Author Note: I'm putting in the first of a few flashbacks, they will be in
between the ** and **. So enjoy.
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Donald Cragen sat in his office going through the paper work when Elliot walked in and told him to come and watch something. It had been three days since his daughter had joined squad. Also in those three days Connor has not spoken a word to anyone. He was living with his grandmother, and she had brought him by again in hopes that he would talk. There had been no leads, and getting this boy to talk was the key to it. Elliot walked with Donald to the area where they could look into the interrogation rooms without them noticing. Connor had freshly cut hair that made him look like a member of the Beatles. He was wearing cut Osh-Gosh overalls with a red shirt. He was coloring a picture and sitting next to him was Alyssa coloring a picture with him.
"What color should his shirt be?" She asked looking at the crayons.
"It's a she..." Connor said.
"Oh, what color should her shirt be?" He picked up a green crayon and handed it to Alyssa. "Her hair?" He handed her a brown crayon. She smiled and started to color her picture. Finally she stopped and put the crayons down and turned her seat so she was facing him. "Connor, you wanna talk about what happened?"
"Where's my dad?" Connor asked, still coloring his picture which she assumed was a cat.
"Sweetie, your dad isn't here."
"How long is he gonna be gone?" Connor stopped coloring and looked at Alyssa. "How long is he gonna be gone? Grandma won't tell me."
"Connor...he's always gonna be here in your heart. But he's gonna be gone...forever." Connor got off his chair and crawled into Alyssa's lap and wrapped his arms around her neck.
"How long is forever?"
Alyssa rubbed his back and gently rocked him. "Not long...not long at all..."
Connor pulled away, but stayed on her lap and looked Alyssa in the eyes. "Sissy came back, she ran away, but she came back...Daddy hurt sissy...and then sissy hurt him..."
"What's her name?"
"Casey."
"Where is Casey now?"
"At Grandma's house..." Connor whispered.
Donald on the other end of the glass looked at Elliot and Olivia. "You go get the grandmother and have her take you both back to the house, drive her. And then bring in Casey." They nodded and left. Donald turned back to Alyssa and Connor. He was still sitting on her lap, showing her his picture, she was wrong, it was a dog, with whiskers. What she had told Connor was running through his head.
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**Donald was cleaning the grout between the tiles outside near their pool in their home in Atlanta. He rubbed the sweat that was on his forehead off as he looked up to see a three year old Alyssa out on the grass playing with a doll. He smiled at the sound of her laughing. Marge was on a flight coming home, and should be back in a few hours. He wanted to make sure the house was clean and spotless when she returned, so he had taken the day off from work, picked Alyssa up from morning day care. He had given her a bath, which she was now in the process of getting dirty again. He could hear the phone ring from the open back door.
"Alyssa, stay right there, I'll be right back." Donald said pointing to his daughter. She laughed loudly.
"Ok, Daddy!" Donald smiled and made his way to the back door and grabbed the corded phone that hung on the wall.
"Hello, Cragen residence...This is he...yeah my wife was on that flight...what do you mean?...Oh god..." Donald dropped the phone and sank to his knees. He turned his head to see his daughter outside, playing with her doll. He picked up the phone again, "How long ago...ok...yeah..." He hung up the phone the best he could and looked back at his daughter. "Alyssa!! Come here!" Alyssa dropped her doll and ran over to Donald.
"What's wrong Daddy?" She asked sitting next to him. He picked Alyssa up and leaned against the back door, holding onto her tightly. "What's wrong?"
"Sweetie...mommy's not coming back home..." Donald's eyes filled with tears.
"Why?"
"Mommy's plane went down...she's not...she's gone." Alyssa looked up at her father with such innocence.
"How long is she going to be gone?"
Donald ran his fingers gently through her soft hair and thought of the best way to answer this. "She's going to be gone...forever..."
Tears finally started falling from Donald's eyes. "How long is forever?"
Donald tried to smile, to be strong for this little girl that now he had to take care of. "Not long at all..." **
Alyssa walked out of the interrogation room with the little boy holding her hand. "Are you tired?" She asked. Connor nodded his head. "Ok, well, Silvia here will take you up stairs, get you some food and a nice comfy bed to take a nap in ok?" Connor nodded and took another woman's hand and disappeared.
"Stabler and Benson are on their way to get Casey." She turned suddenly to see Donald watching her. She nodded quietly. "Nice...choice of words."
Alyssa sighed, "Yeah, my father said them to me after my mother died." With that she walked off and took her seat in her chair.
An hour passed and a 17 year old girl was brought into the station. She had admitted instantly to killing her father. Turns out the man that was her father had been raping her since she was Connor's age. She was afraid he'd do the same to Connor, and killed him. Novak was not into making a deal, and wanted her on Man One.
Alyssa started picking up her stuff, she had already spent two hours over what she was suppose to be, but Fin stated that she should get use to it. Munch said 'welcome to sex crimes.' As she was about to leave she heard someone say her name. She turned around to see Donald walking about of his office. "Yeah, Captain?"
"I think that you and I should have a talk, let's go out to dinner tomorrow night." Donald offered.
Alyssa was not at all in the mood to argue. "Alright. How about at the Italian restaurant down the street from your apartment at six?" Alyssa pinched the bridge of her nose, she had a nasty headache coming on.
"Sounds like a plan. See you then." Alyssa turned around and walked out of the Station house.
"You're really trying aren't you?" Donald jumped when he heard Elliot behind him.
"If your daughter became estranged from you, you'd want to try and fix the relationship again...wouldn't you?"
Elliot smiled. "I'd go to hell and back to fix that relationship." Donald smiled and returned to his office.
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Ok, sorry if this chapter seems weird, I have a headache, and loads of homework to do. So just leave a review! ^^ please?
