Author note: Um, sorry this chapter is so...late...FF.net...suspended me for a fanfic a wrote...which was unfair, but I won't go there. Anyways, enjoy this chapter, the enxt one will be up...soonish I hope..if I don't get suspended again. -___-

Disclaimer: I don't own...nobody! Besides characters not on SVU and plot.

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"Come in!" Donald yelled through his office, his eyes never leaving the paper work on his desk. If he had a nickel for every time he was interrupted while he was in the middle of going through a police report...he could retire by now, which at the moment seemed like a wonderful idea. He heard the door open and closed; all the while he was looking down. "Yeah?"
"Donald?" Donald looked up to see Alyssa walk up to his desk holding onto a small child in her arms.
"You know, I'm not a baby-sitter. Find that kid's mother as soon as possible." Donald stated pointing to the kid with his pen. He noticed the kid was asleep with his hand lightly grasping Alyssa's ear.
"Mother?" Alyssa asked slightly confused, but quickly recovered herself. "We found his mother."
Donald raised his eyebrows. "And where is she?"
Alyssa took in deep breaths trying to calm the beating of her furious heart. She turned her head and gently moved her shoulder. "Enrique...wake up." The boy slowly opened his eyes and met his with Alyssa's. "Hey handsome boy..." Enrique smiled. Alyssa turned her head to Donald. "Donald...this is Enrique. He's my son...your grandson..."
The pen Donald was holding hit his desk and almost seemed to echo throughout the small office. Enrique moved out of his mother's arms and stood in front of Donald's desk. "This is my...other granddaddy?" Enrique looked up at his mother. She nodded and Enrique walked up to his new grandfather. Donald picked Enrique up and set him on his lap. "What do I call you?"
Donald's face had not changed, he still seemed to be in shock. "Whatever you want to call me...Enrique."
Enrique looked over at Alyssa and smiled. "Can I call him Papa?"
With a laugh Alyssa answered, "That's fine...why don't you go bother your new friends out there while Papa and I have a talk ok sweetie?"
"Ok, I wanna go talk to John Monch..." Enrique wiggled loose and ran out of the office closing the door behind him.
"Monch?" Donald asked.
"He has a problem saying 'U's...he's pretty good at saying his cousin's name, but he still hasn't gotten use to it." Alyssa said taking a seat in a chair.
"So...that's what I've missed in the past five years..." Donald said quietly.
"You've missed a lot more then that...maybe if I started at the beginning."
"Maybe if you did..."
She sighed and crossed her legs and thought for a moment. "When I got to the bus station I realized that I actually had enough money to get myself to San Diego. It seemed, too perfect, the other side of the country, the complete opposite of New York, so I bought the ticket. A one way ticket away from you and New York. I had considered moving back to Atlanta for awhile, but I couldn't go back there either. When I arrived in San Diego I had no clue where to go, what to do."
"What did you do?"
"I moved into a shelter for a week until I found a job, from there I got an apartment that I found that I could make rent." Alyssa relaxed a little bit. "I worked with kids, at a day care. Cop for the kids. After a year I met a nice man named Hector. He asked me to go out to dinner with him. I agreed, mostly because I was lucky if I got one meal a day. Like I said, I could make rent, but I had to sacrifice a few things. Food was one of those things. Hector worked at a local company, it seemed to be really taking off. He never flashed around his money, but you would know by looking at him that he had it. I did not have to want for anything. Finally, months past and Hector and his sister Ana decided to move to New York, also Hector's boss was transferring him.
"I almost didn't go, purely for the fact that it would take me back here, but I found myself on a plane back to New York. I decided that I would make some extra money by working as a secretary in Hector's office. The pay was good and I realized that I could pay for my own apartment, but when we moved back to New York, Hector insisted that I move in with him, and I did. I realized that I was happy living with him, that someone cared for me, and that someone didn't forget any important dates, nor did he drink, at all."
When Alyssa stopped during her story Donald leaned forward and locked his hands together and leaned his elbows on his desk.
"Six years ago, I found out I was pregnant. I was scared out of my mind, but when I told Hector. I don't think I've ever seen him as happy. Turns out that he places family first on his list of priorities. I could not image being any more happy. I wanted to tell you everything, and when I went to your office they had said that you transferred to Sex Crimes. When I arrived outside the station house, I just stood there. What could I say at that moment to make it all better. It had been so many years." Alyssa ran her fingers through her hair. "Plus, I wasn't married yet, and I was pregnant. I didn't-" She stopped and considered her words. "I didn't want to disappoint you anymore."
Her words shocked him. All this time she had been afraid of disappointing him? When he thought he had been disappointing her. "What happened after you left?"
Alyssa sighed heavily. "I went back to my apartment, Hector was home and he took me out to eat. I guess nothing really happened for the next eight months. Hector and I wanted to get married after Enrique was born because it would have taken that long to get the visa's for his family in Mexico. I guess Enrique was only...three months old when Hector's family arrived. I told Hector that I would go out and pick up something to make for dinner." Alyssa's face went pale and her eyes went dead. "I shouldn't have left...When I came back the front door was open."
Donald noticed the tears that were falling from her eyes. She didn't make an effort to push them away as she continued. "I walked in and put the bags on the counter. I knew something wasn't right, my first thought was on Enrique so I ran into his room, and he was fast asleep. I called for Hector, but I didn't get any answer. I walked out into the living room..." Her voice cracked a little. "There was so much blood...and Hector was just lying there, dead. I looked out onto the balcony and there was a man, brown hair, light skin, green eyes. He saw me and took off down the fire escape. I stood there looking out the window and then I looked back to Hector...I cried. Once. Only once." Alyssa's eyes returned to normal and she looked at Donald seriously. "The day we saw each other again, it had only been a week after Hector's funeral."
"That explains...a lot..." Donald whispered. "Did they ever find the killer?"
"You know the guy that we're after, on rape, murder, and drugs?" Donald nodded. "That's him..."
Donald gave a look of shock again. "Why are you allowed on undercover opps. If he's seen you?"
"It's amazing how much I've changed since five years ago. I lost all the fat I gained when I was pregnant. Plus make-up is a wonderful thing...Now that you know. I need to take Enrique home, and call Ana and find out what happened." Alyssa stood up.
"Just one more question." Alyssa nodded. "Is that why you joined the force? To catch Hector's killer?"
Alyssa smiled sadly. "He took someone that I loved away from me. Yes, I joined just get my revenge..." Alyssa walked out of the office. She smiled at what she saw. John was sitting at his desk with Enrique on his lap. John was talking to him.
"And that's just one of my many conspiracies..." Alyssa walked over to John. "I'll take it from here..." Enrique lifted his arms and Alyssa pulled him up. "Monch was jost telling me aboot John F..." He looked at John with a questionable look. "Kennedy." "Yeah." Alyssa looked at John as she grabbed her coat. "Please don't pollute my son's mind." "What else are kid's for?" John laughed. "I'll see ya tomorrow John." Alyssa walked out of the station room. "BYE MONCH!!!!!" Enrique called out.

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Idea: would people be mad at me if I added a little romance into this story???