Chapter 15: Gokus realization

A/N: Wow this is probably one of my favorite chapters. I'm real sorry I haven't updated in awhile but hey I'm taking a college course in my sophomore year of high school give me a break. But to compensate for the time I made this chapter longer still with plenty of drama and a surprise end to this chapter. I guarantee my next chapter will be the end to one of the three endings I'm doing, obviously this mean there will be alt chapters starting next one. Oh and I just might update quicker if I get more reviews on my poem "How long has it been?" *hint hint*.

Goku and Dai Kaioshin appeared in white valley that held many random auras. Goku looked around, amazed at what he was seeing. It seemed like some kind of dream sequence it was so mysical.

"Remember Goku I hour." Dai Kaioshin said as he slowly disappeared.

Goku almost panicked until he heard Dai Kaioshins voice.



"I will be following your ki so I know exactly where you are."



Goku nodded then turned around and focused his ki.



"Ok Gohan, now to find you." He said trying his best to lock on to his sons ki. "Damn why does there have to be so much energy?"

While he tried to locate Gohan, auras (like those on FFX, after you be bad guys they spread into auras,… I forget the name of them) swirled around his body messing up his concentration. Goku grew impatient and flew up about 50 feet above the ground. And instantly he recognized his sons ki.

"There!!" He shouted and attempted to use the Instant Transmission but nothing happened.

"Damn." He said to himself confused. "I guess some of my powers don't work here." This was just what he needed, for something else to go wrong.

"I can tell Gohans ki is far away, I guess Dai Kaioshin did his best.." Goku then powered up and flew at top speed toward his sons ki.



"Don't worry Gohan I'm coming."

















*Back on Earth*

Krillin was on his 14th cup of coffee as his red eyes slowly closed then opened again.

"Why don't you get some sleep Krillin." Piccolo said then opened his eyes.

Krillins looked up at him.

"Don't worry, if anything happens I'll wake you up. Besides everyone else is resting."

Krillin took a look around the room to see everyone sleeping away. He spotted Chi-Chi leaning against Bulma. You could tell by the look of her that she had gone through allot. Her hair was every where, her cheeks covered in dry tears, this was all tramatic to her….. to everyone.

Krillins eyes wondered around the room Goten and Trunks sleeping just like Bulma and Chi-Chi.

"Best friends…… through thick and thin." He muttered to himself. Goku and he made that same pact way back when. They could always count on each other no matter what. "Time changes…. But I guess friendships don't."

Krillin eyes moved over to Ox-King and Master Roshi. He almost laughed at seeing Ox-King fit into one of the small chairs. Krillin didn't think he could do it but the Ox-King surprised him. Krillin then looked harder at him. The giant hadn't said much but even in his sleep Krillin could tell that he was hurting and was deeply troubled by the situation. Krillin couldn't imagine how he must feel. Almost seeing your own grandson die. That must have been one of the worst feeling in his life.

Krillin then moved his eyes over to his wife and daughter although she didn't understand too much of what was going on. He explained it to her as 'Gohan wasn't feeling well and now he's hurt really bad.' Even though he tried to tell her lightly she still cried allot. Gohan used to come over with Goten and Trunks and they would play with Marron in the beach and go into the house to make cookies. But this was just a mask that Gohan was wearing to not worry people. Things like this made him feel better and worse at the same time. Krillin knew now that these happy times must have sometimes reminded him of Goku. Krillin soon noticed something, Videl was no where in sight. He then turned back to the tall namekian.

"Hey where's Videl?"

"Where do you think." Piccolo answered without even opening his eyes.

Krillin looked over at the emergency doors toward Gohans room. What he saw brought a tear to his eye. There a was silhouette in the moonlight of Videl at Gohans side. It was pure devotion and love.

Krillin then turned back toward Piccolo.

"I guess your right I should get some sleep, but what about you?"

Piccolo smiled. "Namekians need little sleep. Remember our original home planet had three suns. We adapted to it. You know how hard it is to sleep when its light outside."

Krillin nodded as he got up from his chair and went to sit down next to his wife and daughter. As he sat down he put a blanket over them all and he went right to sleep.

Piccolo looked towards Gohans room and saw him.

"Hang in there kid." He muttered.

*Meanwhile*

"Ughh. Looks like he's farther away than I thought." Goku had been going top speed for about 30 minutes. Goku soon saw something in the distance. His frown soon turned to a smile.

"Gohan!" Goku said to himself as he powered down and landed.

"Gohan!" This time Goku shouted to Hi son.

The tall figure turned around and sure enough it was his son.

Gohan smiled lightly.

"Otosan." Gohan greeted him surprised to see his father. But his happy face soon turned into a look of self disappointment.



"What are you doing here?" Gohan said as he turned his back towards his father and looked down.



Goku was disturbed by this. What 'was' wrong with his son? He walked up to Gohan and rested his hand on his shoulder



"Gohan whats wrong?"



Gohan slowly turned around to face his father. His eyes had swelled up with tears.



"It's me who should be dead not you."



"Gohan why do you say that?"



"You warned me to finish Cell off and… and I was foolish." Gohan was now sobbing. "I don't deserve to be your son or even live for that matter. I wished for us to switch places so Goten could have a father. And so I could get out of everyones way. Everyone knows I killed you. Nobody wants me around anymore."



"Gohan that's not true."



"Yes it is. Its so hard waking up everyday knowing that your own father isn't there because you killed him."



Goku was about to interrupt but Gohan was talking so fast and emotionally.



"Everyone would be better without me. Who could love A murderer?" Gohan was now crying hard and buried his face in Gokus chest as his father gave him a comforting hug.



"I never meant for any of this to happen. I just wanted peace. I never wanted anyone to get hurt. But its all my fault now."

Goku sat Gohan down so his weight wasn't against him and it'd be easier for Goku to talk with him. Gohan was still in Gokus arms sobbing.

"Gohan you know this isn't true."

"Yes it is that's why you left me because you hated me." The last few words were uttered then Gohan started to fall asleep in his fathers arms. (all that crying makes ya sleepy).

"Gohan you know I love you, your brother and your mother. I had to keep everyone safe. It was my choice. I didn't mean for you to feel this way. Kami knows all I want is peace and love in the world. I didn't leave because I hated you… I left because-" And then Goku realized it. He didn't leave to protect the world. He left because he was intimidated by his sons power. He had always been the best and he never realized how badly his pride would be affected. He left his family and friends so he could train. He gave up everything for training his whole life. He had been neglecting his family and only cared about fighting all his life. And in the end he cause pain to them.

"Oh dear god what have I done?" Goku muttered in shock. "How could I have done this?" Goku realized he had sent his family essepially his son through so much pain. Pain that neither Freeza or Cell or anyone they fought could have experience. Gohan may have well as been in hell the torture that he showed him. Gohan had been mentally scared so bad he tried to commit suicide think all this was his fault.

But it wasn't Gohans fault…… This was all his fault!!

WOW!!! How many were surprised at that? The chapter gave it a little bit away but its still surprising. I've been waiting to get to this chapter for a long time. PLEASE REVIEW!!!!