Rikku: Okay, I started this right after I finished chapter 10 (before I even uploaded it) so there haven't been any reviews. (Obviously). But don't mind if this chapter might take awhile, because my Valentine's Day dance is coming up!!^.^
I do not own InuYasha, nor Outkast or any of their songs, you'll see why....
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Chapter 11: An Unforgiveable Mistake
"Hurry up in there, it's my turn!!!" Souta banged on the washroom's door.
"Just a sec!!" Kagome hollered from in the shower. A good and LONG shower was just what she needed to survive the rest of the day. She fiddled with the antenna on the radio located on a shelf built onto the bathroom's wall near the tub. She grinned as one of her favourite songs sounded.
She began to sing along:
"My baby don't mess around
because she loves me so
and this I know for sure....
But does she really wanna,
but can't stand to see me
walk out the door...-"
"Quiet down in there!!" Someone was knocking hardly on the door, the voice belonged to her grandfather.
Kagome chuckled.
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Kagome sat down quietly on her bed. She awaited the call of her mother; it was almost dinner time. She sighed when it didn't come, not knowing what to do with her very little spare time.
'Hmm....' she thought. Kagome let her wet hair soak her bed sheets as she laid back. Everything she had left to do would be best done at school, so that left her with nothing to kill the time with. She yawned. 'I guess it's back to the boring life...'
Kagome stared at her ceiling for a couple minutes, visualizing the handsome mystery boy. InuYasha....
Her eyes widened and she quickly snapped out of her odd state. She shook her head hard as water flew everywhere from her hair. Blinking, she thought about how strange it was for her to think such thoughts...
"Kagome honey, dinner!!"
Kagome sighed in relief and rushed to the kitchen, settling down on an empty seat and chowing down her food as quickly as possible as if it would rid all of her thoughts.
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Kagome laid on her bed with her eyes wide open. She laid there without a thought, not even sleepy. She looked toward her clock, it was 2 am. She couldn't sleep and her stomach was full.
"Ow...." she whined. Her stomach was bursting with pain because of all the food she ate, maybe she shouldn't have gotten so freaked about visualizing InuYasha's face....
~!~CLINK~!~
"Nani?" Kagome got up quickly and studied her room for the source of the sound.
~!~CLINK~!~
It came again.
Finally Kagome found that it had been coming from her window, she pulled herself off the bed roughly and made her way to the large glass and opened it up to speak.
"W-who's there?" she asked nervously. She shivered as a cold breeze swept by.
InuYasha was there.
He was holding a handful of pebbles, he had been throwing them.
She looked down at him curiously. "InuYasha?"
"Ya... it's me.." he spoke.
"What are you doing here?"
"I couldn't sleep..."
"Hmm...." It was strange that Kagome also couldn't sleep. She gave InuYasha a worried look. "You wanna come in?"
"Honto?"
She chuckled. "Of course, now why would I leave you out here in the cold?" She left and quickly ran toward the back door. Opening it, she revealed a shivering InuYasha in his usual red casual clothes.
He walked by her and took a seat on the empty couch he was sitting in before at her party. He eyed Kagome head to toe.
She silently sighed in relief again, when she realized that she was fortunate enough to not be in embarassing pajamas, she hadn't changed from her casual jersey and flares outfit yet. "Want something to drink?" she asked.
He looked up from the floor to her. "Ya, ok...."
Kagome nodded but didn't budge, InuYasha was finally looking straight at her and she wanted to savour the moment.
"Nani?" he asked when he realized she hadn't moved.
"Oh, nothing..." she spoke, leaving for the kitchen.
She searched through her fridge for something InuYasha would drink. Grabbing a can of pepsi she made her way to the living room, where InuYasha was, thinking about why he was there.
"Here..." she said, handing him the can. She took a seat next to him and studied him for a bit....
"Doumo." he replied, breaking Kagome's trance.
She nodded. "I should warn you, my family's sleeping, you might not want to wake them..."
"Ya, alright."
Kagome gulped, she didn't want to ask but....
"So.... why couldn't you sleep?" she blurted out.
"Oh, um.... just a headache..." he answered. "Sorry for waking you."
