HIYAS PPL!! Thanks 4 the reviews and I didn't mean to make anyone cry I really didn't geez…I didn't know this fic would have an effect on ppl…neyways there's less angst in this instead there's just plain weirdness, and un lemony stuuf er yeah…this is what happen when you listen to paper cut then watch Utena the movie for many days and listening to sunlit garden and Toki ni ai……neyways on to the fic ^_^
What the hell?
Why is it I feel like today
Something in here is not right today
Why am I so uptight today
Paranoia is all I got left
I don't know what stressed me first
How the pressure was fed
But I know just what it feel's like
To have a voice in the back of my head
Like a face like I hold inside
A face when it wakes when I close my eyes
Face that watches every time I lie
Face that laughs every time I fall
It watches everything
So with no doubt
When it's time to sink or swim
The face inside is here in me
Right beneath my skin
It's like a
Paranoid looking over my back
It's like a
Whirlwind inside of my head
It's like a
I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like a
The face inside is right
Beneath my skin
I know what the face in me
Points out all the mistakes to me
You got a face on the inside too
You paranoia is probably worse
I don't know what set me off first
But I know what I can't stand
Everybody acts of the fact that the matter
Is I Can't add up to what you can
But then everyone has a face that they hold inside
A face when it wakes when I close my eyes
Face that watches every time they lie
Face that laughs every time they fall
It watches everything
So with no doubt
When it's time to sink or swim
The face inside is watching you too
Right inside your skin
It's like a
paranoid looking over my back
It's like a
whirlwind inside of my head
It's like a
I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like a
the face inside is right
beneath my skin
It's like a
paranoid looking over my back
It's like a
whirlwind inside of my head
It's like a
I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like a
the face inside is right
beneath my skin
The face inside is right beneath your skin
face inside is right beneath your skin
face inside is right beneath your skin
The sun
Goes down
I feel the light betray me
The sun
Goes down
I feel the light betray me
The sun …
It's like a
paranoid looking over my back
It's like a
whirlwind inside of my head
It's like a
I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's like
I feel the light betray me
The face inside me is right beneath my skin
It's like a
The sun……
paranoid looking over my back
It's like a
whirlwind inside of my head
It's like a
I can't stop what I'm hearing within
It's I can't stop what I'm hearing with in
I fell the light betray me
It's I can't stop what I'm hearing with in
The sun….
It's I can't stop what I'm hearing with in
It feels like the face inside is right
beneath my skin
-Likin Park, Paper Cut
"Malik, wake up….please…?"
Malik let out a groaned, unable to open his eyes yet "What happen?" he ask. "You fell unconscious" came the reply. Malik sighed at this "It figures, are you all right?" he ask again, his eyes still closed.
"Yes, why wouldn't I?"
Malik furrowed his brows "You were about to slit your throat with a razor blade" he said with a serious tone. "Brother, what are you talking about?"
"Brother?!??" Malik thought and snapped his eyes opened meeting the blue eyes of his sister. "Isis, what are you doing here?" he exclaimed. I found you with Anzu…" she began and he suddenly sat upright his eyes wide.
"Anzu! Where is she?" he ask frantically. Isis averted her gaze "I was looking for you and I came across this bridge I heard someone call out your name and I found her besides your body. She look quite shaken up, more so when she saw me." she explained.
"Where is she?"
"She stayed with you, until I came, then she ran off, I don't know what's gotten into her" she answered. Malik rubbed her forehead "We have….we have to find her, she's not well…we need…"
"malik, you can't do anything in your condition, what in the world made you comatose for two hours?"
"I took two pills…"
"MALIK!!" She shouted out horrified and angered. Malik wince at her shrieking "I had no choice; Marik would have took over" he said. Isis just sighed at this and began picking her brother up. "We need to take you back to the hotel" she spoke.
"What about…" he began but Isis cut him off. "I will look for her, but first, you need to go to the hotel, thank god the medication didn't kill you, do you have any idea what would happen if you were to take the whole bottle, let alone two pills?"
"I'd be a vegetable?"
