Chapter 4: Missing You

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I finish doing my hair and grab my keys. I gotta get to work, can't be late now can we? Besides, Bosco'll be there and I haven't seen him in exactly 5 hours 38 minutes and 34 seconds.... 35 seconds... 36 seconds... 37 seconds. Okay I can count the clock later I really gotta go. I walk out of my apartment and head towards the exit. As if today wasn't good enough it just got amazingly better. I walk out of my apartment building to spot Bosco standing there, leaning against his blue mustang. Oh baby, hot papi.

"Hey Bos" I say. I'm not sure if I;m smiling or not, cuz seeing him makes me feel so numb. I probably am though. God Bosco why do you have to be so damn hot?! Huh?! Why? Oh well this is just great, he's grinning. I'm already dying but grinning.. now c'mon... play fair Bos.

"Hey" he says with a slight smile. Ok the grin is gone but now he has this adorible lil smirkish cutish kinda smile. You following me? No? Oh well. I wanna grab him and kiss that lil smile off his hot lips. Maybe I will. Alright, sexy thoughts later. He might be in trouble. Why would he be in trouble? Is he hurt? Oh my god? Did someone hurt him? I always do this. I think he might be hurt, then I have a frikin panic attack. Stupid mind. He knows I'm looking him up and down, not in a seductive way either. "Hey, hey Maritza... I'm fine..." he smiles. Psh, atleast he can smile. He scared me. Well I scared myself. Stupid me.

"Just making sure" I smile back at him. "Did you need something? Anything at all?" I ask. He shakes his head and pushed himself off from leaning on the car. He's now right infront of me. I can practically feel his leather jacket. Yum. God Bosco, seriously, must you be so hot. I thank God he can't hear what I'm thinking. I still gotta be tough ya know. I gotta be strong. I gotta keep the act up, even for Bosco. If he knew the power he had over me, All hell would break loose.

"So I uh... came to uh ya know... see if you... maybe... needed a ride" Oh my god. He's nervous. That is sooooo cute! I can't help but smile as he looks down at the ground, unable to look at me. Baby...

"I'd love a ride Bos" I say softly, gently lifting his chin so he's looking at me. His eyes meet mine and once again I'm lost in 'em. I can see them shine as he smiles. I let go of his chin, smiling myself. God if he only knew. I pull him down to me gently, my lips connecting to his in a sweet passionate kiss. I can feel his smooth sweet tasting tongue run across mine. I need this more than he can even imagine. I play with his tongue, my tongue running with his. A few minutes later we both pull apart, outta breath. I smile, my arms still around his neck. "I missed that" I say with a grin.

He smiles to, letting out a small laugh. He looks away from me for a minute and I can tell he wants to say something. No. He NEEDS to say something. I'll give him some time though. A few seconds later he looks back at me. "I missed you" he says softly. Well if there is a heaven, I'm in it. Bosco had missed me. All this time I thought he was planning my death, and now he's admitting that he missed me.

"I missed you too Mi Amor" I say softly. Oh my god that is such an understatement. But like I said, I need the power. I can't let him know how I feel. I can't tell him that just the thought of him makes me weak. I can't tell him I like to sleep with the pillow he used cuz it smells like him. I can't tell him that I need him. I can't tell him that if something were to happen to him, I'm as good as dead. I can't tell him these things. I have to lock all this up inside me, and never let it out. Well maybe some day I will.

He smiles again and kisses my forehead. "Lets go" he whispers in my ear. His breath against my ear makes me shiver and close my eyes. It takes a minute before I'm able to get myself together and get into the passenger side of his mustang. He walks over to the drivers side. I smile at him from my side and he smiles back. We get in and we're off.