He typed the last words, 'The End', but was it really the end? "Was this how it ended?", Christian asked himself. He honestly didn't know. He didn't seem to be sure of anything right now. He walks up to the window, and gazes out at the world before him. The world that he so wanted to come to. But now it didn't seem worth it. Didn't matter any longer. Nothing seemed to matter now when she was gone. Christian gazed out of the window, and then his eye catches at the sight of Moulin rouge. The place where they met. The place that once used to filled with light, colour, music, and magic was now grey and quiet. The wings that would constantly be swaying by for as long as he could remember now stood still, everyone of the wings only facing one direction without moving for a split second. It seemed as if it had died out of it's magic. As if Satine had died with it. Christian suddenly realised that he had been speaking to himself without noticing. He had said her name. He had spoken her name for the first time since she died. It scared him. All what he had thought about was her, but never actually spoke her name. Not until now. He sighs deeply. "It feels like I'm going mad with this.", he thinks to himself. He looks at Moulin rouge once again. " She really did fly away, as she wanted to .", he thinks. But what hurts him most is that he didn't find out until it was too late. If only he could turn back time. Change everything. If he could then would never leave her side again. What if he could? The more he thinks about it, the more he knows what he would have done. The more he thinks about it, he starts to speak his thoughts out loud, and then slowly he begins to sing : 'I feel like a song without the words, A man without a soul. A bird without its wings, a heart without a home. I feel like a knight without its sword, The sky without the sun, cos you are the one.' This was the truth. Nothing seemed to matter any more. He felt lost. Nothing mattered now when she was gone. He felt as if someone had stolen his soul since the day she flew away. And he couldn't get it back. He felt lost and couldn't find his way back. It didn't matter what happened, now when he had lost his reason for living. 'I feel like a ship beneath the waves, A child that's lost his way, A door without a key, A face without a name. I feel like a breath without the air, and everyday is the same since you've gone away. I've gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning, You used to be the one to put a smile on my face. There are no words that could describe how I miss you, and I miss you everyday. And I'm never gonna leave your side, and I'm never gonna leave your side again, still holding on girl, I wont let you go, cos when I'm lying in your arms I know I'm home. They tell me that a man can lose his mind, living in the pain. The call in times go by, the crying in the rain. Y'know I've wasted half the time, and I'm on my knees again, until you come to me. I've gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning, You used to be the one to put a smile on my face. There are no words that could describe how I miss you, And I miss you everyday. And I'm never gonna leave your side, and I'm never gonna leave your side again, still holding on girl. I wont let you go, I lay my head against your heart I know I'm home, know I'm home. And I'm never gonna leave your side, never gonna leave your side again, still holding on girl. I wont let you go, cos when I'm lying in your arms I know I'm home.' If only he'd known, known that she was ill. Then maybe it wouldn't have come to this. Together they'd flown away, flown far away from here. It felt has if his heart had been torn in a million pieces. He felt lost, he felt angry. Angry at the Duke and Zidler, angry that Zidler had agreed to this. He couldn't believe it. Couldn't believe that he'd actually gone through with it. And now look where it had led. It had led to this. He kept asking himself why she didn't tell him the truth, why she lied. But then he realised that he already knew why. Knew why she'd done it. Only to save him. Everything which happened that night finally made sense. He gazed out of the window again. First he saw the Moulin and then the elephant which was now as grey as the Moulin. There where everything happened. There where he had sung his song to her. When he was happily in love with her. He couln't bear it no longer. Couldn't look anywhere without being reminded of her. Of the woman he loved. Suddenly he couldn't fight back any longer. Couldn't fight the tears which where coming down his cheeks.

*Note: the following songs belong to: 'Never Gonna leave your side' by Daniel Bedingfield