Chapter 14: Never Okay
A/N** Ok. so last we left off with Starfire and Robin about to go on a date, right? What will Raven do when she find out? And what happens when a villain stronger than Raven comes to visit her? Hmmm. well. I guess we'll
have to keep on reading won't we?
BTW. READ JOY-CAHN'S ORRIE'S AND ASIANABABYGRL03'S STORIES! THEY'RE SHIT
KICKERS! (meaning they're really great stories)! Yeah. anyways.. The
villain comes in the next chapter! ^_^
Thanks for the reviews too! **MUAHx5 billion!!**
Starfire and Robin took a walk on the cold beach sand, water rushing to their feet. Starfire seemed all too happy about their first real date. But Robin on the other hand couldn't help himself to get out of his current state and enjoy time with the girl he loved right? He did love Starfire didn't he?
"What a pretty shell! I will have to give this Raven!" Starfire cheered herself on at trying to make the world a better place. Or at least she tried to make it a better place. Robin stopped and looked at the tide slowly moving in and out, the winter breeze stung their cheeks as Robin just stuck his hands in his pockets. Starfire looked at him. "Are you. thinking about her?'
"No! I don't love her, and she doesn't love me, we're just friends," Robin conjured. Starfire nodded. Robin looked at her and put an arm around her shoulders. She smiled so brightly it made the gray day look sunnier.
'She didn't blush. Raven would have.' he thought solemnly. They continued their day by walking around town and stopping at shops.
Raven on the other hand, was completely heart broken and thought about what she said. Why does she still deny it? There had been plenty of signs that she loved him.
Flashback
"C'mon Raven, it's not like you'll die at the place. Have fun for once in your lifetime," Robin tried to talk his way into her. Raven knew she was going to go once he put his hand on her shoulders.
"I knew she wouldn't come. Robin, this was your idea!" Cyborg pointed an accusing finger at Robin and Robin started to grind his teeth together. They were starting a friend's quarrel over her. She felt a little under the feeling of appreciation but it still pleased her to know that Robin cared for her well being.
"I only thought she should have a little more fun in her li-" Robin was cut short from Raven's hand on both their shoulders.
"Enough! I will go," Raven growled. Robin standing one centimeter above her smiled at her and said, "I knew you'd go." From the twist of seeing Starfire and Robin together, her soul finally grew wings and landed in Heaven.
End Flashback
That was the time that they went to the amusement park. if she didn't go, would it still have been the same?
Flashback
"C'mon. It'll be fun," Robin ran leaving Raven to fly behind him. They waited in line for a few minutes and finally got to the front.
"Excuse me, but you'll have to take off your capes, you two love birds," the ride manager said. Raven blushed and Robin stared at her uncomfortable posture. Robin ignored it as she finally folded hers up.
"No! No. we're not going out, we're friends. Haven't you heard of us? We're the Teen Titans!" Robin justified their names as the ride manager stared at them as if they were crazy.
End Flashback
That was actually at the amusement park. She smirked at the scene in her mind.
Flashback
"Couldn't sleep?" A voice in the dark inquired. He was in his pajamas but still had his mask on for some odd reason. She looked at Robin. Raven shook her head.
"Yes, but I was hungry. Why do you want to know?" She spat. She took out the steaming lasagna and started to eat. "What about you?" she said between mouthfuls. She drooled over the food because she hadn't eaten a decent meal in days.
Robin sat at the clean kitchen counter across from Raven as well, and watched her eat. She threw a malicious look at him, telling him that she didn't want to be stared at. He turned his eyes at his fist on the table and made a beat until she threw another of those looks again. He scrunched up his face in a confused manner.
"We haven't talked yet. In fact, you haven't told anybody what you think of anything," Robin tried to cut through into her inside emotions.
"Everything is pointless. What makes you want to know about me?" Raven read his mind. After she whipped up the last of her lasagna into her mouth, she headed to the sink and cleaned it until it glimmered in the candle light. The counter seemed avoidable at the moment and she thought of getting out of this trap and tried to run away.
"Wait! We haven't had a- err- a point-ful conversation yet and you said you would, maybe now?" Robin acted up in want that Raven felt sorry, no not sorry, but pathetic that she didn't dare let anyone get too close to her. Another disappointed sigh slipped from her mouth. She sat next to him this time. "Why'd you run away at the fair?" Robin asked. Raven let her eyes meet his. Her eyes narrowed into slits. "You don't have to tell me." Robin tried to meet her level of exceptions, but didn't.
