Chapter 5.
Those last few words of Grissom's sentence made her turn to face him.
"You care for me?" Sara asked the hope growing in her eyes.
"Of course I do! Why on earth do you think I asked you to come to Las Vegas and be a CSI here?" he replied realising how much he had actually pushed her away in the past year "I'm sorry Sara I didn't realise I had pushed you away so much that you thought I didn't care about you........." now his eyes started filling with tears.
Sara stood up to get into her hospital bed but almost fell to the floor once again
"Here let me help you........." his strong hands supporting her back and left side. He was careful on her right side not wanting to knock her stitches but as she got on the bed she winced in pain and Grissom's face suddenly changed to one of worry and concern.
"Oh my god Sara, are you all right? I didn't mean to hurt you........."
".........No it wasn't you......... I'm fine now.........no need to panic........." But Grissom could tell how much pain she was in.
"Are you sure?" she nodded and clenched her eyes shut until the pain had subsided.
They sat together on Sara's bed for a moment without saying a word, it wasn't the uncomfortable silence that was usually around the two of them it was one of worry and concern for each other. Sara was the first one to break the silence.........
"Grissom how long have you known about your hearing loss" she asked looking into his eyes so he could read her lips.
"Actually I have known it might happen all my life but it is only in the past couple of months that it has actually been going."
"So you didn't tell anyone apart from Catherine?"
"Cath guessed it and I only told Doc Robbins because I asked him wether I actually needed the surgery or not."
"Why didn't you tell any of the others? Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't tell the others for the same reason you didn't tell them about your......... you know........."
"My breast cancer? It is all right to say those two little words, I'm just not sure wether or not I'll be able to keep it in........."
he picked up her hand and held it "It is all right to cry you know."
"No it's not because one I don't think you would be able to handle it two I don't think I would be able to handle it and three I am scared stiff that I might not recover from this so I won't be able to stop."
"Sara it is better if you let your feelings out then to keep them bottled in" "NO! I am not going to cry! I will not CRY! NOW TELL ME WHY YOU DIDN"T TELL ME!" she said not meaning to scream the last bit at him ".........I'm sorry for yelling."
"It's ok......... I didn't tell you because......... It would actually prove to you and me how old I actually am........."
"Griss you not in the least bit old age is just a number........." all of a sudden she remembered something
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Sara stood outside of Grissom's office and on an impulse the words 'will you have dinner with me' came out.
"Sara I'm not sure what to do about this."
It wasn't the first time Sara had gone over this particular moment but it was the first time she remembered that when he had said that he had slightly lifted up a card in his hand. She got her mind to focus on the card in his hand. The name was mostly covered with his thumb but she could still make out 'Dr. Wi.........'
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"When I asked you out to dinner and you said you 'didn't know what to do about this' you didn't mean about us did you? You meant about your hearing........."
TBC..........
A/N: extremely sorry about the long wait but hopefully chapter 6 will be up some time this week!
Those last few words of Grissom's sentence made her turn to face him.
"You care for me?" Sara asked the hope growing in her eyes.
"Of course I do! Why on earth do you think I asked you to come to Las Vegas and be a CSI here?" he replied realising how much he had actually pushed her away in the past year "I'm sorry Sara I didn't realise I had pushed you away so much that you thought I didn't care about you........." now his eyes started filling with tears.
Sara stood up to get into her hospital bed but almost fell to the floor once again
"Here let me help you........." his strong hands supporting her back and left side. He was careful on her right side not wanting to knock her stitches but as she got on the bed she winced in pain and Grissom's face suddenly changed to one of worry and concern.
"Oh my god Sara, are you all right? I didn't mean to hurt you........."
".........No it wasn't you......... I'm fine now.........no need to panic........." But Grissom could tell how much pain she was in.
"Are you sure?" she nodded and clenched her eyes shut until the pain had subsided.
They sat together on Sara's bed for a moment without saying a word, it wasn't the uncomfortable silence that was usually around the two of them it was one of worry and concern for each other. Sara was the first one to break the silence.........
"Grissom how long have you known about your hearing loss" she asked looking into his eyes so he could read her lips.
"Actually I have known it might happen all my life but it is only in the past couple of months that it has actually been going."
"So you didn't tell anyone apart from Catherine?"
"Cath guessed it and I only told Doc Robbins because I asked him wether I actually needed the surgery or not."
"Why didn't you tell any of the others? Why didn't you tell me?"
"I didn't tell the others for the same reason you didn't tell them about your......... you know........."
"My breast cancer? It is all right to say those two little words, I'm just not sure wether or not I'll be able to keep it in........."
he picked up her hand and held it "It is all right to cry you know."
"No it's not because one I don't think you would be able to handle it two I don't think I would be able to handle it and three I am scared stiff that I might not recover from this so I won't be able to stop."
"Sara it is better if you let your feelings out then to keep them bottled in" "NO! I am not going to cry! I will not CRY! NOW TELL ME WHY YOU DIDN"T TELL ME!" she said not meaning to scream the last bit at him ".........I'm sorry for yelling."
"It's ok......... I didn't tell you because......... It would actually prove to you and me how old I actually am........."
"Griss you not in the least bit old age is just a number........." all of a sudden she remembered something
::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::FLASHBACK::::::::::::: :::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::
Sara stood outside of Grissom's office and on an impulse the words 'will you have dinner with me' came out.
"Sara I'm not sure what to do about this."
It wasn't the first time Sara had gone over this particular moment but it was the first time she remembered that when he had said that he had slightly lifted up a card in his hand. She got her mind to focus on the card in his hand. The name was mostly covered with his thumb but she could still make out 'Dr. Wi.........'
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"When I asked you out to dinner and you said you 'didn't know what to do about this' you didn't mean about us did you? You meant about your hearing........."
TBC..........
A/N: extremely sorry about the long wait but hopefully chapter 6 will be up some time this week!
