Can I still get a cookie Jade??
~//~If you are near
to the dark
I will tell you about the sun
You are here;
no escape
from my visions of the world
You will cry
all alone
But it does not mean a thing to me
Flow in the song
I will sing
Till the darkness
Comes to sleep
Come to me
I will tell
Of the secret of the sun
It's in you
Not in me
But it does not mean a thing to you
The sun is in your eyes
The sun is in your ears
I hope you see the sun
Someday in the darkness
The sun is in your eyes
The sun is in your ears
But you can't see the sun ever in the darkness
It does not much matter to me~//~
Aura
*Solace in unexpected arms*
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"Flight 405 Egypt to Japan will be leaving in fifteen minutes"
"Malik, do you have everything you need with you?" Isis ask. Malik look through his backpack for a second check, pulling out his needed things. "Let's see. Duel monsters deck, CD player, piano music, books, prescription--wait where is it, holy crap did I forget it!?!?!" he exclaimed searching desperately in his bag . "Shit shit shit" he repeated.
"Malik"
Malik looked up and saw his sister holding the small blue bottle in her hands "You gave it to me, remember?" she spoke and Malik slapped his head "Brain fart" he said and put his things, except for his cd player, back in the bag.. He sat himself on the seat comfortably, looking out of the window plane "Last time I left this place, it was on a boat" he spoke to himself and the memories of battle city flooded back to him.
"Malik, you get some sleep, you haven't rest in three days" Isis urged and saw Malik tiredly shook his head "I can't; Ever since what the doctor said, I can't, he'll come out" he answered to hear. "Malik that's why we have the prescription ; it'll help repress him" Isis spoke.
"Speaking of prescription, time for my dose" he spoke as Isis opened the bottle let a small red pill drop out on the palm of her hand. She then gave it to Malik. He looked at it; he didn't like to take the drug, the side effects usually left him tired and a mindless zombie.
Like the people he made into mind slaves
"Stop that" he scolded to himself mentally. This was a start of a new life for him first he would apologized to all the people he forced under his control then……..
"Yuugi and his friends………."
His eyes began to droop, he tried to keep them open but he hadn't slept in three days; for fear that once he would close his eyes HE would come out.
And his sister would be in danger
He closed his hand with the pill within and popped it into his mouth, swallowing it down without water "Thank god for drugs" he said aloud and saw Isis give him a disapproving look. "Isis not those kind of drugs" he answered her question that she was thinking. His eyes began to closed and he let his body relaxed against the kosher seats but he still had his doubts, about Marik taking over his body while he slept. He then felt someone's hand hold his. He tiredly look down and saw a slender hand of his sisters his eyes then trailed up to meet with her own.
"Don't worry Malik, I'll be here if you need me" she assured gently. "Nee-san" he spoke before dozing off into a sleep, his hand still holding that of her older sister's. Isis just looked at her sleeping brother and a sad smiled swept to her face "He looks like the innocent child he was before….."
FLASH
"But sister, I want you to come with me"
"Hush, father may hear" Isis spoke to her younger brother who sat on the bed pouting at her with his hands clench in fists.
"Do not worry he is asleep" Rishid spoke, entering the room with the two siblings. "We've been planning this for two days" Mlalik exclaimed and Isis turned away. "Malik, I am not sure this will be a good idea" Isis began she knew how strict her father was with the rules of the clan.
"Sister, no matter what, I just want to see the outside world, just once" Malik spoke sadly. It pained Isis seeing the sad look on her brother but could she really risk her and his safety?
"Ms. Isis, I'll take care off things here………please take Malik-sama to fulfill his wish now" Rishid spoke. Isis look at him with concern and was returned with a face of assurance. "I understand. We will leave at dawn tomorrow" she spoke and saw Maliks eyes lighten and breaking in a wide smiled.
"We'll leave at dawn. But only for two hours."
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"Isis are we near?"
"Just a bit further Malik" Isis replied. She could feel her little brother cling to he. She felt his uneasiness, after all, this would be his first time he stepped into the surface.
