Hey guys, I'm back!!!!!!!! I think this story might end up turning out to
be really long so I hope you guyz don't mind. I'm diff going to put
Darien's POV in but still debating on the guy issue. Well anyways on with
the Chappy!!!!!!!!!
^Darien's POV^ *Why is she so clamed up? I wish she would let me in, maybe I could ask her friends or Jade. Why is she making me feel this way about her?!*
Darien seats down with a group of his friends as he ponders over this very questions.
"Hey Dar" someone says to him as it jolts him back from his thoughts. "Yea?" he asked not really in the mood for talking. "What's wrong with you?" asks Raye as she seats down beside him. "Just thinking" he replies. "About Serena?" she asks with a smirk on her face. "No" he tells her, although not able to lie very well. "Liar! You are to." She says with her smirk getting bigger.
"What do you want?!" he asks trying to change the subject.
*How come Serena is so...so what? Serena is just something different. But could this 'different' be a good thing for me or a bad thing? She seems so hard-core, yet when you look in her eyes, you can tell it's just a front for something. But what is this /something/? I want to know, no, I need to know!*
"Darien!" Raye yells into his ear. "What!" he says as he stands up. "What has got you spacing out so much?" she asks suspiciously. "None of your business." He tells her, then turns around, and leaves, intent on trying to figure out his feelings and his thoughts and hopefully maybe some answers.
^Serena's POV^ *Why am I letting him get to me like this? I shouldn't, I couldn't let my heart suffer another heartbreak. I couldn't handle it. When Sammy gets here, I'm going to ask his advice. He'll know what to do!*
She decides to herself and just in time, for the race had just started and speeds down still trying to contemplate everything that had happened between her and Darien moments ago.
*He really meant what he said, but he could just be lying and fooling me. His words were sincere and he did make me feel guilty for once in my life about something. I couldn't let him in my head or life like his wanting to do, but he was just trying to help, it's not as if he knows about my past. Maybe I should let him a little bit.*
She begins to think as she finally begins to approach the finish line, but is then cut off by Andrew, who was grinning at her.
"Oh Hell NO!" Serena screams as she speeds toward him. "Serena, what's going on?" came Ami's anxious voice out of the communication piece. "Andrew just swerved in front of me!" Serena yells as she tries to come up with a plan on beating Andrew.
"Why don't you just run him off the road?" a guys voice over the piece. "Who the hell are you and how did you get on this frequency?" Serena says as she contemplates her newest dilemma. "First of all you need to calm down. This is Darien and I got Ami's communication piece." Said his voice with a little bit to much calmness that it was starting to annoy her. "Darien, how the hell am I going to calm down when I have Mr. Grinning -N- Lucky in front of me and you in my ear, not to mention the race is almost over!" Serena yells as actually begins to speed up without realizing it. "You're over reacting way too much and plus you're speeding up, more." Darien told her while trying to get her to take her mind off the race. "I am! Oh, FUCK!" Serena says as she finally notices it and then notices how. "Damn, why does this have to happen now of all days!" Serena says as she tries to slow down gradually and which of course made Andrew ram into her and spin around uncontrollably. "Serena, you just won, so calm down." Darien tells her, "I can't slow down. I accidentally released one of my NOS canisters without realizing it. I have 4 miles left, before I can slow down without blowing my self and 2 feet of whatever is around me to dust." Serena tells him monotonously. "Do what?! Comes another voice over the piece. "Yea, and who are you?" Serena asks starting to become really annoyed. "Sere, how much NOS was in the tank?" comes to same voice, again. "Hmmm, about .4 or 5 things which is about 5 to 6 miles worth." Serena says as she calculates how much she put in them last time she got some. "Okay, I'll call the guys and get them to help you." He tells her. After finally realizing who it is, "NO, Jade! You can't do that! If the people here knew who you were and what you do then, you wont be able to come back and I'll probably never be able to show my face around here!" Serena shouts to him as she redirects her car onto a deserted piece of highway. "Jade, get the girls to follow me and I'll lead them to where I am. They can follow me until I finally run out. Okay? Jade, chill don't worry about me. I'm a big girl now and can take care of myself. So just get them already." Serena tells him as she swerves back around.
^Raye's POV^ *What the hell is going on? Why is Serena yelling at Darien the way she is? She just won the race, so why is it that she's still going and at that speed and what the hell is up with that look on Darien's face?!*
Raye asks herself as she begins to walk over to the panic filled looking group.
"Lita, what's going on?" Raye asked curious. "Serena accidentally let one of her canisters of NOS out and so now she's got to run it out before she can do anything else." Lita tells her as she tries to listen to somebody. "Oh kay. How come she can't just shut-off her car?" Raye asks even more confused. "Well, if she was to shut-off her car, then it would cause her car to blowup and everything from 2 miles around her as well to blowup." Lita tells her as she turns around and begins to yell at Jade for whatever he just said,
"Lita, Lita. I'm only doing what I think is best for Serena." Raye hears Jade tell Lita while waving his hands in defeat. "You're not doing that. I don't care who or what your rank is. I'll personally pull you down a few ranks, if you catch my drift if you even put that call through and believe me Serena will help in that one." Lita says as she glares at Jade with a fiery intent on winning.