"It's alright, I wasn't asleep anyway..." she assured him, but something about his answer had a bit of falseness in it. (Rikku:Falseness??)
He nodded, sipping his pepsi. He looked up to the ceiling, without taking his eyes off it. "Kagome, I-"
"Why did you come here?" she interrupted, she really wanted to know why he had come to her....
"Oh...I.." he started, still eyeing the ceiling. He sighed. "Okay...I lied to you about the headache thing.... I didn't really wanna tell you this, but..."
So Kagome was right. She felt her mind cheer at the thought of getting to know InuYasha better...
"I was thinking about you.... about the talk we had before and I wanted to..."
"Confront me?"
He nodded.
Kagome blushed and noticed that he was blushing too.
He took another sip of his drink, trying to avoid Kagome's eyes. But this time, Kagome couldn't blame him. "Well, it seemed strange that I would think about you like....that."
"Like what?" she knew she was taking a risk to ask but couldn't help it.
He turned his head and looked straight into her eyes.
Kagome's eyes shimmered, she tried as hard as ever to keep a steady look.... something about the moment was....breakable.
"Kagome, I-"
"H-hai?" and without thinking she reached for his hand, and held it tightly. She blushed slightly again as she realized that his hand was in it's....place. Almost like it's home.... weird, ne?
He looked down to their hands and blushed too. Finally looking up, Kagome met with his yellow and for the first time, caring eyes.
He sighed. "Let's go for a walk..." he spoke, getting up from his seat and breaking the 'bond' of their hands.(Rikku: ??) "It'll be better if I tell you when we're alone..."
She got up too, thinking for awhile. She looked out the window to a dark sky and looked back to InuYasha. "Now?"
He nodded.
Kagome sighed. "Alright then..." She needed the time to ACTUALLY get to know InuYasha....
He grabbed her arm and barged out the door quickly, not even giving Kagome time to get a jacket.
She shivered when they reached the outside. Her hair blew roughly as strong winds swept by. InuYasha just gave her a mere look and pulled her farther to the sidewalk.
"W-where are we going?" she asked fearfully.
"Don't worry, I just have to talk to you and show you something..." he replied.
He finally let go of Kagome when it seemed he had realized Kagome wouldn't run back. They began to walk...together. "So, you still wanna know why?" he asked out of the bloom.
"Nani?"
"W-why I was thinking about you... and what I was thinking about..."
"Oh.. ok then."
He sighed again. "Listen, it's been a long time since I felt this way and I was unsure when I felt it at first, I guess you can say I was afraid..."
"Of what?" Kagome was puzzled.
"Of the thought of falling in love..."
Kagome gasped.
"Kikyo was my first love... and at one point in my life I thought she would be my ONLY one.... until I met you. You seemed like an average school girl at first, and I didn't care much. But something about you made me what to tell you it all... about how I felt and about my past... It hurt me to see YOU hurt, though I didn't know why before. But now I understand it all..."
"Understand what?"
"That you're NOT an average school girl, and that your not Kikyo." He looked at her and chuckled. "I can face the fact that looking at you won't hurt me... and that I won't see Kikyo. Instead I'll seen a whole knew girl that has.... stolen my heart." His face reddened at the sentence and his eyes glistened.
"H-honto?"
He nodded.
Kagome eyes watered and tears had found their way to her cheeks.... she was happy... with him. He made her feel whole and now she knew he felt the same way.... but even if he did love her, a tint in his voice told her that he was still pretty much in love with Kikyo.... but he didn't know that. She turned away, but felt his eyes still watching her. "InuYasha....I have been doubting this for awhile, but now that I know that it's true... I guess it wouldn't hurt to tell you. I-I've fallen in love with you too...." she spilled out. Kagome knew InuYasha was shocked just as much as she was a few seconds back, but she refused to look at his face. Tears were now pouring down her cheeks and she felt herself stop walking.
InuYasha stopped too, Kagome's instincts told her that his eyes had found their way to something else.
..:::Silence:::..
The first one to break it was Kagome.
"I understand it all now.... all of it."
She looked up to InuYasha and he nodded. They continued to walk again, but no one spoke a word.
"What did you want to show me?" Kagome inquired.
