Russian Roulette
Chapter 22: Genetic Obsession
Hiei's Point Of View
I couldn't believe it! Kurama had cheated on me. I mean, I wouldn't have been AS mad if it had been a totally random girl. But it was my sister. She, of all people. But I did overreact again. I knew Kurama would never do something like they and yet, I still yelled at him anyway. But something opened inside of me that made me release all of my anger at once. I feel like it's not done with me.
" Mother, Yukina kissed Kurama." I confessed, looking at the picture of her beside my bed.
" I know, I shouldn't have gotten as upset as I did." I sighed. I looked away from the picture, staying quiet. I turned back after a few moments of silence. " You want me to stop, don't you." I whispered. " I can't!" I yelled, throwing the picture across to the kitchen, watching as the glass shattered onto the tile floor.
" I can't stop! Not like this!" I said, falling to my knees. I stopped, breathed and laid down for a few minutes, until a familiar knock came at my door.
" Hiei, can I come in?" Kurama's soft voice broke my somewhat ending silence.
" Fine. Open it." I said. I had my back to the door, sitting in the middle of the living room.
" I'm sorry! I didn't kiss Yukina, she kissed me." Kurama blurted out, after closing the door.
" I figured out why. Come up to the roof with me so we can talk." I said, taking his hand and leading him up to the iron roof. It was another bright summer day. I kept hearing Kurama sniffle behind me.
" Stop crying. I'm going to apologize." I smiled, sitting down. I sat him next to me.
" I want to apologize first." Kurama said.
" No, you shouldn't have to apologize at all. I overreacted and made it more of a problem. It's just...you know...I have alot of hatrid for people. Sometimes, when things piss me off, I tend to get very mad. At anything."
" I shouldn't have been talking to Yukina anyway."
" What was she talking to you about?"
" She has been telling me over and over again that I needed to break up with you to save myself. Also because she likes me."
" Okay, first question. Save yourself?"
" She's afraid you're going to kill me."
" Second question. She loves you?"
" Yes, She is jealous that you get to have me. And is trying to break us up to win my love. Strange philosophy, huh?"
" Why would I kill you? You're my only friend, my only lover and my only family. If anything ever happened to you, I'd kill myself." I confessed. It was silent for a while.
" Hiei, you're aren't hurting yourself, are you?"
" Where'd that question come from?"
" I can't question it Hiei. Are you?"
" N-no." He said, pulling on his sleeve.
" Hiei! You are!"
" I was...I mean, I'm trying to stop!" I said, avoiding eye contact.
" What are you doing? Cutting?"
" Who brought this up?"
" I did! Yukina told me you were going insane. I just wanted to ask, I didn't know it was true!"
" I don't want to stop. It's-fun." I confessed, messing with my bangs.
" Fun?"
" Hm. I've been playing Russian Roulette everyday lately. Once a day before I go to bed. It's a trill to play against God, to see if you're going to survive another day. The andrenaline rush is amazing when you pull the trigger and find out God wants to keep you here to suffer one more day." I explained in a deep, chilling voice.
" Hiei?" Kurama said, looking quite scared of me.
" I've been playing since after father died. It's in my genes. I've cheated death so far." I smiled, putting my hands laced on the back of my head.
" Why Hiei!? You have to stop!"
" But then, I started to stop. When you came along. I stopped for you."
" Huh?"
" I can't live without you already being on earth and I can't imagine my like in hell without you either."
" Hiei! You are going insane! Listen to yourself! You've gone crazy! You're addicted to russian roulette! You're going to get yourself killed."
" Isn't that the point!? I wouldn't be doing it if I wasn't going to die! My problems seem to pack onto one another when I get up in the morning! Everyday is another hell! I want to go to hell and see if it's just as bad as it is here!" I yelled, Kurama slapped me.
" How can you say that!?" Kurama yelled as tears rolled down his face. " Does our relationship mean nothing to you this far!? I want to spend my life with you Hiei! Every second of it! I want you by my side when I wake up! When I go to school and we talk in class! When I go back to sleep with you in my arms! I want you there with me through everything! Everything! I don't want to go on without you! Please Hiei! Don't leave me. I don't want you to leave me. Stay...don't go..." He cried, falling to his knees. I knelt down and held him.
" Is that how you've felt about me...this whole time?" I said, wiping my tears.
" Yes. Hiei, I love you more then anything. I want you to be with me forever." Kurama whispered, leaning on me.
" I love you so much Kurama." I whispered, back, holding him tightly. I felt something cold touch the back of my head.
" Don't turn around Hiei. Or I'll blow you're brains out." She whispered.
A/N: DUN DUN DUN!!! I was crying when I wrote Kurama's big speech. This is the third to last chapter people! Two more to go! Two more to go! I should like the demons chanting in the Dark Tournament. Anyway...wait for the next chapter of Russian Roulette!!
