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VERY IMPORTANT!: I revised Chapter 3 (the Chapter before this), so for those who read my story before it was revised, please do check out the newer version. It has been drastically modified and I do think it's much better (and definitely, less weirder!)
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Title: Into the Abyss
Summary: Hitomi comes back home to Earth a little too late....
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own Escaflowne. So no suing please! No infringement intended! Just borrowing the lovely characters of Escaflowne. This story, however, is mine. Oh and the short sayings. :) As for the songs, they are owned by their respective singers.
Etcetera: Thank you SO MUCH for the reviews!!!
Important Note: THINGS INSIDE [ ] are THOUGHTS.
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CHAPTER 4:
And i cringed at the moment
as my dreams came
crumbling down...
by SabrinaYutsuki (author of this fic)
Hitomi's POV:
Now or never...
Now or never.
People say that all the time but do they really know what they're talking about?
What if 'never' was better than ceasing the moment? What if there was a great deal of pain involved in 'now'?
Why can't I just run away from reality and live in peace?
Now or never.
If I don't do it immediately, I'd live my life in curiosity... and deep regret.....
...
...
The time is now.
Narrator's POV:
Watching Hitomi Kanzaki was like watching a kaleidoscope. Her facial expressions changed so often that it created almost an intricate pattern. One minute, she was trembling, her hands clasped on the door knob; the next, biting her dry lips in determination. And as she moved from frustration to anxiety to hopefulness to despair, the sands of time flew by.
Until finally, the cycle of emotions ended. Ended in determination.
[Now or never...]
Hitomi's sweaty palm finally clasped the glass door knob... so tight that the knob's intricate design was etched on to the girl's peach skin. She knocked on the door quietly. No answer. She decided to use more force. Still no answer. Ringing on the door bell didn't help the situation either.
As if by instinct, Hitomi decided to twist the door knob. The clicking sound was foreboding.
[Why's the door unlocked? Okasan always made sure that didn't happen...]
Hitomi went in slowly, as if she were entering an unfamiliar home.
In a way, it was.
The clean home that she used to go home to everyday now mirrored a drunken bum's house. Pizza boxes lined the carpet and the flies hovering around gave Hitomi the idea that they were the same boxes she saw the day she came back home from Gaea.
Hitomi wrinkled her nose in disgust. She smelled something putrid.
Like rotten meat.
More like...
[Oh God...]
Her thoughts ceased abruptly as her instincts caused her guts to twist and churn. She ran as fast as she could to the peach door just beside the kitchen, where a sink laid. Beside it was a toilet bowl, which also had its own unique stench to it... Finding it unable to bear the pain and the discomfort, her eyes and mouth going watery, she threw up - and since she hadn't eaten much for the past days, she vommited her bitter fluids and all her bile, her eyes squinting in pain. She patted herself on the back rigorously massaging it, while her guts continued to crawl up her throat.
When she had finally stopped, she limped toward the nearest chair, her strength drained of her. Unable to endure the repugnant taste that lingered, she walked slowly to the kitchen, opened the wooden cupboard above the sink, and grabbed a glass, which like everything else in the house, was dirty. She rinsed it a little under the faucet and filled it up after, gurgling off the taste first, then drinking it. She washed her face, which was sweating profusely from the excruciating experience.
Just when she thought she was okay, her senses returned to her, and the smell reached her insides again. This time, however, Hitomi forced her mind to think of more pleasant things, no matter how hard it was for her at the moment. She focused on her goal, and climbed the stairs.
As she slowly climbed up the stairs, and as her ominous footsteps echoed throughout the house, she heard her heart pound again, so hard like it were threatening to escape her chest. Her stomach was still quite weak from hunger and from the disgust that still lingered in the house. All her feelings were at a high at the moment, but she let her feelings sustain her determination.
She absentmindedly walked to the room to the left, not realizing the obstacle in front of her. She stepped on it and heard a menacing 'crunch'.
And there it was. In front of her.
The reason to her 'visit'. Her fear.
In front of her laid a petrified carcass of a familiar looking woman.
