Summary: Dear Diary, Sometimes I get this feeling... Like, half of me is
missing. I never feel complete. Ever. When I was young I just thought that
I was lonely because I was.different. Nobody ever wanted to play with me.
Except this one little boy. He was my best friend. My only friend. But now
is different. I finally have everything I want. Except for one thing. An
answer.
~L.E.~
Author's Note:
Hello everybody. This is my first fanfic so I'm not really good at everything and stuff. I hope you will excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes. I'm not that good in writing. I also don't know how to respond to reviews so it would be nice if I got a clue. Thanks to all my reviewers. I'm really happy. I'm not that good in updating chapters, but I hope that it would satisfy you. Thanks and hope you like my story.
Falling Apart
We used to be best friends, Sharing everything with each other. But now you're hiding something, that makes us fall apart.
We used to be the best of friends, Laughing and giggling, It just breaks my heart, To see our friendship die.
I cry myself to sleep, Thinking back to our old memories. Waiting 'til you'll tell me, Our friendship will last forever.
But yet I feel, someday, You'll say, " I don't think we should be friends anymore." That's the day I'll know from that our friendship was dying.
I'll wait here for you, To make your decision, To fall apart or stick together, But no matter what, You have a place in my heart, And the good 'ol memories, Of you and me together.
I'll wait here. Hoping.
~L.E.~
I closed my diary and sighed. How did things get so complicated? It seemed like just yesterday, my world was perfect. I had it just the way I wanted it, but now my world is upside down. I know for a fact now that the feeling isn't just being lonely, it's more than that. I looked at the clock. In half an hour, I would be fifteen. I was scared, but yet, I was anxious too.
In two days she would be going off back home, to Hogwarts. She would be glad to go back getting away from the hell here. If her dad had found her awake, she would get it. She knew her dad loved her, but things have gone so wrong. Ever since her mother died, everyone and everything had changed.
Fifteen minutes.The big jump from fourteen to fifteen in fifteen minutes. Lily was a very beautiful girl. She had inherited her mother's deep, dark, and wavy auburn hair and her grace and elegance. She had the same vibrant emerald almond-shaped eyes as her father. She had a slim figure, but it wasn't a sickly skinny look. Five minutes. Just then an owl swooped into my room. I recognized this owl as Bridgette's. The owl was a dark gray with golden eyes. It stuck its foot out and I took the letter from its leg. I gave her a soft pet and she hooted appreciatively. I slowly and carefully took out the letter from inside the envelope.
Dear Lily, Happy Birthday! I knew you wouldn't be getting many presents for your birthday so I just had to get you something, of course, I would've anyways. I can't wait to get back to Hogwarts. Can you go to Diagon Alley with me tomorrow? Tell me ASAP. I hope you love you present and hope to see you tomorrow. Best wishes, Bridgette I smiled. I knew Bridgette would have sent me something. I wrote on the back.
Dear Bridgette, Thank you so much! I'm pretty sure I can sneak out tomorrow. How about you meet me in the Leaky Cauldron at 9. If I'm not there by 9:30, don't wait up. And don't worry about me. Is Clarissa and Amy going to be there? Love, ~Lily~ I sealed my letter and tied it to Storm's(Bridgette's owl) leg. I opened the window and she was off. I smiled to myself. Bridgette Chang was my best friend. She was very pretty. She had long, straight black hair, warm chocolate eyes and she was tough, but sweet. She was also a muggleborn like me. She was 5'4, same as me. Then I just realized that there was still a small dark green box on my bed. I picked it up tenderly and opened it. I gasped. It was the most beautiful necklace I have ever seen. The necklace had a crystal lily that changed colors. I loved it. I put it around my neck and admired it. I knew I wouldn't let my father see. He would take it away. So I took it off and placed it in the box and put it in my trunk for Hogwarts. I then realized that I was already fifteen and I didn't know it. It was 12:05 in the morning. I hadn't gotten any sleep and I was dead tired. Then Storm came back with the reply from Bridgette. It read.