*I'd hate to make her made.*
"Girls, Serena wants you to follow her until her NOS runs out." Jade finally tells them and as soon as those words left his mouth Ami, Lita, and Mina went into there cars and raced after there out of control leader.
^Darien's POV^ *What does Jade do that is so terrible that it has Serena acting like that. How is it that Serena didn't realize that she had set one of her NOS canisters lose? I would have thought that she would be more careful and conscious than that.* Darien thinks to himself as he goes over to his slick pitch-black car.
"Darien, I'm coming with you." He hears Raye say as she slides into the passenger seat. "Okay" he mumbles as he thinks over his last 2 thoughts over in his mind.
^Serena's POV^ *How the hell did my NOS canister get activated? I didn't push either one of the buttons. I'm going to have to get Ami to help me recheck the circuitry.* Serena says to herself just as a voice comes on the line.
"Serena, we're behind you. What do you have planned?" Ami asks as she pulls up behind Serena's car. "Well, I figured I'd just either flip my car or run out of NOS and hope I don't blow up at going at such a break necking speed." Serena says to Ami.
"Let's wait for everybody else to get here and then we'll come up with a plan." Ami tells her just as Lita, Mina, Jade and a black car drives up to them.
"Guys, what do you think I should do?" Serena asks as soon as she sees them in her rearview mirror. "What are /you/ thinking on doing?" Jade asks a little skeptically. "Ummm..you're not going to like it, none of you." Serena mumbles as she turns off the music. "What is it?" Darien's voice asks. "Umm...flipping my car in a pile of sand and detaching my NOS circuitry." Serena says under her breath. "Do what!" Lita shouts, "I don't think so. Last time you tried flipping it caused for you to seriously damage you're car, which if your mind is still working was only last year and also caused for you to break your arm." Lita tells her with horror evident in her voice. "Lita, I know what I'm doing and what went wrong last time." Serena tells her as she approaches a nearing sand pile. "Sere, if you do it, then..I don't know, but you won't like it. I can assure you of that." Jade says smoothly. "Same here" Lita says with hysterics evident in her voice. "Okay, then I'll live with it." Serena says with hot water starting to slip down her flawless face, and then with those last words said, she flips her car..
An hour later, Serena finds herself seating in Darien's car. *I can't believe I just gave up my friendship with Lita and Jade is probably so disappointed in me. How do I let myself get into this kind of situations?!* Serena asks herself as she seats in Darien's car with Raye driving her to her house while Darien drives her car.
"Serena, just so you know, I-" Raye begins to say, but Serena cuts her off. "I know what you're about to say and I don't car if your disappointed in me. It's the only thing that was logical at that time." Serena says as she stares out the window and lets a teardrop, it was the second time she cried that day. "No, No Serena, I was going to say that I was very impressed that you're willing to sacrifice your life just for the people around you even if you lose a few in the end. I'm not disappointed in you at the least. It makes me proud to say that you're my friend." Raye says as she looks at her with eyes gleaming of admiration. "I'm glade you think so and we just passed my house." Serena says with a smirk on her face. "Oops" Raye says as she turns around and then parks into the guest slot of Serena's apartment building. "Thanks Raye." Serena says as she steps out of the car. "Don't worry about it." Raye says waving her hand at the comment. "Okay." Serena says shrugging as she starts to make her way to the door of the elevator. "Do you want to come in while you wait for Darien?" Serena asks with a far away voice. "Sure" Raye answers as she follows Serena up the stairs to her apartment. "I'm going to take me a bath, so you can do whatever, kay?" Serena says as she makes her way down her hall.
*Why do I always have to lose those closest to me because of something I do and then try to come to peace with it, but always end up letting it eat me alive. Is this normal? Damn, why do I always go through the breakdowns around here!*
Serena thinks as she gets her robe and goes into the bathroom. She then puts in the only classical music c.d. she has into her c.d. player and draws her a scalding hot bath and puts nighttime smelling salts into her tube and lights up candles all around her and then takes off her soiled clothes, puts them in the hamper, and slips into the water letting the music and smells of the room take away her troubles for the time being.
^Raye's POV^ *I can't believe that Lita and Jade would do that to her. She looks so heart broken over it but is afraid to show it. I'm glade that Ami and Mina went with them to smooth things over. I wonder what Jade does for a living that would make Lita react the way she did earlier?* Raye asks this as she seats down on the couch in Serena's living room and turns on the T.V.
A few minutes later a knock comes from Serena's front door. "Hello?" Raye asks in her most polite voice she could manage as she looked in through the peephole "Raye, it's me Darien" said a familiar guy's voice. "You sure about that?" Raye asked with an amused tone in her voice. "Ha, Ha very funny!" Darien said as he walked in. "Where's Serena?" Darien asks as he looked around the room. "She went to take a bath a couple of minutes ago. Darien you wouldn't believe how broken up she is over what Lita and Jade did. I actually saw a tear slip down her cheek and then she went onto saying the she didn't care if I was disappointed in her. If anything we should admire her." Raye said as she went into the kitchen as grabbed a bottle of water. "Damn, Darien. This girl has almost nothing in her refrigerator, except some eggs, a few candy bars, some take-out, and a self filled of water." Raye exclaims as she eyes the refrigerator. "I would have thought that someone with her appetite would have a refrigerator filled with food." Darien says as he looks in it behind Raye. "I know it." Raye says as she grabs Darien a bottle of water and go back into the living room.
