Chapter 18: Alone
A/N** DEDICATED TO JOY-CHAN! HIYA! Yeah. Thanks for the reviews everyone! I
love you all!... lol *muah*
"Raven!" Robin called out. He was about to jump down but Cyborg held on to him.
"What the hell are you doing? You just can't hop in and be obsessed about her!" Cyborg yelled at him. Robin just tried willingly to get down before they dug her.
"Yeah man, ya gotta stop annoying the dead people," Beastboy added smoothly. The priest just frowned.
"Robin. must you. be so worried about her body? She is. not alive anymore," Starfire related. The priest frowned at that as well.
"Please, we must let her rest in peace," the priest instructed in a strong tone.
"Wait! Just wait! I know-" Robin was cut off.
"Know what?" the Catholic Priest asked.
"I know she's living! Just let me prove it!" Robin begged.
"We can't let her be buried alive then, shall we?" the priest nodded and let him but the others weren't so sure, understanding that he was depressed about Raven, he could be seeing things.
"Let go of me, Cyborg!" Robin demanded through gritted teeth.
"C'mon man, face the facts," Beastboy announced, being the spokes- person for them all. "She's dead."
"She's not dead! I can prove it! Let me go! I can show you!" Robin struggled to get down there. They all held on to him.
"If she is alive, she would be knocking on the glass to let her free," Starfire told, standing in front of him. He tried to push past her but she stopped him and Cyborg gripped onto him. The rain made his cape slippery. Robin strengthened his arms at the fact that she would knock on the glass coffin if she were alive, or at least would communicate with them by mind.
"But. just please let me check," Robin griped. Cyborg loosened his grip but didn't let him go.
"Okay... go ahead," Beastboy allowed. Robin grinned at him and jumped down. Sitting on his knees, he wiped the mud away from the view of Raven's face. Robin then pulled out a dagger and but a square a little larger than Raven's face. Being stuck there, he pried the hole loose with his dagger and saw Raven's eyes were closed.
"She's dead. Let it go," Beastboy insisted. Cyborg bent down on one knee and tried to pull him up. Starfire tried to convince him.
"Robin, you have seen things Earthlings are yet not suppose to experience, have I been correct?" She asked, staring at his face.
"You mean delusional?" Beastboy answered.
"I suppose that is how you say it," Starfire nodded. Robin ignored them.
"I know she's living!" Robin scolded. He put the glass square up by the priest's feet, which was also watching and cut another square hole large enough for her body to squeeze through.
After minutes of carefully cutting the glass so he wouldn't splinter it into his hands, e stood with Raven's feet between his legs. He wiped the tears, rain and sweat off of his eyebrows and took Raven's by the arms, pining it to her side hard enough to lift her up. Robin shook her, proclaiming, "Raven! I know you're alive! Please! Be alive!"
Robin laid down on the ground 6 feet above them and jumped out of the hole. He sat by her and pinned her shoulders down, shaking her on the ground.
"Please..."
There was no breath.
"I know you're alive!"
There was no sound; there was no movement of life. He sighed. He turned his back against her and crossed his legs, staring at the sky, letting the rain wash away tears. Softly and silently he cried. His hands were draped over his ankles and he let the mud suck at his finger.
In the distance, someone was gagging and it became louder every second. He looked to his right. Everyone was staring, wide eyed.
"Robin?" a squeak came out from behind him. He turned around and looked at the struggling Raven trying to get up.
"Raven!? You're. alive?!" Robin exclaimed. She turned her head away from the tower and towards Robin. She slightly shook her head and gave him a quirky smile. "How. when!?"
There was no sound again and he worried again.
"Raven!" Robin hugged her but could feel the rhythm of her heart and sighed in relief. She only passed out. He was glad she was alive. His heart finally let itself pace at a normal rate. He could eat in the kitchen and he could listen to music again without being hurt.
With that, he lifted her and carried her inside. Her tender body was rising up to normal body temperature and he smiled. Her face was so full of tranquility that he began to fall in love wit her a lot more.
Meanwhile, Cyborg, Beastboy and Starfire were very happy and told the priest that he could leave. He was offered money, took it to donate to the poor and left.
Inside, Robin left Raven on the couch and held her hand, sitting on the ground. The others came inside, drying themselves off with towels.
"Is she really living?" Beastboy added, concerned.
"I think so," Cyborg stated.
"Then it is a blessing to have her alive again," Starfire smiled. Robin nodded. Deep down Starfire's heart, it was both a blessing and a curse to her. Raven was her best friend after all, and she was some what depressed, but being too optimistic made her a little happy. Since Raven's death, Starfire grabbed Robin and made him hers.
