Russian Roulette
Chapter 17: Not Good Enough
Kurama's Point Of View
Hiei had been quiet and in a depressing mood for the past few days. He had been very artistic and had been writing alot. Something was wrong with him but he wouldn't tell me. He was trying to let go of some unwanted feelings, which was probably the reason for his creativity burst all of a sudden. He had been staying at my house more often and would get this sorrow filled look when he looked at me or when I told him to tell me what was wrong with him. I decided it was for the best if I just let him tell me gradually.
" Hiei, what are you drawing?"
" Something."
" But what is it?"
" You'll see. It's for you."
" Really?"
" Yeah." He nodded. He kept glancing between my vase of roses and the raindropped window.
" It's weird, yesterday it was really hot and now it's cold and rainy. I was hoping we could do something today."
" I like it when it rains."
" Really? Why?"
" Well, it reminds me of my mom's anniversary, which is in three days."
" It is?"
" Yeah, maybe I'll take you with me and we'll both go." He smiled. This was the first time Hiei had even cracked a smile. It was nice to see him look happy, which was a turn of events from his usual sadness, even if he was thinking about his mother.
" You're cute when you smile." I smiled back, hoping that'd get him. He blushed a little bit, but moved his drawing board above his face so I couldn't see him. " And you said you cut my hair off if I did that again. Now look at you."
" I'm not hiding underneath my hair, and I'm not blushing." He denyed, substaining his laughter of the memory when he told me that.
" Yes, you are. Don't hide it. I can hear it in your voice." I hissed. I took the drawing board out of his hand and placed it face down, I knew he didn't want me to see it yet. I kissed him very slowly on the lips, savoring him and his temporary warmth. He twitched and I held in my urges. I slowly laid on top of him and took both of his hands in either of mine, kissing him in the most polite yet romantic ways.
" Kurama..." He whispered.
" Be quiet koibito." I whispered back.
We were in our world when we were like this, close, quiet, only thinking about one another. I felt a weird disturbance in the room. Coming from the left, I peaked my eyes open as I passionately kissed Hiei and there was Suuichi at the door. I jumped off Hiei instantly.
" Suuichi! What are you doing!?" I yelled. My stomach dropped, we had been caught.
" That's my question. What are you two just doing?" He asked in a childlike tone.
" Get out of my room!"
" I'm telling." He said, rushing downstairs. For some reason I couldn't get up, I was stuck, glued to the floor in a way. Hiei moved over to me and hugged me, not saying a word.
" Suuichi Minamino!" My step-father thundered, slamming his foot into my bedroom door. " What were you two doing?"
" They were kissing dad! I saw them!" Suuichi said from the doorway next to my mother.
" No, we weren't." Hiei said, trying to keep Hiei and I from getting into trouble. I think lying just made it worst.
" That's disgusting. And in MY house! I don't need two fifteen year old boys making out and doing each other in MY house!"
" But..."
" Calm down honey." Mother whispered from the doorway.
" Calm down! It's partly your fault! Look, your only son is a fag!" He yelled. These words stabbed me hard, I can understand why Hiei made such a big deal out of it.
" Don't say that." Mother said. I broke down crying while Hiei held me close.
" And if he was going to be gay, he could have at least found a guy that was a bit taller and maybe not gothic." He yelled, talking about Hiei.
" It's Kurama's choice on who he wants to have relationships with, not our own." Mother tried to persuade him for my sake.
" But look at him, he's poor, he's gothic, those chains and spikes, it's disgusting, like I said! And your son has been kissing him and dating him and only God knows what else!" He boomed.
" SHUT UP!" Hiei yelled. " Damn, just rub it in!" Hiei sniffled, standing up.
" What?" He yelled.
" I know I'm not good enough for Kurama!! I hear it every day! From people on the streets, from people at my school, teachers, even my own sister thinks so! It's so hard when you love somebody and nobody approves of you two being together! Looks shouldn't matter!" He yelled. He stood silent for a few seconds and ran out of my room and out of my house into the rain.
" If you weren't 15 and if you had a job, you'd be kicked out of here." My step-dad said as he left my room with an angry tone. I get myself together and started looking for Hiei.
" Hiei!" I yelled, walking out into the rain coated streets. Raindrops soaked me, perfect weather for today's events if I must say. The beads of water ran off my face as I yelled for Hiei, hoping he was near. I soon found him, walking along the streets, wet, cold and blank-faced.
" Hiei, you're soaking wet. Come on, let's take you home." I said, after a few minutes he spoke.
" No." He said.
" What? Why?"
" I don't want you to take me home. I want you to go away." He hissed.
" Hiei, what are you talking about?"
" People are jealous of me, make fun of me and think I am some criminal. All because I go out with you. It's-It's just not worth all of this. I'm sorry Kurama."
" Sorry for what?" I said, knowing was was coming up.
" I-I think we should break up." He whispered. I froze, falling to my knees.
" Hiei, no. I don't want it to be over! Please!"
" I can't. I'm tired...I can't deal with all this anymore." He said, starting to cry as well. He continued walking, leaving me on the curb, praying that this was all just a bad dream.
A/N: OH MY GODDESS!!! What will happen next!? Who knows!? Only me!! Muah Ha Ha!!! This chapter was short...damn...oh well! Just wait for the next chapter!! WHOO!!
