It Only Hurts When I'm Breathing

Rating: G

Summary: Kathryn's life falls apart when she sees Chakotay kissing Seven. Song belongs to Shania Twain.

Hope life's been good to you

Since you've been gone

I'm doing fine now – I've finally moved on

It's not so bad – I'm not that sad

Kathryn Janeway walked in to her quarters, through her sobs she ordered the computer, "Seal doors," and then she slumped on to the sofa. She was angry, upset and jealous and she had Chakotay to thank.

I'm not surprised just how well I survived

I'm over the worst and I feel so alive

I can't complain – I'm free again

She had been waiting for the turbo lift, when the doors opened to reveal Chakotay and Seven Of Nine kissing in it. Time seemed to of frozen, she had stood still looking horrified while Chakotay was saying something but she didn't hear what, then she had ran off crying.

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breathe – to forget

She knew he would move on, but just didn't expect him to do it quickly. It had only been five months since they broke up, he said she was treating him differently because he was her boyfriend, saying that she was more protective off him and he felt trapped so they called it a day after two years together – two unforgettable years together.

Don't think I'm lyin' 'round cryin' at night

There's no need to worry, I'm really all right

I've never looked back – as a matter of fact

She had hoped they could give them another try, she wanted him that it hurt her; she was going to change for him if it meant he would be back in her arms.

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breathe – to forget

But that wasn't going to happen now, he had moved on and so must she, but she couldn't she needed him; she loved him with everything she had with all her heart – all her life.

It only hurts when I breathe

No, I've never looked back

As a matter of fact

She picked up the hypospray of the table then held it up to her neck and closed her eyes before hissing the contains in to her.

And it only hurts when I'm breathing

My heart only breaks when it's beating

My dreams only die when I'm dreaming

So, I hold my breathe – to forget

Chakotay found her the next day, her lifeless body lying on her sofa, the hypospray in her hand. But she looked peaceful, almost as if she was smiling, except there were tears marks on her cheeks. He found her note in her laptop, it was written a few weeks after they spilt; now it was describing the way he felt.

(It only hurts) hurts when I'm breathing

(My heart only breaks) breaks when it's beating

(My dreams only die) die when I'm dreaming

A few days later his lifeless body was found in her quarters with a hand written note that simply said.

It only hurts when I breathe