Starfire stood behind the couch, wrists folded under her chin, elbows resting on the leather. Beastboy was standing next to Robin and Cyborg stood behind them. All eyes were on Raven for the next move. Several hours later, Cyborg sat on the other couch and started playing video games. Beastboy left to play as well. Starfire just intently gazed at Robin, sighing dreamily away at the remembrance of their date almost two weeks ago.
"Jerikai loved Raven, but he also hated Raven," Robin blurted out to himself. "He must have crazy emotions then." They all stared at him.
"Uh. what do you mean? I thought he liked Raven," Cyborg said while pushing fingers on buttons.
"He hated her because she left him- she came to us at age 13- then she was married to him when she was still 13!" Robin exclaimed. "But he still loves her."
"Uh. can you say gross?" Beastboy barked. "Hey! No fair! You did that when I wasn't looking! Cheater." he muttered as Cyborg seized the opportunity and crashed Beastboy's car into the street light.
'So he killed Slade too? Its suicide, but he sacrificed himself to save us too. Why would he do that if he wanted to keep Raven? To make her happy? But how did Raven get her life back?' the thoughts mused with Robin.
"He was a monk on Azarath," Raven mumbled, "Jerikai had many powers and one was to take away a life. He did take my life away. but when he dies, all the lives he took will be going back to their bodies, but some are unfortunate. They don't have anymore flesh to keep them alive."
"Ok, that answered a lot," Beastboy replied.
Robin looked at her confused. She gave a slight grin.
"I read your mind," she garbled. Starfire looked at her with utter jealousy and flew over to Robin, who just stood up.
"Robin, when are we going tot eh buffet of the Japanese? Shall we go tomorrow?" Starfire proclaimed. She looked at Raven who had tears welled in her eyes but didn't dare let it show. She felt a little guilt blossoming in her consciousness. "Um. Raven? Robin and I have arranged to be together!" Starfire tried to wipe away the tears with words. It didn't work.
"Oh. OK. I see. I think I want to go take a shower now." Raven declared looking away and then teleported to her room. She ran to her door and locked it.
'They're together? How could I have been so stupid!?' she thought, her vanity cracked and the windows flew open, making the room cold. Upset as she was, she couldn't do anything. Raven slid her hand through her hair, relieving it of mud. She looked at her hand and frowned.
"I guess I do need a shower now," she publicized to herself. Through the bath, she hummed little notes that were played at the Christmas party. She smiled and remembered what it felt like when Robin caressed his hand against hers or how his breathe brushed her cheek and how nice and lovely it felt just to have him close by. But all of that vanished when Starfire grasped onto his heart.
Envy was her main desire to feel. Being heart broken seemed to be the theme in her world. Defeat was defiantly a goal for Raven. Or was it to love and to be loved was the name of the game? She brushed it away and got out of the tub.
Starfire appeared to be so much prettier than Raven ever will be and she had stolen the person she wanted to be with in a snap. Nothing ever went right for her. She thought she was ugly and that no one cared for her. She didn't feel sorry for herself. She just felt too much alone. The card of Fate began to play and it was supposedly on Starfire and Robin.
As she got dressed, she put on a lack tank top and dark gray, fluffy sweat pants. She looked at herself in the mirror to her mind. Robin flashed, smiling with Starfire, chatting their minutes away as if Time was nothing.
"Why can't you just leave me alone?!" Raven shouted, covering her ears, not wishing for her romantic side to talk to her. Venturing down stairs she looked at Robin and Starfire. They were smiling, just like what the mirror had told her.
"Ok! I go you now!" Beastboy laughed, Cyborg had his mouth hung open.
"No way! This little fur ball is actually beating me?!" Cyborg screeched at him. He buried his face in his palms. Raven watched amused.
"Just like old time," Raven smirked.
"Did you say something?" Robin asked, looking up at her. Starfire just hugged him and let go. She gritted her teeth. How could they just forget about her death like that? She thought they would be more sympathetic. Especially Starfire, but she was too busy adoring her new boyfriend. Raven, in a surge of anger, flexed her muscles and just continued to stare at Beastboy.
"My ultimate favorite," Beastboy added smoothly, slicking back his hair. "Michael Jackson's Beat It!"
"Oh God, here we go again," Cyborg complained.
"They told him don't you ever come around here
Don't wanna see your face, you better disappear
The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear
So beat it, just beat it
You better run, you better do what you can
Don't wanna see no blood, don't be a macho man
You wanna be tough, better do what you can
So beat it, but you wanna be bad," Beastboy sang, doing the moon walk and then throwing up his arms one by one.
"Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
They're out to get you, better leave while you can.
Don't wanna be a boy, you wanna be a man
You wanna stay alive, better do what you can
So beat it, just beat it
You have to show them that you're really not scared
You're playin' with your life, this ain't no truth or dare
They'll kick you, then they beat you,
Then they'll tell you it's fair
So beat it, but you wanna be bad!" Cyborg groaned as Beastboy kept on continuing.
"You're singing off tune," Cyborg commented. Beastboy shrugged.
"Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right," Cyborg sand along.
"Hey! It was my song first!" Beastboy glared. Cyborg mimicked his moves and shrugged.
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or who's right
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it!
No one wants to be defeated-" the song kept going, but the karaoke didn't.
"That was my song!" Beastboy whined. "You stole my song!"
"Aw, shut up man, I think I know how to do Michael Jackson moves," Cyborg swanked, "Better than you!" He bent down to Beastboy's size and grinned while Beastboy pouted.
"For the rest of the day, Beastboy blew steam off by changing into a mouse and cowering in a vent as Cyborg improved his video-game playing.
"This. is so pathetic," Raven commented. She glanced over to Robin who glanced back at her. His yes seemed to show love. She wasn't quite sure on who he loved though. She ignored him, "I'm going to my room."
Robin turned his head away; he was still a bit depressed. He stood up and walked over to Raven's room and noticed that a book was dropped.
'It's probably Raven's form when I was collecting her stuff,' Robin thought. He picked it up and smiled. 'This is the gift I bought Raven.'
As he opened it, he saw three poems and one prose, but only read the first entry- the very first poem. If all the days were black. If all the nights were cold. If all the stars turned its back. All the Truths wouldn't be told
If no one had a heart. If no one had a soul. If everyone had to be apart. In everyone's life, there would be a hole
If words couldn't express love. If eyes couldn't tell. If hearts couldn't untangle the vines of. A person lied and already fell
Perhaps I wanted him Perhaps I needed him Perhaps I taunted him Perhaps I heeded him
What if I loved a bird? What if I loved a Robin of thee? What if I never said a word? What if it never chirped for me?
As soon as he finished the poem, he dropped the book and stared in disbelief. The diary was one thing, but this poem was another. He broke her heart and walked to Raven's room.
"I forgot about the diary!" he verbally abused himself. "What if she reads it? Would she know I was sleeping in her room? Arg. this can't be happening." the complaints kept on.
Raven was fixing her room, even thought everything was in place just as it was before. When she was straightening out her bed, she saw her diary. She opened it and read the last entry, remembering that Starfire and Robin were together.
January 13
Everything has gone wrong. I never knew that Starfire would know about my feelings. I said I didn't care about him. In truth, I do. I really do.
I don't want him to think I hate him. I wanted to Robin to know that I love him.
There was another entry, just three days ago to be exact, but she wasn't living. She read it. A surprising note was found in it and she was a bit happy to have read it, she was also a bit flustered. She didn't know what to feel.
**January 21
Raven died and I can't tell er anything now. I know she doesn't hate me, and I care about her too. I want to be with her, but Starfire already asked me to be with her first. Why did it have to be this way? It hurts just to see Raven with empty eyes.
I want Raven to know that I love her too. It just can't happen. She's not here to hold anymore.**
It wasn't her entry, it was an added one.
The precious hand-writing belonged to Robin.
A/N** DEDICATED TO JOY-CHAN! HIYA! Yeah. Thanks for the reviews everyone! I
love you all!... lol *muah*
"Raven!" Robin called out. He was about to jump down but Cyborg held on to him.
"What the hell are you doing? You just can't hop in and be obsessed about her!" Cyborg yelled at him. Robin just tried willingly to get down before they dug her.
"Yeah man, ya gotta stop annoying the dead people," Beastboy added smoothly. The priest just frowned.
"Robin. must you. be so worried about her body? She is. not alive anymore," Starfire related. The priest frowned at that as well.
"Please, we must let her rest in peace," the priest instructed in a strong tone.
"Wait! Just wait! I know-" Robin was cut off.
"Know what?" the Catholic Priest asked.
"I know she's living! Just let me prove it!" Robin begged.
"We can't let her be buried alive then, shall we?" the priest nodded and let him but the others weren't so sure, understanding that he was depressed about Raven, he could be seeing things.
"Let go of me, Cyborg!" Robin demanded through gritted teeth.
"C'mon man, face the facts," Beastboy announced, being the spokes- person for them all. "She's dead."
