*When darkness comes to sleep*
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"I'm not sure about this, Isis" the doctor spoke, shifting his eyes between the her and the fidgeting Malik. "Please doctor, you've said yourself; the Marik persona comes out less and less" Isis replied quickly.
"It's true doc, I've been suppressing him; he hasn't gotten out in the four months I've been here" Malik added to him. "Er.." the doctor could only say and rubbed his temples. Could he really allow Malik to leave? From his sessions with him, he seemed well enough but when he reverted to Marik...
The sessions became bone chilling
"Malik, you understand Marik can also come out while you sleep" he added. Malik shivered at this in disbelief "What?" he stuttered out. " You may not be aware of it but he sometimes comes out while you sleep. It makes sense, that's when you are dormant, allowing him to take control of your body" he explain. Malik just look at the doctor in disbelief all these months of fighting him from taking control and one night of sleep have him control his body? He suddenly felt afraid.
And desperate
"Then hock me up on drugs!! You don't have those for damn show" he exclaimed slamming his fist on the floor. "Malik, please, calm yourself" Isis spoke and Malik just growled looking at his feet trying to suppress Marik once again.
"Malik, you're getting angry"
"Shut up!! I'm not letting you out!!"
"You heard the good doctor once you close you're eyes I become free"
"I won't let it happen then!!"
"What are you going to do? Kill yourself??"
"Don't tempt me Marik" he snarled and continue talking to himself. He finally look up seeing his sister staring at him a bit frighten and he gave her a sheepish smile "I was talking to myself again, was I?" he said ashamed. "This is what I mean, Isis, right now your brother is in a very fragile state; he has to fight for control constantly, are you sure you can cope with it?" the doctor asked with concern.
"Yes, doctor, he is the only family I have left, and I will not abandon him. I assure you of that" Isis stated grabbing Maliks hand and holding it softly. "Nee-san" Malik said touched and the anger began to fade away as well as Marik, once again becoming dormant in the back of his head.
"Doctor, I will make sure I won't lose control" Malik said determined. "Malik" the doctor began but Malik cut him off.
"Doctor, do you know how many people suffer for what I have done? For what Marik has done? Let me take responsibility and atone for what I did to them." he pleaded to him "These hands, they're stain with the blood of those Marik and I have killed. I want to make amends to those I have made suffered" he spoke and the doctor remained silent. A pensive look swept though his eyes never taking his attention away from Malik. He finally reached for the phone and Malik's eyes drooped glumly "Looks like I won't be able to atone for my sins after all" he said to himself.
"Please escort Miss Ishtar and her brother outside, and bring the prescription for Malik Ishtar please" the doctor said Malik jerk his head up. "Y-You mean!??" he exclaimed and the doctor slowly nodded "You have proven more than enough that you are capable but I'm giving you're sister you're prescription as a precaution" he explain.
"Isn't this great Malik, you're getting out" Isis exclaimed happily but stop when she saw him looking down "Malik?" she ask hoping that Marik would not appear.
"THANK YOU!!!" Malik yelled at the topped of his lungs and grabbed Isis, standing her up and began to dance with her happily. He twirled her around and grabbed the doctor and began to dance with him also much to the doctors embarrassment.
"THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!"
"All right Malik, I see you're grateful" The doctor exclaim finally escaping from his grip panting heavily while Malik gave him another sheepish smile "I'm sorry doctor it's just that---I'm going to be starting a new life and it's thanks to you and my sister" he spoke he never felt so happy in his life.
"I wish you both the best on your journey, just make sure to continue with the music therapy; it's proving very affective"
"YES YES I WILL!!!!" he still yelled happily hugging his sister once again "Thank you Isis, thank you" he cried to her and his sister put him in an warm embraced. He was determine now, he would change, and he would keep Marik dormant.
Even if it killed him
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Anzu sat nervously alone in the small room waiting for the hospital therapist and sighed to herself wincing whenever she tried to breath.