A woman who had meant everything to Hitomi...
Like every daughter's thoughts toward their mother.
At this moment, the girl's emerald eyes could only stare at what lay before her. No thoughts could enter her mind and all her emotions were so numb that she felt like she was floating in mid-air. She was in the worst case of denial. Other people would have shouted screamed, or bawled, but she was so tired of all that.
So tired of life. And death. And fate. So tired of everything. She sat beside the remains. And stared off into oblivion. She sat. Time passed. Day was whisked away by night. She still sat.
Until finally, she stood up, her legs now unfeeling. She took a last look at her mother, now like a dried up fossil. She gently laid her hands on it, when suddenly, her visions sprung to life.
Fried. Duke. Chid. Why was she seeing all this?
Until, she saw what her visions wanted to show her.
Zongi.
She had seen something like this before. In Fried. With a particular monk there, who was possessed by Zongi. Possessed by a doppleganger. Of Zaibach.
[Could it mean that...?]
A blue light suddenly exploded inside the house as it agressively engulfed Hitomi. And she found herself soaring up into the sky. Into the mysterious world called Gaea. The world she had just left... had wanted to go back to, and then had wanted to never see again.
Now, however, her opinion on that faraway place had changed. She _needed_ to go there. And she closed her eyes in silent prayer, as a tear threatened to travel down her cheek.
[Okasan, gomen ne. I'll get to the bottom of this. I promise.]
I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
If you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
~ "My Immortal" by Evanescence
===========================================================================================Okay this chapter is really short. That's because I wanted to end with a dramatic cliffhanger. Besides, the next chapter would be in Gaea already. Please do tell me what you think of it... Oh and check out my other Esca fic "Unexpected". It's a more happy fic (and it's a highschool AU fic), especially compared to this. =)
Visit Evanescence's site: www.evanescence.com (Their songs are really cool and "My Immortal" is one of my faves! '_')
Annoying reminder: Have you read this story's revised chapter 3? You should! :)
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VERY IMPORTANT!: I revised Chapter 3 (the Chapter before this), so for those who read my story before it was revised, please do check out the newer version. It has been drastically modified and I do think it's much better (and definitely, less weirder!)
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Title: Into the Abyss
Summary: Hitomi comes back home to Earth a little too late....
Rating: PG-13
Disclaimer: I don't own Escaflowne. So no suing please! No infringement intended! Just borrowing the lovely characters of Escaflowne. This story, however, is mine. Oh and the short sayings. :) As for the songs, they are owned by their respective singers.
Etcetera: Thank you SO MUCH for the reviews!!!
Important Note: THINGS INSIDE [ ] are THOUGHTS.
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CHAPTER 4:
And i cringed at the moment
as my dreams came
crumbling down...
by SabrinaYutsuki (author of this fic)
Hitomi's POV:
Now or never...
Now or never.
People say that all the time but do they really know what they're talking about?
What if 'never' was better than ceasing the moment? What if there was a great deal of pain involved in 'now'?
Why can't I just run away from reality and live in peace?
Now or never.
If I don't do it immediately, I'd live my life in curiosity... and deep regret.....
...
...
The time is now.
Narrator's POV:
Watching Hitomi Kanzaki was like watching a kaleidoscope. Her facial expressions changed so often that it created almost an intricate pattern. One minute, she was trembling, her hands clasped on the door knob; the next, biting her dry lips in determination. And as she moved from frustration to anxiety to hopefulness to despair, the sands of time flew by.
Until finally, the cycle of emotions ended. Ended in determination.
[Now or never...]
Hitomi's sweaty palm finally clasped the glass door knob... so tight that the knob's intricate design was etched on to the girl's peach skin. She knocked on the door quietly. No answer. She decided to use more force. Still no answer. Ringing on the door bell didn't help the situation either.
As if by instinct, Hitomi decided to twist the door knob. The clicking sound was foreboding.
[Why's the door unlocked? Okasan always made sure that didn't happen...]
Hitomi went in slowly, as if she were entering an unfamiliar home.
In a way, it was.
