Chapter 5

Hermione did not saw Draco for the rest of that day nor did she saw him the next day, and the next. She no longer went out into the snow every morning after their kiss. She was avoiding him and it seems that he too was avoiding her. When she is alone in the library, she'd relax a little until a footstep would startle her and she would be on her guard again.

On Christmas Eve, she was alone in her room, thinking without realizing it about the kiss she had shared with Draco. For days she had been analyzing her feelings and sorting out her emotions. Then she thought how utterly unfaithful she was to Seamus. She thought of writing to him about it, but common sense stopped her.

It had been 3 straight days since she last saw Draco, and she suddenly missed him, his voice, his bullying, his eyes, his blond hair, his smirk, his warm lips. Then she scolded herself for thinking that. She looked at a picture, which contained her and Seamus. They were waving back at her, and she smiled back at them. She focused on Seamus and realized that she was comparing him to Draco. Seamus did not have blue eyes and blond hair. He did not have an intimidating smirk. He had never said anything insulting and harsh to anyone. He did not call her silly, little mudblood. He wasn't dangerous. He wasn't arousing…

"Stop!" She shouted at herself. "Uh! What is happening?" She wondered aloud.

A few hours before midnight, she slept. When the clock stroke midnight, an owl tapped its beak on the window of her room. She went over to get the message the owl brought.

The message said:

Happy Holidays

D.M.

PS. I need to talk to you. See me in the room where we…you know…

Hermione did not know what to do. She read the message again and again and again, memorizing the words and the funny handwriting.

She had to decide.

If she go to him, she knew that she would lose control over herself. If she didn't go, it would be over; he would surely forget about her and she, him.

She wanted it all to be over…and at the same time, she wanted it to go on. She was confusing herself!

She wouldn't go, she decided and nodded to herself.