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I just leaned closer and closer towards her. I stopped right before her face, her beautiful face. The desire that rose up within me as I looked at her, the wanting and longing that I never felt with Thayet consumed me. All my thoughts turned to Alanna. "I might kiss you," was all I said.
"I might let you. . . But I can't."
I looked up at her and saw the fear in her eyes. She was scared. "Why?" I asked softly.
"It's wrong, Jon we're both engaged. We are both adults and we have certain responsibilities that we have to uphold. Jon you're the King you should love someone who could be a good Queen. Not a lady Knight whose whole life has been involved in scandal."
I just sighed. There she went again with responsibility. "Alanna you know I don't care about you being a lady Knight so no one else will. You are my champion people didn't like it at first but they eventually accepted the fact. If we were married they would eventually accept the fact as well." How could she not see how I loved her so much? I would break my engagement with Thayet in a second if I knew the she loved me and would marry me. How can she tell me to love someone else when I never will?
I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?
I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
She didn't respond we just sat there again in silence. Everything else was peaceful, the moon illuminating everything and the sound of water falling in the fountain behind us. Finally she said, "We are too alike you and I, we would never survive marriage. We both argue too much and are too stubborn to admit when we're wrong. After our fight in the desert we didn't talk for months. I don't want that. I just want to be friends and nothing more. I will marry George and you will marry Thayet that's how things should be. You'll forget all about me soon and you will learn to love Thayet and you'll be happy."
"If that's how you feel," I responded. She kissed me on the cheek and got up to leave, when we heard footsteps approaching.
Alanna recognized who it was first and yelled, "George!" She ran up to him. He picked her up spun her and kissed her deeply and she kissed back. My heart shattered into a million pieces. How I envied George, he was the one that she kissed. He was the one who would have her by his side forever. I stood up to go greet him. Seeing me he just smirked. When I was younger we had sort of a competition going to see who could get Alanna to love them first. I had won but then he stole her heart away after our fight. I should've done something then maybe things would have been different. The things we said back in the desert I know destroyed everything. It was all my fault she went to him I should have done something.
I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense
George did. I should have known he would do something too. He was a thief after all. What more is stealing hearts then money? I loved her and she loved me but now she's gone. She loves him but I still love her. I would just have to deal with the consequences.
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
Though I did envy George he was still one of my best friends. So I walked over to where Alanna and George were standing. I had to give up and move on with my life it's what she wanted. I can't take away the happiness she has with George. For her sake I have to give up loving her. It would be too awkward she was my champion I would most likely see her all the time so she has to think I don't love her.
And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....
I never would though. I knew that deep down in my heart no matter how hard I might try nothing would change.
Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be
"George," I said, "back so soon." I had sent him on a mission to Tuisane. He had been getting reports that they were trying to rebuild their army. It seemed silly that they would try to go to war after we had just recently beaten them in the war for the Drell Valley.
"Yes but with not such good news."
Oh no what could the problem be now? "What did you find out?" I asked.
"Maybe we should discuss this somewhere else," he suggested.
"Then why don't we go to the council room Meet me there in 15 minutes. Alanna help me find Gary, Raoul, and the rest of the people on my council. They should probably hear this as well."
"Ok Jon."
I walked back inside the palace wondering what was to come. I don't know but I just had a bad feeling about it all.
A/N Ok another chapter done. Sorry nothing much happened in this chapter but I had to introduce the problem. Uh oh what's going to happen with Tuisane. . . Ummm I don't know yet so I had to leave you wit a cliff hanger! Srry well please review, I'll try to write more soon. Oh if you didn't know that chapter was from Jon's point of view and the song I used was White Flag by Dido. Please review. . .
