Chapter III: Fond Farewells
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I woke up from an uneasy sleep, covered in cold sweat. Wiping the sweat off my face, I recalled on the event that happened a few moments ago. How dare Sesshoumaru just casually say that I am to come along? I am not coming along with anything! I am staying here, where I belong, with my family!!
A dignified huff escaped my lips and I rolled off my futon and stood up, then walked over to the open balcony where cool winds blew gently from. The sky was still a dark black with hints of blue morning at the horizon. It was still about one or two hours before dawn. That meant I had little sleep..
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Sighing, I rubbed my eyes, trying to get them to focus. Then, since it was almost dawn, I decided not to go back to sleep and took out two layers of kimonos for me to wear- after I bathed and soaked myself in the hot springs, of course. I brought my bathing robe, and a candle to light my way in the hallways. I was not up to snoop, so I put on some sandals, walking down the hall.
The Tsukishidai are probably in their chambers that have been provided for them to spend their night in. Mama, Papa, and Kikyou must be asleep. So that meant no one was awake at this time, probably not even a servant...
I walked past the corridors where doors that lead to lounge rooms, guestrooms, poetry rooms, past the passages that lead to the kitchen, special dining rooms, and finally to the bathhouse, which was right next to the training dojo, where I've explored numerous times.
The spring consisted of many naked cherry blossom trees, boulders, pebbles, smooth stones, and a decorative wooden bridge painted red and gold and ornamented with traditional Japanese style lanterns. And of course, there was the hot spring itself, steam emitting from the surfaces of the waters. The Spring was split into four sections: there were high bamboo walls that were built to ensure privacy, as well.
Before entering the spring, I cleaned myself off- in order to get into the spring, you MUST be already clean. Then I modestly wrapped the bathrobe around myself. Those were the rules of our bathhouse. Usually we are not permitted into the spring wearing anything at all, but on special occasions it is a rule to wear a bathrobe into the spring. These occasions include if there are opposite gender guests in your residence.
Clad in the bathrobe, my eyes wandered up thoughtfully towards the sky, which was brightening. Gray clouds from yesterday's weather remained. I closed my eyes and dozed for a while, relaxing in the lukewarm water that was the spring.
Then I sighed and sank into the water, wanting to fall asleep and drift at the surface of the water.
I think I was day-dreaming about how Kikyou's departure would be like, when gentle sad music reached my ears. It was Kikyou on her koto again. Sitting up, I let my eyelids lift halfway and listened to the melodies. The composition sound strangely different; it did not sound like the way Kikyou usually played. The music had a tinge of hopelessness in it, coldness. Usually Kikyou played harmoniously and happily. Is there something wrong with her?
I stood up, the bathrobe feeling heavy on my body. Quickly, I dried off and changed into the two layers of kimonos that I had brought with me. I did not bother to slip into my sandals, and instead followed the music.
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I was particularly astounded when I realized the music was coming from the same room as the one the banquet for the Tsukishidai's were held. I peeped inside and saw that the dishes were no longer there, there was but two candles lit inside the room, and the balcony shoji were slid wide open so that a glimpse of the fading moon was in sight. The table and cushion seats were no longer there either, and instead,
In the middle of the spacious, large empty room, sat Sesshoumaru on the hardwood floor, with his back turned to me, facing the dissipating moon. He continued to play that awesome melody on the Koto, and I stood at the entrance, continuing to listen.
All of a sudden a big long furry boa-like object materialized over his right shoulder, and I noticed his clothing began to glow so bright white. When the glowing dissolved, his clothes were no longer the same color nor style. He was now dressed in a white kimono. The endings of his sleeves were faded into a red color with white flower patterns, and a black obi that I could not properly see (his back was faced to me, after all) appeared magically around his mid-torso. I also witnessed a yellow-and- royal blue sash tied around his waist.
I continued to marvel him from a distance as he continued to play, then, abruptively, he stopped. I waited anxiously to see his next action. "Well?" he suddenly spoke out loud, his voice fleeting in the wind. "Are you just going to stand there?"
A gasp escaped my lips, but then I half-smiled. "How long have you known I was here?" I asked his back.
"I've known you were awake," he answered lifelessly. "Then you went down to the hot springs. You heard me playing your sister's Koto, so you went over here to see."
I flushed. "How did you know?"
"I heard you. Your heartbeat rate, sighs, footsteps. They were quite easy to determine."