Dear Lily, I do worry about you. I hope you don't get in trouble for sneaking off. How about after we go shopping for school supplies, you can stay at my house and we can go to King's Cross station together. So bring your trunk and money. Clarissa and Amy are coming yes. Best wishes, Bridgette. Amy and Clarissa were my other best friends. Amy Ashwinder had layered, chestnut brown hair that went to her shoulders and hazel eyes. She was really bright (even though she was muggleborn) and we had met in third year. She was 5'3, just an inch shorter than I am.
Clarissa Boyer was the classic teenage girl. She had blonde hair with light brown highlights and deep blue eyes. She loved shopping, boys, and flirting. Typical. She had a perfect figure, she was 5'6, two inches shorter than I am. We met last year and she was a pureblood.
I wrote back to Bridgette saying.
Dear Bridgette,
I'd love to stay over at your house. It's better than hanging around here. Oh, and thanks for that beautiful necklace! I loved it.
Love,
~Lily~ Once again, I tied it to Storm who looked rather annoyed at being sent across so many times but flew off anyways.
A different owl came in and startled me. It had my Hogwarts letter. I was wondering when I would get it. I took off the letter and opened the envelope. The usual welcome back letter and supply list. I looked over the supply list estimating how much money I would need. But there was something else also. A prefect badge.
Then another owl, a light beige one soared into my room. Amy's. I took off the letter and read it.
Dear Lily,
Happy Birthday! I'm sorry that it took awhile, I had to wait for Pecker to come back. Anyways, how are you doing? I can't wait for tomorrow. Hope you like your presents.
Always,
Amy P.S. Clarissa couldn't find her owl so she asked me to tell you happy birthday and she gave me your present to give to you.
Again. Always,
Amy I looked to Pecker and found she was also carrying two big packages. I opened the first one from Clarissa. Of course, it was the whole makeup kit. Just like hers. I wasn't surprised. I opened the second package and in it was a magic crystal ball. Inside were tiny figurines of us. Whenever you shook it, they became alive. 'Wow' I thought. I wrote her a quick letter saying thanks and told her to tell thanks for the gift to Clarissa.
By the time I was finished putting everything away, it was already 1 in the morning. I yawned and decided to go to bed. I was dead tired and fell asleep immediately.
************ " Get up you good-for-nothing piece of shit!" the oh too familiar screech I had heard too many times. " Go away Petunia." I said groggily. " You had better wake up before Dad comes up here!" I shot up immediately. My sister had a smirk on her face. I wasn't scared of my dad beating me, I had just remembered that I had to get to the Leaky Cauldron by 9:30 or else my friends would start worrying. " Ok Petunia, I'm up, now go away." " Hmph!" and with that, she turned on her heel and slammed the door shut. I turned to the clock not really wanting to know what time it was. 8:30. Not bad. I quickly got dressed and gathered my things. I took a peek out from my door. I can't call him "Dad" so John and Petunia were eating breakfast. I slipped through my window lugging my trunk. I hit the ground. Ouch. I slipped through the gate as quietly as I could and stuck up my right hand with my wand. The Knight Bus jumped up in front of me. I quickly walked in. " Hello miss. I'm Glor-" " Thank you here you go. I would like to get to the Leaky Cauldron" And I handed her some silver. I took a spot not far from the door and the Knight Bus zoomed off to the heart of London.
********** "James, get down here! Breakfast is ready!" I sat up groggily. 'God, I didn't get any sleep last night.' I got dressed in anything I could find and came down to a delicious breakfast. "Thanks Mom." " Your welcome James. Here's your Hogwarts letter. We are going to Diagon Alley today so hurry up." " Ok." Is all I said. Entering my fifth year into Hogwarts, I was excited to be able to do magic and pranks. I owled Sirius and Remus that I was going to go to Diagon Alley and I would meet them by the Quidditch Shop. I got up from breakfast and took a short shower. I got dressed and ready and came down. " Let's go dear, we are flooing to the Leaky Cauldron." My mom said. " Ok." I took a fistful of floo powder and. " The Leaky Cauldron!" and I was spinning in the usual green flames that engulfed me. I stepped out of the fireplace coughing and cleaned myself off. I didn't bother waiting for my parents and went to the back to get to Diagon Alley to find Remus and Sirius. After the brick wall transformed into the archway to Diagon Alley I stepped through the very busy street on Diagon Alley. I headed towards the Quidditch Shop and accidentally bumped into a very red- headed girl, but I didn't bother say sorry. I wanted to find Sirius and Remus. I heard her say, " Ugh, that idiot. Didn't even say sorry!" It didn't bother me much as I found Sirius and Remus. "Hey Padfoot, Moony!" "Hello Prongs." "Hey, how's it going Prongs!" "Not bad. Where's Wormtail?" " Who cares?" "He's coming later." "Ok." "Come on let's go look at the Quidditch Shop!" " No I think we should get our supplies first." "Oh come on! Lighten up Moony!" "Ok. Fine." And the Marauders minus Peter walked into the Quidditch Shop.