"They were pitiable. I saved them and they made fun of me," Raven decided to look at another direction and held onto her cotton pants. Her hair now messy in a half pony tail and her first button of her cotton pajamas was undone. She quickly arranged it back together.
"You could've ignored them," Robin tried desperately to make her show emotions. It's been a very long time since she was able to show any.
"It's not that easy, Robin. Have you ever been neglected when you were a child?" Raven importuned. Robin just shook his head. "Then you'll never know what it's like to be turned away from your own kind and mentally abused!" She looked deep into the flames of the candle light, and using her mind, she made it dance. Robin stared at it too.
"But I have been mentally abused before!" Robin looked forward to Raven's defeat of the illustration of sentiment. She looked down this time to her hands clutching her pants. She took out her hair tie. 'Then I'm sorry' she told him mentally. He looked at her and softened his face. The memories of the murder of his parents came to mind and his eyes, unexpectedly, brought tears out. He banged one of fists on to the table. "Damn it," he whispered. This caused her to look up. She was sad. Not for herself, but for him. She saw the replay in his mind. Raven wanted to hug him but drew back. Instead she gave him tissue and a pat on his back. She felt a flutter in her stomach when she saw the tears in his eyes.
"You have a family now, you're with us," Raven softly spoke. It wasn't like her to use those words in the same sentence but it was worth the try to get spiritually closer to him. He stopped crying and smiled.
End Flashback
She was always 'resenting him' but now she regretted it. If they weren't like what they were now. if she hadn't come. everything would've been better. She felt a kick in the soul every time an incident reoccurred in her head.
Flashback
"Cyborg needs recharging," She let out. She grabbed Robin's shirt while leaving him with his mouth hung open. She dipped the shirt into the river and left it for Cyborg. She sat with legs under her and squeezed the water into Cyborg's mouth. She lifted his head so it would go down his throat. Raven threw the shirt back at Robin and focused her empathy powers over Cyborg's wounds. They healed rapidly. "You need to be heeled." She said with her back against him.
"I'm fine, you do-" Robin was cut short again.
"I think you're denying it," Raven interrupted. She made him sit still. She worked from his face, to arms, stomach and legs. He felt refreshed after it.
End Flashback
But then. again. she did try to help him.
Flashback
In the morning after, she found herself wrapped in mounds of blankets. She woke, sweating from the nightmare that approached her cunningly, the nightmare of her father. She had this almost everyday of her life. but it never got so bad like this. It seemed so real, her father was ahead of her, if she could only reach him. If only. she took out her hand in sleep motion and reached forward screaming, 'TRIGON! I WILL REVENGE YOU! I WILL KILL YOU! ... ARGH!!!!!!!!' She made her night stand crash on to the ground with her anger and kept reaching up with her left hand. Someone reached her back. Robin was standing to her left, clutching her tiny hand.
"What are you doing in the privacy of my room?!" Raven bolted up, pulling back her hand. She started to snarl at him but he interrupted her shows of anger.
"I heard you scream.. Something about killing triangles?" Robin snickered. She knew what he was talking about.
"My father. Trigon." She muttered under her breath.
"Are you alright?" Robin asked. "If your dad is upsetting you, I'll help you fight him off." He looked at her kindly and she softened away the hard look she had a few seconds ago. He reached towards her hand and held it in one of his. She tried to move her hand away but too scared that once she did, she'll lose him. Forever and he might go running to Starfire. She smiled and looked at her other free hand. He picked his hand up just as Cyborg rumbled in. Their moment of a budding relationship demolished, crushed by the wave of fate.
End Flashback
But didn't Robin always let Starfire kiss him? It looked like he was in love with her.
Flashback
Raven checked the news on the television to see if the same thing was spoken. It was the top-story for weeks before and weeks to come. She knew they had to do something quick before their town turned devilishly hell for them. She flew swiftly to Robin's room, her dress puffing in the skirt section. Raven knocked but heard a little giggle. She was confused. 'Does Robin giggle?' the thoughts whirled in her mind. The door was unlocked, but she wasn't sure if she should barge in like. Instead her head went through the wall to check on Robin, but what she found wasn't at all pleasant for her. Robin and Starfire had been kissing. She went back out and was ashamed that she walked in on them like that.