"Oh," I said lamely. This guy has strange abilities. So what? That doesn't show any sign of him being youkai! Such a deniable person I am...
"Are you going to watch me all day?" he asked with a hint of annoyance.
"No! I mean, I uh...ano, g-gomen," I bowed and turned around, ready to leave him alone. My cheeks were shrouded in pink. How could he make me feel so self-conscious all of the time? Then I remembered what I wanted to say to him, and turned around again, to see him wearing a plain night yukata again. Where did the fluffy object go? Where did his strange yet stylish clothes go? "What- how did you- what in the world- you were wearing a-" I stammered on.
Sesshoumaru's eyes flickered with amusement for a moment. "Is there something you need?"
I sputtered some more, then let out an aggravated scowl. "Oh, never mind that! I wish to tell you something, Sesshoumaru-san!"
He waited, staring at me expectantly.
My fire and will died down a little bit under his intense golden stare. "Ahem.. I wanted to tell you that I am not going with you. I'm staying here, for heaven's sake, I am only fifteen!"
His expression did not change. "What of your age?" he asked challengingly.
"I'm-" I paused. "I'm not old enough to marry!"
The coldest of all smiles appeared on his face. "Who said anything about taking you away to marry one of the Tsukishidai clan?"
"What..?" I asked in confusion.
"Only your sister is being taken for marriage. You, child, are for another reason. Do not put yourself in such a high position, do you understand?" he asked sternly. Cold, malicious amusement danced in his eyes. "You will never be high enough to marry anyone from my clan."
Fury fumed inside me. Never have I been insulted that way in my life! Well, he indirectly insulted me, but we both know his intentions. Rage flashed in my eyes. "I don't care whatever reason it is! I'd NEVER go with you even if you tortured me!!" I yelled rudely, possibly waking up the whole Palace, and slammed the Shoji. I sprinted down the hallway, righteous fury burning deep inside me.
My feet continued to stomp on until I reached the secret garden that I favored to visit Kikyou in then sat against a cherry tree with my knees drawn close to myself. I barely noticed the beautiful exotic flowers that merrily swayed around me in the wind out of my anger and hurt dignity.
My anger was replaced by hurt and shame. Sesshoumaru had damaged much of my pride, and I sure am going to get him back for this. I felt humiliated for being told off by him, I felt ashamed for yelling so loud and unladylike, and I felt hurt for Sesshoumaru's unkind comments. My eyes glassed over in tears, and I tilted my head upwards to prevent them from falling. I'm not going to cry because of one insult! I'll show him!
From fatigue and stress, I allowed myself to fall into a deep slumber.
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I looked around at my surroundings. It was a vast blackened meadow filled with dead grass and the smell of metallic-ness... something was amiss. My body was suspended in midair, and I could not do a thing to move. A silence that felt like metal scraping against glass settled over the environment. That's when it came.
A great negative aura was headed my direction from far away, an aura that seemed to have me as a target. As the destructive force headed towards me, the winds started up, and eventually began blowing fierce as the winds of a storm.
I wanted to open my mouth and scream, but none of it would happen. It was as if I was bound to a chair with my hands and feet tied by metal chains and I was being gagged. I was sure of one thing. Whatever was going to happen was not going to be pleasant. Although granted no access to open my mouth, I was able to close my eyes. And that's just what I did.
[Wake up.]
'What..?'
[Open your eyes. The energy inside you wishes to purify this evil. Do it before it is too late.]
I furrowed my brows in confusion. 'Who is this? Who is talking in my mind?'
[Purify it]
'Purify what, oh mysterious voice in my head?!' I thought sarcastically. 'There's nothing here but the winds and this hideously maintained meadow that smells of blood!'
[Do you wish to die?]
'......No.'
[Sense the evil aura that is coming at you. And free your sanitizing energy.]
'Look, I can't trust you. For one thing, I can't even tell if you're a guy or a girl, your voice is indescribable! And another thing, what will that 'evil aura' do to me, anyway? Sure, I feel sick to my stomach, and I feel like I am going to throw up, but-'
[Dammit, just do it already, wench!]
I frowned inwardly. Did that mystical voice just use profane words on me? Well, I will not be mocked in such a way! 'Purify it yourself! You are the one who truly wants to rid of that 'Evil Aura'! Why don't YOU do it?'
[You are more complicated than was thought.]
That was the last reply I ever got from the mysterious voice. I was alone, again. The negative force continued to rush at me, until I could've sworn the energy was right infront of me. Then, suddenly, a flash of bright white light engulfed me.