Into the world
Both carefully walked up the stone steps, it was too dark to see yet. Isis felt for the opening and pushed it open letting the sun enter into their otherwise dark home. She went out first "C'mon" she urged. Malik rubbed his eyes, the light hurt but they soon adjust. His eyes widen and a pure smile beamed onto him as he walk out shock and joyful as he bathed his whole body in the light the first time in ten years.
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"Is this a street? There's so many people" Malik exclaimed his eyes filled with curiosity while his sister followed him from behind. He ran happily scanning every inch of the bazaar he look all around him never in his life he had seen so many people, it felt great to know there where people besides his family above the world while he remain underground, devoid of life he was to spend an eternity in. He then noticed a women stepping on a book and he picked it up.
"SISTER!?!"
Isis immediately turned to him "What is it?" she ask concern and saw Malik point something to the book he held. "What is it?" he ask pointing to a picture of a man on a two wheeled vehicle. "That's a motorcycle Malik, it is a machine powered by fuel" Isis explain as he looked at the picture in awe.
"Wow, it must be very fast" he said with amazement, much to his sisters amusement. "Sister, if I keep living like this, I will never see this world again…." he said pensively and Isis saddened at this. "We have to go back" she said in a monotone and Malik looked at her distraught.
"Already?"
"Yes, two hours have been up" she replied grabbing him by the arm. "Wait at least let me keep this" he pleaded ripping out the page and stuffing it in his shirt.
"The pharaohs soul will soon awaken"
Isis looked up, facing a man with a blank expression, his gaze on her younger brother. Instinctively, she stood in front of Malik "Who are you" she demanded and the man ignored her.
"Grave guardian, your destiny has come; the blood of you're family will be spilled to create anew"
Isis immediately woke up feeling her brother now squeezing her hand. "I must have dozed off" she thought to herself and looked at Malik. His brow furrowed and he moved slightly as in a grip of a dream then much to her horror she saw his bangs begin to stray. He begin to whimper, clenching his already closed eyes and his bangs reverted down. He still held her hand tightly but not painfully as if for support "Malik….even when you sleep, you have to fight him…" she thought sadly to herself.
Malik look at his half with tired annoyance as he slightly panted. "Marik I won't let you out!!" he snapped at him. Marik just chuckled at this, staring at his light "Malik, you are too weak; You've been able to repress me for this long but I will take over; it's just a matter of time" he purred to him.
Malik growled at him "Marik, I've changed, I won't let you hurt my family" he growled to him. "Tch if it weren't for the drugs I would have killed you by now, but I'll have to settle for making you tired all the time and your mind" he mocked. Malik just looked at him in contempt while Marik stared back.
"So where going to have a staring contest then?"
"looks like it"
"……………."
"…………….."
"Malik you bore me, why was I curse to be a part of you?" he spoke with one eye closed. "YOU CURSED!! I'm the one cursed with you!! You were the one who killed father!!" he yelled him.
"Malik, WE killed father, do not forget that" he spoke and Malik remained silent at this. "You're pathectic. Asking for atonement?" Marik suddenly spoke. "What I do is none of your business" he snapped at him. Marik laughed at this "Really? Hmmm from what I know you are planning to see Yuugi and his friends, am I right?"
"So what?" he ask and found himself flinch when Marik licked his lips slowly (Tongue thing is freakin creepy O_o) "I remember them well, especially Anzu" he purred rubbing his chin letting all of his tongue out lick his lips after he mentioned Anzu's name. Malik found himself trembling from growing rage "What about her" he said calmly. Marik looked at him with a malicious smile; it looked like he hit a nerve "Oh nothing, I'm just remembering for a time she was your mind slave; And mine" he spoke.
"You also had a small liking for her didn't you Malik?" Marik ask. "That is none of your business" Malik snapped back, clenching his fist. Marik chuckled "Why wouldn't you? After all, she did treat you differently, even after all you put her and her beloved pharaoh through"
"I know" Malik said annoyed and wondered when would the drugs kick in and make Marik comatose. "You treated her differently also, you couldn't control her mind, no, you chose not to control her mind most of the time and you seemed to use her to find out things unlike the other one"
"Then again I always had a liking for Naïve, women like her, it made games much more amusing"
"SHUT-IT!!!!" Malik yelled suddenly which took Marik off guard "You're getting angry Malik" he mocked and suddenly rubbed his head "Yeah will tell your bitching to my drugs" Malik taunted as he saw Marik fall to the ground unconscious.