"I'm leading you to it right now." InuYasha chuckled. The arrogant tone had come back to his voice... and for once, Kagome was glad about that, because that was the voice he had when she first fell for him...
After InuYasha glanced at his watch for the tenth time, he turned to look at Kagome and spoke. "What's your family like?"
Kagome shrugged. "One would say they were like everyone else.... but they would be dead wrong. My grandfather is obsessed with spirit shit and ritual stuff... it's funny at first but then gets annoying." she chuckled. "My mother is ALMOST always cheerful, but the the rest of the time, she wastes it screaming her head off at my brother and me... my brother... well he's an odd one too, he acts all grown up but in the inside he's the same little brat... but he always cares... for me, my mother and yes, even for my grandfather..."
InuYasha smirked. "You got quite a family, Kag."
Kagome smiled. "I thought you knew my mother though."
"Nani?" InuYasha thought for a moment and laughed when he realized who Kagome was talking about. "The woman at the store?"
Kagome nodded and the two of them laughed.
"How's your family?" Kagome asked.
InuYasha's smile left his face and Kagome knew she shouldn't have asked. "My mother and father seperated a long time ago..." he forced himself to say. "My father took my step-brother and I was left with my mother... she loved me very much and I felt the same way about her... but when I turned 14 she died, from heart failure, my father died too, a short while after my mother's death... and I haven't seen my brother- half-brother- since.... I live with one of my mother's good friends now... his name is Myouga."
Kagome was stunned, he had lost everyone he loved.... and it seemed he hated his step-brother very much... InuYasha lived a cold, cold life...
"But that's all the past..." he spoke silently.
Kagome nodded and grabbed his hand once again. (Rikku: It seems she has a habit for that... heh-heh...) She looked him in the eyes. "I-I'm so sorry..." she spoke.
He look down to her and shook his head. "It's not your fault..." he said. "Anyway... you haven't told me anything about your father..." It seemed he tried to rid his voice of the sadness but was unsucessful.
"Oh.." Kagome spoke. "I haven't seen my father since I was a kid.... he left for a business trip and never came back. I don't know very much about him..."
InuYasha didn't answer, they didn't speak for a long while, nor did they look at each other.
Kagome had just started to get interested into the ground, until InuYasha finally spoke. "We're here...."
Kagome looked up and was stunned once again. "I-It's beautiful..."
Before them was a meadow, it was full of flowers, beautiful flowers of many colours.... beyond it was a forest.... the scene was rich. It was still dark out but that didn't matter, the beauty was still intensifying. A well stood in the middle of it (Rikku: Hee-hee^.^) and a lake shimmered from the corner of Kagome's eyes.
She felt an arm wrap around her shoulders and blushed. She looked up at its owner and, obviously, it was InuYasha. A smirk spread across his face like Souta and his eyes sparkled.
"This-this is where I met Kikyo..."
Kagome froze. The beauty of the meadow was no longer.... beautiful. His simple words had broken the moment and Kagome's world turned upside down. Why? When he had just confessed his feelings for her and when they were just starting to get to know he each, he brought up Kikyo. An unsuspecting hatred for her filled Kagome's mind... she didn't even know her, but she had already started to ruin her life....
She pulled herself from InuYasha, anger rising through her system. He gave her a curious look and she couldn't help but think that he had only fallen for her because he had seen her as Kikyo, not Kagome.
"Wh-why did you bring me here?" Kagome cried.
"What's wrong, I thought you would like it..." said InuYasha.
"I-I do... it's beautiful but..." Kagome paused and took the moment to re-direct her view so that she wasn't looking at InuYasha. "But... this is wrong. If you met Kikyo here, than this is NOT my place... you had just finished telling me you loved me, when the truth is now written all over you.... You don't love me for who I am..." she spoke silently. "You've mistaken me for Kikyo... I'm sorry." She turned on her heal, ready to run, but something held her back.
InuYasha had grabbed her wrist. "D-don't go, I'm sorry, I didn't know... I-"
Kagome pried herself from his grip and ran, without turning back.... leaving HIM.
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Rikku: Another fight, ne? Oh well... Arigatou for all the reviews for chapter 10 and please review this, I hope you liked Outkast's "Hey ya" heh-heh, I love that song- not really, I dunno. *Shrugs*
Dewa Mata and chapter 12 is being worked on right now!!
x-Rikku-x
P.S. My dance sucked!! T.T
I do not own InuYasha, nor Outkast or any of their songs, you'll see why....