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"...Gome. Kagome! Kagome, wake up!"
I sleepily opened my eyes, to see Kaede looking down worriedly at me. "Kaede-chan...?"
"You fell asleep sister," Kaede offered her hand, and I took it, propping myself up. "How long have I been asleep?"
"I've no clue," she replied, shrugging. "I was on my way to greet Mama-chan and Papa-chan and I saw you lying on the ground." Kaede fidgeted, then added. "Mama and Papa wish to see you. Do you need time to get ready? I could stall for you if you want-"
"It's all right, thank you," bowing, I bid her a short ja-ne and made my way towards the lounge. 'Hopefully they are not angered with me..'
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As soon as I reached the room, I saw Kikyou dressed in a bright beautiful red kimono that I must admit- stung my eyes a little bit. Nonetheless she was still a radiant beauty. My parents were here as well.
Mama was looking at me with a disapproving look similar to last night's, and I couldn't blame her. I have come to them in a disheveled state once again.
"Kagome-chan, we've been informed by the Tsukishidai-sama clan," Mama said softly. My eyes widened. No. This isn't happening. Mama would never let them take me away!! "...We have some very important news we need to tell you. But first, we just wanted to tell you... normally we would never think of....but you see, there's nothing we could do-" at this point, Mama looked on the verge of tears. She looked away. Papa looked as if he did not have the courage to tell me what I think I already knew either.
"I'll tell her, Okaa-sama, Otou-sama," Kikyou said quietly, raising her hand a little to get their attention. Then she turned soft brown eyes to me. "Kagome-chan."
"Kikyou-nee-sama.."
"You are coming with me to go live with the Tsukishidai clan. Do you understand, Kagome?"
"But- Onee-sama- M-Mama-!" I went on that stuttering stage again. "You cannot do this to me! I belong here! I don't want to go with them!"
"Kagome, think on the bright side. You can be with your sister," Papa finally said.
I was silenced. What am I supposed to say now? Kikyou was looking at me with troubled eyes. I couldn't bring myself to refuse.
"I have no choice, do I?" the whisper barely escaped my mouth. I swallowed the lump in my throat that promised a good deal of shed tears. Then, with as much cheer as I could muster, I grinned. "Well- if I get to be with my sister, I guess it's okay that I go all the way to the other side of the country and not see all of you again!" Oops. I did not mean for that sarcastic tone..
"Kagome, if you have tears, do not be afraid to shed them," Mama said, almost begging. I have never cried in front of my family. Nor do I plan to start now.
"I'm not sad, really I'm not," I muttered. "I'm going to go pack my things now."
"The servants will do it-" Papa chimed.
"I want to help, then. This is probably the last time I will see my friends, anyway," I said tonelessly, imagining the look on Sango's face when I tell her.
Then I walked stiffly out of the room. I heard Papa say to Kikyou: "Will she be all right?"
"Yes," I heard Kikyou's faint voice as I walked further and further away. "She is a strong girl, and I have a feeling that the strength of distance will not keep her away from her family and friends."
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Despite my sulky mood, I was quite flattered when Kikyou complimented me. I felt so abashed, now.... OOMF. Oh forgive me, apparently, I have bumped into something soft... my eyes traveled upwards to meet soft brown ones.
"H...Hojo-kun," I breathed, already feeling the blush spread throughout my cheeks. He smiled radiantly down at me, that charming, boyish smile. "Hello, Higurashi-chan! I haven't seen you in a while."
I felt myself melt. Hojo was, like Sango, a servant. He's a regular farmboy who delivers gifts from the villages to our Palace, but I know more about him that is shown. His family was once dominating, like the Higurashi or Fujiwara. But due to lack of servants and warriors, piece by piece his land was conquered by bigger, more dominant clans.
I've known him for only a few months, and I believe him to be my first love. Kikyou told me with laughing eyes, however, that Hojo-kun is merely a first-crush.
And of course, I believed her. Yet up to now, my heart still pounds excitedly when I see him. If this was what crushes felt like, then I fear finding out what being in love feels like.
"Higurashi-chan, why do you look so uneasy?" he asked, setting down a box that he'd been carrying.
"Hojo, I'm... going," I said emptily, looking into his eyes.
"'Going'?" his eyebrows furrowed.
"I'm going away, perhaps forever. I am happy that I ran into you today for I might never had had the chance to say goodbye to you."