Chapter 17: Not Good Enough
Kurama's Point Of View
Hiei had been quiet and in a depressing mood for the past few days. He had been very artistic and had been writing alot. Something was wrong with him but he wouldn't tell me. He was trying to let go of some unwanted feelings, which was probably the reason for his creativity burst all of a sudden. He had been staying at my house more often and would get this sorrow filled look when he looked at me or when I told him to tell me what was wrong with him. I decided it was for the best if I just let him tell me gradually.
" Hiei, what are you drawing?"
" Something."
" But what is it?"
" You'll see. It's for you."
" Really?"
" Yeah." He nodded. He kept glancing between my vase of roses and the raindropped window.
" It's weird, yesterday it was really hot and now it's cold and rainy. I was hoping we could do something today."
" I like it when it rains."
" Really? Why?"
" Well, it reminds me of my mom's anniversary, which is in three days."
" It is?"
" Yeah, maybe I'll take you with me and we'll both go." He smiled. This was the first time Hiei had even cracked a smile. It was nice to see him look happy, which was a turn of events from his usual sadness, even if he was thinking about his mother.
" You're cute when you smile." I smiled back, hoping that'd get him. He blushed a little bit, but moved his drawing board above his face so I couldn't see him. " And you said you cut my hair off if I did that again. Now look at you."
" I'm not hiding underneath my hair, and I'm not blushing." He denyed, substaining his laughter of the memory when he told me that.
" Yes, you are. Don't hide it. I can hear it in your voice." I hissed. I took the drawing board out of his hand and placed it face down, I knew he didn't want me to see it yet. I kissed him very slowly on the lips, savoring him and his temporary warmth. He twitched and I held in my urges. I slowly laid on top of him and took both of his hands in either of mine, kissing him in the most polite yet romantic ways.
" Kurama..." He whispered.
" Be quiet koibito." I whispered back.
We were in our world when we were like this, close, quiet, only thinking about one another. I felt a weird disturbance in the room. Coming from the left, I peaked my eyes open as I passionately kissed Hiei and there was Suuichi at the door. I jumped off Hiei instantly.
" Suuichi! What are you doing!?" I yelled. My stomach dropped, we had been caught.
" That's my question. What are you two just doing?" He asked in a childlike tone.
" Get out of my room!"
" I'm telling." He said, rushing downstairs. For some reason I couldn't get up, I was stuck, glued to the floor in a way. Hiei moved over to me and hugged me, not saying a word.
" Suuichi Minamino!" My step-father thundered, slamming his foot into my bedroom door. " What were you two doing?"
" They were kissing dad! I saw them!" Suuichi said from the doorway next to my mother.
" No, we weren't." Hiei said, trying to keep Hiei and I from getting into trouble. I think lying just made it worst.
" That's disgusting. And in MY house! I don't need two fifteen year old boys making out and doing each other in MY house!"
" But..."
" Calm down honey." Mother whispered from the doorway.
" Calm down! It's partly your fault! Look, your only son is a fag!" He yelled. These words stabbed me hard, I can understand why Hiei made such a big deal out of it.
" Don't say that." Mother said. I broke down crying while Hiei held me close.
" And if he was going to be gay, he could have at least found a guy that was a bit taller and maybe not gothic." He yelled, talking about Hiei.
" It's Kurama's choice on who he wants to have relationships with, not our own." Mother tried to persuade him for my sake.
" But look at him, he's poor, he's gothic, those chains and spikes, it's disgusting, like I said! And your son has been kissing him and dating him and only God knows what else!" He boomed.
" SHUT UP!" Hiei yelled. " Damn, just rub it in!" Hiei sniffled, standing up.
" What?" He yelled.
" I know I'm not good enough for Kurama!! I hear it every day! From people on the streets, from people at my school, teachers, even my own sister thinks so! It's so hard when you love somebody and nobody approves of you two being together! Looks shouldn't matter!" He yelled. He stood silent for a few seconds and ran out of my room and out of my house into the rain.
" If you weren't 15 and if you had a job, you'd be kicked out of here." My step-dad said as he left my room with an angry tone. I get myself together and started looking for Hiei.
" Hiei!" I yelled, walking out into the rain coated streets. Raindrops soaked me, perfect weather for today's events if I must say. The beads of water ran off my face as I yelled for Hiei, hoping he was near. I soon found him, walking along the streets, wet, cold and blank-faced.
" Hiei, you're soaking wet. Come on, let's take you home." I said, after a few minutes he spoke.
" No." He said.
" What? Why?"
" I don't want you to take me home. I want you to go away." He hissed.
" Hiei, what are you talking about?"
" People are jealous of me, make fun of me and think I am some criminal. All because I go out with you. It's-It's just not worth all of this. I'm sorry Kurama."
" Sorry for what?" I said, knowing was was coming up.
" I-I think we should break up." He whispered. I froze, falling to my knees.
" Hiei, no. I don't want it to be over! Please!"
" I can't. I'm tired...I can't deal with all this anymore." He said, starting to cry as well. He continued walking, leaving me on the curb, praying that this was all just a bad dream.
A/N: OH MY GODDESS!!! What will happen next!? Who knows!? Only me!! Muah Ha Ha!!! This chapter was short...damn...oh well! Just wait for the next chapter!! WHOO!!