The clean home that she used to go home to everyday now mirrored a drunken bum's house. Pizza boxes lined the carpet and the flies hovering around gave Hitomi the idea that they were the same boxes she saw the day she came back home from Gaea.
Hitomi wrinkled her nose in disgust. She smelled something putrid.
Like rotten meat.
More like...
[Oh God...]
Her thoughts ceased abruptly as her instincts caused her guts to twist and churn. She ran as fast as she could to the peach door just beside the kitchen, where a sink laid. Beside it was a toilet bowl, which also had its own unique stench to it... Finding it unable to bear the pain and the discomfort, her eyes and mouth going watery, she threw up - and since she hadn't eaten much for the past days, she vommited her bitter fluids and all her bile, her eyes squinting in pain. She patted herself on the back rigorously massaging it, while her guts continued to crawl up her throat.
When she had finally stopped, she limped toward the nearest chair, her strength drained of her. Unable to endure the repugnant taste that lingered, she walked slowly to the kitchen, opened the wooden cupboard above the sink, and grabbed a glass, which like everything else in the house, was dirty. She rinsed it a little under the faucet and filled it up after, gurgling off the taste first, then drinking it. She washed her face, which was sweating profusely from the excruciating experience.
Just when she thought she was okay, her senses returned to her, and the smell reached her insides again. This time, however, Hitomi forced her mind to think of more pleasant things, no matter how hard it was for her at the moment. She focused on her goal, and climbed the stairs.
As she slowly climbed up the stairs, and as her ominous footsteps echoed throughout the house, she heard her heart pound again, so hard like it were threatening to escape her chest. Her stomach was still quite weak from hunger and from the disgust that still lingered in the house. All her feelings were at a high at the moment, but she let her feelings sustain her determination.
She absentmindedly walked to the room to the left, not realizing the obstacle in front of her. She stepped on it and heard a menacing 'crunch'.
And there it was. In front of her.
The reason to her 'visit'. Her fear.
In front of her laid a petrified carcass of a familiar looking woman.
A woman who had meant everything to Hitomi...
Like every daughter's thoughts toward their mother.
At this moment, the girl's emerald eyes could only stare at what lay before her. No thoughts could enter her mind and all her emotions were so numb that she felt like she was floating in mid-air. She was in the worst case of denial. Other people would have shouted screamed, or bawled, but she was so tired of all that.
So tired of life. And death. And fate. So tired of everything. She sat beside the remains. And stared off into oblivion. She sat. Time passed. Day was whisked away by night. She still sat.
Until finally, she stood up, her legs now unfeeling. She took a last look at her mother, now like a dried up fossil. She gently laid her hands on it, when suddenly, her visions sprung to life.
Fried. Duke. Chid. Why was she seeing all this?
Until, she saw what her visions wanted to show her.
Zongi.
She had seen something like this before. In Fried. With a particular monk there, who was possessed by Zongi. Possessed by a doppleganger. Of Zaibach.
[Could it mean that...?]
A blue light suddenly exploded inside the house as it agressively engulfed Hitomi. And she found herself soaring up into the sky. Into the mysterious world called Gaea. The world she had just left... had wanted to go back to, and then had wanted to never see again.
Now, however, her opinion on that faraway place had changed. She _needed_ to go there. And she closed her eyes in silent prayer, as a tear threatened to travel down her cheek.
[Okasan, gomen ne. I'll get to the bottom of this. I promise.]
I'm so tired of being here
Supressed by all my childish fears
If you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time can not erase
~ "My Immortal" by Evanescence
===========================================================================================Okay this chapter is really short. That's because I wanted to end with a dramatic cliffhanger. Besides, the next chapter would be in Gaea already. Please do tell me what you think of it... Oh and check out my other Esca fic "Unexpected". It's a more happy fic (and it's a highschool AU fic), especially compared to this. =)
Visit Evanescence's site: www.evanescence.com (Their songs are really cool and "My Immortal" is one of my faves! '_')
Annoying reminder: Have you read this story's revised chapter 3? You should! :)
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