"Oh," he said, his eyes turning dejected. "Where to?"
"Some clan called 'Tsukishidai.' I'm not too fond of the idea, but it must be done."
"I'm sad to hear that," Hojo sighed. "You are a really nice and beautiful girl, Higurashi," he said shyly, his own face flushing.
I too, blushed at his daring comment. "Thank you..."
Then, trying to get rid of romantic tension, I changed the subject. He seemed thankful for it, too. "I'm fine, really. What is in that box?"
"Oh, just some old Miko finery. I was told that the Lady of the House wanted these, so," Hojo paused and squatted down. "I'm not really sure what's in here, though I've been craving to know. Is it all right if I take a look inside?" he said, winking at me.
Why is he asking me? I do not own the box... Oh well. I nodded and squatted by him. He opened the box and said 'ah.'
"I see," he murmured, pulling a white sheet out of the box. He held it up in front of him, analyzing it. "A miko outfit!"
"I'm not surprised," I commented, pulling out an old bow. "My mother used to be a Miko. But.... why would she order for one of these on such short notice?"
"They're for you," I heard a feminine voice say from behind me. I turned around and saw my mother, her eyes regarding me with warm sadness. "I want you to put it on, Kagome."
Hojo said nothing and handed me the white gi.
"Right now?" I asked, dumb-founded. Mama looked from me to Hojo, who was looking away with an 'I'm-not-worthy-to-look-at-royalties' expression. "No. I shall leave you two alone now," she said with almost a playful hint.
Hojo and I glanced at each other, then speedily looked away. Hojo scratched the back of his neck in an embarrassed manner. "Well...I guess I have to go. Goodbye, Higurashi."
"Wait-!" I touched his arm lightly. "Please- call me Kagome."
Hojo turned around and flashed me another smile. I blushed heavily, feeling like one of those beautiful princesses from Murasaki's famous story, The Tale of Genji. He took my hands and looked into my eyes soulfully. "Wherever you are going, Kagome-chan, do not forget me."
Hojo looked around, making sure no one was in site. Then, unexpectedly, he stooped down to my height and kissed my cheek, which burned in contact. As he ascended, he took his hands off mine. And that's when I realized there was something soft inside my hands. I opened them and saw a the most beautiful pinkest brightest cherry blossom I've ever witnessed in my life. My eyes lit up. "Beautiful!"
"I found this blossom last spring," Hojo said tentatively, looking away from me in what I would call childlike way. "It hasn't gotten rotten or anything like that. Isn't it amazing, Kagome-chan?"
"Of course! Where did you find this?"
"I climbed to the highest limb of the highest tree and retrieved it," he answered. My eyes widened in realization. "Is that how you broke your arm last spring? Did you fall?"
"Well, yes," he said quietly. "But it was worth it. It reminded me of you."
"Thank you," I said once again.
"Don't mention it...." Hojo looked up at the sky. "I must be going. I hope to stay in your memories, Kagome!" And with that, Hojo left. I smiled blissful and looked down at the blossom. I shall treasure it always!
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My mind still fluttering, I walked with a small smile on my face. I was planning to go meet Sango, wondering how she would react to it... (I was about to turn a corner in the hallway.) But first, I must tell her about that little event between Hojo and I. It would be amusing to see her face-
OOMF.
Wonderful. It seems I've bumped into another person. I uttered a small apology without even looking up to see who it is that I've bumped into. I was about to go on my way, when a soft voice reached my ears.
"Do you bump into people on a daily basis? That's the second time today."
I narrowed my eyes, but quickly covered the look up with a small meaningless smile. "No. I am feeling a bit fazed right now. Wait a minute- how do you know I've bumped into another person?"
Sesshoumaru didn't answer my question. "Hurry and pack up your things. We are leaving before the sun sets."
And he turned and left. It left me with one feeling.
WAS SESSHOUMARU SPYING ON ME WHEN I WAS WITH HOJO?!
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-_- I don't like this chapter that much. I think I'll rewrite it. But I'm too lazy. Man, Sesshoumaru's so cold! How could he treat her like that? I'm sorry for the craziness. I wrote most of this chapter in an anger- influenced brain. So it seems a bit off. Please review, and expect an update someday next week! ^_^ Oh yeah, just to let you know, I already have Chapter 4 done. I'm working on CH. 5 now!
Thank you to all of those who reviewed. I know this story's not popular, but I just can't help but write it, so don't worry about me taking this story off.
