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A/n: I'm Brian Fellow! hehe, SNL is on, good show. -hem hem- anyway, Chapter 9! Yay! This will definitely be the last chapter posted until sometime after Christmas break (Dec. 19) I'm just way too busy this month to even consider it. Good news, I realized that if you type the chapters in Microsoft Front Page, it'll do all the html for you and it'll update correctly! What a sucker I was, typing all that html stuff out by myself. geeze. This chapter may get a bit angsty, I've got pink Floyd in the background plus I'm feeling kind of moody today and though I'm doing excellent in my physics class I'm borderline B-C in my pre-calc class and that has me freaked. But hey, at least I'm not alone, the majority of my class wants to start a mutiny. The teacher's nice and all but he's not teaching. Ok, wow, waaaay off subject. Sorry!

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Chapter Nine

He was bathed in the daunting green glow as he flew inside. To say he was panic-stricken would be an understatement.

"You killed them. You killed my parents."

His whole body went rigid, his mind suddenly void of all thought. His stomach churned harshly and his throat swelled. "No. NO!" With a sudden surge of adrenaline, he pounded up the stairs. "James! James!" He screamed, his voice thick with terror. "Lily!" With a swift kick the ajar door in front of him flew open. Inside was an eerily calm nursery. The window was wide open and a gentle breeze caused the soft curtains to sway. A mobile above the fancy wooden crib spun slowly in a counter clockwise direction. The gentle smell of lavender and baby powder floated in the air. Sirius's heartbeat was deafening in his ears, comparative to tribal drums, as he stepped anxiously into the room. But he did not see the open window or the mobile. An inhuman cry escaped his throat. It was James there on the floor, motionless, his eyes open wide. Now trembling violently, Sirius knelt down beside his friend.

"You killed him."

"NO!" Sirius cried out to the voice. "No." He turned toward the direction of the sound and saw Lily, her soft red hair partially covering her face. He emerald green eyes were squeezed shut. She two was motionless.

"You killed her."

Sirius bit down hard on his lower lip, his chin trembled violently as hot tears poured their way down his face. "I'm sorry." He sobbed. He moved a shaky hand back towards James. He put his hand over his eyes to close them but felt a sudden burning sensation. He yanked his hand away in instinct and his eyes widened in terror as he saw his touch had emitted flames. "NO!" He screamed, backing away, clutching the wall.

"It's all your fault."

"NO!"

"Sirius! Sirius wake up!" Keira was scared to death. She was awoken to heart wrenching screams. Sirius was flushed, sweat drenched his face and his shirt, his hair clung to his forehead, and his face was distorted in pain. "Sirius!" she commanded firmly, tugging gently on his arm. He sat up like a shot. "Sirius you're ok, it was just a dream." She immediately knew it was more than that when he began trembling all over.

"J...j...ja-james and lil, I-I I... they're..." He flew up out of bed and into the bathroom. Keira cringed as she heard him retch. She swallowed hard and followed him into the bathroom. She knelt down next to him, held his hair, and rubbed his back as he continued to be sick. Finally, he was done. He flushed the toilet and wiped his mouth. Keira quickly fetched him a glass of water. He didn't take it. His chin trembled again and his eyes filled with tears. "They're gone. I killed them." he whispered.

"Oh Sirius..." Keira's heart broke for him. She grabbed him and held him tight. As the grief overcame him his body was overcome by sobs. She helplessly cried along with him, rubbing his back and rocking him. Without any protest, she led him to the bed and laid down next to him as he clung onto her, sobbing into her shoulder. It was nearly day light when he had finally cried himself back to sleep.

~*~

Keira woke late the next morning to find Sirius sitting on the couch, a steaming cup of coffee in his hands, his back to her. She got up slowly and approached him. "Morning."

"Morning." he replied softly, staring into space.

"How are you?" He didn't say anything, but he reached out and held her hand tight.

After a few minutes of heavy silence, "What's happening to me?" he whispered, looking at her now.

"Sirius," she said gently, "how long has it been since they were murdered?"

"About 12 years."

"You were in Azkaban immediately after correct?" He nodded. "Sirius, you never had a chance to grieve. You told me yourself you spent much of your time as a dog. Everyone has to grieve Sirius. You suffered a tremendous, tremendous loss. Now that you're out it's only natural for you to feel this way.

"It hurts." he admitted reluctantly. Keira pulled him into a gentle hug.

"I know sweetie, I know.

"We have got to get to Harry. I have to make sure he knows the truth." He stood, his confidence slowly returning. It's less than a day's drive to get to where we need to go." He headed into the bathroom to clean up.

"Where are we going exactly? Where do you plan on getting a car from?" Keira yelled after him, grinning now because the dark clouds seemed to have removed themselves from over his head.

"You'll see when we get there."

~*~

"Sirius are you serious?" Keira stared in disbelief at the vehicle in front of her.

"Of course, there's no way we're walking all the way there."

"But Sirius, that's a Hummer."

"And?"

"And? That's like a, like a, a tank!" Sirius chuckled.

"She's beautiful." He said rubbing his fingers along the door handle.

"If I had known I was renting a Hummer I wouldn't have done it." She crossed her arms and frowned at him.

"If you had read what you signed you would've known it was a Hummer. But the good news is, it has tinted windows so I don't' have to be a doggie in the car! Now get in, let's get going." Sirius replied cheerfully. He opened the door for Keira and helped her into the massive automobile before rushing over and into his side. He was like a little kid about to see Santa for the first time. "Listen to these speakers!" He turned on the radio and cranked the volume.

"I don't know what you heard about me
But a -- can't get a dolla outta me
No Cadillac, no perms, you can't see
That I'm a mother --- p-i-m-p"

"ARrrgh! Turn that off! Turn that off!" Keira yelled, trying to drive and hit the volume button at the same time. Sirius gave her hand and turned it off.

"That was pure smut. It did have a catchy beat though." He grinned wickedly. "I'm a p-i-m-p!"

"Oh god help me." Keira shook her head and laughed.

Several hours later they arrived in a city Keira wasn't familiar with. Sirius decided it was about time to stop for the night so they checked in at a local hotel. "Siri, I'm filthy, I'm going to go get in the shower." Keira said, already halfway to the bathroom.

"Ok, I'm going to go out for a walk," he replied, "as padfoot." Sirius took the lack of response as a response and headed out the door. Outside he quickly transformed and headed down the road at a quick trot. The parched grass was uncomfortable against his paws so he opted for the cool cement. When he reached a narrow alleyway called Magnolia Crescent, he stopped for a rest. Then, his nose caught whiff of something, something comfortably familiar. Soon the scent appeared, it was a young boy who looked lost and afraid. He had wild black hair and he was holding a wand. Sirius's ears perked up and all his senses went into over-drive. It was Harry.

Yay chapter nine, I'm glad you could grace us with your presence.

Sleepy sleepy time, please let me know what you think!