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Chapter 11: An Unforgiveable Mistake
"Hurry up in there, it's my turn!!!" Souta banged on the washroom's door.
"Just a sec!!" Kagome hollered from in the shower. A good and LONG shower was just what she needed to survive the rest of the day. She fiddled with the antenna on the radio located on a shelf built onto the bathroom's wall near the tub. She grinned as one of her favourite songs sounded.
She began to sing along:
"My baby don't mess around
because she loves me so
and this I know for sure....
But does she really wanna,
but can't stand to see me
walk out the door...-"
"Quiet down in there!!" Someone was knocking hardly on the door, the voice belonged to her grandfather.
Kagome chuckled.
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Kagome sat down quietly on her bed. She awaited the call of her mother; it was almost dinner time. She sighed when it didn't come, not knowing what to do with her very little spare time.
'Hmm....' she thought. Kagome let her wet hair soak her bed sheets as she laid back. Everything she had left to do would be best done at school, so that left her with nothing to kill the time with. She yawned. 'I guess it's back to the boring life...'
Kagome stared at her ceiling for a couple minutes, visualizing the handsome mystery boy. InuYasha....
Her eyes widened and she quickly snapped out of her odd state. She shook her head hard as water flew everywhere from her hair. Blinking, she thought about how strange it was for her to think such thoughts...
"Kagome honey, dinner!!"
Kagome sighed in relief and rushed to the kitchen, settling down on an empty seat and chowing down her food as quickly as possible as if it would rid all of her thoughts.
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Kagome laid on her bed with her eyes wide open. She laid there without a thought, not even sleepy. She looked toward her clock, it was 2 am. She couldn't sleep and her stomach was full.
"Ow...." she whined. Her stomach was bursting with pain because of all the food she ate, maybe she shouldn't have gotten so freaked about visualizing InuYasha's face....
~!~CLINK~!~
"Nani?" Kagome got up quickly and studied her room for the source of the sound.
~!~CLINK~!~
It came again.
Finally Kagome found that it had been coming from her window, she pulled herself off the bed roughly and made her way to the large glass and opened it up to speak.
"W-who's there?" she asked nervously. She shivered as a cold breeze swept by.
InuYasha was there.
He was holding a handful of pebbles, he had been throwing them.
She looked down at him curiously. "InuYasha?"
"Ya... it's me.." he spoke.
"What are you doing here?"
"I couldn't sleep..."
"Hmm...." It was strange that Kagome also couldn't sleep. She gave InuYasha a worried look. "You wanna come in?"
"Honto?"
She chuckled. "Of course, now why would I leave you out here in the cold?" She left and quickly ran toward the back door. Opening it, she revealed a shivering InuYasha in his usual red casual clothes.
He walked by her and took a seat on the empty couch he was sitting in before at her party. He eyed Kagome head to toe.
She silently sighed in relief again, when she realized that she was fortunate enough to not be in embarassing pajamas, she hadn't changed from her casual jersey and flares outfit yet. "Want something to drink?" she asked.
He looked up from the floor to her. "Ya, ok...."
Kagome nodded but didn't budge, InuYasha was finally looking straight at her and she wanted to savour the moment.
"Nani?" he asked when he realized she hadn't moved.
"Oh, nothing..." she spoke, leaving for the kitchen.
She searched through her fridge for something InuYasha would drink. Grabbing a can of pepsi she made her way to the living room, where InuYasha was, thinking about why he was there.
"Here..." she said, handing him the can. She took a seat next to him and studied him for a bit....
"Doumo." he replied, breaking Kagome's trance.
She nodded. "I should warn you, my family's sleeping, you might not want to wake them..."
"Ya, alright."
Kagome gulped, she didn't want to ask but....
"So.... why couldn't you sleep?" she blurted out.
"Oh, um.... just a headache..." he answered. "Sorry for waking you."
"It's alright, I wasn't asleep anyway..." she assured him, but something about his answer had a bit of falseness in it. (Rikku:Falseness??)