She did try to choke herself after all.
{Looks like you couldn't shut me up again, you're so pathetic}
Anzu growled to herself god she hated this voice in her head; why couldn't it shut-up and leave her alone, why couldn't she been left alone to die? The dirt was still there and she begin to feel sick. Horror struck in her heart what if he gotten her pregnant?!?? "Oh god" she whispered herself and her hands pressed against her still swollen abdomen.
"I'm pregnant with his child??' she choked her body beginning to convulse from the horror of it. She then laughed bitterly "The miracle of life resulted from this" she spat out laughing to herself not noticing the therapist entered.
"Hello Miss. Mazaki how are we feeling?"
"Shit. You?" she answer and the doctor look at her good natured while she sat in her desk. She looked through her papers and her eyes finally look at the brunette" Anzu, the doctor has told me, you attempted to commit suicide, twice. When you were at home and yesterday when you tried to choke yourself" she spoke.
"........"
"Had there been any family problems? Friends maybe, boys?"
The last term boys caught her dead cold and her new found distrust in them and hatred "Fuck men" she spat out rubbing her arms. The doctor look at her interested "Why do you say that?" she ask.
"It's none of your damn business!!" she yelled at her. She begin to rubbed her arms faster nearing hysteria as she remembered all over again "Fuck them all" she said and begin to say dirt over and over soon lost in her little world. "Anzu?" the doctor spoke but only received dirty from her she stood from her desk "Anzu" she repeated and her hand grazed Anzu's arm. Anzu suddenly jerked pushing the doctor away from her.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!!!" she yelled with fear. She fell off her chair and begin to scoot away until her back hit against the wall and she lost herself in the resurfacing memories again she crouched in a ball, hugging herself. She rocked herself back and now saying touched he touched me over and over. Tears begin to form once again as she felt the dirt cover her and reliving the nightmare she could never wake up from.
"Anzu, snap out of it!!" the doctor exclaim and attempted to go near her again but stop; she would only worsen the situation. What could she do? It was clear of the signs she displayed she been raped then something caught eye she had scars on her arms and legs. Anzu closed her eyes trembling, she remembered this; how he locked her in the darkness before strapping her up and cutting her flesh licking the blood off.
"Dark..so dark..." she whispered huddling in the small corner like a frighten child. "Anzu" the doctor spoke "Let me help you; what did this man do to you?" she spoke with firmness. "Leave me alone" Anzu said with anger.
"but--"
"LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!" she screamed looking at the doctor with hatred before turning away and continue to rock herself against the wall.
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"How long has she been in there?"
"Three hours, I can't get through to her" she spoke to Anzu's parents. "My baby, what happened to you?' Her mother hoarse out covering her face.
"I believed she's been raped" the doctor spoke preparing for their replies it usually wasn't very pretty. Her mother just sat there shock and her father look at the doctor in disbelief. "Raped? That's impossible Our daughter--" he spoke and snarled at this.
"WHO DID THIS TO HER!!!" he snapped and the therapist lowered her head at this "I don't know, she hasn't told me; but she displays the signs but I believe, she gone through much worse" the doctor replied. Before Mr. Mazaki could reply they were interrupted by the sound of running.
"ANZU!!"
"IS SHE ALL RIGHT!??!"
"WHERE IS SHE!?!!?" Yuugi cried out. "What are you doing here!" the therapist demanded. "Where's Anzu!" Yuugi just answered. "C'mon lady, where's our friend?" Jou ask with seriousness. "I'm sorry but you cannot see her; she is not in the condition" the therapist spoke back. "Bull crap; Anzu needs us!!" Honda exclaimed.
"So let us through!!"
"NOW!!"