********** And the Knight Bus came to a sudden stop. Lily was more than happy to get off. She hated that bus.
She walked into the Leaky Cauldron meeting her friends just before 9:05. "Hey Lily!" "Hi Lily!" "How are you doing Lils?" "Hi guys! I'm great! How are you doing?" "Good." They all answered at once. " Come on let's go!" As they walked out onto Diagon Alley, James Potter walked straight into Lily. Her friends had just caught her. " Ugh. That idiot. Didn't even say sorry." "Forget him."said Bridgette. "He is soooo cute! I mean, ya forget him!" "Let's just get this over with so we can go to Bridgette's to party." I said. After what seemed like hours of running around here and there, they finally finished and went to Florence's Ice Cream Shop for a break. Coincidently, the Marauders had also just finished their shopping and decided to get ice cream.
"Hey look, it's those dumb Marauders." Said Bridgette.
"Yes, unfortunately, we have to go through another year with them." I said, sadly.
"If you don't bother them, they won't bother us." Said Amy.
"They bug me not matter what." I said. Clarissa just kept eating her ice cream, not wanting to join in the conversation.
"Oh, did I tell you guys, I'm a prefect!"
"Excellent! I wonder who the other prefect for Gryffindor is. Anyways, you can finally give the Marauders what they deserve!" said Bridgette.
"What do we deserve?" said the leader of the Marauders.
"Some discipline." I said disgusted.
"Come on girls, I just lost my appetite." Said Clarissa. We all got up and Clarissa flicked back her perfect blonde hair.
"I agree." James sighed. "Well, we know who to put our first prank on."
An evil grin spread across James' and Sirius' faces.
~L.E.~
Author's Note:
Hello everybody. This is my first fanfic so I'm not really good at everything and stuff. I hope you will excuse any grammar or spelling mistakes. I'm not that good in writing. I also don't know how to respond to reviews so it would be nice if I got a clue. Thanks to all my reviewers. I'm really happy. I'm not that good in updating chapters, but I hope that it would satisfy you. Thanks and hope you like my story.
Falling Apart
We used to be best friends, Sharing everything with each other. But now you're hiding something, that makes us fall apart.
We used to be the best of friends, Laughing and giggling, It just breaks my heart, To see our friendship die.
I cry myself to sleep, Thinking back to our old memories. Waiting 'til you'll tell me, Our friendship will last forever.
But yet I feel, someday, You'll say, " I don't think we should be friends anymore." That's the day I'll know from that our friendship was dying.
I'll wait here for you, To make your decision, To fall apart or stick together, But no matter what, You have a place in my heart, And the good 'ol memories, Of you and me together.
I'll wait here. Hoping.
~L.E.~
I closed my diary and sighed. How did things get so complicated? It seemed like just yesterday, my world was perfect. I had it just the way I wanted it, but now my world is upside down. I know for a fact now that the feeling isn't just being lonely, it's more than that. I looked at the clock. In half an hour, I would be fifteen. I was scared, but yet, I was anxious too.
In two days she would be going off back home, to Hogwarts. She would be glad to go back getting away from the hell here. If her dad had found her awake, she would get it. She knew her dad loved her, but things have gone so wrong. Ever since her mother died, everyone and everything had changed.
Fifteen minutes.The big jump from fourteen to fifteen in fifteen minutes. Lily was a very beautiful girl. She had inherited her mother's deep, dark, and wavy auburn hair and her grace and elegance. She had the same vibrant emerald almond-shaped eyes as her father. She had a slim figure, but it wasn't a sickly skinny look. Five minutes. Just then an owl swooped into my room. I recognized this owl as Bridgette's. The owl was a dark gray with golden eyes. It stuck its foot out and I took the letter from its leg. I gave her a soft pet and she hooted appreciatively. I slowly and carefully took out the letter from inside the envelope.
