April 8th 2:00 am Tina's Dorm Room
Lunch was great on Friday. Michael even skipped his last class to spend the afternoon in Central Park with me. I talked to him about how neglected I was feeling. He apologized and said he'd make a conscious effort to focus more of his attention on me rather than silly stuff on the computer. He said that school was no big deal and that his last exam will be on Tuesday so he basically is done with school. I really miss my sophomore year in high school. Michael was a freshman at Columbia and he seemed to be a little less grown up. I must confess, I think the reason why I am being so paranoid about Michael and I it's just that I am almost 21. I have never felt this grown up before. I always expected Michael to be the grown up one but now, I feel that Michael and I are closer in age than we've ever been. Not literally of course, but as you get older age seems to become insignificant.
Michael said all of this on Friday. I believed him too. Saturday was no different. I spent the day at his house watching Lifetime made for T.V. movies till 3 pm. After he didn't come out of his bedroom for two hours I just grabbed my coat and left. I decided I needed a weekend away from the loft. I set out dry food for Fat Louie, hid all my socks, left a note just incase my family decided to come home 2 months early, and left for NYU.
Tina invited me to stay with her and experience campus life. I must say, it's nothing special. When I got there is was already 5 pm. We ate dinner in the Student Café (Tina said it was essential for the full campus experience) where we had veggie dogs and water. After that we met Tom at Yokoko's Coffee house and listened to some Indie poetry, well, I listened to what I could hear over Tina's and Tom's constant lip smacking. When we went back to Tina's dorm she introduced me to her roommate Kara. She was staying in tonight and seemed pretty cool so I suggested that Tina and Tom head on over to the Frat party themselves. Tina asked why I didn't want to experience college life head on. I said, "I am. I don't have a dorm room at home do I??" Tina laughed nervously she knew something was up. I just wasn't up for talking about it. I hate being alone. Michael hasn't called me. I think he's mad at me for leaving. According to Kara I have every right to be upset but not to ignore Michael because boys don't take hints well.
We're watching Sleepless in Seattle in Kara and Tina's room. I think I'm just going to crash out.
April 8th 6:00 pm SubwayI'm on my way home from NYU. No call from Michael yet. I'm a little worried. Maybe I went overboard this time. My cell phone is ringing! Gotta cut it short.
April 8th 6:30 pm The Loft
It was Lily! I cannot believe she called. She's been gone for almost three months and all I have gotten were a few post cards reading, "Guten Tag von Deutschland!!" & "Greetings from the Alps!" She's over there having the time of her life and I'm here in the slumps of New York City wishing my boyfriend would just give me one ounce of his attention. I'm done feeling sorry for myself. Lily called to wish me happy birthday in German. She said just in case she couldn't call me on my actual birthday. She's having an awesome time and has met several guys. Apparently Swiss men like short girls with squished in faces from America. Haha. No, Lily isn't ugly. She has potential. In fact she's really grown into herself these past eight years. She's the same height but her face is less squished then it was. I'm glad to say I have grown into myself a little bit too. My hair has been tamed down, my feet look a little more proportional to my body, and I actually have a B cup! Michael tells me I get prettier each day. I miss him. Maybe I'll call him a little later when he's in what I like to call his "mellow mode" it's the best time to get through to him. Gah, I miss him sooooooo much.