"I'm sorry but you can't see her" The therapist snapped firmly in her voice. "Lady, we didn't come all the way to the hospital to see our friend just to be brushed away. I won't ask you again; let us see her" Jou threatened. The therapist was about to reply until she saw the short boy make a run for it and bursting through the door. "WAIT!!" she cried out but it was too late; everyone went in she couldn't stop them from seeing Anzu the way she was.
shattered
"Aznu...?" Yuugi spoke as she saw the girl in a corner of the room hugging her self crying to herself. Jou felt his heart stop looking at the picture before him "Anzu? What the hell.?" he spoke out.
"Dark...cold...dirty..filthy....hurts..." she said to herself her eyes completely glazed over. Sweat beaded down from her as her wounds reopened themselves. She begin a whole new set of sobs continuing to rubbed her raw arms again not noticing the blood was getting on her clothes.
{Stupid girl, no one can help you, look at you? Do you think anyone would want you anymore? You're better off in this void}
"Anzu, what's wrong?" Yuugi ask and begin to walk towards the huddling girl "WAIT!!" the therapist cried out "DON'T TOUCH HER!!" she cried out but Yuugi ignored her and continue to walk to her.
"Dark....cold...dirty.....filthy.....hurts...it hurts..blood..warm..."
"Anzu, tell me what happen"
"Blood...warm...." she said while Yuugi continue to get closer. He kneeled beside the trembling girl "Anzu, it's ok; I'm here, your friends we're here" he spoke. "Dirty....he made me..dirty..." she said to herself. Yuugi's eyes widen "Who? Who did this to you? Please Anzu, tell me?" he pleaded and gently grabbed her arm.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!!" she screamed and pushed Yuugi away. "ANZU!! WHAT WRONG WITH YOU!!" Jou exclaim. He ran to her and grabbed her by the shoulders. Anzu let out a sharp gasp this was the way he touched he was coming back he was coming back for her.
"LET ME GO!!" she screamed struggling. "Anzu please calm down" Jou pleaded but were drown out by her cries. {He's back, you need to finish him off Anzu}
{Do it, before he kills you; wring his neck like he deserves it}
Anzu suddenly stopped struggling "Anzu, you have to tell us, who did this to you" Jou said while Honda looked at her with pained eyes. He couldn't bear to see someone as who went through so strong reduced to this.
"You did..you." she muttered to herself. Jou look at her and she suddenly jerk to him her eyes full of hatred and rage "YOU DID!!!" she screamed and the next thing Jou knew he felt two strong hands grip his neck and he was slammed to the ground.
"I'LL KILL YOU!!!!!!!!! YOU FUCKIN BASTARD HOW COULD YOU!!!!! WHY?!!??? WHY!??!!!! DID YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTED??!?? DID YOU!??!! YOU FUCKER!!! FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" she screamed gripping tighter and tighter. Jou struggled to breath as he look at Anzu with shocked eyes "Anzu....stop.....please....can't....breathe"
"ANZU STOP IT!!" Yuugi cried out and with all of his strength slammed his body against her while Honda ran to see if Jou was all right.
"ANZU WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!!" Yuugi cried out. Anzu got out of her dazed and look at Yuugi "Oh my god Jou." she turned and saw him gasping for air while Honda look at her in disbelief. She could hear the inner voice laughing at her she allowed herself to be taken control by it.
"Please leave me..." she suddenly said.
"Anzu"
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!!"
"We better do as she says" the therapist said and motioned everyone outside, Yuugi was the last one to leave "Maybe Yami can get through to her" he thought and immediately transformed to him.
"Anzu" Yami begin reaching his hand out "Why can't you leave me alone? Just leave me alone, look what I did? Just leave please?" she spoke between sobs. Yami clench his hand into a fist and stood up and begin to walk away from her.
"Anzu, I'll find out who did this to you" he thought to himself.
He door closed and she was left all alone once again trembling in the corner. {See Anzu? You a danger to everyone....how can they help you?}
"I'm sorry so sorry, I'm sorry, so sorry"
Shattered end three
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I listen to aura while writing this for some reason the song help along with writing this it's from .hack//sign
Y.V.