^Serena's POV^ Serena finally got out of the relaxing bath and with the classical music, still playing put her robe on and blew out all of the wonderfully scented candles. She walked into her room and put on a pair of cloth shorts and a tank top and then made her way back into the bathroom.
*Why do I always put myself through this?* is all that ran through her mind as she brushed her hair out and put it up on top of her head and into a bun. After standing there and looking in the mirror for who knows how long finally went out to the living planning on just blasting her classical music throughout the apartment and wallow in her misery at losing her best friend and cousin in one swift movement of a steering wheel.
"Hey Serena, are you feeling better?" came Raye's worried filled voice. "Yea, I'm better." Serena said as she tried to smile but only was only able to give a weak one. "I'm going to order something to eat? Anything special you're craving?" Serena asked as she grabbed the phone. "Is pizza okay with you girls?" Darien asks as he walked out the guest hallway. "I guess" Serena shrugged as she began to dial the closest pizza place's number. "Anything special on it?" Serena asks as she listened to it ring. "Pepperoni and Cheese" Raye answered with a knowing smiles laced in worry and concern. "Okay" Serena replies as she curls up into her chair that's placed into the living room.
"Hello, yes I'd like to place an order." She says with a polite voice that she rarely uses. "Mike, just send a large of my usual." "No, No Dylan hasn't tried anything." "Yea, I will. In fact his coming in sometime next week." "Don't worry. I wont forget t tell him" "Yea, but I also want a large Pepperoni and Cheese as well." "Okay, see you then." Serena says smiling for once since she got home and hung up the phone.
"The pizza should be here in about 10-15 minutes." Serena said shrugging at their looks. "Okay" Raye says as she looks at her sorrow filled eyes. "Serena, why don't you talk to us about it?" Raye told her as she kept looking at her eyes.
*HA, you expect for me to tell YOU. No, not while his in here. I think I'd rather wallow in my misery alone and I don't want pity from nobody.* Serena says to herself as she looks at Raye's worried and concerned face.
"It's okay." Serena says as she gets up, "I'll be back in a minute. " she adds as she walks into her bedroom.
*How come she shows concern for me when I almost killed myself over something I did? Why do I just want to spill my guts to her? And /him/ standing there looking at me with those gorgeous eyes with that look in his eyes. Did I just say 'gorgeous'? O hell, his got gorgeous eyes and a tight ass.* Serena says with a smile as she thinks of his ass.
Serena then makes her way to the bed and plops down on it as she curls herself up in a protective ball as she thinks over what has happened in the past hour or so. "How can I do this to myself?" Serena whispers to herself.
"Serena, the pizzas here." comes Darien's voice from the door. "O-Okay" Serena says in a choked up voice. "Are you okay?" he asks worried obvious in his voice. "Yea-Yea, why wouldn't I b-be o-okay?" Serena says as she lets another tear slip down her cheek. "Because I just saw a tear run down you cheek and you can barely talk without choking on your own words." Comes Darien's amused voice in her ear.
"What do you want?" Serena asks wiping away the obvious tears that are threaten to spill. "I did just want to come out and eat, but now I want to make sure you're going to be okay" Darien says seriously as she feels him seat down beside him. "I'll be okay. It's not like this is the first time I've disappointed somebody." Serena tells him with another weak smile.
*It's not my first nor will it be my last. I wish I knew what to do in situations so I would stop disappointing people!* Serena says to herself as she curled up tighter without realizing it.
"What do you mean?" Darien asks as he wraps her in his arms and pulls her closer to him. "I've always disappointed somebody my whole life." Serena tells him plainly. "Like how?" "Like when I was 13 and ran away. I didn't go home for 4 months and I knew my parents were worried about me, but I didn't call or do anything to let them know I was okay. When I finally did go home, only because Molly and Melvin told me to, I saw the disappoint etched into their faces. I could barley stand being in the same room, let alone the same house." Serena tells him as she silently begins to cry. "It's okay Serena, they were probably just worried about you, and what you saw on their faces wasn't disappointment but concern, worry, fear, and many other emotions that were splayed onto there faces." He tells her quietly as he rubs her back soothingly to calm her down. "I don't know, this all happened such a long time I barely remember there faces, except the feeling that I had really messed up this time." She said as she tried to wipe the tears away that started to slip down her face but to no avail.
*This is stupid. Why am I telling my past to /him/ and /him/ of all people! His comforting me, which is something that nobody has ever done to me and.and I like it. Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea to keep him around.* Serena says as she smiles slightly to herself as she lets Darien comfort her.
^Darien's POV^ *She's actually telling me something about her life and of her own will. I wonder she was so reluctant at first to do it? I like the feel of her in my arms. I hope the whole thing between Lita and Jade gets resolved and quickly since it seems to have taken quit a big toll on her mentally.* Darien says to himself as he keeps consoling her as she actually cries on his shoulder.