"He-bitch" Malik said to his now unconscious dark. "Why the hell did he bring Anzu up" he thought to himself rubbing his head. The thought of her gave him a guilty feeling "I have to apologize to her especially, not only I made her my mind slave, but I kept on using her as a means of spying to get information about Yuugi and Yami" he thought.
"Even though, I still like her" he thought still looking at the slumbering Marik "But I won't let you near her, I promise you that" he snarled to him.
He closed his eyes and rubbed his arms he then opened his eyes to see them covered in blood. He jerk up looking at them as the crimson liquid ran down from his hands, dripping to the obsidian ground. He looked up to see the bloodied body of his father.
"Father……." he spoke seeing the figure lay lifelessly on his stomach a huge chunk of skin was cut out where the memory of the pharaoh was engraved on him. He fell to his knees remembering the screams the cries and how he laughed as he used the millennium rod cutting into his fathers flesh. He begin to tremble violently remembering the vivid pictures very well "I was going to kill Isis and Rishid after I killed father…." he trembled and heard chuckling.
"Crawling in my skin, these wounds they will not heal. Fear is how I fall, confusing what is real" Marik began to sing and Malik turned to him. "There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface, consuming, confusing. This lack of self control I fear is never ending.." he sang with a smirk looking at Malik with lidded eyes. "Shut-Up' Malik spoke harshly gripping his fists.
"Controlling, I can't seem to find myself again, my walls are closing in, I felt this way before; so insecure. Crawling in my skin these wounds will not heal" he continue smirking widely at Malik. "that's how you feel, isn't it Malik" he purred to him. "Marik" he began and was answer by a chuckle.
"Confusing everything with reality, not knowing when you'll be free or when you'll disappear from existence; trapped in your own body, like you once were"
"I'm not afraid of you" Malik spoke against him. Malik just smirked at him before closing his eyes, disappearing in a dormant state in Maliks subconscious. He punched the black floor in anger "Damn you!! Damn myself for letting all of this happen" he spoke to himself.
"I will not let you out; I swear it on father and mother's grave"
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"Oh my" Ryou could only say after hearing everything from Yuugi. "So………oh my" he repeated in shock covering his head in disbelief. He looked up to face his friend with sad eyes full of remorse "Yuugi, I'm so sorry" he spoke and saw him turned away.
"It was my fault, I should have spend more time with her; not on dueling" he spoke. "Yuugi, don't blame yourself. How could you possibly know this would happened" Ryou defended. He looked at the door of the therapy session she was currently in "I came as soon as I heard the news of hear being in the hospital" Ryou said.
"Why Anzu? Why her? She never did anything wrong" Yuugi said, his voice trembling. Ryou could only look at him with sadness, he knew that Yuugi was blaming himself for something entirely out of his control.
"Yuugi"
"Mai, what are you doing here?" Yuugi exclaim more than a bit surprised. "Jou told me…..I'm sorry Yuugi" she replied. Before Yuugi could answer the therapist opened the door coming out and closing it behind her.
"How is she?"
The therapist closed her eyes sadly "She still won't tell me anything, and she keeps saying incoherent sentences" she answered. "I want to see her" Yuugi spoke and the therapist shook her head. "The last thing she wants is any male contact; rape victims usually don't want anything to do with men for the moment" she explained and Yuugi lowered his head at this.
"Miss, can I try to talk to her?" Mai spoke grabbing the therapists attention. "Are you her friend?" she ask and Mai nodded "What she needs right now is female support; I'm sure she'll tell me" she spoke and the doctor nodded.
"It's worth a try, thank you" she spoke. As she opened the door Mai walk in scanning the room only to find Anzu hugging her knees against her, and she felt her blood run cold "No, I need to be strong for her" she thought to herself as she entered the room.