He nodded, sipping his pepsi. He looked up to the ceiling, without taking his eyes off it. "Kagome, I-"
"Why did you come here?" she interrupted, she really wanted to know why he had come to her....
"Oh...I.." he started, still eyeing the ceiling. He sighed. "Okay...I lied to you about the headache thing.... I didn't really wanna tell you this, but..."
So Kagome was right. She felt her mind cheer at the thought of getting to know InuYasha better...
"I was thinking about you.... about the talk we had before and I wanted to..."
"Confront me?"
He nodded.
Kagome blushed and noticed that he was blushing too.
He took another sip of his drink, trying to avoid Kagome's eyes. But this time, Kagome couldn't blame him. "Well, it seemed strange that I would think about you like....that."
"Like what?" she knew she was taking a risk to ask but couldn't help it.
He turned his head and looked straight into her eyes.
Kagome's eyes shimmered, she tried as hard as ever to keep a steady look.... something about the moment was....breakable.
"Kagome, I-"
"H-hai?" and without thinking she reached for his hand, and held it tightly. She blushed slightly again as she realized that his hand was in it's....place. Almost like it's home.... weird, ne?
He looked down to their hands and blushed too. Finally looking up, Kagome met with his yellow and for the first time, caring eyes.
He sighed. "Let's go for a walk..." he spoke, getting up from his seat and breaking the 'bond' of their hands.(Rikku: ??) "It'll be better if I tell you when we're alone..."
She got up too, thinking for awhile. She looked out the window to a dark sky and looked back to InuYasha. "Now?"
He nodded.
Kagome sighed. "Alright then..." She needed the time to ACTUALLY get to know InuYasha....
He grabbed her arm and barged out the door quickly, not even giving Kagome time to get a jacket.
She shivered when they reached the outside. Her hair blew roughly as strong winds swept by. InuYasha just gave her a mere look and pulled her farther to the sidewalk.
"W-where are we going?" she asked fearfully.
"Don't worry, I just have to talk to you and show you something..." he replied.
He finally let go of Kagome when it seemed he had realized Kagome wouldn't run back. They began to walk...together. "So, you still wanna know why?" he asked out of the bloom.
"Nani?"
"W-why I was thinking about you... and what I was thinking about..."
"Oh.. ok then."
He sighed again. "Listen, it's been a long time since I felt this way and I was unsure when I felt it at first, I guess you can say I was afraid..."
"Of what?" Kagome was puzzled.
"Of the thought of falling in love..."
Kagome gasped.
"Kikyo was my first love... and at one point in my life I thought she would be my ONLY one.... until I met you. You seemed like an average school girl at first, and I didn't care much. But something about you made me what to tell you it all... about how I felt and about my past... It hurt me to see YOU hurt, though I didn't know why before. But now I understand it all..."
"Understand what?"
"That you're NOT an average school girl, and that your not Kikyo." He looked at her and chuckled. "I can face the fact that looking at you won't hurt me... and that I won't see Kikyo. Instead I'll seen a whole knew girl that has.... stolen my heart." His face reddened at the sentence and his eyes glistened.
"H-honto?"
He nodded.
Kagome eyes watered and tears had found their way to her cheeks.... she was happy... with him. He made her feel whole and now she knew he felt the same way.... but even if he did love her, a tint in his voice told her that he was still pretty much in love with Kikyo.... but he didn't know that. She turned away, but felt his eyes still watching her. "InuYasha....I have been doubting this for awhile, but now that I know that it's true... I guess it wouldn't hurt to tell you. I-I've fallen in love with you too...." she spilled out. Kagome knew InuYasha was shocked just as much as she was a few seconds back, but she refused to look at his face. Tears were now pouring down her cheeks and she felt herself stop walking.
InuYasha stopped too, Kagome's instincts told her that his eyes had found their way to something else.
..:::Silence:::..
The first one to break it was Kagome.
"I understand it all now.... all of it."
She looked up to InuYasha and he nodded. They continued to walk again, but no one spoke a word.
"What did you want to show me?" Kagome inquired.
"I'm leading you to it right now." InuYasha chuckled. The arrogant tone had come back to his voice... and for once, Kagome was glad about that, because that was the voice he had when she first fell for him...
