Ok firstly.... I am so sorry for 1) not getting this out sooner 2)in the last chapter, not putting it as Harry's POV - he is the one watching it all and 3) I dunno. I just think I should be apologizing.

This story will be ending soon but there are still a couple of chapters to go...here's the next one...

(and thank u 2 all reviewers- particularly Sarz and also Lana who helped me think of a way to end this.!.!.)

Living Through Memories

Chapter Eleven

His parents wedding had been everything that he would have expected. Yet something puzzled him. Why had there been no memories in between their first date and the wedding? Was Lily simply too swept up?

He sensed that this story would be coming to an end soon but what would Lily's memories show him?

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He had no idea where he was but as he observed his surroundings he soon realized that he was in Lily and James' home. It looked comfortable and everything gave the picture of happiness....

The place seemed quiet but Harry was quite sure Lily had not made a memory of an empty house. He looked through all the rooms and found one of the clocks that the Weasleys had: It had 2 hands (one for Lily, one for James) and whilst James' was pointed at work, Lily's hand was pointed to home.

So she had to be around.

The doorbell rang and Harry turned in surprise as Lily came out of a room to his left and let in 3 very familiar girls.

"Hey Lils!" Laurel said chirpily.

"Hey...!" Lily replied but with less enthusiasm.

"What's the matter?" Freya asked, concerned.

Lily shook her head. "Nothing. Just a bit sick. Something I ate."

"Oh, that's alright..."Vanessa sighed. "So we can still go out today?" she continued not seeing the incredulous looks.

Lily smiled. "Yep, sure.. Just let me get my bag."

She disappeared down a hallway.

Laurel, Freya and Vanessa waited around when Lily charged out of the room she had went in and ran for the bathroom. The door closed behind her but did not block out the sound of her throwing up.

There was a long silence.

Finally, Freya knocked on the door. "Lily? You alright?"

No answer.

Finally the door swung open and Lily came out, a little red in the face.

"We don't have to go out, ya know? Not if you don't feel up to it." Vanessa assured.

"No! I'm alright!" Lily quickly said and hurried went back to her room.

"If you say so.." Laurel said quietly.

****

" You sure you're alright?" Freya asked as Lily emerged from the public bathroom that she had needed to duck into.

She nodded but this did nothing to convince the others of her well-being.

Time spent window-shopping went quickly. It was getting dark and they were on their way home (A/N BTW, they're in Muggle London) when Freya suddenly hurried forward and disappeared into a store that was about to close.

"Where she going?" Vanessa asked after a few seconds.

As she finished speaking, Freya hurried back out, holding a brown paper bag with some writing printed on it.

"What is it?" Lily asked.

"It's for you..." Freya said awkwardly.

Lily looked at Freya who was refusing to meet her eye and then looked into the bag. As soon as she saw what it was, her breath caught.

"What is it?" Vanessa said bossily, her curiosity getting the better of her.

"It's a test for pregnancy." Freya said gently when Lily didn't answer.

Vanessa gasped, appeared to recover and then shrieked loudly.

"Pregnancy?"

The few people that were around looked at her and looked away.

"Shush!" Lily screeched which was rather contradictory to what she was saying.

"I am NOT pregnant!"

"How do you know?" Laurel asked. Lily glared at her. "Freya's right. You've been throwing up all day."

"Cause I know I'm not!" Lily continued shouting.

"No you don't!" Freya said calmly. "And this test will tell you if you are. Come on Lily, what have you got to lose?"

Lily looked at all of them. "You all think I'm pregnant?" she asked in a low voice.

No one was sure what to say.

"Well...have you slept with-" Vanessa started to ask, stopping when Lily glared at her.

"That's none of your business" she hissed fearfully.

"Come on. Lets get back so we can get this off our minds." Throughout the way home, nobody spoke.

****

Lily's nerves increased when she realized James was back. She turned to see Laurel, Freya and Vanessa backing out of her home. While she appreciated the thought that she needed privacy, she would have felt so much better with them there.

"Hey sweetie." James said, kissing her on the cheek.

"Hey." She replied, trying to eject some warmth into her voice.

If James noticed anything, he made no sign of it.

"What's in there?" he asked indicating the paper bag. "Food?"

"Do you ever stop thinking about you're stomach?" She asked to avoid answering his (first) question and immediately though of how her own tummy would look if she were pregnant.

"Only when I'm around you," he said into her ear. She smiled. He was so.... perfect.

"So, what is in the paper bag?" James asked again and reached for it. Lily pulled back quickly.

His confused eyes met her determined ones. "Lily?"

"It's nothing.." she admitted.

"Which is why you won't let me see.." he said with a hint of sarcasm.

Before she could say anything, he had eased the bag out of her hands. She started to protest and found she just couldn't be bothered. He would have found out sooner or later anyway. After a few seconds, Lily glanced up at James.

He was in total shock and was getting his breath back. "You're pregnant?" he asked.

"No!" she reassured him.

"Then what's with the test?" he gulped. "Just to confirm." Lily replied.

"So you could be pregnant?"

Lily hesitated. She could be, she guessed. She knew that one day, she would want and have children with James but was she ready for that today?

"I guess so.." she mumbled.

"Oh, Lily." She looked up... "That's fantastic!!"

"It is??" she asked, gob smacked.

"Isn't it?" James' smile fell slightly.

" I don't know.." Lily said. She was confused. James wanted a child? Why hadn't he told her? Was she ready?

"You don't want to have children?" he asked, shocked.

" Of course I do! But I don't know if I want one now.." she continued miserably.

"Well, take the test first. Then we can talk, okay?" James said lightly but firmly. He gently pushed her into the bathroom and waited.

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Harry, because this was Lily's memory was also in the bathroom. Pretty sure that he would not want to see what happened, he closed his eyes and hummed loudly.

After a few minutes, he stopped humming and dared to open his eyes.

Lily was holding on to what looked like a thermometer. As he watched, he saw two blue lines appear on a small screen. She stayed in there for another few minutes, breathing comparably deeper than usual.

Finally, she opened the door and went out.

****

James looked up as he heard a door being opened.

"Well?" he asked hoarsely. He felt as if a week had passed.

She didn't answer.

"Lily? Are you alright?"

She faced him fully and her face was dead white.

"James. I'm pregnant."

****

They talked for ages, although there wasn't much to talk about as Lily knew she would have this baby and didn't even want to consider any other options.

"What'll we name it?" Lily asked when their conversation hit a lull.

James, of course was full of ideas. "James Junior!"

"And if it's a girl?"

"Lily Jnr?"

"Maybe I should name the baby..." Lily said, smiling.

***

"Did you say baby?" said a voice behind her.

Lily turned to see the whole group there, having apparently just apparated in.....

TBC....

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