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"I'm not sure about this, Isis" the doctor spoke, shifting his eyes between the her and the fidgeting Malik. "Please doctor, you've said yourself; the Marik persona comes out less and less" Isis replied quickly.
"It's true doc, I've been suppressing him; he hasn't gotten out in the four months I've been here" Malik added to him. "Er.." the doctor could only say and rubbed his temples. Could he really allow Malik to leave? From his sessions with him, he seemed well enough but when he reverted to Marik...
The sessions became bone chilling
"Malik, you understand Marik can also come out while you sleep" he added. Malik shivered at this in disbelief "What?" he stuttered out. " You may not be aware of it but he sometimes comes out while you sleep. It makes sense, that's when you are dormant, allowing him to take control of your body" he explain. Malik just look at the doctor in disbelief all these months of fighting him from taking control and one night of sleep have him control his body? He suddenly felt afraid.
And desperate
"Then hock me up on drugs!! You don't have those for damn show" he exclaimed slamming his fist on the floor. "Malik, please, calm yourself" Isis spoke and Malik just growled looking at his feet trying to suppress Marik once again.
"Malik, you're getting angry"
"Shut up!! I'm not letting you out!!"
"You heard the good doctor once you close you're eyes I become free"
"I won't let it happen then!!"
"What are you going to do? Kill yourself??"
"Don't tempt me Marik" he snarled and continue talking to himself. He finally look up seeing his sister staring at him a bit frighten and he gave her a sheepish smile "I was talking to myself again, was I?" he said ashamed. "This is what I mean, Isis, right now your brother is in a very fragile state; he has to fight for control constantly, are you sure you can cope with it?" the doctor asked with concern.
"Yes, doctor, he is the only family I have left, and I will not abandon him. I assure you of that" Isis stated grabbing Maliks hand and holding it softly. "Nee-san" Malik said touched and the anger began to fade away as well as Marik, once again becoming dormant in the back of his head.
"Doctor, I will make sure I won't lose control" Malik said determined. "Malik" the doctor began but Malik cut him off.
"Doctor, do you know how many people suffer for what I have done? For what Marik has done? Let me take responsibility and atone for what I did to them." he pleaded to him "These hands, they're stain with the blood of those Marik and I have killed. I want to make amends to those I have made suffered" he spoke and the doctor remained silent. A pensive look swept though his eyes never taking his attention away from Malik. He finally reached for the phone and Malik's eyes drooped glumly "Looks like I won't be able to atone for my sins after all" he said to himself.
"Please escort Miss Ishtar and her brother outside, and bring the prescription for Malik Ishtar please" the doctor said Malik jerk his head up. "Y-You mean!??" he exclaimed and the doctor slowly nodded "You have proven more than enough that you are capable but I'm giving you're sister you're prescription as a precaution" he explain.
"Isn't this great Malik, you're getting out" Isis exclaimed happily but stop when she saw him looking down "Malik?" she ask hoping that Marik would not appear.
"THANK YOU!!!" Malik yelled at the topped of his lungs and grabbed Isis, standing her up and began to dance with her happily. He twirled her around and grabbed the doctor and began to dance with him also much to the doctors embarrassment.
"THANK YOU, THANK YOU!!!!"
"All right Malik, I see you're grateful" The doctor exclaim finally escaping from his grip panting heavily while Malik gave him another sheepish smile "I'm sorry doctor it's just that---I'm going to be starting a new life and it's thanks to you and my sister" he spoke he never felt so happy in his life.
"I wish you both the best on your journey, just make sure to continue with the music therapy; it's proving very affective"
"YES YES I WILL!!!!" he still yelled happily hugging his sister once again "Thank you Isis, thank you" he cried to her and his sister put him in an warm embraced. He was determine now, he would change, and he would keep Marik dormant.
Even if it killed him
* * * * * * * * * * * *
Anzu sat nervously alone in the small room waiting for the hospital therapist and sighed to herself wincing whenever she tried to breath.
