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Chapter 5- Talking with Kagome
"Kagome, honey? Are you awake?" Hojo asked quietly while entering their room and seeing Kagome lying with her back towards him, on the bed. She didn't answer, only rolled over to face him. Her face was streaked with black, she must have been crying and her mascara leaked leaving black lines where her tears rolled off her pale face. "Anything I can get you?"
"No, thank you," She replied sleepily. Kagome sat up in bed and started to rub then got up and walked towards the bathroom to fix her make-up. All of a sudden she heard music playing in background. Hojo must have turned on the radio to soothe me. How thoughtful. Kagome thought as she recognized the song and started to sing along with the lyrics.
There are so many reasons that I find to run to you
Cos there's so little love in my life, now I m away
And thinking about it I want things back how they used to be.
As Kagome was singing she realized how much the song related to her life. She had started to feel that even as wacked out as her life used to be, it was easier than it is now that Inuyasha came back. The last lines of the verse made her realize that she never allowed anyone that she loved to come close to her after the Sesshomaru incident. With that mainly being Hojo, and her being married to him and carrying their second child, she realized it wasn't fair to him.
So much between us and we both know its wrong
So I keep on waiting till I'm back where I belong.
Inuyasha was walking around the shrine, which always seemed to calm him, trying to sort out his thoughts. Then he started to hear some music coming pretty loudly from Kagome's room. He was amazed at how closed the lyrics of the song touched home with him.
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day
Hojo walked out of the room but had the music loud enough so that he could hear it anywhere in the house. For some reason he always liked this song. The third verse, especially right now, always seem to make him think of his relationship with Kagome.
So many feelings emotions running away with me
Cos its you that believe and I love this one so deep
So much between us and we both know its wrong
Now I keep on waiting till I'm back where I belong
Back where I belong
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day
All three of them seemed to connect deeply with the one song and all sang the last thought at the same while Kagome continued aloud with the final chorus…
So I keep on waiting till I'm back where I belong
Back where I belong
So here I am all by myself thinking of you nobody else
There is a feeling inside and as hard as I try it just won't go away
Are you finding it hard all on your own
Having to face each night alone
Knowing that you are the one with the love that I need
And I miss you more each day
That was Miss You More by BBMak
It's funny how one song can reach that many people at the same time. Kagome thought as she put the finishing touches on her eye shadow. I don't think that I could ever get over loving Inuyasha, but could get over Hojo if I chose Inuyasha? I love them both, I don't' think I can choose. And I know I cant have both. This is must be how Inuyasha felt while he was choosing between Kikyo and me! And to think that I may not choose him and choose Hojo instead! Oh horrible that would be! Now I must choose Inuyasha. It's only fair; only fair to Inuyasha but not to Hojo. I felt so bad for turning him down so much in high school. I guess I'll just have to ask them for more time. "Maybe we can all go out tonight, to a club or something and get out minds off of this,"
A/n: How'd u like it? I know I know, another short chapter but isn't it a nice break form all those really long ones?