"Serena?" Darien asks a few minutes after she has stopped sobbing. "Yea" Serena asks as she looks up at him.
*She has such beautiful eyes and she looks so innocent but behind her little façade I know she isn't as innocent but still is in a sense* Darien quickly thinks to himself.
"Are you feeling better? You really should eat something." He says looking at her. "I'm much, thanks Darien. It feels so much better to have my feelings out in the open for once." Serena says as she snuggles closer to him for warmth. "You've never told anybody about you running away?" Darien asks with a raised eyebrow. "Will Mina and Ami are the ones that rescued me from that life and Lita just kinda already knew what I was feeling and I haven't talked to Molly or Melvin since I found out that they /finally/ got married and are now living in New York City and Melvin is an employee of some financial corporation and Molly has had at least one kid by now." Serena says with a small blissful smile at the mention of Molly have a kid. "What about this /Sammy/ or Jade?" Darien asks in wonderment. "Well Sammy is only 4 years younger than me so at the time he was only 11 and didn't really know what was going on and still doesn't and I don't want him to know what I went through while he a childhood. Jade didn't know me then. I didn't get close to him until I was about 18 or 19 and I started going out with Dylan." Serena says tight lip. "Who is this Dylan by the way?" Darien asks very innocently. "Just a memory of the past that has its ghost that like to haunt me." Serena tells him as she gets up. "Lets go eat." Serena adds as she walks over to the door. "Okay" Darien says getting up from her bed.
^Raye's POV^ *I wonder what is taking Darien so long to get Serena? I hope she'll be okay. I really think Lita and Jade went overboard earlier and now look at how it's effecting her mentally and hopefully not physically. And what the hell is that music?!* Raye says getting up as she keeps hearing some kind of soft melodramatic music coming from Serena's bathroom.
She opens the door and hears the music coming from in here. "Oooo, I'm guessing Serena was listening to this while she took her bathroom earlier." Raye mutters to herself. "Yea I was actually. It's the only classical I'll actually listen to." Says a voice behind her. "Oh, Serena. I just heard the music and just came to see what it was." Raye stammers. "It's okay. I actually came in here to turn it off as well, once I remembered I still left it on repeat." Serena says giggling to herself as she reaches over and pushes a button making the room become very silent. "You listen to classical music, Serena?" Darien asks with an amused look on his face.
*This should be interesting. Serena and Darien, in a room together I don't think is a good combination if you want peace.* Raye says to herself as she laughs inwardly.
"It's the only c.d. of classical music I like. But yes I listen to other music besides Rock from time-to-time." Serena tells him with a raised eyebrow that almost gave off the impression that she was almost daring you to say anything else about it. "I prefer Jazz myself, but there are a few classical composers that are okay." He says to her as he leans against the doorframe.
*Am I hearing this conversation correctly or do they just agree on something together! This has got to be a miracle, if not then it's amazing at least.*
"Jazz is okay but I can't stand the ones with all of the singing." She says as she ruffles her nose up in disgust but in a playful way at the same time.
"Can we eat and finish this conversation then?" Raye asks butting in. "I suppose" Serena says as she walks past Darien and brushes past him.
*This is getting amusing if not funny.*
^Serena's POV^ *What is it about him that has me acting like this around him? Damn him and his.his whatever it is he has that's making me act this way!* Serena says as she seats down with Raye and Darien at her kitchen table. "Serena, where are the plates at?" Raye asks as she begins to look for them. "Hmm..I think Lita puts them beside the dishwasher normally." Serena says as she gets up to get a bottle of water. "Is that all you ever drink?" Darien asks as he watches her. "No, I just haven't gone shopping in a while." Serena tells him as she seats back down. "I guess the makes since, but how come all you do have is water?" Darien asks
*His starting to annoy me! Why is he so damn persistent?*
"Because water is good for you and soda rots out your teeth, milk spoils too quickly, and I'm not much of a fan for tea." Serena says as she grabs a piece of pizza. "So you basically drink nothing but water?" Darien asks with a raised eyebrow. "Yea, well except when I go out with the girls and Sammy, but that's different conversation." Serena replies waving her hand as if to get rid of that comment. "Here's the plates." Raye says as she gives each of them one. "Thanks" Serena says as she begins to eat her pizza. "So how did you know that delivery guy?" Raye asks as she bites into her own pizza. "He was my ex-boyfriends friend but when he..let's just say heard some things he..helped me and ever since then his been really protective of me and we're still kinda close." Serena tells him as she finishes off her 2nd piece of pizza. "What kind of things did he hear? It must have been really horrible." Raye asks. "Umm..I'm not sure." Serena lies as she stands up to put her plate in the sink. "Whose Dylan?" Darien asks with a piece of pizza in his hand. "My ex-boyfriend." Serena says with yet another wave of her hand. "I'm going to bed." Serena tells them as she walks off.
*Why must I always be reminded of what a complete and total moron I was and still am in my love life? I know I'm not perfect but god, why does everybody like to taunt me!* Serena says and demands to herself as she crawls into her bed and under the covers only to fall asleep to a dreamless sleep.
