Russian Roulette
Chapter 10: One Sided-Emotions
Kurama's Point Of View
" Hey Kurama." Hiei smiled, sitting next to me at lunch.
" Hey Hiei. What's up?" I asked him.
" I missed you lately." He said, taking my hand.
" Hiei, we're in public."
" So what?"
" Remember what I told you yesterday."
" It's so hard for me! I always have to wait until there is nobody around."
" Well, I don't want rumors spread about me."
" Who cares what other people think?"
" I do."
" What a crappy way to live?"
" Well how would you like it if people made fun of you because you're gay! People in the world just don't magically accept things."
" Where is all this coming from? It's not my fault you are too scared to do what YOU want and you just live by how everybody sees you."
" I don't know any other way to live."
" Oh that's bullshit."
" You're acting weird today."
" Acting weird? Hello, you're the one acting weird. We're supposed to be dating and yet I always have to wait until afterschool to even look at you lovingly."
" Well, don't make a big deal out of this."
" Out of what!? Me loving you and you don't even seem to care about my feelings!"
" Hiei!" I yelled. He left the room quickly. I passed that thought away, I had a test to study for. I hadn't seen Hiei since. It was afterschool when Yukina came running towards me teary-eyed.
" Kurama, where is Hiei? I can't find him anywhere." She sniffled.
" What happened?"
" I just don't know where he is. I am supposed to go spend the night at my friend's house today and I wanted to let Hiei know and I looked everywhere."
" I think I know where he is. Go on with your friends, I'll go find him and tell him."
" Thank you Kurama." Yukina smiled, running off to the front gate. I went up to the third floor and to one of the balconies. There was Hiei, looking out into the sunset. His hand was dripping blood and a pole next to him was beaten and dented. I winced as I noticed the blood was dripping over the balcony.
" Hiei---"
" You don't love me, do you?" He said in a dry voice.
" It's not that Hiei, I am just scared."
" Of what? Everybody's scared of me. I'm sick and twisted. Even my own father was scared of me."
" F-father?" I said. This is the first time Hiei had mensioned his father, second time he mensioned his parents.
" I don't want to talk about that."
" I'm scared...because I don't know what love is. What is it? Is it that smile I get when I am around you? Is it those urges to want to hug you? Is it those butterflies I get when I know I am going to see you? You're special to me Hiei. I just...don't know how to show it."
" Kurama...?"
" What?"
" That was some of the most romantic stuff anybody has ever even thought to say to me." He smiled.
" It's what you get when you have an A in creative writing."
" That stuff you said, it didn't come from learning Kurama. It came from your heart." He said. I held him close from behind and wrapped my arms around his neck and held him close.
" How about we go to my house and bandage your hand?"
" I know! How about I show you where I live?" Hiei smiled. I had never seen him so excited. We agreed and walked over to his house. I started to get worried because the farther we walked, the more dark it became and the more dirty the area was. I didn't even know there was a part of the city like this. He walked up three cement stairs and put a key into a ragged door and turned it. He opened the door, the door creaked. The inside was a bit dusty, but it was still clean. There was a small refridgerator in the corner and a cabinet full of ramen and a large bag of rice. There were two futons in the living room and a tiny 10 inch TV. In the second room there was a table and a washer and dryer and a sink with a bathroom attached. Hiei lived...here?
" It's not much is it?" He smiled.
" So that's why you never wanted me to come over?"
" Yeah, Yukina and I are poor."
" I would have never guess." I smiled.
" It's not bad though. Welfare pays for our rent, our bills and our intuition."
" So you use your money from working for food and clothes?"
" Yeah. Weird, I thought you'd be all upset or something."
" I'm not upset. I just wish you would have told me earlier."
" I was nervous. Hey, Yukina should be home."
" She is spending the night at her friend's house." I said, blushing a little bit.
" Why are you blushing? Are you getting nervous?" He said, laughing.
" No." I growled.
" How about you spend the night?" He grinned.
" Oh...maybe I could..."
" Good." He smiled, laying on top of me. I blushed red as he laid his lips on top of mine softly. He removed my shirt and and he removed his as well and we kissed, laying on the futons. I could feel his hands tracing my stomach slowly. I kept my arms around his waist. I felt my pants become loose as he unbuttoned them.
" Hiei..." I groaned.
" It's okay. I'll be nice." He grinned.
I woke up the next morning with Hiei in my arms, the smell of him was amazing, his spiky black hair mixed over the pillows with mine. For some reason, I felt released. I remembered last night so well. I got up quickly and put on my pants. Hiei got up as well and put his pants on too.
" You want some food?" Hiei asked me.
" Sure. What do you have?"
" Ramen."
" And...?"
" That's all I have. Don't tell me last night was so good you forgot I was poor."
" Very funny." I sighed, hugging him.
" You can go up take a shower while I made us some breakfast if you want." He offered.
" It's alright."
" I'm glad you stayed over." He smiled.
" Yeah, just so you could do me."
" Damn it, who told you?" He said calmly. I smacked him over the head.
" I'm not just a play thing." I growled.
" But seriously, thank you. You were so good." He said, licking his lips. I blushed and ran off to the bathroom.
" You bastard!! You won't let me see you blush again! You probably don't even have to go to the bathroom. I know what you're doing!! You nuaghty, naughty boy!!" He yelled.
A/N: Amazing Couple, no? ^__^. Brings a tear to my eye seeing them get along so well. Await for the next chapter!!