"She's not dead! I can prove it! Let me go! I can show you!" Robin struggled to get down there. They all held on to him.
"If she is alive, she would be knocking on the glass to let her free," Starfire told, standing in front of him. He tried to push past her but she stopped him and Cyborg gripped onto him. The rain made his cape slippery. Robin strengthened his arms at the fact that she would knock on the glass coffin if she were alive, or at least would communicate with them by mind.
"But. just please let me check," Robin griped. Cyborg loosened his grip but didn't let him go.
"Okay... go ahead," Beastboy allowed. Robin grinned at him and jumped down. Sitting on his knees, he wiped the mud away from the view of Raven's face. Robin then pulled out a dagger and but a square a little larger than Raven's face. Being stuck there, he pried the hole loose with his dagger and saw Raven's eyes were closed.
"She's dead. Let it go," Beastboy insisted. Cyborg bent down on one knee and tried to pull him up. Starfire tried to convince him.
"Robin, you have seen things Earthlings are yet not suppose to experience, have I been correct?" She asked, staring at his face.
"You mean delusional?" Beastboy answered.
"I suppose that is how you say it," Starfire nodded. Robin ignored them.
"I know she's living!" Robin scolded. He put the glass square up by the priest's feet, which was also watching and cut another square hole large enough for her body to squeeze through.
After minutes of carefully cutting the glass so he wouldn't splinter it into his hands, e stood with Raven's feet between his legs. He wiped the tears, rain and sweat off of his eyebrows and took Raven's by the arms, pining it to her side hard enough to lift her up. Robin shook her, proclaiming, "Raven! I know you're alive! Please! Be alive!"
Robin laid down on the ground 6 feet above them and jumped out of the hole. He sat by her and pinned her shoulders down, shaking her on the ground.
"Please..."
There was no breath.
"I know you're alive!"
There was no sound; there was no movement of life. He sighed. He turned his back against her and crossed his legs, staring at the sky, letting the rain wash away tears. Softly and silently he cried. His hands were draped over his ankles and he let the mud suck at his finger.
In the distance, someone was gagging and it became louder every second. He looked to his right. Everyone was staring, wide eyed.
"Robin?" a squeak came out from behind him. He turned around and looked at the struggling Raven trying to get up.
"Raven!? You're. alive?!" Robin exclaimed. She turned her head away from the tower and towards Robin. She slightly shook her head and gave him a quirky smile. "How. when!?"
There was no sound again and he worried again.
"Raven!" Robin hugged her but could feel the rhythm of her heart and sighed in relief. She only passed out. He was glad she was alive. His heart finally let itself pace at a normal rate. He could eat in the kitchen and he could listen to music again without being hurt.
With that, he lifted her and carried her inside. Her tender body was rising up to normal body temperature and he smiled. Her face was so full of tranquility that he began to fall in love wit her a lot more.
Meanwhile, Cyborg, Beastboy and Starfire were very happy and told the priest that he could leave. He was offered money, took it to donate to the poor and left.
Inside, Robin left Raven on the couch and held her hand, sitting on the ground. The others came inside, drying themselves off with towels.
"Is she really living?" Beastboy added, concerned.
"I think so," Cyborg stated.
"Then it is a blessing to have her alive again," Starfire smiled. Robin nodded. Deep down Starfire's heart, it was both a blessing and a curse to her. Raven was her best friend after all, and she was some what depressed, but being too optimistic made her a little happy. Since Raven's death, Starfire grabbed Robin and made him hers.
Starfire stood behind the couch, wrists folded under her chin, elbows resting on the leather. Beastboy was standing next to Robin and Cyborg stood behind them. All eyes were on Raven for the next move. Several hours later, Cyborg sat on the other couch and started playing video games. Beastboy left to play as well. Starfire just intently gazed at Robin, sighing dreamily away at the remembrance of their date almost two weeks ago.
"Jerikai loved Raven, but he also hated Raven," Robin blurted out to himself. "He must have crazy emotions then." They all stared at him.
"Uh. what do you mean? I thought he liked Raven," Cyborg said while pushing fingers on buttons.
"He hated her because she left him- she came to us at age 13- then she was married to him when she was still 13!" Robin exclaimed. "But he still loves her."
"Uh. can you say gross?" Beastboy barked. "Hey! No fair! You did that when I wasn't looking! Cheater." he muttered as Cyborg seized the opportunity and crashed Beastboy's car into the street light.
'So he killed Slade too? Its suicide, but he sacrificed himself to save us too. Why would he do that if he wanted to keep Raven? To make her happy? But how did Raven get her life back?' the thoughts mused with Robin.