"Anzu? It's Mai" she spoke softly but received no answer. She walk closer to her "Anzu?" she spoke again.
"Please, go away, leave me alone" she heard her whimper. "Anzu, let me help you, please?" Mai spoke and heard Anzu break down into sobs hugging her knees tighter. "Anzu, what happened?"
"He made me dirty"
Mai eyes lit up in hope; she was getting through her "What happen Anzu? Who is he? What did he do to you" she ask calmly. Anzu lifted her face up and look into her violet eyes. She raised her arms revealing faded scars and more revealed along her legs. "Oh my god" Mai thought with horror but it was soon replaced with anger.
"WHO DID THIS TO YOU!!? TELL ME SO I CAN KILL HIM" she yelled with growing anger clenching her teeth. "I can't….." she spoke and Mai eyes widened in disbelief. "What do you mean why not?? Look what he did to you!! Why are you protecting him, Anzu?" she snapped at her. "I don't know" she said in a cracked voice and she begin to rubbed her arms.
"All this time and I still don't know" she slipped out. "What? This didn't happen recently??" Mai exclaim and suddenly grabbed her arms. Anzu jolted up and fell off her chair, scooting away from Mai "Please, don't touch me" she pleaded.
"Anzu, how long has this been going on?" she demanded. She saw Anzu shivering, trembling and she crouched into a little ball "Please Mai……..leave me alone…..just tell that damn therapist I want to go" she said between sobs. Mai felt the tears sting her eyes "Anzu……..why?" she thought. "Just go, before I hurt you, like I hurt Jounouchi" she said between sobs.
"Anzu, it wasn't…"
"Yes it was" she yelled suddenly. She looked at Mai with angered eyes "Yes it was, I wanted it" she spoke through gritted teeth hearing the voice still chuckling. "All right" Mai said and begin to walk away from her. She looked back seeing her rock herself back and forth before closing the door.
"So?" Ryou ask. Yuugi look at her with anxiety "please Mai, did she tell you anything more??" he begged. "I'm sorry but it is confidentiality, she will have to tell it to me, you two go on home now" she spoke. As the two boys reluctantly left only Mai remain with the doctor.
"Doctor, how long does it take for someone to recover from something like rape?" Mai ask. "To be truthful miss, no one never get over rape, they eventually heal, but the scars are still their" she explain and looked at Mai her eyes slightly widening.
"You're not saying………"
"I think this happen for a while and Anzu, she was keeping it in………………..until now" Mai explained. "Mai, could you stay in Domino for a while? You're the only person who got through to her" the therapist spoke and Mai nodded.
"Of course, I won't rest until we find that bastard and make him pay" she spoke with fury.
"Do you think you can take her home?"
Mai look at the doctor "It's just, Miss Mazaki has been through a lot and she's told me she wants to go home, but her parents are at work and I can't go. Can I trust you to take her back?" the doctor said. Mai nodded
"Of course."
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As the two girls walk quietly through the streets of Domino Anzu look around her, in fear that someone would pull something on them..
{Pathetic, dirty, slut,}
"Shut-up" Anzu growled through clench teeth. "Anzu, did you say something?" Mai ask and Anzu shook her head slowly. "How is Jounouchi? I bet he's angry at me?" Anzu said.
"He's not mad at all Anzu, in fact. When I came over he……….he was crying"
"What?" Anzu exclaimed. "He was crying. He said how useless he felt; knowing that he couldn't do anything for you" she explain. Anzu remained silent at this as they continued to walk. She then felt something hit her forehead and looked up. Dark clouds began to move in and another drop of water hit her and soon began to accumulate. Anzu look at the rain dazed "It was raining when………"
{You remember, don't you? This was when he grabbed you, all that time ago, the darkness surrounding you?}
The memories begin to come back, the nightmares that haunted her everyday she clasp her head in pain closing her eyes tightly. "Anzu? Are you all right?" Mai spoke and he hand touched her shoulder. Anzu's eyes snapped open and slapped Mai's hand away "STAY AWAY FROM ME!!" she scream suddenly but realized it was just Mai.