Well here it is. Let me know how yea like it by reviewing. I hoped you like it ~_*
^Darien's POV^ *Why is she so clamed up? I wish she would let me in, maybe I could ask her friends or Jade. Why is she making me feel this way about her?!*
Darien seats down with a group of his friends as he ponders over this very questions.
"Hey Dar" someone says to him as it jolts him back from his thoughts. "Yea?" he asked not really in the mood for talking. "What's wrong with you?" asks Raye as she seats down beside him. "Just thinking" he replies. "About Serena?" she asks with a smirk on her face. "No" he tells her, although not able to lie very well. "Liar! You are to." She says with her smirk getting bigger.
"What do you want?!" he asks trying to change the subject.
*How come Serena is so...so what? Serena is just something different. But could this 'different' be a good thing for me or a bad thing? She seems so hard-core, yet when you look in her eyes, you can tell it's just a front for something. But what is this /something/? I want to know, no, I need to know!*
"Darien!" Raye yells into his ear. "What!" he says as he stands up. "What has got you spacing out so much?" she asks suspiciously. "None of your business." He tells her, then turns around, and leaves, intent on trying to figure out his feelings and his thoughts and hopefully maybe some answers.
^Serena's POV^ *Why am I letting him get to me like this? I shouldn't, I couldn't let my heart suffer another heartbreak. I couldn't handle it. When Sammy gets here, I'm going to ask his advice. He'll know what to do!*
She decides to herself and just in time, for the race had just started and speeds down still trying to contemplate everything that had happened between her and Darien moments ago.
*He really meant what he said, but he could just be lying and fooling me. His words were sincere and he did make me feel guilty for once in my life about something. I couldn't let him in my head or life like his wanting to do, but he was just trying to help, it's not as if he knows about my past. Maybe I should let him a little bit.*
She begins to think as she finally begins to approach the finish line, but is then cut off by Andrew, who was grinning at her.
"Oh Hell NO!" Serena screams as she speeds toward him. "Serena, what's going on?" came Ami's anxious voice out of the communication piece. "Andrew just swerved in front of me!" Serena yells as she tries to come up with a plan on beating Andrew.
"Why don't you just run him off the road?" a guys voice over the piece. "Who the hell are you and how did you get on this frequency?" Serena says as she contemplates her newest dilemma. "First of all you need to calm down. This is Darien and I got Ami's communication piece." Said his voice with a little bit to much calmness that it was starting to annoy her. "Darien, how the hell am I going to calm down when I have Mr. Grinning -N- Lucky in front of me and you in my ear, not to mention the race is almost over!" Serena yells as actually begins to speed up without realizing it. "You're over reacting way too much and plus you're speeding up, more." Darien told her while trying to get her to take her mind off the race. "I am! Oh, FUCK!" Serena says as she finally notices it and then notices how. "Damn, why does this have to happen now of all days!" Serena says as she tries to slow down gradually and which of course made Andrew ram into her and spin around uncontrollably. "Serena, you just won, so calm down." Darien tells her, "I can't slow down. I accidentally released one of my NOS canisters without realizing it. I have 4 miles left, before I can slow down without blowing my self and 2 feet of whatever is around me to dust." Serena tells him monotonously. "Do what?! Comes another voice over the piece. "Yea, and who are you?" Serena asks starting to become really annoyed. "Sere, how much NOS was in the tank?" comes to same voice, again. "Hmmm, about .4 or 5 things which is about 5 to 6 miles worth." Serena says as she calculates how much she put in them last time she got some. "Okay, I'll call the guys and get them to help you." He tells her. After finally realizing who it is, "NO, Jade! You can't do that! If the people here knew who you were and what you do then, you wont be able to come back and I'll probably never be able to show my face around here!" Serena shouts to him as she redirects her car onto a deserted piece of highway. "Jade, get the girls to follow me and I'll lead them to where I am. They can follow me until I finally run out. Okay? Jade, chill don't worry about me. I'm a big girl now and can take care of myself. So just get them already." Serena tells him as she swerves back around.
^Raye's POV^ *What the hell is going on? Why is Serena yelling at Darien the way she is? She just won the race, so why is it that she's still going and at that speed and what the hell is up with that look on Darien's face?!*
Raye asks herself as she begins to walk over to the panic filled looking group.
"Lita, what's going on?" Raye asked curious. "Serena accidentally let one of her canisters of NOS out and so now she's got to run it out before she can do anything else." Lita tells her as she tries to listen to somebody. "Oh kay. How come she can't just shut-off her car?" Raye asks even more confused. "Well, if she was to shut-off her car, then it would cause her car to blowup and everything from 2 miles around her as well to blowup." Lita tells her as she turns around and begins to yell at Jade for whatever he just said,
"Lita, Lita. I'm only doing what I think is best for Serena." Raye hears Jade tell Lita while waving his hands in defeat. "You're not doing that. I don't care who or what your rank is. I'll personally pull you down a few ranks, if you catch my drift if you even put that call through and believe me Serena will help in that one." Lita says as she glares at Jade with a fiery intent on winning.
