Chapter 6

Sara looked into Grissom's eyes searching for the answer to her question and for the first time she noticed a sadness in his eyes that wasn't pity or worry for her being sick, it was a look of deep sadness and pain.

"Part of the reason was about my hearing." He said reaching out to hold her hand

"What was the other part?"
"I know how deeply you feel for me I can see it in your eyes every time you look at me. I can even see it now. I feel the same way. But I know that if anything happened between us, even just a simple dinner date, I would not be able to let you go and you deserve so much more than I can give you... and don't think for one second it is because of the job, there are a million other jobs but only one you... you who deserves the world and me who can not give it to you." Tears started to fall from his eyes onto her hand that he still held in his. Sara reached up with her free hand and wiped away his tears.

"Grissom I don't give a damn if I deserve better, I couldn't care at all wether you think I deserve the world all I want is you, that's all I've ever wanted and that is all I'll ever need. And I would love it if you would never let me go. You said you could see how much I feel for you, but you can't just by looking in my eyes I have to show you..." and with that Sara signed something that was simple but meant everything to her. 'I...love...you' Grissom mouthed as she signed. Sara was a bit surprised to see that Grissom signed it back to her.

"When did you learn sign language?" he asked her his gaze never once leaving her eyes.
"Remember during the case with that deaf boy? Well I saw you and his teacher signing and I thought that when I got the chance to say 'I love you' to you I should say it in more than one way so I got on the Internet and did a bit of research." she said with a yawn and a look of tiredness in her eyes.

"Thank you. You better go get some sleep now." He kissed her on the forehead and went back to his own bed as she rolled over onto her left side with her back facing Grissom.
Grissom stared at the ceiling for what seemed like forever when suddenly he felt the need to go over and check on Sara. He got out of his bed and made his way over as quietly as he could and walked over to the left side of her bed and knelt down to her face. Sara tried as quickly as she could to hide the fact that she was in tears but it was too late.

"Sara honey, what's wrong?" he asked trying to wipe away her tears.
"Gil, I'm scared of dying!" he sat her up and got behind so that she lay in his arms.

"Sara cry all you want but listen to me you are not going to die anytime soon. Not if I have my say." He whispered in her ear and rocked her ever so slightly in his arms and stroked her hair until they both fell asleep.

TBC...