-paisley-
Chapter 10: One Sided-Emotions
Kurama's Point Of View
" Hey Kurama." Hiei smiled, sitting next to me at lunch.
" Hey Hiei. What's up?" I asked him.
" I missed you lately." He said, taking my hand.
" Hiei, we're in public."
" So what?"
" Remember what I told you yesterday."
" It's so hard for me! I always have to wait until there is nobody around."
" Well, I don't want rumors spread about me."
" Who cares what other people think?"
" I do."
" What a crappy way to live?"
" Well how would you like it if people made fun of you because you're gay! People in the world just don't magically accept things."
" Where is all this coming from? It's not my fault you are too scared to do what YOU want and you just live by how everybody sees you."
" I don't know any other way to live."
" Oh that's bullshit."
" You're acting weird today."
" Acting weird? Hello, you're the one acting weird. We're supposed to be dating and yet I always have to wait until afterschool to even look at you lovingly."
" Well, don't make a big deal out of this."
" Out of what!? Me loving you and you don't even seem to care about my feelings!"
" Hiei!" I yelled. He left the room quickly. I passed that thought away, I had a test to study for. I hadn't seen Hiei since. It was afterschool when Yukina came running towards me teary-eyed.
" Kurama, where is Hiei? I can't find him anywhere." She sniffled.
" What happened?"
" I just don't know where he is. I am supposed to go spend the night at my friend's house today and I wanted to let Hiei know and I looked everywhere."
" I think I know where he is. Go on with your friends, I'll go find him and tell him."
" Thank you Kurama." Yukina smiled, running off to the front gate. I went up to the third floor and to one of the balconies. There was Hiei, looking out into the sunset. His hand was dripping blood and a pole next to him was beaten and dented. I winced as I noticed the blood was dripping over the balcony.
" Hiei---"
" You don't love me, do you?" He said in a dry voice.
" It's not that Hiei, I am just scared."
" Of what? Everybody's scared of me. I'm sick and twisted. Even my own father was scared of me."
" F-father?" I said. This is the first time Hiei had mensioned his father, second time he mensioned his parents.
" I don't want to talk about that."
" I'm scared...because I don't know what love is. What is it? Is it that smile I get when I am around you? Is it those urges to want to hug you? Is it those butterflies I get when I know I am going to see you? You're special to me Hiei. I just...don't know how to show it."
" Kurama...?"
" What?"
" That was some of the most romantic stuff anybody has ever even thought to say to me." He smiled.
" It's what you get when you have an A in creative writing."
" That stuff you said, it didn't come from learning Kurama. It came from your heart." He said. I held him close from behind and wrapped my arms around his neck and held him close.
" How about we go to my house and bandage your hand?"
" I know! How about I show you where I live?" Hiei smiled. I had never seen him so excited. We agreed and walked over to his house. I started to get worried because the farther we walked, the more dark it became and the more dirty the area was. I didn't even know there was a part of the city like this. He walked up three cement stairs and put a key into a ragged door and turned it. He opened the door, the door creaked. The inside was a bit dusty, but it was still clean. There was a small refridgerator in the corner and a cabinet full of ramen and a large bag of rice. There were two futons in the living room and a tiny 10 inch TV. In the second room there was a table and a washer and dryer and a sink with a bathroom attached. Hiei lived...here?
" It's not much is it?" He smiled.
" So that's why you never wanted me to come over?"
" Yeah, Yukina and I are poor."
" I would have never guess." I smiled.
" It's not bad though. Welfare pays for our rent, our bills and our intuition."
" So you use your money from working for food and clothes?"
" Yeah. Weird, I thought you'd be all upset or something."
" I'm not upset. I just wish you would have told me earlier."
" I was nervous. Hey, Yukina should be home."
" She is spending the night at her friend's house." I said, blushing a little bit.
" Why are you blushing? Are you getting nervous?" He said, laughing.
" No." I growled.
" How about you spend the night?" He grinned.
" Oh...maybe I could..."
" Good." He smiled, laying on top of me. I blushed red as he laid his lips on top of mine softly. He removed my shirt and and he removed his as well and we kissed, laying on the futons. I could feel his hands tracing my stomach slowly. I kept my arms around his waist. I felt my pants become loose as he unbuttoned them.
" Hiei..." I groaned.
" It's okay. I'll be nice." He grinned.
I woke up the next morning with Hiei in my arms, the smell of him was amazing, his spiky black hair mixed over the pillows with mine. For some reason, I felt released. I remembered last night so well. I got up quickly and put on my pants. Hiei got up as well and put his pants on too.
" You want some food?" Hiei asked me.
" Sure. What do you have?"
" Ramen."
" And...?"
" That's all I have. Don't tell me last night was so good you forgot I was poor."
" Very funny." I sighed, hugging him.
" You can go up take a shower while I made us some breakfast if you want." He offered.
" It's alright."
" I'm glad you stayed over." He smiled.
" Yeah, just so you could do me."
" Damn it, who told you?" He said calmly. I smacked him over the head.
" I'm not just a play thing." I growled.
" But seriously, thank you. You were so good." He said, licking his lips. I blushed and ran off to the bathroom.
" You bastard!! You won't let me see you blush again! You probably don't even have to go to the bathroom. I know what you're doing!! You nuaghty, naughty boy!!" He yelled.
A/N: Amazing Couple, no? ^__^. Brings a tear to my eye seeing them get along so well. Await for the next chapter!!
-paisley-