*I'd hate to make her made.*
"Girls, Serena wants you to follow her until her NOS runs out." Jade finally tells them and as soon as those words left his mouth Ami, Lita, and Mina went into there cars and raced after there out of control leader.
^Darien's POV^ *What does Jade do that is so terrible that it has Serena acting like that. How is it that Serena didn't realize that she had set one of her NOS canisters lose? I would have thought that she would be more careful and conscious than that.* Darien thinks to himself as he goes over to his slick pitch-black car.
"Darien, I'm coming with you." He hears Raye say as she slides into the passenger seat. "Okay" he mumbles as he thinks over his last 2 thoughts over in his mind.
^Serena's POV^ *How the hell did my NOS canister get activated? I didn't push either one of the buttons. I'm going to have to get Ami to help me recheck the circuitry.* Serena says to herself just as a voice comes on the line.
"Serena, we're behind you. What do you have planned?" Ami asks as she pulls up behind Serena's car. "Well, I figured I'd just either flip my car or run out of NOS and hope I don't blow up at going at such a break necking speed." Serena says to Ami.
"Let's wait for everybody else to get here and then we'll come up with a plan." Ami tells her just as Lita, Mina, Jade and a black car drives up to them.
"Guys, what do you think I should do?" Serena asks as soon as she sees them in her rearview mirror. "What are /you/ thinking on doing?" Jade asks a little skeptically. "Ummm..you're not going to like it, none of you." Serena mumbles as she turns off the music. "What is it?" Darien's voice asks. "Umm...flipping my car in a pile of sand and detaching my NOS circuitry." Serena says under her breath. "Do what!" Lita shouts, "I don't think so. Last time you tried flipping it caused for you to seriously damage you're car, which if your mind is still working was only last year and also caused for you to break your arm." Lita tells her with horror evident in her voice. "Lita, I know what I'm doing and what went wrong last time." Serena tells her as she approaches a nearing sand pile. "Sere, if you do it, then..I don't know, but you won't like it. I can assure you of that." Jade says smoothly. "Same here" Lita says with hysterics evident in her voice. "Okay, then I'll live with it." Serena says with hot water starting to slip down her flawless face, and then with those last words said, she flips her car..
An hour later, Serena finds herself seating in Darien's car. *I can't believe I just gave up my friendship with Lita and Jade is probably so disappointed in me. How do I let myself get into this kind of situations?!* Serena asks herself as she seats in Darien's car with Raye driving her to her house while Darien drives her car.
"Serena, just so you know, I-" Raye begins to say, but Serena cuts her off. "I know what you're about to say and I don't car if your disappointed in me. It's the only thing that was logical at that time." Serena says as she stares out the window and lets a teardrop, it was the second time she cried that day. "No, No Serena, I was going to say that I was very impressed that you're willing to sacrifice your life just for the people around you even if you lose a few in the end. I'm not disappointed in you at the least. It makes me proud to say that you're my friend." Raye says as she looks at her with eyes gleaming of admiration. "I'm glade you think so and we just passed my house." Serena says with a smirk on her face. "Oops" Raye says as she turns around and then parks into the guest slot of Serena's apartment building. "Thanks Raye." Serena says as she steps out of the car. "Don't worry about it." Raye says waving her hand at the comment. "Okay." Serena says shrugging as she starts to make her way to the door of the elevator. "Do you want to come in while you wait for Darien?" Serena asks with a far away voice. "Sure" Raye answers as she follows Serena up the stairs to her apartment. "I'm going to take me a bath, so you can do whatever, kay?" Serena says as she makes her way down her hall.
*Why do I always have to lose those closest to me because of something I do and then try to come to peace with it, but always end up letting it eat me alive. Is this normal? Damn, why do I always go through the breakdowns around here!*
Serena thinks as she gets her robe and goes into the bathroom. She then puts in the only classical music c.d. she has into her c.d. player and draws her a scalding hot bath and puts nighttime smelling salts into her tube and lights up candles all around her and then takes off her soiled clothes, puts them in the hamper, and slips into the water letting the music and smells of the room take away her troubles for the time being.
^Raye's POV^ *I can't believe that Lita and Jade would do that to her. She looks so heart broken over it but is afraid to show it. I'm glade that Ami and Mina went with them to smooth things over. I wonder what Jade does for a living that would make Lita react the way she did earlier?* Raye asks this as she seats down on the couch in Serena's living room and turns on the T.V.
A few minutes later a knock comes from Serena's front door. "Hello?" Raye asks in her most polite voice she could manage as she looked in through the peephole "Raye, it's me Darien" said a familiar guy's voice. "You sure about that?" Raye asked with an amused tone in her voice. "Ha, Ha very funny!" Darien said as he walked in. "Where's Serena?" Darien asks as he looked around the room. "She went to take a bath a couple of minutes ago. Darien you wouldn't believe how broken up she is over what Lita and Jade did. I actually saw a tear slip down her cheek and then she went onto saying the she didn't care if I was disappointed in her. If anything we should admire her." Raye said as she went into the kitchen as grabbed a bottle of water. "Damn, Darien. This girl has almost nothing in her refrigerator, except some eggs, a few candy bars, some take-out, and a self filled of water." Raye exclaims as she eyes the refrigerator. "I would have thought that someone with her appetite would have a refrigerator filled with food." Darien says as he looks in it behind Raye. "I know it." Raye says as she grabs Darien a bottle of water and go back into the living room.
