A/N: Hey! I just to thank all the reviewers and ppl who are reading this. :o) Well you all will soon find out why Squid is so mad. Maybe in this chapter or the next. You'll just have to read. lol Thanks again!

Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters that pertain to the movie/book "Holes". They belong to the writer of the book, Louis Sachar.

Chapter 11

The horn went off. Which meant it was another day of digging. Zigzag's cot was still empty. Nayel got dressed. She looked over at Squid. He hadn't gotten up from the cot. "Yo Squid let's go," X-Ray said calmly as everyone headed out. Squid got up and got dressed slowly. Nayel walked with him out of the tent. Mr. Pendanski and Mr. Sir were saying for all the campers to gather around.

"As you all know Zigzag," Mr. Sir began to announce.

"Ricky," Mr. Pendanski corrected.

"Zigzag isn't feeling well. We are sure that he is going to be fine. So you all may continue digging holes but just keep him in mind," Mr. Sir opened the library.

"Keep him in your prays," Mr. Pendanski added. Everyone got there shovel.

"Here man," X-Ray handed Squid his shovel. "Take it,"

"No thanks man," Squid refused it.

"No take it," X-Ray took the shovel that Squid got and walked away. Squid was now holding X-Ray's shovel. Nayel looked at him and then down and started walking.

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It was midday and it was silent as the campers dug. Squid hardly dug anything. He mostly sat in his hole. Nayel jumped into his hole and started digging. "What are you doing," Squid stood up quickly.

"I'm done digging so figured you needed help," she said. Squid got his shovel and started digging.

"I'm sorry," he said trying not to look at her.

"For what," she asked. She quickly glanced at him. Squid stuck his shovel into the ground.

"For everything I guess," Squid looked at her. "You know I never apologized before...well I have but I never meant it," he sat down again. Nayel sat next to him.

"Why don't you tell me what's wrong? I mean it's not every day you knock someone into a coma," she joked but was serious. She wanted to lighten the mood.

"I don't know what came over me," he began. "I just...I got tired of seeing it. I just wanted it to end," he shook his head. Tears began to roll down his cheeks.

"Alan. What are you talking about," she asked as she wiped away the tears from his cheeks. Squid closed his eyes and he felt her touch. "Talk to me," she begged.

"Don't you think I want to? But I can't," Squid snapped out of his trance. "Every time I want to say something I can't. I can't even look at you," he took off his baseball cap and placed it on his knee.

"Alan you can talk to me. Don't be scared. We're best friends. I mean that's why I told you about everything that happened to me and not Zig," Nayel looked at him. "Look at me," he looked at her.

"Nay I don't know why you're with him. He doesn't know shit about you," Squid shot up. "I know everything about you! Why are you with him! And not me," he finally confessed to her. He couldn't fight it anymore. He had to let her know.

"I..I..," Nayel couldn't find the words.

"That's why. You don't feel anything for me," Squid punched the wall of his hole making dirt fall. "You have no idea what you do to me! I get nervous when you come near me! I..I can never find the perfect words to say to you. You're just perfect," he felt like pulling out his hair. Nayel stood up.

"I'm not perfect," Nayel shook her head. "Look," she showed him her scars. "Does this look perfect to you?" Squid stayed silent. "Alan you had feelings for me why didn't you tell me," she looked at me. Squid looked down.

"I couldn't," he said again. "I just...I need to dig," he started digging again.

"Fine," Nayel got her shovel and headed back to camp. Squid paused.

"Fuck," he said to himself. He knew he messed up.