Hi, guys!
This is my first FF8 poem, so please R+R!
DISCLAIMER: I do not own this poem. My sister does.

Regrets to stillness

I've been through a lot before you came into my life
A lot that I couldn't think of anything to say
Those things made me a bitter person
A bitter person who had doubts to almost everyone
Doubts that destroyed me
Doubts that hurt almost everyone
Because of those doubts it made me hard to trust
Trust that should start a good friendship
Trust that could lead to a good foundation
But that I never had
Many people have hurt me
Many people have fooled me
Not everyone had cared for me
But many people wanted to love me
I pushed them away because I wanted no pain to enter my life
Wanted no hatred to grow deeper inside my heart
I only hungered for stillness...
The kind of stillness that I imagined was quiet, peaceful...
Where everything is in the right place, right time
But what I had was different
What I had was destructive
Destructive for me and because of that I have hurt others
Yes I had stillness
Stillness that trapped me in the past
Stillness that scared me to take risks
Stillness that scared me to love again
Now I know that stillness will only destroy me
That stillness will not make things better for me
That stillness will only blind me from the beauty of life
I feel sorry for myself
Sorry because I didn't realize that before
That wanting stillness will not ease the pain that had grown inside me
But instead it will only prevent me from what is beautiful in life
And that is loving you...
Hope you like it!
-Magician of Megiddo