^Serena's POV^ Serena finally got out of the relaxing bath and with the classical music, still playing put her robe on and blew out all of the wonderfully scented candles. She walked into her room and put on a pair of cloth shorts and a tank top and then made her way back into the bathroom.
*Why do I always put myself through this?* is all that ran through her mind as she brushed her hair out and put it up on top of her head and into a bun. After standing there and looking in the mirror for who knows how long finally went out to the living planning on just blasting her classical music throughout the apartment and wallow in her misery at losing her best friend and cousin in one swift movement of a steering wheel.
"Hey Serena, are you feeling better?" came Raye's worried filled voice. "Yea, I'm better." Serena said as she tried to smile but only was only able to give a weak one. "I'm going to order something to eat? Anything special you're craving?" Serena asked as she grabbed the phone. "Is pizza okay with you girls?" Darien asks as he walked out the guest hallway. "I guess" Serena shrugged as she began to dial the closest pizza place's number. "Anything special on it?" Serena asks as she listened to it ring. "Pepperoni and Cheese" Raye answered with a knowing smiles laced in worry and concern. "Okay" Serena replies as she curls up into her chair that's placed into the living room.
"Hello, yes I'd like to place an order." She says with a polite voice that she rarely uses. "Mike, just send a large of my usual." "No, No Dylan hasn't tried anything." "Yea, I will. In fact his coming in sometime next week." "Don't worry. I wont forget t tell him" "Yea, but I also want a large Pepperoni and Cheese as well." "Okay, see you then." Serena says smiling for once since she got home and hung up the phone.
"The pizza should be here in about 10-15 minutes." Serena said shrugging at their looks. "Okay" Raye says as she looks at her sorrow filled eyes. "Serena, why don't you talk to us about it?" Raye told her as she kept looking at her eyes.
*HA, you expect for me to tell YOU. No, not while his in here. I think I'd rather wallow in my misery alone and I don't want pity from nobody.* Serena says to herself as she looks at Raye's worried and concerned face.
"It's okay." Serena says as she gets up, "I'll be back in a minute. " she adds as she walks into her bedroom.
*How come she shows concern for me when I almost killed myself over something I did? Why do I just want to spill my guts to her? And /him/ standing there looking at me with those gorgeous eyes with that look in his eyes. Did I just say 'gorgeous'? O hell, his got gorgeous eyes and a tight ass.* Serena says with a smile as she thinks of his ass.
Serena then makes her way to the bed and plops down on it as she curls herself up in a protective ball as she thinks over what has happened in the past hour or so. "How can I do this to myself?" Serena whispers to herself.
"Serena, the pizzas here." comes Darien's voice from the door. "O-Okay" Serena says in a choked up voice. "Are you okay?" he asks worried obvious in his voice. "Yea-Yea, why wouldn't I b-be o-okay?" Serena says as she lets another tear slip down her cheek. "Because I just saw a tear run down you cheek and you can barely talk without choking on your own words." Comes Darien's amused voice in her ear.
"What do you want?" Serena asks wiping away the obvious tears that are threaten to spill. "I did just want to come out and eat, but now I want to make sure you're going to be okay" Darien says seriously as she feels him seat down beside him. "I'll be okay. It's not like this is the first time I've disappointed somebody." Serena tells him with another weak smile.
*It's not my first nor will it be my last. I wish I knew what to do in situations so I would stop disappointing people!* Serena says to herself as she curled up tighter without realizing it.
"What do you mean?" Darien asks as he wraps her in his arms and pulls her closer to him. "I've always disappointed somebody my whole life." Serena tells him plainly. "Like how?" "Like when I was 13 and ran away. I didn't go home for 4 months and I knew my parents were worried about me, but I didn't call or do anything to let them know I was okay. When I finally did go home, only because Molly and Melvin told me to, I saw the disappoint etched into their faces. I could barley stand being in the same room, let alone the same house." Serena tells him as she silently begins to cry. "It's okay Serena, they were probably just worried about you, and what you saw on their faces wasn't disappointment but concern, worry, fear, and many other emotions that were splayed onto there faces." He tells her quietly as he rubs her back soothingly to calm her down. "I don't know, this all happened such a long time I barely remember there faces, except the feeling that I had really messed up this time." She said as she tried to wipe the tears away that started to slip down her face but to no avail.
*This is stupid. Why am I telling my past to /him/ and /him/ of all people! His comforting me, which is something that nobody has ever done to me and.and I like it. Maybe it wouldn't be such a bad idea to keep him around.* Serena says as she smiles slightly to herself as she lets Darien comfort her.
^Darien's POV^ *She's actually telling me something about her life and of her own will. I wonder she was so reluctant at first to do it? I like the feel of her in my arms. I hope the whole thing between Lita and Jade gets resolved and quickly since it seems to have taken quit a big toll on her mentally.* Darien says to himself as he keeps consoling her as she actually cries on his shoulder.