"No, NO!" She cried out flying into her room, a mirror shattered and the pieces crashed into the wall, piercing it with every reflected image it had to own. The mirror had represented her very emotions. Shattered. Starfire and Robin? Was it just as illusion or was it real? She saw them though, their lips touched and by the quick peeks of it, Starfire did enjoy it, she wasn't quite sure of Robin though. She wasn't about to throw herself on the bed and wallow in jealousy, self-pity and depression, instead, she wiped the tears and stood tall. She was about to survive, she knew she had to. But all she could think about was her friends' kisses. The only thing to get that out of her mind was doing her chores and taking the life of another punching bag. Alfred walked in on her, scrubbing the toilet clean for the last three hours, she made breakfast and lunch but missed the two meal times. Her body wobbled in pain from lack of nutrition from last night's dinner and the last two's meal.
End Flashback
He always come to try to be the knight in shining armor for her, even if she wasn't exactly the naïve, gorgeous princess.
But Raven did kiss him once.
Flashback
"Raven," Robin called out. She felt the disk finally going to the center of her mind. Before it did completely control her she did something to make Robin remember her forever.
"Robin- I love," But instead of saying it, she thrust herself in his arms and kissed him on the lips. He held her and all the same, he kissed her back. The last of the real Raven blushed.
End Flashback
'I. love you..' Raven thought, tears, dripping rapidly down her cheeks. With her legs tucked under her, she squeezed her fists, with her pajama pants clenched in between. Little ghastly hiccups echoed from her throat. She grew tired of thinking about Robin.
"Hey! Yo, Raven!? You in there?" Beastboy asked. Beastboy was like her older brother, always taking care of her when she was sick.
"What do you want?" she harshly said. Beastboy came in and watched her lay in bed, trying to fend off pneumonia.
"You all right? Me and Cy heard you cry," Beastboy rhymed. Cyborg walked in and sat on her bed. Beastboy followed suit.
"I'm fine."
Lies.
A/N** Ok. so last we left off with Starfire and Robin about to go on a date, right? What will Raven do when she find out? And what happens when a villain stronger than Raven comes to visit her? Hmmm. well. I guess we'll
have to keep on reading won't we?
BTW. READ JOY-CAHN'S ORRIE'S AND ASIANABABYGRL03'S STORIES! THEY'RE SHIT
KICKERS! (meaning they're really great stories)! Yeah. anyways.. The
villain comes in the next chapter! ^_^
Thanks for the reviews too! **MUAHx5 billion!!**
Starfire and Robin took a walk on the cold beach sand, water rushing to their feet. Starfire seemed all too happy about their first real date. But Robin on the other hand couldn't help himself to get out of his current state and enjoy time with the girl he loved right? He did love Starfire didn't he?
"What a pretty shell! I will have to give this Raven!" Starfire cheered herself on at trying to make the world a better place. Or at least she tried to make it a better place. Robin stopped and looked at the tide slowly moving in and out, the winter breeze stung their cheeks as Robin just stuck his hands in his pockets. Starfire looked at him. "Are you. thinking about her?'
"No! I don't love her, and she doesn't love me, we're just friends," Robin conjured. Starfire nodded. Robin looked at her and put an arm around her shoulders. She smiled so brightly it made the gray day look sunnier.
'She didn't blush. Raven would have.' he thought solemnly. They continued their day by walking around town and stopping at shops.
Raven on the other hand, was completely heart broken and thought about what she said. Why does she still deny it? There had been plenty of signs that she loved him.
Flashback
"C'mon Raven, it's not like you'll die at the place. Have fun for once in your lifetime," Robin tried to talk his way into her. Raven knew she was going to go once he put his hand on her shoulders.
"I knew she wouldn't come. Robin, this was your idea!" Cyborg pointed an accusing finger at Robin and Robin started to grind his teeth together. They were starting a friend's quarrel over her. She felt a little under the feeling of appreciation but it still pleased her to know that Robin cared for her well being.
"I only thought she should have a little more fun in her li-" Robin was cut short from Raven's hand on both their shoulders.