Not him
"Oh god Mai, I'm sorry…..I……."she began and suddenly ran away from her as the rain began to beat harder onto the streets of Domino. "Come back" Mai voice echoed. Anzu continued to run faster until her legs gave out and she slumped by a near by alley. She began to cry, all over again, hearing the rain beat down on her.
{You're so weak, the only thing you can do is cry}
"You're right" she sobbed. She just wanted all of this to stop, she thought she could get over it but the nightmares, the memories, they wouldn't leave and the stupid voice that constantly tormented her. "Why can't I die? I'm a horrible person. Filthy, I try to kill jou. The only thing I am is shattered" she cried to herself.
{Of course you are, you're just an empty husk of what you used to be Anzu, no one can help you now}
She crouched in a fetal position just listening to the rain in the now silent city. She began to feel so cold but he didn't care she just wanted to sleep, forever. As she laid there the memories flooded back when he strapped her against the bed while he ripped off her shirt and skirt, just leaving her in her unmentionables. She began to trembled remembering how he sliced her skin and sucking the blood form her arms from her legs, chest.
More flashbacks appeared before her and the only thing she could do was remember, she didn't take noticed of the footsteps walking towards her but she didn't care she just wanted the pain to stop. All of the sudden, she felt someone lift her up and her body became stiff with horror and she began to breathe hard. "I give up, let this guy rape me; I don't care anymore" she thought to herself awaiting her horrible fate again.
She waited
Her head fell on his chest and she suddenly heard the person speak to her in a melody in a language she never heard before. For some reason it felt so soothing and she began to calm down she looked up "Ryou?" she ask in a whispered but was met with hard brown eyes.
No it wasn't Ryou
It was Bakura.
"Bakura" she said while he continue to look down at her "Woman….." he only spoke back but it wasn't in a mean tone but a firm one. "Kill me, please?" she suddenly said and he looked at her a little surprised. She suddenly clench to him tears coming out "Please Bakura? Just kill me? Kill me and get it over it?" she pleaded.
"Woman, you don't know what you're talking about" he snarled at her. "Please, kill me…….." she said holding tightly to him. "I just want it to stop, do me this favor" she pleaded.
"No"
"Why? You hate me, so killing me will bring you joy" she said to him. "Woman, just shut-up and let me comfort you" he snapped and suddenly hugged her tightly against him. Anzu let out a small gasp and heard him speak in the same soothing foreign language she heard before. She was to tired to fight back, to scream, besides, Bakura was holding her so tightly against him. Her legs suddenly gave out and they both slump onto the ground
She didn't know why but she felt so calm with the dark spirit when she should be scared shitless by now. "Why are you doing this?" she ask in a whisper and Bakura just snorted at this. "Because Ryou knows jack shit about comforting someone's who been rape" he replied in a solemn voice. She felt the tight grip around her loosen and he held her firmly against his chest. Anzu suddenly buried her face in his chest and once again began to cry but this time it felt different she suddenly felt safe with him and she began to feel a little lighter.
Bakura just closed his eyes while he felt the weight against his chest "I swear; Ryou's rubbing off me" he thought to himself. He heard what happened to her from the conversation his light had with Yuugi but he did not mock her as Ryou thought he would after all.
It looked like him and this girl shared something in common
"Bakura?" he heard her speak. "Yes" he replied "Can……..Can you hold me like this a while longer?' she said softly and laying her body against him for comfort. Bakura replied by holding her closer to him and an ironic smile came to him "The great dark spirit, comforting an enemy" he thought to himself while he held the sobbing girl in his arms looking up at the rain.
//Bakura, thank you//
\\ I don't want to hear it Ryou, no one should never have to go through something like she has\\
// Bakura? Did you know someone? //
Bakura mentally chuckled at the naivety of his light and his eyes slightly darkened
// I know from experience, Ryou//
Shattered Four end.
TbC
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Following songs I listen while writing this- Crawling, Saddest theme, Aura
Y.V.