"Serena?" Darien asks a few minutes after she has stopped sobbing. "Yea" Serena asks as she looks up at him.
*She has such beautiful eyes and she looks so innocent but behind her little façade I know she isn't as innocent but still is in a sense* Darien quickly thinks to himself.
"Are you feeling better? You really should eat something." He says looking at her. "I'm much, thanks Darien. It feels so much better to have my feelings out in the open for once." Serena says as she snuggles closer to him for warmth. "You've never told anybody about you running away?" Darien asks with a raised eyebrow. "Will Mina and Ami are the ones that rescued me from that life and Lita just kinda already knew what I was feeling and I haven't talked to Molly or Melvin since I found out that they /finally/ got married and are now living in New York City and Melvin is an employee of some financial corporation and Molly has had at least one kid by now." Serena says with a small blissful smile at the mention of Molly have a kid. "What about this /Sammy/ or Jade?" Darien asks in wonderment. "Well Sammy is only 4 years younger than me so at the time he was only 11 and didn't really know what was going on and still doesn't and I don't want him to know what I went through while he a childhood. Jade didn't know me then. I didn't get close to him until I was about 18 or 19 and I started going out with Dylan." Serena says tight lip. "Who is this Dylan by the way?" Darien asks very innocently. "Just a memory of the past that has its ghost that like to haunt me." Serena tells him as she gets up. "Lets go eat." Serena adds as she walks over to the door. "Okay" Darien says getting up from her bed.
^Raye's POV^ *I wonder what is taking Darien so long to get Serena? I hope she'll be okay. I really think Lita and Jade went overboard earlier and now look at how it's effecting her mentally and hopefully not physically. And what the hell is that music?!* Raye says getting up as she keeps hearing some kind of soft melodramatic music coming from Serena's bathroom.
She opens the door and hears the music coming from in here. "Oooo, I'm guessing Serena was listening to this while she took her bathroom earlier." Raye mutters to herself. "Yea I was actually. It's the only classical I'll actually listen to." Says a voice behind her. "Oh, Serena. I just heard the music and just came to see what it was." Raye stammers. "It's okay. I actually came in here to turn it off as well, once I remembered I still left it on repeat." Serena says giggling to herself as she reaches over and pushes a button making the room become very silent. "You listen to classical music, Serena?" Darien asks with an amused look on his face.
*This should be interesting. Serena and Darien, in a room together I don't think is a good combination if you want peace.* Raye says to herself as she laughs inwardly.
"It's the only c.d. of classical music I like. But yes I listen to other music besides Rock from time-to-time." Serena tells him with a raised eyebrow that almost gave off the impression that she was almost daring you to say anything else about it. "I prefer Jazz myself, but there are a few classical composers that are okay." He says to her as he leans against the doorframe.
*Am I hearing this conversation correctly or do they just agree on something together! This has got to be a miracle, if not then it's amazing at least.*
"Jazz is okay but I can't stand the ones with all of the singing." She says as she ruffles her nose up in disgust but in a playful way at the same time.
"Can we eat and finish this conversation then?" Raye asks butting in. "I suppose" Serena says as she walks past Darien and brushes past him.
*This is getting amusing if not funny.*
^Serena's POV^ *What is it about him that has me acting like this around him? Damn him and his.his whatever it is he has that's making me act this way!* Serena says as she seats down with Raye and Darien at her kitchen table. "Serena, where are the plates at?" Raye asks as she begins to look for them. "Hmm..I think Lita puts them beside the dishwasher normally." Serena says as she gets up to get a bottle of water. "Is that all you ever drink?" Darien asks as he watches her. "No, I just haven't gone shopping in a while." Serena tells him as she seats back down. "I guess the makes since, but how come all you do have is water?" Darien asks
*His starting to annoy me! Why is he so damn persistent?*
"Because water is good for you and soda rots out your teeth, milk spoils too quickly, and I'm not much of a fan for tea." Serena says as she grabs a piece of pizza. "So you basically drink nothing but water?" Darien asks with a raised eyebrow. "Yea, well except when I go out with the girls and Sammy, but that's different conversation." Serena replies waving her hand as if to get rid of that comment. "Here's the plates." Raye says as she gives each of them one. "Thanks" Serena says as she begins to eat her pizza. "So how did you know that delivery guy?" Raye asks as she bites into her own pizza. "He was my ex-boyfriends friend but when he..let's just say heard some things he..helped me and ever since then his been really protective of me and we're still kinda close." Serena tells him as she finishes off her 2nd piece of pizza. "What kind of things did he hear? It must have been really horrible." Raye asks. "Umm..I'm not sure." Serena lies as she stands up to put her plate in the sink. "Whose Dylan?" Darien asks with a piece of pizza in his hand. "My ex-boyfriend." Serena says with yet another wave of her hand. "I'm going to bed." Serena tells them as she walks off.
*Why must I always be reminded of what a complete and total moron I was and still am in my love life? I know I'm not perfect but god, why does everybody like to taunt me!* Serena says and demands to herself as she crawls into her bed and under the covers only to fall asleep to a dreamless sleep.
Well here it is. Let me know how yea like it by reviewing. I hoped you like it ~_*