"Sadly you would not live two seconds for that…"
"………DAMN!! What the hell are these? Arsenic!??!" he exclaimed looking at the broken bottle. Isis just shook her head"You best not be playing the martyr Malik" she spoke harshly. "I'm sorry….I've made you suffer" he answered; Isis eyes soften at this.
"Yes, you made me worried but, you are all right, that is what matters" she spoke calling for a taxi. Malik to the bridge "Anzu…" he thought while his sister help him into the taxi.
"Please don't do something foolish….."
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Ryou looked up to see his door, it was ringing and he gave a of confusion "Who could be here this late in the hour" he though, a bit suspicious (Who wouldn't be? O_o ) He peered in the small looking glass at the top of his door and his eyes widen seeing Anzu; she looked like shit.
Quickly, he unlocked the door and opened it "Anzu, what?" he began as she slowly walked in. She looked to him "I'm sorry…it's so latte….and…you were…." she try to say averting her gaze ashamed. "Anzu it's ok, I'm here for you" he said and led her to the couch. "do you want anything?" he ask to her and she shook her head. That was when he noticed the slight gash across her neck.
"Anzu…you didn't" he began. She remained silent at this Ryou suddenly saw red. "DAMN IT ANZU!!" he shouted out. Anzu stared at him surprised while he stood up and walked away from her. "Damn it….why do you keep doing this to yourself? Doesn't you life fucking mean anything to you anymore" he said angrily. He clench his fist and faced her "Don't we….mean anything to you" he exclaimed and saw the tears stream down her face and realized what he had just done.
"Oh…Anzu….I'm so sorry…I.." he began. "Y-you're right" she answered between sobs. Ryou felt low right now looking at the crying girl "How could I yell at her like that…" he thought to himself.
"It's just……I'm so tired…..of everything…." she cried. Ryou began walking towards the sobbing girl but hesitated; he didn't know how to comfort her without putting her into more hysterics.
/Bakura…/
/No Ryou, you must be the one to comfort her…/
Ryou took a deep breath and sat besides her his arms begin to encirle her and in a quick moment laid her against his chest "Let it all out…" he whispered to her. "I…I…" she try to speak but it was won out by the sobs. "Anzu….you didn't know….you didn't kill your son.."
Anzu's eyes widened at this "You didn't kill your son…" the words repeated in her head. "It hurted…so much…" she began while Ryou listened to her words "is she…she is…" he thought to himself.
When he entered….it hurted so much….I couldn't do anything about it…but a my body it…it.."
Ryou hugged her tighter clenching his teeth if he ever met this guy rest assured he and his Yami would enjoy making him suffer. "I felt so violated…and he just took pleasure in it…" she continue the sobs growing harder and Ryou without knowing, begin cradling her back and forth.
"All I want is to forget it, forget it all in one night, anything…just to forget it all…"
"Anzu…." Ryou could only say.He tilted her head making her look into his eyes. The two remain like they were their heart began to beat faster and it began to get warm. "My body…what am I doing" Ryou thought as he lowered his face to hers and grabbed her bottom lip with his own. He felt her shiver but he held her tightly he begin to deepen the kiss while he felt her relax against him. He broke away his eyes conveying a message as well as her own, he laid her on the couch and kissed her again.
"I…can't stop…why?…I want…to feel…her…I have to stop…but my body…." he thought. He let go of his lock and began kissing her neck hearing her breathing slight accelerate "R-Ryou…" she can manage to say, her cheeks a dark pink feeling his smooth lips pecking down her neck. He wanted to stop his mind was screaming to stop but his body wasn't listening.
\ B-Bakura…help me I can't stop…\ he pleaded to his dark. "R-Ryou…don't…" Anzu suddenly said. Ryou looked at her her face was flushed "Let me forget…just one night…I want it all to fade away" she said. Ryou just gave in all of the sudden and reply by licking her neck while she let out a small gasp. His hands begin to move upon her shirt slowly unbuttoning it feeling her breath by his neck.
"Mmm…."
It was getting unbearably hot he felt like he was choking with all of his clothing. "No….I can't…do this…" he suddenly spoke and with all his strength pushed himself off her. "Anzu looked at him covering up her shirt confused about what just happened.