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Donald Cragen sat in his office going through the paper work when Elliot walked in and told him to come and watch something. It had been three days since his daughter had joined squad. Also in those three days Connor has not spoken a word to anyone. He was living with his grandmother, and she had brought him by again in hopes that he would talk. There had been no leads, and getting this boy to talk was the key to it. Elliot walked with Donald to the area where they could look into the interrogation rooms without them noticing. Connor had freshly cut hair that made him look like a member of the Beatles. He was wearing cut Osh-Gosh overalls with a red shirt. He was coloring a picture and sitting next to him was Alyssa coloring a picture with him.
"What color should his shirt be?" She asked looking at the crayons.
"It's a she..." Connor said.
"Oh, what color should her shirt be?" He picked up a green crayon and handed it to Alyssa. "Her hair?" He handed her a brown crayon. She smiled and started to color her picture. Finally she stopped and put the crayons down and turned her seat so she was facing him. "Connor, you wanna talk about what happened?"
"Where's my dad?" Connor asked, still coloring his picture which she assumed was a cat.
"Sweetie, your dad isn't here."
"How long is he gonna be gone?" Connor stopped coloring and looked at Alyssa. "How long is he gonna be gone? Grandma won't tell me."
"Connor...he's always gonna be here in your heart. But he's gonna be gone...forever." Connor got off his chair and crawled into Alyssa's lap and wrapped his arms around her neck.
"How long is forever?"
Alyssa rubbed his back and gently rocked him. "Not long...not long at all..."
Connor pulled away, but stayed on her lap and looked Alyssa in the eyes. "Sissy came back, she ran away, but she came back...Daddy hurt sissy...and then sissy hurt him..."
"What's her name?"
"Casey."
"Where is Casey now?"
"At Grandma's house..." Connor whispered.
Donald on the other end of the glass looked at Elliot and Olivia. "You go get the grandmother and have her take you both back to the house, drive her. And then bring in Casey." They nodded and left. Donald turned back to Alyssa and Connor. He was still sitting on her lap, showing her his picture, she was wrong, it was a dog, with whiskers. What she had told Connor was running through his head.
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**Donald was cleaning the grout between the tiles outside near their pool in their home in Atlanta. He rubbed the sweat that was on his forehead off as he looked up to see a three year old Alyssa out on the grass playing with a doll. He smiled at the sound of her laughing. Marge was on a flight coming home, and should be back in a few hours. He wanted to make sure the house was clean and spotless when she returned, so he had taken the day off from work, picked Alyssa up from morning day care. He had given her a bath, which she was now in the process of getting dirty again. He could hear the phone ring from the open back door.
"Alyssa, stay right there, I'll be right back." Donald said pointing to his daughter. She laughed loudly.
"Ok, Daddy!" Donald smiled and made his way to the back door and grabbed the corded phone that hung on the wall.
"Hello, Cragen residence...This is he...yeah my wife was on that flight...what do you mean?...Oh god..." Donald dropped the phone and sank to his knees. He turned his head to see his daughter outside, playing with her doll. He picked up the phone again, "How long ago...ok...yeah..." He hung up the phone the best he could and looked back at his daughter. "Alyssa!! Come here!" Alyssa dropped her doll and ran over to Donald.
"What's wrong Daddy?" She asked sitting next to him. He picked Alyssa up and leaned against the back door, holding onto her tightly. "What's wrong?"
"Sweetie...mommy's not coming back home..." Donald's eyes filled with tears.
"Why?"
"Mommy's plane went down...she's not...she's gone." Alyssa looked up at her father with such innocence.
"How long is she going to be gone?"
Donald ran his fingers gently through her soft hair and thought of the best way to answer this. "She's going to be gone...forever..."
Tears finally started falling from Donald's eyes. "How long is forever?"
Donald tried to smile, to be strong for this little girl that now he had to take care of. "Not long at all..." **
Alyssa walked out of the interrogation room with the little boy holding her hand. "Are you tired?" She asked. Connor nodded his head. "Ok, well, Silvia here will take you up stairs, get you some food and a nice comfy bed to take a nap in ok?" Connor nodded and took another woman's hand and disappeared.
"Stabler and Benson are on their way to get Casey." She turned suddenly to see Donald watching her. She nodded quietly. "Nice...choice of words."
Alyssa sighed, "Yeah, my father said them to me after my mother died." With that she walked off and took her seat in her chair.
An hour passed and a 17 year old girl was brought into the station. She had admitted instantly to killing her father. Turns out the man that was her father had been raping her since she was Connor's age. She was afraid he'd do the same to Connor, and killed him. Novak was not into making a deal, and wanted her on Man One.
Alyssa started picking up her stuff, she had already spent two hours over what she was suppose to be, but Fin stated that she should get use to it. Munch said 'welcome to sex crimes.' As she was about to leave she heard someone say her name. She turned around to see Donald walking about of his office. "Yeah, Captain?"
"I think that you and I should have a talk, let's go out to dinner tomorrow night." Donald offered.
Alyssa was not at all in the mood to argue. "Alright. How about at the Italian restaurant down the street from your apartment at six?" Alyssa pinched the bridge of her nose, she had a nasty headache coming on.
"Sounds like a plan. See you then." Alyssa turned around and walked out of the Station house.
"You're really trying aren't you?" Donald jumped when he heard Elliot behind him.
"If your daughter became estranged from you, you'd want to try and fix the relationship again...wouldn't you?"
Elliot smiled. "I'd go to hell and back to fix that relationship." Donald smiled and returned to his office.
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Ok, sorry if this chapter seems weird, I have a headache, and loads of homework to do. So just leave a review! ^^ please?