Sayonara!
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I woke up from an uneasy sleep, covered in cold sweat. Wiping the sweat off my face, I recalled on the event that happened a few moments ago. How dare Sesshoumaru just casually say that I am to come along? I am not coming along with anything! I am staying here, where I belong, with my family!!
A dignified huff escaped my lips and I rolled off my futon and stood up, then walked over to the open balcony where cool winds blew gently from. The sky was still a dark black with hints of blue morning at the horizon. It was still about one or two hours before dawn. That meant I had little sleep..
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Sighing, I rubbed my eyes, trying to get them to focus. Then, since it was almost dawn, I decided not to go back to sleep and took out two layers of kimonos for me to wear- after I bathed and soaked myself in the hot springs, of course. I brought my bathing robe, and a candle to light my way in the hallways. I was not up to snoop, so I put on some sandals, walking down the hall.
The Tsukishidai are probably in their chambers that have been provided for them to spend their night in. Mama, Papa, and Kikyou must be asleep. So that meant no one was awake at this time, probably not even a servant...
I walked past the corridors where doors that lead to lounge rooms, guestrooms, poetry rooms, past the passages that lead to the kitchen, special dining rooms, and finally to the bathhouse, which was right next to the training dojo, where I've explored numerous times.
The spring consisted of many naked cherry blossom trees, boulders, pebbles, smooth stones, and a decorative wooden bridge painted red and gold and ornamented with traditional Japanese style lanterns. And of course, there was the hot spring itself, steam emitting from the surfaces of the waters. The Spring was split into four sections: there were high bamboo walls that were built to ensure privacy, as well.
Before entering the spring, I cleaned myself off- in order to get into the spring, you MUST be already clean. Then I modestly wrapped the bathrobe around myself. Those were the rules of our bathhouse. Usually we are not permitted into the spring wearing anything at all, but on special occasions it is a rule to wear a bathrobe into the spring. These occasions include if there are opposite gender guests in your residence.
Clad in the bathrobe, my eyes wandered up thoughtfully towards the sky, which was brightening. Gray clouds from yesterday's weather remained. I closed my eyes and dozed for a while, relaxing in the lukewarm water that was the spring.
Then I sighed and sank into the water, wanting to fall asleep and drift at the surface of the water.
I think I was day-dreaming about how Kikyou's departure would be like, when gentle sad music reached my ears. It was Kikyou on her koto again. Sitting up, I let my eyelids lift halfway and listened to the melodies. The composition sound strangely different; it did not sound like the way Kikyou usually played. The music had a tinge of hopelessness in it, coldness. Usually Kikyou played harmoniously and happily. Is there something wrong with her?
I stood up, the bathrobe feeling heavy on my body. Quickly, I dried off and changed into the two layers of kimonos that I had brought with me. I did not bother to slip into my sandals, and instead followed the music.
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I was particularly astounded when I realized the music was coming from the same room as the one the banquet for the Tsukishidai's were held. I peeped inside and saw that the dishes were no longer there, there was but two candles lit inside the room, and the balcony shoji were slid wide open so that a glimpse of the fading moon was in sight. The table and cushion seats were no longer there either, and instead,
In the middle of the spacious, large empty room, sat Sesshoumaru on the hardwood floor, with his back turned to me, facing the dissipating moon. He continued to play that awesome melody on the Koto, and I stood at the entrance, continuing to listen.
All of a sudden a big long furry boa-like object materialized over his right shoulder, and I noticed his clothing began to glow so bright white. When the glowing dissolved, his clothes were no longer the same color nor style. He was now dressed in a white kimono. The endings of his sleeves were faded into a red color with white flower patterns, and a black obi that I could not properly see (his back was faced to me, after all) appeared magically around his mid-torso. I also witnessed a yellow-and- royal blue sash tied around his waist.
I continued to marvel him from a distance as he continued to play, then, abruptively, he stopped. I waited anxiously to see his next action. "Well?" he suddenly spoke out loud, his voice fleeting in the wind. "Are you just going to stand there?"
A gasp escaped my lips, but then I half-smiled. "How long have you known I was here?" I asked his back.
"I've known you were awake," he answered lifelessly. "Then you went down to the hot springs. You heard me playing your sister's Koto, so you went over here to see."
I flushed. "How did you know?"
"I heard you. Your heartbeat rate, sighs, footsteps. They were quite easy to determine."