"Enough! I will go," Raven growled. Robin standing one centimeter above her smiled at her and said, "I knew you'd go." From the twist of seeing Starfire and Robin together, her soul finally grew wings and landed in Heaven.
End Flashback
That was the time that they went to the amusement park. if she didn't go, would it still have been the same?
Flashback
"C'mon. It'll be fun," Robin ran leaving Raven to fly behind him. They waited in line for a few minutes and finally got to the front.
"Excuse me, but you'll have to take off your capes, you two love birds," the ride manager said. Raven blushed and Robin stared at her uncomfortable posture. Robin ignored it as she finally folded hers up.
"No! No. we're not going out, we're friends. Haven't you heard of us? We're the Teen Titans!" Robin justified their names as the ride manager stared at them as if they were crazy.
End Flashback
That was actually at the amusement park. She smirked at the scene in her mind.
Flashback
"Couldn't sleep?" A voice in the dark inquired. He was in his pajamas but still had his mask on for some odd reason. She looked at Robin. Raven shook her head.
"Yes, but I was hungry. Why do you want to know?" She spat. She took out the steaming lasagna and started to eat. "What about you?" she said between mouthfuls. She drooled over the food because she hadn't eaten a decent meal in days.
Robin sat at the clean kitchen counter across from Raven as well, and watched her eat. She threw a malicious look at him, telling him that she didn't want to be stared at. He turned his eyes at his fist on the table and made a beat until she threw another of those looks again. He scrunched up his face in a confused manner.
"We haven't talked yet. In fact, you haven't told anybody what you think of anything," Robin tried to cut through into her inside emotions.
"Everything is pointless. What makes you want to know about me?" Raven read his mind. After she whipped up the last of her lasagna into her mouth, she headed to the sink and cleaned it until it glimmered in the candle light. The counter seemed avoidable at the moment and she thought of getting out of this trap and tried to run away.
"Wait! We haven't had a- err- a point-ful conversation yet and you said you would, maybe now?" Robin acted up in want that Raven felt sorry, no not sorry, but pathetic that she didn't dare let anyone get too close to her. Another disappointed sigh slipped from her mouth. She sat next to him this time. "Why'd you run away at the fair?" Robin asked. Raven let her eyes meet his. Her eyes narrowed into slits. "You don't have to tell me." Robin tried to meet her level of exceptions, but didn't.
"They were pitiable. I saved them and they made fun of me," Raven decided to look at another direction and held onto her cotton pants. Her hair now messy in a half pony tail and her first button of her cotton pajamas was undone. She quickly arranged it back together.
"You could've ignored them," Robin tried desperately to make her show emotions. It's been a very long time since she was able to show any.
"It's not that easy, Robin. Have you ever been neglected when you were a child?" Raven importuned. Robin just shook his head. "Then you'll never know what it's like to be turned away from your own kind and mentally abused!" She looked deep into the flames of the candle light, and using her mind, she made it dance. Robin stared at it too.
"But I have been mentally abused before!" Robin looked forward to Raven's defeat of the illustration of sentiment. She looked down this time to her hands clutching her pants. She took out her hair tie. 'Then I'm sorry' she told him mentally. He looked at her and softened his face. The memories of the murder of his parents came to mind and his eyes, unexpectedly, brought tears out. He banged one of fists on to the table. "Damn it," he whispered. This caused her to look up. She was sad. Not for herself, but for him. She saw the replay in his mind. Raven wanted to hug him but drew back. Instead she gave him tissue and a pat on his back. She felt a flutter in her stomach when she saw the tears in his eyes.
"You have a family now, you're with us," Raven softly spoke. It wasn't like her to use those words in the same sentence but it was worth the try to get spiritually closer to him. He stopped crying and smiled.
End Flashback
She was always 'resenting him' but now she regretted it. If they weren't like what they were now. if she hadn't come. everything would've been better. She felt a kick in the soul every time an incident reoccurred in her head.
Flashback
"Cyborg needs recharging," She let out. She grabbed Robin's shirt while leaving him with his mouth hung open. She dipped the shirt into the river and left it for Cyborg. She sat with legs under her and squeezed the water into Cyborg's mouth. She lifted his head so it would go down his throat. Raven threw the shirt back at Robin and focused her empathy powers over Cyborg's wounds. They healed rapidly. "You need to be heeled." She said with her back against him.
