What It Takes to Admit

Chapter 1: Utterly Terrified

Written by Lonna

Kagome tapped her pencil against her book with a scrunched up expression on her face. For once, it wasn't geometry that was so puzzling, but a thought that had entered her mind some time ago: Did she really hate him?

Him. A subject that used to be so touchy, so hard to think on. They had another argument. This one turned brutal. She lashed out on things she did not truly understand, and in hurt retaliation, he did the same, both leaving eternal scars on each other. And then…

Kagome squeezed her eyes shut and refused to think about it. In short, she decided to leave their time for a semi-long sabbatical. She needed to decide where she stood when it came to Inu-Yasha. In a quick search of her feelings she noticed…was that…fear? Yes, definitely fear. She was scared of him. Utterly terrified. At the sudden realization, her heart jumped in her chest and she began to breathe heavy.

Why am I scared? Why am I afraid?

She sighed, You know perfectly well why. He's never acted that way before.

He's never hurt me before.

A tear sprang to her eye but she refused to give way and quickly wiped her eye with the back of her hand.

"I'll just stay here for the rest of this week, and then I'll return. I'll do what I have to do and then I'll come home and stay home!" Kagome rationalized with herself.

Yet, her palms grew sweaty, and her heart pace quickened, and a certain large purple bruise throbbed on her upper arm as fear overwhelmed her once more.

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            "What did you DO to her, you fricken' dog?" an angry little fox screeched.

The fur on Inu-Yasha's ears bristled, "What the fuck does it matter to you, rat?" He continued to stare off into the distance as he had been. Shippo would not settle for it.

"She's been gone for two weeks, Inu-Yasha. TWO weeks!" he yelled. "She even told you that she was leaving, and you didn't even try to stop her! Did you hurt her?"

            Inu-Yasha winced a little, his ears laid flat against his head, "The girl has mood swings Shippo. What am I supposed to do about it?"

            Shippo growled, "You're IMPOSSIBLE! Did you know that? Completely and without reserves, IMPOSSIBLE!"

And with that, the little fox stomped off to the other side of camp, leaving Inu-Yasha with nothing but his thoughts. Bad thoughts.

Just when he was about to take an unwanted to plunge back into his mind, he heard a once angry fox demon squeal with joy, "Kagome! You're back!"

He sat up so quickly from his roost in the tree that his head smacked a branch and broke it in two. But he did not notice. His eyes were focused on the beautiful girl that he could barely see from his position on the other side of their small camp.

He desperately wanted to get down from his secluded tree and run to her. He wanted to demand why she was late. He wanted to banter with her, to get insulted by her. But his shame kept him rooted to the tree. It was like his foot was attached to the mighty roots of the great tree, and he would never be able to remove himself from it. Unless she was dying or something. Or if she wanted some food. If she wanted him to squash an "icky" bug for her. He'd do anything for her. However, it was a matter of what she wanted, and he doubted that she wanted anything to do with him.

He decided to get close, just "to make sure there were no demons in the area." Inu-Yasha's spirit came back a small bit when he picked up her soft female scent. He inhaled deeply as he came closer, which was the wrong thing to do. In the middle of his bound from one tree to the next, a terrible, disgusting, rotting smell came from his beautiful Kagome, and it made him hurtle to the ground while coughing and lurching and losing a lot of the ramen noodles he ate previously in the day.

Kaede was the only one to see him; everyone else was still a good fifty or so yards off.

"What in the name of the gods? Are you okay, boy?"

Inu-Yasha was on his hands and knees, shuttering and spitting on the remnants of his "lunch."

"She smells…so different…" he vomited some more.

Kaede pulled his hair out of his face, "D'you have any knowledge as to why?"

Shaking, he sat up and he pushed her arm away, his old demeanor appearing, "No I don't! All I know is that she smells absolutely revolting!"

And with that he scampered off into the trees once more leaving Kaede with confusion and his puke.

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This is my first time writing an Inu-Yasha fanfic. I do hope that you enjoy. Please read and review! If you have a question, leave it in the review but please make sure I have someway to contact you back. I know it's short. I just wanna make sure it blows over with the crowd before I get attached to it. ^_^

--Lonna