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Pairing: Jack/Sam

Archive: You want it? Take it. Just lemme know.

Spoilers: None

Summary: Where did it all go wrong.

Feedback: Is that even a question

Warnings: NONE! Well maybe angsty dunno.

Where did it all go wrong? By Gater101

"Sam this may seem like a stupid question but.how did you end up having Jack's child?" Daniel asked me. I'm gonna take Jack's way out of this.

"The usual way." I reply deadpan.

"Sam." Daniel pleads.

"Ok, remember my promotion party?" Everyone nodded. Well."

~~ Flashback to Sam's promotion party. ~~

Colonel O'Neill and Sam Carter are standing at the drink table when a song comes on that both recognize and like.

"Would you like to dance, Sam?" Jack asks. Her eyes light up.

"I'd be honored." She smiled.

They walked onto the makeshift dance floor and everyone seemed to move to allow them access. The soft female voice came on over the gentle music.

What would you think if I told you I've always wanted to hold you. I don't know what we're afraid of, Nothing would change if we made love.

Sam looked into Jack's eyes and mouthed the words. She could tell he was thinking exactly the same thing as her. She placed her head on his shoulder and he whispered the next verse to her.

So I'll be you're friend And I'll be your lover Coz I know in our hearts we agree We don't have to be one or the other (oh no) We could belong to each other.

It didn't matter that it was strictly prohibited, they loved one another and could be friends and lovers.

Yes it's a chance that we're taking And somebody's heart may be breaking Nobody can stop what's inside us Our love for each other will guide us

Both of them knew that if they were found out it would be the end of their careers. That didn't matter if they had each other it would work.

So I'll be your friend And I'll be your lover Coz I know in our hearts we agree We don't have to be one or the other (oh no)

I've been through you You've been fooling me Sometimes our fooled is the hardest you see We'll always know When it's dead on the line Nobody else is as easy to find

They know they will have to fool everyone, even there best friends. But they were willing to give it a try.

So I'll be your friend And I'll be your lover Coz I'll be your friend And I'll be your lover Coz we I know in our hearts we agree We don't have to be one or the other (oh no) We could be both to each other

~~

"Of course we fooled everyone and it was going great. At least at first." I sigh as I recall that fateful night.

"What happened Sammy?" My dad asks me.

~~

Jack got the results of a test he'd asked Janet Fraiser to run on him earlier.

"Sorry, Colonel, but you can't have kids. Hathor's sarcophagus obviously had an adverse reaction on you."

"Thanks Janet." He said and walked out to tell Sam the news.

When he returned home Sam still wasn't there. He moved into their bedroom and grabbed a bag from under the bed and started throwing clothes into it. When he had finished he got a notepad and paper and started writing.



Dear Sam, I know this is the coward's way out but it's the only way I can say this without backing out. I asked Janet to run a few tests on me to see if I could have children. Sam I can't. That's why I'm leaving, I know how much you want kids and if you stay with me you can't have them. I can't take that chance away from you. I love you too much to put you through that. I'm going out of town for a while, I don't know when I'll be back if ever, just don't try to find me - you won't be able to. You know how much I love you and I would never mean to hurt you and I know that by doing this I am but Sam, please understand, this is for the best. You'll thank me for it later, believe me.

I love you forever, Sam Jack xxx

~~

I have tears in my eyes now, I know it but I can't get them to stop.

"That must have been the time he went to Egypt for three weeks. When was this Major?" General Hammond asks me.

"Um about five weeks ago, sir. When Jack took two weeks off." I mutter.

"Jack went to Egypt!?" Daniel asks eyes wide.

"Yes Dr Jackson. I wouldn't let him leave until he told me where he had gone. Sam when did you find out you were pregnant?" He asks gently.

"That day, sir." I begin to tell the story again.

~~

Sam bounded up the stairs to her and Jack's house. She had some excellent news for him.

"Jack!" She called as she entered the house. When there was no reply she didn't worry. She noticed a small envelope with her name scribbled on it.

She opened it and read the letter. By the end of it she was sitting on the floor in tears.

"Jack you don't understand. You can, you give me children you've given me a child." She sobbed. "You have to come back, you have too."

~~

"The next day I came in I asked you if Jack had taken some leave and you, sir, said he had three weeks. I had to act normal but I couldn't I was too happy because at least he was coming back. I knew it would never be the same but then this whole shenanigan started and I couldn't tell him. I was too afraid."

Everyone looked up as the klaxons sounded as the klaxons sounded. We rushed into the briefing room to find Jack already standing there. He won't look at me and his face is calm and relaxed. That face scares me.

"Who is it?" Hammond barks.

"It's.the Argos IDC, sir." I take a deep breath as Kynthia steps through the wormhole.

TBC!!!!!! Whadda ya think!? Like it? Hate it? Want more? Hahaha of course I'll happily oblige.

Notes: The song is Friends and Lovers by Gloria Loring and Carl Anderson.