She did try to choke herself after all.
{Looks like you couldn't shut me up again, you're so pathetic}
Anzu growled to herself god she hated this voice in her head; why couldn't it shut-up and leave her alone, why couldn't she been left alone to die? The dirt was still there and she begin to feel sick. Horror struck in her heart what if he gotten her pregnant?!?? "Oh god" she whispered herself and her hands pressed against her still swollen abdomen.
"I'm pregnant with his child??' she choked her body beginning to convulse from the horror of it. She then laughed bitterly "The miracle of life resulted from this" she spat out laughing to herself not noticing the therapist entered.
"Hello Miss. Mazaki how are we feeling?"
"Shit. You?" she answer and the doctor look at her good natured while she sat in her desk. She looked through her papers and her eyes finally look at the brunette" Anzu, the doctor has told me, you attempted to commit suicide, twice. When you were at home and yesterday when you tried to choke yourself" she spoke.
"........"
"Had there been any family problems? Friends maybe, boys?"
The last term boys caught her dead cold and her new found distrust in them and hatred "Fuck men" she spat out rubbing her arms. The doctor look at her interested "Why do you say that?" she ask.
"It's none of your damn business!!" she yelled at her. She begin to rubbed her arms faster nearing hysteria as she remembered all over again "Fuck them all" she said and begin to say dirt over and over soon lost in her little world. "Anzu?" the doctor spoke but only received dirty from her she stood from her desk "Anzu" she repeated and her hand grazed Anzu's arm. Anzu suddenly jerked pushing the doctor away from her.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!!!" she yelled with fear. She fell off her chair and begin to scoot away until her back hit against the wall and she lost herself in the resurfacing memories again she crouched in a ball, hugging herself. She rocked herself back and now saying touched he touched me over and over. Tears begin to form once again as she felt the dirt cover her and reliving the nightmare she could never wake up from.
"Anzu, snap out of it!!" the doctor exclaim and attempted to go near her again but stop; she would only worsen the situation. What could she do? It was clear of the signs she displayed she been raped then something caught eye she had scars on her arms and legs. Anzu closed her eyes trembling, she remembered this; how he locked her in the darkness before strapping her up and cutting her flesh licking the blood off.
"Dark..so dark..." she whispered huddling in the small corner like a frighten child. "Anzu" the doctor spoke "Let me help you; what did this man do to you?" she spoke with firmness. "Leave me alone" Anzu said with anger.
"but--"
"LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE!!!" she screamed looking at the doctor with hatred before turning away and continue to rock herself against the wall.
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"How long has she been in there?"
"Three hours, I can't get through to her" she spoke to Anzu's parents. "My baby, what happened to you?' Her mother hoarse out covering her face.
"I believed she's been raped" the doctor spoke preparing for their replies it usually wasn't very pretty. Her mother just sat there shock and her father look at the doctor in disbelief. "Raped? That's impossible Our daughter--" he spoke and snarled at this.
"WHO DID THIS TO HER!!!" he snapped and the therapist lowered her head at this "I don't know, she hasn't told me; but she displays the signs but I believe, she gone through much worse" the doctor replied. Before Mr. Mazaki could reply they were interrupted by the sound of running.
"ANZU!!"
"IS SHE ALL RIGHT!??!"
"WHERE IS SHE!?!!?" Yuugi cried out. "What are you doing here!" the therapist demanded. "Where's Anzu!" Yuugi just answered. "C'mon lady, where's our friend?" Jou ask with seriousness. "I'm sorry but you cannot see her; she is not in the condition" the therapist spoke back. "Bull crap; Anzu needs us!!" Honda exclaimed.
"So let us through!!"
"NOW!!"