Dear Lily, Happy Birthday! I knew you wouldn't be getting many presents for your birthday so I just had to get you something, of course, I would've anyways. I can't wait to get back to Hogwarts. Can you go to Diagon Alley with me tomorrow? Tell me ASAP. I hope you love you present and hope to see you tomorrow. Best wishes, Bridgette I smiled. I knew Bridgette would have sent me something. I wrote on the back.
Dear Bridgette, Thank you so much! I'm pretty sure I can sneak out tomorrow. How about you meet me in the Leaky Cauldron at 9. If I'm not there by 9:30, don't wait up. And don't worry about me. Is Clarissa and Amy going to be there? Love, ~Lily~ I sealed my letter and tied it to Storm's(Bridgette's owl) leg. I opened the window and she was off. I smiled to myself. Bridgette Chang was my best friend. She was very pretty. She had long, straight black hair, warm chocolate eyes and she was tough, but sweet. She was also a muggleborn like me. She was 5'4, same as me. Then I just realized that there was still a small dark green box on my bed. I picked it up tenderly and opened it. I gasped. It was the most beautiful necklace I have ever seen. The necklace had a crystal lily that changed colors. I loved it. I put it around my neck and admired it. I knew I wouldn't let my father see. He would take it away. So I took it off and placed it in the box and put it in my trunk for Hogwarts. I then realized that I was already fifteen and I didn't know it. It was 12:05 in the morning. I hadn't gotten any sleep and I was dead tired. Then Storm came back with the reply from Bridgette. It read.
Dear Lily, I do worry about you. I hope you don't get in trouble for sneaking off. How about after we go shopping for school supplies, you can stay at my house and we can go to King's Cross station together. So bring your trunk and money. Clarissa and Amy are coming yes. Best wishes, Bridgette. Amy and Clarissa were my other best friends. Amy Ashwinder had layered, chestnut brown hair that went to her shoulders and hazel eyes. She was really bright (even though she was muggleborn) and we had met in third year. She was 5'3, just an inch shorter than I am.
Clarissa Boyer was the classic teenage girl. She had blonde hair with light brown highlights and deep blue eyes. She loved shopping, boys, and flirting. Typical. She had a perfect figure, she was 5'6, two inches shorter than I am. We met last year and she was a pureblood.
I wrote back to Bridgette saying.
Dear Bridgette,
I'd love to stay over at your house. It's better than hanging around here. Oh, and thanks for that beautiful necklace! I loved it.
Love,
~Lily~ Once again, I tied it to Storm who looked rather annoyed at being sent across so many times but flew off anyways.
A different owl came in and startled me. It had my Hogwarts letter. I was wondering when I would get it. I took off the letter and opened the envelope. The usual welcome back letter and supply list. I looked over the supply list estimating how much money I would need. But there was something else also. A prefect badge.
Then another owl, a light beige one soared into my room. Amy's. I took off the letter and read it.
Dear Lily,
Happy Birthday! I'm sorry that it took awhile, I had to wait for Pecker to come back. Anyways, how are you doing? I can't wait for tomorrow. Hope you like your presents.
Always,
Amy P.S. Clarissa couldn't find her owl so she asked me to tell you happy birthday and she gave me your present to give to you.
Again. Always,
Amy I looked to Pecker and found she was also carrying two big packages. I opened the first one from Clarissa. Of course, it was the whole makeup kit. Just like hers. I wasn't surprised. I opened the second package and in it was a magic crystal ball. Inside were tiny figurines of us. Whenever you shook it, they became alive. 'Wow' I thought. I wrote her a quick letter saying thanks and told her to tell thanks for the gift to Clarissa.
By the time I was finished putting everything away, it was already 1 in the morning. I yawned and decided to go to bed. I was dead tired and fell asleep immediately.