Chapter 22: Genetic Obsession
Hiei's Point Of View
I couldn't believe it! Kurama had cheated on me. I mean, I wouldn't have been AS mad if it had been a totally random girl. But it was my sister. She, of all people. But I did overreact again. I knew Kurama would never do something like they and yet, I still yelled at him anyway. But something opened inside of me that made me release all of my anger at once. I feel like it's not done with me.
" Mother, Yukina kissed Kurama." I confessed, looking at the picture of her beside my bed.
" I know, I shouldn't have gotten as upset as I did." I sighed. I looked away from the picture, staying quiet. I turned back after a few moments of silence. " You want me to stop, don't you." I whispered. " I can't!" I yelled, throwing the picture across to the kitchen, watching as the glass shattered onto the tile floor.
" I can't stop! Not like this!" I said, falling to my knees. I stopped, breathed and laid down for a few minutes, until a familiar knock came at my door.
" Hiei, can I come in?" Kurama's soft voice broke my somewhat ending silence.
" Fine. Open it." I said. I had my back to the door, sitting in the middle of the living room.
" I'm sorry! I didn't kiss Yukina, she kissed me." Kurama blurted out, after closing the door.
" I figured out why. Come up to the roof with me so we can talk." I said, taking his hand and leading him up to the iron roof. It was another bright summer day. I kept hearing Kurama sniffle behind me.
" Stop crying. I'm going to apologize." I smiled, sitting down. I sat him next to me.
" I want to apologize first." Kurama said.
" No, you shouldn't have to apologize at all. I overreacted and made it more of a problem. It's just...you know...I have alot of hatrid for people. Sometimes, when things piss me off, I tend to get very mad. At anything."
" I shouldn't have been talking to Yukina anyway."
" What was she talking to you about?"
" She has been telling me over and over again that I needed to break up with you to save myself. Also because she likes me."
" Okay, first question. Save yourself?"
" She's afraid you're going to kill me."
" Second question. She loves you?"
" Yes, She is jealous that you get to have me. And is trying to break us up to win my love. Strange philosophy, huh?"
" Why would I kill you? You're my only friend, my only lover and my only family. If anything ever happened to you, I'd kill myself." I confessed. It was silent for a while.
" Hiei, you're aren't hurting yourself, are you?"
" Where'd that question come from?"
" I can't question it Hiei. Are you?"
" N-no." He said, pulling on his sleeve.
" Hiei! You are!"
" I was...I mean, I'm trying to stop!" I said, avoiding eye contact.
" What are you doing? Cutting?"
" Who brought this up?"
" I did! Yukina told me you were going insane. I just wanted to ask, I didn't know it was true!"
" I don't want to stop. It's-fun." I confessed, messing with my bangs.
" Fun?"
" Hm. I've been playing Russian Roulette everyday lately. Once a day before I go to bed. It's a trill to play against God, to see if you're going to survive another day. The andrenaline rush is amazing when you pull the trigger and find out God wants to keep you here to suffer one more day." I explained in a deep, chilling voice.
" Hiei?" Kurama said, looking quite scared of me.
" I've been playing since after father died. It's in my genes. I've cheated death so far." I smiled, putting my hands laced on the back of my head.
" Why Hiei!? You have to stop!"
" But then, I started to stop. When you came along. I stopped for you."
" Huh?"
" I can't live without you already being on earth and I can't imagine my like in hell without you either."
" Hiei! You are going insane! Listen to yourself! You've gone crazy! You're addicted to russian roulette! You're going to get yourself killed."
" Isn't that the point!? I wouldn't be doing it if I wasn't going to die! My problems seem to pack onto one another when I get up in the morning! Everyday is another hell! I want to go to hell and see if it's just as bad as it is here!" I yelled, Kurama slapped me.
" How can you say that!?" Kurama yelled as tears rolled down his face. " Does our relationship mean nothing to you this far!? I want to spend my life with you Hiei! Every second of it! I want you by my side when I wake up! When I go to school and we talk in class! When I go back to sleep with you in my arms! I want you there with me through everything! Everything! I don't want to go on without you! Please Hiei! Don't leave me. I don't want you to leave me. Stay...don't go..." He cried, falling to his knees. I knelt down and held him.
" Is that how you've felt about me...this whole time?" I said, wiping my tears.
" Yes. Hiei, I love you more then anything. I want you to be with me forever." Kurama whispered, leaning on me.
" I love you so much Kurama." I whispered, back, holding him tightly. I felt something cold touch the back of my head.
" Don't turn around Hiei. Or I'll blow you're brains out." She whispered.
A/N: DUN DUN DUN!!! I was crying when I wrote Kurama's big speech. This is the third to last chapter people! Two more to go! Two more to go! I should like the demons chanting in the Dark Tournament. Anyway...wait for the next chapter of Russian Roulette!!