"I'm sorry but you can't see her" The therapist snapped firmly in her voice. "Lady, we didn't come all the way to the hospital to see our friend just to be brushed away. I won't ask you again; let us see her" Jou threatened. The therapist was about to reply until she saw the short boy make a run for it and bursting through the door. "WAIT!!" she cried out but it was too late; everyone went in she couldn't stop them from seeing Anzu the way she was.
shattered
"Aznu...?" Yuugi spoke as she saw the girl in a corner of the room hugging her self crying to herself. Jou felt his heart stop looking at the picture before him "Anzu? What the hell.?" he spoke out.
"Dark...cold...dirty..filthy....hurts..." she said to herself her eyes completely glazed over. Sweat beaded down from her as her wounds reopened themselves. She begin a whole new set of sobs continuing to rubbed her raw arms again not noticing the blood was getting on her clothes.
{Stupid girl, no one can help you, look at you? Do you think anyone would want you anymore? You're better off in this void}
"Anzu, what's wrong?" Yuugi ask and begin to walk towards the huddling girl "WAIT!!" the therapist cried out "DON'T TOUCH HER!!" she cried out but Yuugi ignored her and continue to walk to her.
"Dark....cold...dirty.....filthy.....hurts...it hurts..blood..warm..."
"Anzu, tell me what happen"
"Blood...warm...." she said while Yuugi continue to get closer. He kneeled beside the trembling girl "Anzu, it's ok; I'm here, your friends we're here" he spoke. "Dirty....he made me..dirty..." she said to herself. Yuugi's eyes widen "Who? Who did this to you? Please Anzu, tell me?" he pleaded and gently grabbed her arm.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!!" she screamed and pushed Yuugi away. "ANZU!! WHAT WRONG WITH YOU!!" Jou exclaim. He ran to her and grabbed her by the shoulders. Anzu let out a sharp gasp this was the way he touched he was coming back he was coming back for her.
"LET ME GO!!" she screamed struggling. "Anzu please calm down" Jou pleaded but were drown out by her cries. {He's back, you need to finish him off Anzu}
{Do it, before he kills you; wring his neck like he deserves it}
Anzu suddenly stopped struggling "Anzu, you have to tell us, who did this to you" Jou said while Honda looked at her with pained eyes. He couldn't bear to see someone as who went through so strong reduced to this.
"You did..you." she muttered to herself. Jou look at her and she suddenly jerk to him her eyes full of hatred and rage "YOU DID!!!" she screamed and the next thing Jou knew he felt two strong hands grip his neck and he was slammed to the ground.
"I'LL KILL YOU!!!!!!!!! YOU FUCKIN BASTARD HOW COULD YOU!!!!! WHY?!!??? WHY!??!!!! DID YOU KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTED??!?? DID YOU!??!! YOU FUCKER!!! FUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" she screamed gripping tighter and tighter. Jou struggled to breath as he look at Anzu with shocked eyes "Anzu....stop.....please....can't....breathe"
"ANZU STOP IT!!" Yuugi cried out and with all of his strength slammed his body against her while Honda ran to see if Jou was all right.
"ANZU WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOU!!" Yuugi cried out. Anzu got out of her dazed and look at Yuugi "Oh my god Jou." she turned and saw him gasping for air while Honda look at her in disbelief. She could hear the inner voice laughing at her she allowed herself to be taken control by it.
"Please leave me..." she suddenly said.
"Anzu"
"LEAVE ME ALONE!!!"
"We better do as she says" the therapist said and motioned everyone outside, Yuugi was the last one to leave "Maybe Yami can get through to her" he thought and immediately transformed to him.
"Anzu" Yami begin reaching his hand out "Why can't you leave me alone? Just leave me alone, look what I did? Just leave please?" she spoke between sobs. Yami clench his hand into a fist and stood up and begin to walk away from her.
"Anzu, I'll find out who did this to you" he thought to himself.
He door closed and she was left all alone once again trembling in the corner. {See Anzu? You a danger to everyone....how can they help you?}
"I'm sorry so sorry, I'm sorry, so sorry"
Shattered end three
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I listen to aura while writing this for some reason the song help along with writing this it's from .hack//sign
Y.V.