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Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters that pertain to the movie/book "Holes". They belong to the writer of the book, Louis Sachar. I do not own the song "Behind Blue Eyes" by Limp Bizkit.
Chapter 12
*No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes*
Squid felt as if his mistakes were the most important thing at the camp. Everywhere he went he heard snickers and whispers. He didn't feel safe. He felt as if he was going to be beat up or something. One instance was when he was at showers. He put in his token and began to wash his hair and body. A camper was waiting for him to finish. He gave Squid ugly stares. "Sorry man," Squid said quickly and got his stuff. He dressed quickly. The guy just growled and took his shower. Squid headed toward the tent.
"He's the guy who killed Zigzag," a boy whispered to his friend, but Squid could still hear him. 'Zigzag isn't dead. He's just hurt.' he said to himself. He thought it would be different when he talked to his "real" friends. He walked into the tent. The place fell silent.
"Let's go the Wreck Room," Magnet suggested and headed out. X-Ray and Armpit followed. Caveman and Zero weren't in the tent. Nayel was sitting on her cot. He looked up at her. She looked down and headed out.
*No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies*
It was dinner and the mess hall was silent. All the noise that could be heard was the clinging on spoons hitting the tray. Squid just looked at his food. X-Ray was usually the one who started the conversations but he didn't say anything. "How was everyone's day," Squid broke the silence.
"It was good man," X-Ray answered. Everyone nodded in agreement.
"Yeah. It sucks digging holes all day," Squid looked around. The eyes that were on him were now looking down at their trays. "Yeah..," Squid nodded answering his own question. He got up and threw his tray away and headed to the tent. He never felt more alone. He looked at the Warden's cabin. He started walking toward it.
*But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free*
He knocked on the door. The Warden answered. "Yes Squid," she said. He looked at her.
"Can I see Zig," he asked. He just had to see him to make sure he was okay. The Warden sighed and looked hard at him.
"I'm afraid you can't," she said simply. "He's doing fine now go eat dinner," she slammed the door in his face.
"Bitch," he said under his breath. He headed toward the tent. He plopped down on it and looked at Zigzag's cot. Why did he have to get so mad at him? He should of thought about Zigzag's feelings instead of his. But why should he? No one ever gave a shit about him. Ever since he was kid he had to do everything on his own. He had to take care of himself. He didn't care about anyone else until he met Nayel. Nayel was the only person who would ask him about his day and if he was feeling okay. He wasn't going to let Zigzag take that away from him.
*No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you*
Night fell fast. The campers were in their tents. Squid knew what was the topic of every tent. 'Squid killed Zig' was all they talked about. In his tent they tried to avoid the topic. "What do you miss most about home," Caveman asked.
"My bed," Armpit said hitting his cot lightly.
"My dog," Magnet smiled.
"My room," X-Ray said with a sigh.
"My dog," Nayel said with a smile. Zero shrugged.
"My parents," Caveman nodded and looked at Squid. "Squid," he asked.
"I don't know. I don't care," Squid sank into his pillow and his mind drifted away. The conversation carried on. Nayel didn't speak she had fallen asleep as soon as Squid gave his answer.
*No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through*
It was another day of digging. The sun wasn't as bright as it usually was. There were small clouds blocking it, but no one was excited. They didn't care. Squid sat in his hole thinking about Zigzag. The event kept replaying in his mind. He pushed Zig into a hole and Zig hit his head on a shovel. He remembered picking him up and there was blood dripping down from Zig's forehead. The blood smeared on to Squid jumpsuit. He looked down at the blood stain. He rested his head against the wall of his hole. "Yo Squid," X- Ray towered over him.
"You head back to camp," X-Ray demanded. "I'll finish your hole," he jumped in.
"No it's cool," Squid stood up. X-Ray looked at him.
"I'll do it," X-Ray said in his tone of voice like it was his last warning. Squid nodded in defeat and headed back to camp.