After InuYasha glanced at his watch for the tenth time, he turned to look at Kagome and spoke. "What's your family like?"
Kagome shrugged. "One would say they were like everyone else.... but they would be dead wrong. My grandfather is obsessed with spirit shit and ritual stuff... it's funny at first but then gets annoying." she chuckled. "My mother is ALMOST always cheerful, but the the rest of the time, she wastes it screaming her head off at my brother and me... my brother... well he's an odd one too, he acts all grown up but in the inside he's the same little brat... but he always cares... for me, my mother and yes, even for my grandfather..."
InuYasha smirked. "You got quite a family, Kag."
Kagome smiled. "I thought you knew my mother though."
"Nani?" InuYasha thought for a moment and laughed when he realized who Kagome was talking about. "The woman at the store?"
Kagome nodded and the two of them laughed.
"How's your family?" Kagome asked.
InuYasha's smile left his face and Kagome knew she shouldn't have asked. "My mother and father seperated a long time ago..." he forced himself to say. "My father took my step-brother and I was left with my mother... she loved me very much and I felt the same way about her... but when I turned 14 she died, from heart failure, my father died too, a short while after my mother's death... and I haven't seen my brother- half-brother- since.... I live with one of my mother's good friends now... his name is Myouga."
Kagome was stunned, he had lost everyone he loved.... and it seemed he hated his step-brother very much... InuYasha lived a cold, cold life...
"But that's all the past..." he spoke silently.
Kagome nodded and grabbed his hand once again. (Rikku: It seems she has a habit for that... heh-heh...) She looked him in the eyes. "I-I'm so sorry..." she spoke.
He look down to her and shook his head. "It's not your fault..." he said. "Anyway... you haven't told me anything about your father..." It seemed he tried to rid his voice of the sadness but was unsucessful.
"Oh.." Kagome spoke. "I haven't seen my father since I was a kid.... he left for a business trip and never came back. I don't know very much about him..."
InuYasha didn't answer, they didn't speak for a long while, nor did they look at each other.
Kagome had just started to get interested into the ground, until InuYasha finally spoke. "We're here...."
Kagome looked up and was stunned once again. "I-It's beautiful..."
Before them was a meadow, it was full of flowers, beautiful flowers of many colours.... beyond it was a forest.... the scene was rich. It was still dark out but that didn't matter, the beauty was still intensifying. A well stood in the middle of it (Rikku: Hee-hee^.^) and a lake shimmered from the corner of Kagome's eyes.
She felt an arm wrap around her shoulders and blushed. She looked up at its owner and, obviously, it was InuYasha. A smirk spread across his face like Souta and his eyes sparkled.
"This-this is where I met Kikyo..."
Kagome froze. The beauty of the meadow was no longer.... beautiful. His simple words had broken the moment and Kagome's world turned upside down. Why? When he had just confessed his feelings for her and when they were just starting to get to know he each, he brought up Kikyo. An unsuspecting hatred for her filled Kagome's mind... she didn't even know her, but she had already started to ruin her life....
She pulled herself from InuYasha, anger rising through her system. He gave her a curious look and she couldn't help but think that he had only fallen for her because he had seen her as Kikyo, not Kagome.
"Wh-why did you bring me here?" Kagome cried.
"What's wrong, I thought you would like it..." said InuYasha.
"I-I do... it's beautiful but..." Kagome paused and took the moment to re-direct her view so that she wasn't looking at InuYasha. "But... this is wrong. If you met Kikyo here, than this is NOT my place... you had just finished telling me you loved me, when the truth is now written all over you.... You don't love me for who I am..." she spoke silently. "You've mistaken me for Kikyo... I'm sorry." She turned on her heal, ready to run, but something held her back.
InuYasha had grabbed her wrist. "D-don't go, I'm sorry, I didn't know... I-"
Kagome pried herself from his grip and ran, without turning back.... leaving HIM.
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Rikku: Another fight, ne? Oh well... Arigatou for all the reviews for chapter 10 and please review this, I hope you liked Outkast's "Hey ya" heh-heh, I love that song- not really, I dunno. *Shrugs*
Dewa Mata and chapter 12 is being worked on right now!!
x-Rikku-x
P.S. My dance sucked!! T.T