************ " Get up you good-for-nothing piece of shit!" the oh too familiar screech I had heard too many times. " Go away Petunia." I said groggily. " You had better wake up before Dad comes up here!" I shot up immediately. My sister had a smirk on her face. I wasn't scared of my dad beating me, I had just remembered that I had to get to the Leaky Cauldron by 9:30 or else my friends would start worrying. " Ok Petunia, I'm up, now go away." " Hmph!" and with that, she turned on her heel and slammed the door shut. I turned to the clock not really wanting to know what time it was. 8:30. Not bad. I quickly got dressed and gathered my things. I took a peek out from my door. I can't call him "Dad" so John and Petunia were eating breakfast. I slipped through my window lugging my trunk. I hit the ground. Ouch. I slipped through the gate as quietly as I could and stuck up my right hand with my wand. The Knight Bus jumped up in front of me. I quickly walked in. " Hello miss. I'm Glor-" " Thank you here you go. I would like to get to the Leaky Cauldron" And I handed her some silver. I took a spot not far from the door and the Knight Bus zoomed off to the heart of London.
********** "James, get down here! Breakfast is ready!" I sat up groggily. 'God, I didn't get any sleep last night.' I got dressed in anything I could find and came down to a delicious breakfast. "Thanks Mom." " Your welcome James. Here's your Hogwarts letter. We are going to Diagon Alley today so hurry up." " Ok." Is all I said. Entering my fifth year into Hogwarts, I was excited to be able to do magic and pranks. I owled Sirius and Remus that I was going to go to Diagon Alley and I would meet them by the Quidditch Shop. I got up from breakfast and took a short shower. I got dressed and ready and came down. " Let's go dear, we are flooing to the Leaky Cauldron." My mom said. " Ok." I took a fistful of floo powder and. " The Leaky Cauldron!" and I was spinning in the usual green flames that engulfed me. I stepped out of the fireplace coughing and cleaned myself off. I didn't bother waiting for my parents and went to the back to get to Diagon Alley to find Remus and Sirius. After the brick wall transformed into the archway to Diagon Alley I stepped through the very busy street on Diagon Alley. I headed towards the Quidditch Shop and accidentally bumped into a very red- headed girl, but I didn't bother say sorry. I wanted to find Sirius and Remus. I heard her say, " Ugh, that idiot. Didn't even say sorry!" It didn't bother me much as I found Sirius and Remus. "Hey Padfoot, Moony!" "Hello Prongs." "Hey, how's it going Prongs!" "Not bad. Where's Wormtail?" " Who cares?" "He's coming later." "Ok." "Come on let's go look at the Quidditch Shop!" " No I think we should get our supplies first." "Oh come on! Lighten up Moony!" "Ok. Fine." And the Marauders minus Peter walked into the Quidditch Shop.
********** And the Knight Bus came to a sudden stop. Lily was more than happy to get off. She hated that bus.
She walked into the Leaky Cauldron meeting her friends just before 9:05. "Hey Lily!" "Hi Lily!" "How are you doing Lils?" "Hi guys! I'm great! How are you doing?" "Good." They all answered at once. " Come on let's go!" As they walked out onto Diagon Alley, James Potter walked straight into Lily. Her friends had just caught her. " Ugh. That idiot. Didn't even say sorry." "Forget him."said Bridgette. "He is soooo cute! I mean, ya forget him!" "Let's just get this over with so we can go to Bridgette's to party." I said. After what seemed like hours of running around here and there, they finally finished and went to Florence's Ice Cream Shop for a break. Coincidently, the Marauders had also just finished their shopping and decided to get ice cream.
"Hey look, it's those dumb Marauders." Said Bridgette.
"Yes, unfortunately, we have to go through another year with them." I said, sadly.
"If you don't bother them, they won't bother us." Said Amy.
"They bug me not matter what." I said. Clarissa just kept eating her ice cream, not wanting to join in the conversation.
"Oh, did I tell you guys, I'm a prefect!"
"Excellent! I wonder who the other prefect for Gryffindor is. Anyways, you can finally give the Marauders what they deserve!" said Bridgette.
"What do we deserve?" said the leader of the Marauders.
"Some discipline." I said disgusted.
"Come on girls, I just lost my appetite." Said Clarissa. We all got up and Clarissa flicked back her perfect blonde hair.
"I agree." James sighed. "Well, we know who to put our first prank on."
An evil grin spread across James' and Sirius' faces.