*But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free*
Squid walked into the tent. He wondered if he could sneak into the Warden's cabin and see Zigzag. He walked over to the cabin and peeked inside through the window. The Warden was asleep on the couch. He turned the knob slowly but it was locked. "Shit," he said quietly. He went around the back and tried the back door. It was open. He slowly crept inside and headed up the stairs. The stairs made a creaking noise. He glanced over at the Warden. She didn't move. He continued up the stairs and opened every door. He finally found the door where Zigzag was. He walked in and looked down at Zig. He had a bandage around his head and his eyes were shut. "I'm sorry man," Squid said softly. "I just couldn't handle the fact that you and Nay were together," his eyes got watery but he fought back the tears. "You don't understand the way I feel about her," he shook my head. "You can't even hear me why am I saying this," he confessed. He heard footsteps coming up the stairs. "Damn,"
*When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool*
The footsteps drew nearer. Squid opened the window and slowly climbed out. He closed the window as much as he could. He tried to figure out how he was going to climb down. He walked over to the drainpipe. He climbed down and ran to the tent. The Warden walked into the room with Zigzag. "Damn Pendanski," she closed the window. She looked down at Zigzag. "I suggest you get better soon," she left. Squid got to the tent. He was out of breath and he was practically panting by now. He sat on his cot. He knew Zigzag was okay. He just knew it.
*If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat*
Squid walked into the Wreck Room when everyone returned from digging. He walked over to the pool table. The camper that was playing put his stick down and walked away. Squid began to play. "Can I join," he looked up to see Nayel standing there.
"You sure you want to play with a murderer," Squid joked as he hit the 8 ball.
"Yeah I'm sure," she smiled and began to play.
"Why are you nice to me," Squid finally asked and looked at her.
"Because," she began. "Even though you are being a jackass I think you are still the Alan that I know," she looked at him. "I know Zig isn't dead. He's just hurt," Squid looked down. Hearing someone else say those words made him feel comfortable. He knew he was right and everyone else was just crazy. He took his turn and waited for Nayel. She took her turn and grinned at him. He smiled back.
*No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be*
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters that pertain to the movie/book "Holes". They belong to the writer of the book, Louis Sachar. I do not own the song "Behind Blue Eyes" by Limp Bizkit.
Chapter 12
*No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes*
Squid felt as if his mistakes were the most important thing at the camp. Everywhere he went he heard snickers and whispers. He didn't feel safe. He felt as if he was going to be beat up or something. One instance was when he was at showers. He put in his token and began to wash his hair and body. A camper was waiting for him to finish. He gave Squid ugly stares. "Sorry man," Squid said quickly and got his stuff. He dressed quickly. The guy just growled and took his shower. Squid headed toward the tent.
"He's the guy who killed Zigzag," a boy whispered to his friend, but Squid could still hear him. 'Zigzag isn't dead. He's just hurt.' he said to himself. He thought it would be different when he talked to his "real" friends. He walked into the tent. The place fell silent.
"Let's go the Wreck Room," Magnet suggested and headed out. X-Ray and Armpit followed. Caveman and Zero weren't in the tent. Nayel was sitting on her cot. He looked up at her. She looked down and headed out.
*No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies*
It was dinner and the mess hall was silent. All the noise that could be heard was the clinging on spoons hitting the tray. Squid just looked at his food. X-Ray was usually the one who started the conversations but he didn't say anything. "How was everyone's day," Squid broke the silence.
"It was good man," X-Ray answered. Everyone nodded in agreement.
"Yeah. It sucks digging holes all day," Squid looked around. The eyes that were on him were now looking down at their trays. "Yeah..," Squid nodded answering his own question. He got up and threw his tray away and headed to the tent. He never felt more alone. He looked at the Warden's cabin. He started walking toward it.
*But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free*
He knocked on the door. The Warden answered. "Yes Squid," she said. He looked at her.
"Can I see Zig," he asked. He just had to see him to make sure he was okay. The Warden sighed and looked hard at him.
"I'm afraid you can't," she said simply. "He's doing fine now go eat dinner," she slammed the door in his face.
