeanne-sama... is anything wrong?"
Handing him the card I had him read my question... "What would you feel like wishing right now...?"
He gazed at me for a few more minutes and I could feel my pulse quicken, "Would you like to take some time?"
Nodding my head almost inaudibly I tried analyzing my question...
What would I want right now? Want...
For some reason... I don't feel like wishing something... I'm quite... happy. Happy, to have a time for myself, happy not to go through pain, happy I'm with... Lyserg. I looked up at him, and he's just waiting there, patiently...
He must've felt my gaze since he inclined his head at me, and nodded.
Should I tell him? That what I really would want to wish for, would be... would be to stay with him... I don't mind playing the game... I don't mind at all... I really would want to stay with him... to stay in the presence of his company, and...
"I'm ready for my answer."
A small encouraging smile... but the smile he flashed me, meant something... something more to me... I can't explain it... maybe... maybe I'll know as we play this game... as I get to know him much better...
"What I really would like... right now..."
He held my gaze, and he still continued to smile, "I'd just like to keep all of you safe."
Especially you... But want I really want is to stay with you...
Taking another card, I prayed feverishly it would be something very easy... but alas... Fate must hate me...
Argh~~! What kind of a question was THIS?!
Describe your crush.
I slammed my head in f frustration...
"Lyserg-kun...?"
Retracting my face from the surface of the table I gave Jeanne an awkward smile... She must think I'm going crazy...
"Daijobou desu ka?"
"Daijoubo... here's my question..." I handed her the card... I don't feel like reading my question... why did I get all the bad ONES...
I'm not sure but I think I heard a small gasp from Jeanne... I mean Jeanne-sama... her face was a little bit flushed... I wonder why...
"Erm... it's a very interesting question ne?"
I nodded reluctantly... "I guess."
I sighed in spite of myself... at least I didn't have to name who she is... Wait... do I even have one?
Tsuzuku^-^ Hi, Lor-chan, if you're reading this, let me tell you, I'm currently listening to 'This Guy Is In Love With You', yes, our national anthem... Mwahaha~~!! The next chapter would be my favorite one XD... May nagagawa lang talaga sa kin yung mg kanta ng Parokya ni Edgar... lolz... the next chapter would be special for me... Jeanne's question will be revealed in the next chapter... that's why it's so special^^
Thank you to:
Joruri Soma, syaoran no hime, Kitsune Asakura, Starwave, kawaii-kirei, Angel-wing2, passerby, Sheo Darren and to you Lor-chan^^