"I'm fine, you do-" Robin was cut short again.
"I think you're denying it," Raven interrupted. She made him sit still. She worked from his face, to arms, stomach and legs. He felt refreshed after it.
End Flashback
But then. again. she did try to help him.
Flashback
In the morning after, she found herself wrapped in mounds of blankets. She woke, sweating from the nightmare that approached her cunningly, the nightmare of her father. She had this almost everyday of her life. but it never got so bad like this. It seemed so real, her father was ahead of her, if she could only reach him. If only. she took out her hand in sleep motion and reached forward screaming, 'TRIGON! I WILL REVENGE YOU! I WILL KILL YOU! ... ARGH!!!!!!!!' She made her night stand crash on to the ground with her anger and kept reaching up with her left hand. Someone reached her back. Robin was standing to her left, clutching her tiny hand.
"What are you doing in the privacy of my room?!" Raven bolted up, pulling back her hand. She started to snarl at him but he interrupted her shows of anger.
"I heard you scream.. Something about killing triangles?" Robin snickered. She knew what he was talking about.
"My father. Trigon." She muttered under her breath.
"Are you alright?" Robin asked. "If your dad is upsetting you, I'll help you fight him off." He looked at her kindly and she softened away the hard look she had a few seconds ago. He reached towards her hand and held it in one of his. She tried to move her hand away but too scared that once she did, she'll lose him. Forever and he might go running to Starfire. She smiled and looked at her other free hand. He picked his hand up just as Cyborg rumbled in. Their moment of a budding relationship demolished, crushed by the wave of fate.
End Flashback
But didn't Robin always let Starfire kiss him? It looked like he was in love with her.
Flashback
Raven checked the news on the television to see if the same thing was spoken. It was the top-story for weeks before and weeks to come. She knew they had to do something quick before their town turned devilishly hell for them. She flew swiftly to Robin's room, her dress puffing in the skirt section. Raven knocked but heard a little giggle. She was confused. 'Does Robin giggle?' the thoughts whirled in her mind. The door was unlocked, but she wasn't sure if she should barge in like. Instead her head went through the wall to check on Robin, but what she found wasn't at all pleasant for her. Robin and Starfire had been kissing. She went back out and was ashamed that she walked in on them like that.
"No, NO!" She cried out flying into her room, a mirror shattered and the pieces crashed into the wall, piercing it with every reflected image it had to own. The mirror had represented her very emotions. Shattered. Starfire and Robin? Was it just as illusion or was it real? She saw them though, their lips touched and by the quick peeks of it, Starfire did enjoy it, she wasn't quite sure of Robin though. She wasn't about to throw herself on the bed and wallow in jealousy, self-pity and depression, instead, she wiped the tears and stood tall. She was about to survive, she knew she had to. But all she could think about was her friends' kisses. The only thing to get that out of her mind was doing her chores and taking the life of another punching bag. Alfred walked in on her, scrubbing the toilet clean for the last three hours, she made breakfast and lunch but missed the two meal times. Her body wobbled in pain from lack of nutrition from last night's dinner and the last two's meal.
End Flashback
He always come to try to be the knight in shining armor for her, even if she wasn't exactly the naïve, gorgeous princess.
But Raven did kiss him once.
Flashback
"Raven," Robin called out. She felt the disk finally going to the center of her mind. Before it did completely control her she did something to make Robin remember her forever.
"Robin- I love," But instead of saying it, she thrust herself in his arms and kissed him on the lips. He held her and all the same, he kissed her back. The last of the real Raven blushed.
End Flashback
'I. love you..' Raven thought, tears, dripping rapidly down her cheeks. With her legs tucked under her, she squeezed her fists, with her pajama pants clenched in between. Little ghastly hiccups echoed from her throat. She grew tired of thinking about Robin.
"Hey! Yo, Raven!? You in there?" Beastboy asked. Beastboy was like her older brother, always taking care of her when she was sick.
"What do you want?" she harshly said. Beastboy came in and watched her lay in bed, trying to fend off pneumonia.
"You all right? Me and Cy heard you cry," Beastboy rhymed. Cyborg walked in and sat on her bed. Beastboy followed suit.
"I'm fine."
Lies.