"Bitch," he said under his breath. He headed toward the tent. He plopped down on it and looked at Zigzag's cot. Why did he have to get so mad at him? He should of thought about Zigzag's feelings instead of his. But why should he? No one ever gave a shit about him. Ever since he was kid he had to do everything on his own. He had to take care of himself. He didn't care about anyone else until he met Nayel. Nayel was the only person who would ask him about his day and if he was feeling okay. He wasn't going to let Zigzag take that away from him.
*No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you*
Night fell fast. The campers were in their tents. Squid knew what was the topic of every tent. 'Squid killed Zig' was all they talked about. In his tent they tried to avoid the topic. "What do you miss most about home," Caveman asked.
"My bed," Armpit said hitting his cot lightly.
"My dog," Magnet smiled.
"My room," X-Ray said with a sigh.
"My dog," Nayel said with a smile. Zero shrugged.
"My parents," Caveman nodded and looked at Squid. "Squid," he asked.
"I don't know. I don't care," Squid sank into his pillow and his mind drifted away. The conversation carried on. Nayel didn't speak she had fallen asleep as soon as Squid gave his answer.
*No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through*
It was another day of digging. The sun wasn't as bright as it usually was. There were small clouds blocking it, but no one was excited. They didn't care. Squid sat in his hole thinking about Zigzag. The event kept replaying in his mind. He pushed Zig into a hole and Zig hit his head on a shovel. He remembered picking him up and there was blood dripping down from Zig's forehead. The blood smeared on to Squid jumpsuit. He looked down at the blood stain. He rested his head against the wall of his hole. "Yo Squid," X- Ray towered over him.
"You head back to camp," X-Ray demanded. "I'll finish your hole," he jumped in.
"No it's cool," Squid stood up. X-Ray looked at him.
"I'll do it," X-Ray said in his tone of voice like it was his last warning. Squid nodded in defeat and headed back to camp.
*But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free*
Squid walked into the tent. He wondered if he could sneak into the Warden's cabin and see Zigzag. He walked over to the cabin and peeked inside through the window. The Warden was asleep on the couch. He turned the knob slowly but it was locked. "Shit," he said quietly. He went around the back and tried the back door. It was open. He slowly crept inside and headed up the stairs. The stairs made a creaking noise. He glanced over at the Warden. She didn't move. He continued up the stairs and opened every door. He finally found the door where Zigzag was. He walked in and looked down at Zig. He had a bandage around his head and his eyes were shut. "I'm sorry man," Squid said softly. "I just couldn't handle the fact that you and Nay were together," his eyes got watery but he fought back the tears. "You don't understand the way I feel about her," he shook my head. "You can't even hear me why am I saying this," he confessed. He heard footsteps coming up the stairs. "Damn,"
*When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool*
The footsteps drew nearer. Squid opened the window and slowly climbed out. He closed the window as much as he could. He tried to figure out how he was going to climb down. He walked over to the drainpipe. He climbed down and ran to the tent. The Warden walked into the room with Zigzag. "Damn Pendanski," she closed the window. She looked down at Zigzag. "I suggest you get better soon," she left. Squid got to the tent. He was out of breath and he was practically panting by now. He sat on his cot. He knew Zigzag was okay. He just knew it.
*If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat*
Squid walked into the Wreck Room when everyone returned from digging. He walked over to the pool table. The camper that was playing put his stick down and walked away. Squid began to play. "Can I join," he looked up to see Nayel standing there.
"You sure you want to play with a murderer," Squid joked as he hit the 8 ball.
"Yeah I'm sure," she smiled and began to play.
"Why are you nice to me," Squid finally asked and looked at her.
"Because," she began. "Even though you are being a jackass I think you are still the Alan that I know," she looked at him. "I know Zig isn't dead. He's just hurt," Squid looked down. Hearing someone else say those words made him feel comfortable. He knew he was right and everyone else was just crazy. He took his turn and waited for Nayel. She took her turn and grinned at him. He smiled back.
*No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes
But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be*
