I walked into the lounge to leave my things there, and to hide from Carter.
Maybe it was better to just tell him the truth, to tell him I had given
Mandy his last name, because that way, he was still alive for me, he was in
my heart. But that meant actually letting him know that I missed him, and I
didn´t want him to think I was weak, not now that everything in my life was
going the right way, for once.
"Abby, you are back!" said Susan hugging me "And who is this little angel?"
"This is Mandy, my daughter" I said smiling at Susan. I was very happy to see her, she was my best friend when I was working here five years ago and I really hoped nothing had changed.
Mandy also smiled at Susan, she wasn´t as shy as she had been when she first met Carter.
"Hello, I am Susan. I have a girl just your age, her name is Lauren" said Susan grinning at my daughter "I am sure you two would have a lot of fun together"
"Wow, you also have a daughter. I didn´t know" I said trying not to sound hurt because she hadn´t told me. But it was silly to even pretend I was hurt because I was the one who had left Chicago, not her.
Susan nodded, but she didn´t have time to answer me.
"Abby, we need to talk" I heard his voice and I turned around. I shook my head and looked at Susan. I was hoping she could save me, but she just smiled and did nothing.
"Your last name is just like mine, right mommy?" said Mandy breaking the tension and smiling at Carter. I wanted to run away again and never come back, but I couldn´t deny what I was feeling. I still loved him.
I stared at Susan "Could you take Mandy to the cafeteria to get some breakfast?" Susan knew what I really meant and she left us alone to talk.
The minute Susan and my girl walked away, I looked at Carter and I saw that sweet glance I had fallen in love with nearly nine years ago. I was sure I was looking inside his soul. I wanted to kiss him, to tell him he was the only man I had ever loved, but I couldn´t forget what he had done. I couldn´t forget he had broken up with me over a letter.
"Why didn´t you tell me?" was his first question. He looked hurt, but his pain was nothing compared to what he had made me experienced.
"You are right! I should´ve sent you a letter telling you that you were a father. I know how you love letters" I said feeling a mix of emotions inside me.
Carter looked down and I was sure he was going to apologize but he didn´t. His sweet glance disappeared and I saw a look I feared "What are you talking about? I had the right to know I had a daughter, how could you be so selfish?"
"Whoa, let´s not talk about being selfish, because you´ve got the prize on that! I wasn´t the one who ran away to Africa" I was yelling at him, I was so mad because he couldn´t accept he had messed up.
"I didn´t run away! I went there to help people. I have feelings, Abby, not like you!" he told me.
"Excuse me, you have feelings? Did you ever stop to think how that letter would hurt me? NO! You were too busy thinking about yourself!" I said rubbing my temples. I couldn´t take this anymore.
"Come on, that happened five years ago!" he said shaking his head.
"Yes, incredible huh? How that still hurts me. I haven´t been able to get over you, John, you ..." I wanted to continue talking but my voice was breaking and I felt a tear rolling down my cheek.
Carter hugged me and whispered "I am sorry. I was a fool, you´re right. The last thing I wanted was to hurt you"
"But you did" I said sobbing "John, I ... I never stopped loving you"
He held me tighter and kissed my forehead "Me neither ..."
I smiled and all I could ever think about were Mandy´s magical shoes. Magic really did happen when she was wearing them. Now, I wonder where we will go from here.
Thanks again for all your reviews!!!!!
"Abby, you are back!" said Susan hugging me "And who is this little angel?"
"This is Mandy, my daughter" I said smiling at Susan. I was very happy to see her, she was my best friend when I was working here five years ago and I really hoped nothing had changed.
Mandy also smiled at Susan, she wasn´t as shy as she had been when she first met Carter.
"Hello, I am Susan. I have a girl just your age, her name is Lauren" said Susan grinning at my daughter "I am sure you two would have a lot of fun together"
"Wow, you also have a daughter. I didn´t know" I said trying not to sound hurt because she hadn´t told me. But it was silly to even pretend I was hurt because I was the one who had left Chicago, not her.
Susan nodded, but she didn´t have time to answer me.
"Abby, we need to talk" I heard his voice and I turned around. I shook my head and looked at Susan. I was hoping she could save me, but she just smiled and did nothing.
"Your last name is just like mine, right mommy?" said Mandy breaking the tension and smiling at Carter. I wanted to run away again and never come back, but I couldn´t deny what I was feeling. I still loved him.
I stared at Susan "Could you take Mandy to the cafeteria to get some breakfast?" Susan knew what I really meant and she left us alone to talk.
The minute Susan and my girl walked away, I looked at Carter and I saw that sweet glance I had fallen in love with nearly nine years ago. I was sure I was looking inside his soul. I wanted to kiss him, to tell him he was the only man I had ever loved, but I couldn´t forget what he had done. I couldn´t forget he had broken up with me over a letter.
"Why didn´t you tell me?" was his first question. He looked hurt, but his pain was nothing compared to what he had made me experienced.
"You are right! I should´ve sent you a letter telling you that you were a father. I know how you love letters" I said feeling a mix of emotions inside me.
Carter looked down and I was sure he was going to apologize but he didn´t. His sweet glance disappeared and I saw a look I feared "What are you talking about? I had the right to know I had a daughter, how could you be so selfish?"
"Whoa, let´s not talk about being selfish, because you´ve got the prize on that! I wasn´t the one who ran away to Africa" I was yelling at him, I was so mad because he couldn´t accept he had messed up.
"I didn´t run away! I went there to help people. I have feelings, Abby, not like you!" he told me.
"Excuse me, you have feelings? Did you ever stop to think how that letter would hurt me? NO! You were too busy thinking about yourself!" I said rubbing my temples. I couldn´t take this anymore.
"Come on, that happened five years ago!" he said shaking his head.
"Yes, incredible huh? How that still hurts me. I haven´t been able to get over you, John, you ..." I wanted to continue talking but my voice was breaking and I felt a tear rolling down my cheek.
Carter hugged me and whispered "I am sorry. I was a fool, you´re right. The last thing I wanted was to hurt you"
"But you did" I said sobbing "John, I ... I never stopped loving you"
He held me tighter and kissed my forehead "Me neither ..."
I smiled and all I could ever think about were Mandy´s magical shoes. Magic really did happen when she was wearing them. Now, I wonder where we will go from here.
Thanks again for all your reviews!!!!!