"Oh," I said lamely. This guy has strange abilities. So what? That doesn't show any sign of him being youkai! Such a deniable person I am...
"Are you going to watch me all day?" he asked with a hint of annoyance.
"No! I mean, I uh...ano, g-gomen," I bowed and turned around, ready to leave him alone. My cheeks were shrouded in pink. How could he make me feel so self-conscious all of the time? Then I remembered what I wanted to say to him, and turned around again, to see him wearing a plain night yukata again. Where did the fluffy object go? Where did his strange yet stylish clothes go? "What- how did you- what in the world- you were wearing a-" I stammered on.
Sesshoumaru's eyes flickered with amusement for a moment. "Is there something you need?"
I sputtered some more, then let out an aggravated scowl. "Oh, never mind that! I wish to tell you something, Sesshoumaru-san!"
He waited, staring at me expectantly.
My fire and will died down a little bit under his intense golden stare. "Ahem.. I wanted to tell you that I am not going with you. I'm staying here, for heaven's sake, I am only fifteen!"
His expression did not change. "What of your age?" he asked challengingly.
"I'm-" I paused. "I'm not old enough to marry!"
The coldest of all smiles appeared on his face. "Who said anything about taking you away to marry one of the Tsukishidai clan?"
"What..?" I asked in confusion.
"Only your sister is being taken for marriage. You, child, are for another reason. Do not put yourself in such a high position, do you understand?" he asked sternly. Cold, malicious amusement danced in his eyes. "You will never be high enough to marry anyone from my clan."
Fury fumed inside me. Never have I been insulted that way in my life! Well, he indirectly insulted me, but we both know his intentions. Rage flashed in my eyes. "I don't care whatever reason it is! I'd NEVER go with you even if you tortured me!!" I yelled rudely, possibly waking up the whole Palace, and slammed the Shoji. I sprinted down the hallway, righteous fury burning deep inside me.
My feet continued to stomp on until I reached the secret garden that I favored to visit Kikyou in then sat against a cherry tree with my knees drawn close to myself. I barely noticed the beautiful exotic flowers that merrily swayed around me in the wind out of my anger and hurt dignity.
My anger was replaced by hurt and shame. Sesshoumaru had damaged much of my pride, and I sure am going to get him back for this. I felt humiliated for being told off by him, I felt ashamed for yelling so loud and unladylike, and I felt hurt for Sesshoumaru's unkind comments. My eyes glassed over in tears, and I tilted my head upwards to prevent them from falling. I'm not going to cry because of one insult! I'll show him!
From fatigue and stress, I allowed myself to fall into a deep slumber.
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I looked around at my surroundings. It was a vast blackened meadow filled with dead grass and the smell of metallic-ness... something was amiss. My body was suspended in midair, and I could not do a thing to move. A silence that felt like metal scraping against glass settled over the environment. That's when it came.
A great negative aura was headed my direction from far away, an aura that seemed to have me as a target. As the destructive force headed towards me, the winds started up, and eventually began blowing fierce as the winds of a storm.
I wanted to open my mouth and scream, but none of it would happen. It was as if I was bound to a chair with my hands and feet tied by metal chains and I was being gagged. I was sure of one thing. Whatever was going to happen was not going to be pleasant. Although granted no access to open my mouth, I was able to close my eyes. And that's just what I did.
[Wake up.]
'What..?'
[Open your eyes. The energy inside you wishes to purify this evil. Do it before it is too late.]
I furrowed my brows in confusion. 'Who is this? Who is talking in my mind?'
[Purify it]
'Purify what, oh mysterious voice in my head?!' I thought sarcastically. 'There's nothing here but the winds and this hideously maintained meadow that smells of blood!'
[Do you wish to die?]
'......No.'
[Sense the evil aura that is coming at you. And free your sanitizing energy.]
'Look, I can't trust you. For one thing, I can't even tell if you're a guy or a girl, your voice is indescribable! And another thing, what will that 'evil aura' do to me, anyway? Sure, I feel sick to my stomach, and I feel like I am going to throw up, but-'
[Dammit, just do it already, wench!]
I frowned inwardly. Did that mystical voice just use profane words on me? Well, I will not be mocked in such a way! 'Purify it yourself! You are the one who truly wants to rid of that 'Evil Aura'! Why don't YOU do it?'
[You are more complicated than was thought.]
That was the last reply I ever got from the mysterious voice. I was alone, again. The negative force continued to rush at me, until I could've sworn the energy was right infront of me. Then, suddenly, a flash of bright white light engulfed me.
