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Thank you to my wonderful beta reader, ShinigamiPhoenix. Please check out her stories. She is an excellent writer!!
Note: Yes, I do realize that this little fic is FILLED with sentence fragments. This piece is Kitty's thoughts and most people do not sit and think in full sentences. Sorry, I wrote another short one, I needed to ease myself back into writing because it has been a while.
Although, this fic was intended to be Kitty's thoughts after a major tragedy occurs, this never actually states whom it is about, so really it could be about any of the X-Men. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!!
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Completely numb
By Misskrisss
I never realized I needed help. I thought I was going to be all right. I watched everything deteriorate around me. For some reason, none of that bothered me. I watched so many things happen. I just sat and watched.
Completely Numb.
When I was younger I might have cried. I might have cared. I know I should now, but it's just too hard. Something won't let me. Something is holding me back. Something that I can't fight, something I can't stop.
Completely Numb.
That something that won't let me cry, laugh or care. That disgusting thing. That thing that holds me from doing anything and everything I used to do. That thing that crept up on me without warning. That something.
Completely numb
I think the worst part is that thing is a part of me. That horrible, disgusting thing is piece of me I can never escape. My own mind.
COMPLETELY NUMB
I wish I could escape. I wish I could just run and never look back. But, there is a part of me that doesn't want to. There is a part of me that clings to this world of no feeling with every fiber of its being. I know without this, I would have to face the truth. The truth that hurts more than this ever could. I hang on so tightly because this neutral feeling I have is the only thing left to comfort and console me.
Completely numb.
I watched the life crumble from the bodies of my friends, the people I held dearest. These were the same people who I loved, laughed, and wept with. People that cared about me. Why can't I weep for them now?
Completely numb
They weren't just my friends. They were my family. My real family doesn't care about me anymore. When I first came to the Institute, they called every night to tell me goodnight. My email inbox was always crammed full of messages about daily life and random "I love you"s and "I miss you"s. The emails slowly became fewer and fewer and I was lucky to get a call twice a week. Eventually our communications just stopped. Everyone forgot about me and just went on with their lives as if I had never existed.
Completely numb
When I finally realized that my family wasn't concerned about me in the least, I felt myself falling.
Completely NUMB
Now I have fallen in to this black abyss. This emptiness that lets me feel nothing, yet is my everything. This sweet abyss that is so deep and dark that I have been blinded and will never find my way out.
Completely numb
So I can't let go of this hideous enemy because without it, what do I have left?
************************************************************************ *OK, so be honest, what did you think? If you hate it, tell me but give me a reason or a way to improve my writing. I believe my next story will be longer and in chapters. Also, thank you to all of the people who reviewed my last fic! They all gave me many great tips. If you haven't already, please read and review my first fic called "nothing can change it". *
Thank you to my wonderful beta reader, ShinigamiPhoenix. Please check out her stories. She is an excellent writer!!
Note: Yes, I do realize that this little fic is FILLED with sentence fragments. This piece is Kitty's thoughts and most people do not sit and think in full sentences. Sorry, I wrote another short one, I needed to ease myself back into writing because it has been a while.
Although, this fic was intended to be Kitty's thoughts after a major tragedy occurs, this never actually states whom it is about, so really it could be about any of the X-Men. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE REVIEW!!!
.
Completely numb
By Misskrisss
I never realized I needed help. I thought I was going to be all right. I watched everything deteriorate around me. For some reason, none of that bothered me. I watched so many things happen. I just sat and watched.
Completely Numb.
When I was younger I might have cried. I might have cared. I know I should now, but it's just too hard. Something won't let me. Something is holding me back. Something that I can't fight, something I can't stop.
Completely Numb.
That something that won't let me cry, laugh or care. That disgusting thing. That thing that holds me from doing anything and everything I used to do. That thing that crept up on me without warning. That something.
Completely numb
I think the worst part is that thing is a part of me. That horrible, disgusting thing is piece of me I can never escape. My own mind.
COMPLETELY NUMB
I wish I could escape. I wish I could just run and never look back. But, there is a part of me that doesn't want to. There is a part of me that clings to this world of no feeling with every fiber of its being. I know without this, I would have to face the truth. The truth that hurts more than this ever could. I hang on so tightly because this neutral feeling I have is the only thing left to comfort and console me.
Completely numb.
I watched the life crumble from the bodies of my friends, the people I held dearest. These were the same people who I loved, laughed, and wept with. People that cared about me. Why can't I weep for them now?
Completely numb
They weren't just my friends. They were my family. My real family doesn't care about me anymore. When I first came to the Institute, they called every night to tell me goodnight. My email inbox was always crammed full of messages about daily life and random "I love you"s and "I miss you"s. The emails slowly became fewer and fewer and I was lucky to get a call twice a week. Eventually our communications just stopped. Everyone forgot about me and just went on with their lives as if I had never existed.
Completely numb
When I finally realized that my family wasn't concerned about me in the least, I felt myself falling.
Completely NUMB
Now I have fallen in to this black abyss. This emptiness that lets me feel nothing, yet is my everything. This sweet abyss that is so deep and dark that I have been blinded and will never find my way out.
Completely numb
So I can't let go of this hideous enemy because without it, what do I have left?
************************************************************************ *OK, so be honest, what did you think? If you hate it, tell me but give me a reason or a way to improve my writing. I believe my next story will be longer and in chapters. Also, thank you to all of the people who reviewed my last fic! They all gave me many great tips. If you haven't already, please read and review my first fic called "nothing can change it". *