"I'm sorry…Anzu…I can't…I'll be taking advantage of you…and…I'll be no better than the man who did this to you" he spoke slightly panting. Anzu turned away "I should be the one…to apologize" she spoke.
"No…it's only human…to be weak….."
She suddenly looked up facing Bakura she immediately looked down, embarrassed about what just happened between her and Ryou. "You have shared a piece of your tale. perhaps it's my turned" he spoke his eyes darkening to a deep crimson color.
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"I remember running…when I was a kid…I use to run all the time.."
"You must have been a happy kid"
"Not really…I lived in a world devoid of life…light….so running was a way for me to feel alive.."
"Escaping your destiny?"
"I guess, that why I always ran, to try and escape….from my destiny, I never asked for it, so should I have to burdened by it?"
"You regret it all?"
"At times yes…I do, I did so much wrong…caused so much pain…"
"But aren't you happy?"
"Anzu, what do you mean?" Malik ask looking att the girl besides him in the bed. "Aren't you?" she asked again. "You're not making sense" he spoke and felt her cuddle against him. "Their was a good chance we may have never met, if this didn't happen" she said. Malik eyes furrowed at this.
"Wouldn't it have been better?"
"Why do you say that?"
"You would never had to go through so much suffering it it wasn't for me…." he began. The sheets covered their naked bodies as they looked to each other.
"Nothing would change, humans will always suffer"
"but…"
"We cannot escape it Malik, we are drawn to feel these things, no matter how unwanted they are. They opened new crossing for us, ones sorrow can result in another happiness, one grief can turn to a dark gass or a shining light of rebirth" Anzu spoke to him. He cupped her cheek while she grab his hand lowering it further down "What do you feel now? What do you see before you?" she ask.
"I see….an illusion….nothing more…"
"why so cold?"
"It is the truth, is it not?" he ask back. Her blue eyes seem to lighten up mischievously "These unwanted desires you feel,you don't regret them, because it what you feel, it's only human to crave such things, contact with others is not one so common" she spoke back anf feel him slightly shudder as she laid his hand on one of her breasts.
"It's sad…..I think….I have to escape in these dreams…"
"But it is possible, right now, you are needed, we will suffer, very much, we may give into the darkness, but in the end it may happen…." she said. Malik loked at the figment besides him. "Anzu need me?' he ask confused and she nodded.
"She'll fall soon, you need to help her, love her…."
"I can't…"
"Why are so you afraid?"
"Marik…."
"We all have demons to fight but I will be here if you need a beaon of light" she said and took the boy in her amrs. He closed his eyes "I wish…I wouldn't have to wake up from this….I want ot be here…" he confessed holding her close to him. "All need to escape reality but it shatters and we must face the reflection in front of us….." Anzu continued as she begin to fade away.
"Besides…wouldn't you rather enjoy me in reality then in this dream?"
Malik opened his eyes looking around "What was that all about?" he thought to himself, looking around the darken room. "Anzu…needs me? Of all the people she has? That's laughable, I'm the last person she would want to see" he mused to himself. But for some reason talking to dream Anzu made him feel a little stronger.
"If what she says is true then the least I can do, is help Anzu, from whatever she's going through…" he spoke but had to admit his desires were a bit selfish. "Cut it out Malik" he scolded to himself. He looked to the reflection of the window and see it mutate to Marik who stared back arrogantly while Malik looked back at him in a pensive silence.
"All need to escape reality but it shatters and we must face the reflection in front of us….."
Her words echoed In him and the reflection reverted back into his own "This will be different battle, maybe one of the hardest one's I may be facing…..can I?"
"You're not as weak as you think…"
"Thank you Isis" he said to himself. He looked to the moon and decidedyes it would be a hard battle, perhaps the hardest he would have to face.
"I have a feeling that she's fighting the biggest battle yet….I'll help you Anzu…one way or another…." he spoke to himself looking at the moon.
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I think I speak 4 every one when I say…WHAT THE HELL??? Sorry peeps not best chappie but I added fan service for Ryou'Anzu fans…er, why do I feel impending flames *shivers* well r/r to find out what happens next.
See if you can find the foeshadowing ^O^
Y.V.