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"...Gome. Kagome! Kagome, wake up!"
I sleepily opened my eyes, to see Kaede looking down worriedly at me. "Kaede-chan...?"
"You fell asleep sister," Kaede offered her hand, and I took it, propping myself up. "How long have I been asleep?"
"I've no clue," she replied, shrugging. "I was on my way to greet Mama-chan and Papa-chan and I saw you lying on the ground." Kaede fidgeted, then added. "Mama and Papa wish to see you. Do you need time to get ready? I could stall for you if you want-"
"It's all right, thank you," bowing, I bid her a short ja-ne and made my way towards the lounge. 'Hopefully they are not angered with me..'
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As soon as I reached the room, I saw Kikyou dressed in a bright beautiful red kimono that I must admit- stung my eyes a little bit. Nonetheless she was still a radiant beauty. My parents were here as well.
Mama was looking at me with a disapproving look similar to last night's, and I couldn't blame her. I have come to them in a disheveled state once again.
"Kagome-chan, we've been informed by the Tsukishidai-sama clan," Mama said softly. My eyes widened. No. This isn't happening. Mama would never let them take me away!! "...We have some very important news we need to tell you. But first, we just wanted to tell you... normally we would never think of....but you see, there's nothing we could do-" at this point, Mama looked on the verge of tears. She looked away. Papa looked as if he did not have the courage to tell me what I think I already knew either.
"I'll tell her, Okaa-sama, Otou-sama," Kikyou said quietly, raising her hand a little to get their attention. Then she turned soft brown eyes to me. "Kagome-chan."
"Kikyou-nee-sama.."
"You are coming with me to go live with the Tsukishidai clan. Do you understand, Kagome?"
"But- Onee-sama- M-Mama-!" I went on that stuttering stage again. "You cannot do this to me! I belong here! I don't want to go with them!"
"Kagome, think on the bright side. You can be with your sister," Papa finally said.
I was silenced. What am I supposed to say now? Kikyou was looking at me with troubled eyes. I couldn't bring myself to refuse.
"I have no choice, do I?" the whisper barely escaped my mouth. I swallowed the lump in my throat that promised a good deal of shed tears. Then, with as much cheer as I could muster, I grinned. "Well- if I get to be with my sister, I guess it's okay that I go all the way to the other side of the country and not see all of you again!" Oops. I did not mean for that sarcastic tone..
"Kagome, if you have tears, do not be afraid to shed them," Mama said, almost begging. I have never cried in front of my family. Nor do I plan to start now.
"I'm not sad, really I'm not," I muttered. "I'm going to go pack my things now."
"The servants will do it-" Papa chimed.
"I want to help, then. This is probably the last time I will see my friends, anyway," I said tonelessly, imagining the look on Sango's face when I tell her.
Then I walked stiffly out of the room. I heard Papa say to Kikyou: "Will she be all right?"
"Yes," I heard Kikyou's faint voice as I walked further and further away. "She is a strong girl, and I have a feeling that the strength of distance will not keep her away from her family and friends."
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Despite my sulky mood, I was quite flattered when Kikyou complimented me. I felt so abashed, now.... OOMF. Oh forgive me, apparently, I have bumped into something soft... my eyes traveled upwards to meet soft brown ones.
"H...Hojo-kun," I breathed, already feeling the blush spread throughout my cheeks. He smiled radiantly down at me, that charming, boyish smile. "Hello, Higurashi-chan! I haven't seen you in a while."
I felt myself melt. Hojo was, like Sango, a servant. He's a regular farmboy who delivers gifts from the villages to our Palace, but I know more about him that is shown. His family was once dominating, like the Higurashi or Fujiwara. But due to lack of servants and warriors, piece by piece his land was conquered by bigger, more dominant clans.
I've known him for only a few months, and I believe him to be my first love. Kikyou told me with laughing eyes, however, that Hojo-kun is merely a first-crush.
And of course, I believed her. Yet up to now, my heart still pounds excitedly when I see him. If this was what crushes felt like, then I fear finding out what being in love feels like.
"Higurashi-chan, why do you look so uneasy?" he asked, setting down a box that he'd been carrying.
"Hojo, I'm... going," I said emptily, looking into his eyes.
"'Going'?" his eyebrows furrowed.
"I'm going away, perhaps forever. I am happy that I ran into you today for I might never had had the chance to say goodbye to you."
"Oh," he said, his eyes turning dejected. "Where to?"
"Some clan called 'Tsukishidai.' I'm not too fond of the idea, but it must be done."
"I'm sad to hear that," Hojo sighed. "You are a really nice and beautiful girl, Higurashi," he said shyly, his own face flushing.
I too, blushed at his daring comment. "Thank you..."
Then, trying to get rid of romantic tension, I changed the subject. He seemed thankful for it, too. "I'm fine, really. What is in that box?"
"Oh, just some old Miko finery. I was told that the Lady of the House wanted these, so," Hojo paused and squatted down. "I'm not really sure what's in here, though I've been craving to know. Is it all right if I take a look inside?" he said, winking at me.
Why is he asking me? I do not own the box... Oh well. I nodded and squatted by him. He opened the box and said 'ah.'
"I see," he murmured, pulling a white sheet out of the box. He held it up in front of him, analyzing it. "A miko outfit!"
"I'm not surprised," I commented, pulling out an old bow. "My mother used to be a Miko. But.... why would she order for one of these on such short notice?"
"They're for you," I heard a feminine voice say from behind me. I turned around and saw my mother, her eyes regarding me with warm sadness. "I want you to put it on, Kagome."
Hojo said nothing and handed me the white gi.
"Right now?" I asked, dumb-founded. Mama looked from me to Hojo, who was looking away with an 'I'm-not-worthy-to-look-at-royalties' expression. "No. I shall leave you two alone now," she said with almost a playful hint.
Hojo and I glanced at each other, then speedily looked away. Hojo scratched the back of his neck in an embarrassed manner. "Well...I guess I have to go. Goodbye, Higurashi."
"Wait-!" I touched his arm lightly. "Please- call me Kagome."
Hojo turned around and flashed me another smile. I blushed heavily, feeling like one of those beautiful princesses from Murasaki's famous story, The Tale of Genji. He took my hands and looked into my eyes soulfully. "Wherever you are going, Kagome-chan, do not forget me."
Hojo looked around, making sure no one was in site. Then, unexpectedly, he stooped down to my height and kissed my cheek, which burned in contact. As he ascended, he took his hands off mine. And that's when I realized there was something soft inside my hands. I opened them and saw a the most beautiful pinkest brightest cherry blossom I've ever witnessed in my life. My eyes lit up. "Beautiful!"
"I found this blossom last spring," Hojo said tentatively, looking away from me in what I would call childlike way. "It hasn't gotten rotten or anything like that. Isn't it amazing, Kagome-chan?"
"Of course! Where did you find this?"
"I climbed to the highest limb of the highest tree and retrieved it," he answered. My eyes widened in realization. "Is that how you broke your arm last spring? Did you fall?"
"Well, yes," he said quietly. "But it was worth it. It reminded me of you."
"Thank you," I said once again.
"Don't mention it...." Hojo looked up at the sky. "I must be going. I hope to stay in your memories, Kagome!" And with that, Hojo left. I smiled blissful and looked down at the blossom. I shall treasure it always!
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My mind still fluttering, I walked with a small smile on my face. I was planning to go meet Sango, wondering how she would react to it... (I was about to turn a corner in the hallway.) But first, I must tell her about that little event between Hojo and I. It would be amusing to see her face-
OOMF.
Wonderful. It seems I've bumped into another person. I uttered a small apology without even looking up to see who it is that I've bumped into. I was about to go on my way, when a soft voice reached my ears.
"Do you bump into people on a daily basis? That's the second time today."
I narrowed my eyes, but quickly covered the look up with a small meaningless smile. "No. I am feeling a bit fazed right now. Wait a minute- how do you know I've bumped into another person?"
Sesshoumaru didn't answer my question. "Hurry and pack up your things. We are leaving before the sun sets."
And he turned and left. It left me with one feeling.
WAS SESSHOUMARU SPYING ON ME WHEN I WAS WITH HOJO?!
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-_- I don't like this chapter that much. I think I'll rewrite it. But I'm too lazy. Man, Sesshoumaru's so cold! How could he treat her like that? I'm sorry for the craziness. I wrote most of this chapter in an anger- influenced brain. So it seems a bit off. Please review, and expect an update someday next week! ^_^ Oh yeah, just to let you know, I already have Chapter 4 done. I'm working on CH. 5 now!
Thank you to all of those who reviewed. I know this story's not popular, but I just can't help but write it, so don't worry about me taking this story off.
Sayonara!