"He was a monk on Azarath," Raven mumbled, "Jerikai had many powers and one was to take away a life. He did take my life away. but when he dies, all the lives he took will be going back to their bodies, but some are unfortunate. They don't have anymore flesh to keep them alive."
"Ok, that answered a lot," Beastboy replied.
Robin looked at her confused. She gave a slight grin.
"I read your mind," she garbled. Starfire looked at her with utter jealousy and flew over to Robin, who just stood up.
"Robin, when are we going tot eh buffet of the Japanese? Shall we go tomorrow?" Starfire proclaimed. She looked at Raven who had tears welled in her eyes but didn't dare let it show. She felt a little guilt blossoming in her consciousness. "Um. Raven? Robin and I have arranged to be together!" Starfire tried to wipe away the tears with words. It didn't work.
"Oh. OK. I see. I think I want to go take a shower now." Raven declared looking away and then teleported to her room. She ran to her door and locked it.
'They're together? How could I have been so stupid!?' she thought, her vanity cracked and the windows flew open, making the room cold. Upset as she was, she couldn't do anything. Raven slid her hand through her hair, relieving it of mud. She looked at her hand and frowned.
"I guess I do need a shower now," she publicized to herself. Through the bath, she hummed little notes that were played at the Christmas party. She smiled and remembered what it felt like when Robin caressed his hand against hers or how his breathe brushed her cheek and how nice and lovely it felt just to have him close by. But all of that vanished when Starfire grasped onto his heart.
Envy was her main desire to feel. Being heart broken seemed to be the theme in her world. Defeat was defiantly a goal for Raven. Or was it to love and to be loved was the name of the game? She brushed it away and got out of the tub.
Starfire appeared to be so much prettier than Raven ever will be and she had stolen the person she wanted to be with in a snap. Nothing ever went right for her. She thought she was ugly and that no one cared for her. She didn't feel sorry for herself. She just felt too much alone. The card of Fate began to play and it was supposedly on Starfire and Robin.
As she got dressed, she put on a lack tank top and dark gray, fluffy sweat pants. She looked at herself in the mirror to her mind. Robin flashed, smiling with Starfire, chatting their minutes away as if Time was nothing.
"Why can't you just leave me alone?!" Raven shouted, covering her ears, not wishing for her romantic side to talk to her. Venturing down stairs she looked at Robin and Starfire. They were smiling, just like what the mirror had told her.
"Ok! I go you now!" Beastboy laughed, Cyborg had his mouth hung open.
"No way! This little fur ball is actually beating me?!" Cyborg screeched at him. He buried his face in his palms. Raven watched amused.
"Just like old time," Raven smirked.
"Did you say something?" Robin asked, looking up at her. Starfire just hugged him and let go. She gritted her teeth. How could they just forget about her death like that? She thought they would be more sympathetic. Especially Starfire, but she was too busy adoring her new boyfriend. Raven, in a surge of anger, flexed her muscles and just continued to stare at Beastboy.
"My ultimate favorite," Beastboy added smoothly, slicking back his hair. "Michael Jackson's Beat It!"
"Oh God, here we go again," Cyborg complained.
"They told him don't you ever come around here
Don't wanna see your face, you better disappear
The fire's in their eyes and their words are really clear
So beat it, just beat it
You better run, you better do what you can
Don't wanna see no blood, don't be a macho man
You wanna be tough, better do what you can
So beat it, but you wanna be bad," Beastboy sang, doing the moon walk and then throwing up his arms one by one.
"Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
Just beat it, beat it
They're out to get you, better leave while you can.
Don't wanna be a boy, you wanna be a man
You wanna stay alive, better do what you can
So beat it, just beat it
You have to show them that you're really not scared
You're playin' with your life, this ain't no truth or dare
They'll kick you, then they beat you,
Then they'll tell you it's fair
So beat it, but you wanna be bad!" Cyborg groaned as Beastboy kept on continuing.
"You're singing off tune," Cyborg commented. Beastboy shrugged.
"Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right," Cyborg sand along.
"Hey! It was my song first!" Beastboy glared. Cyborg mimicked his moves and shrugged.
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or right
Just beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it
Beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it
No one wants to be defeated
Showin' how funky and strong is your fight
It doesn't matter who's wrong or who's right
Just beat it, beat it, beat it, beat it!
No one wants to be defeated-" the song kept going, but the karaoke didn't.
"That was my song!" Beastboy whined. "You stole my song!"
"Aw, shut up man, I think I know how to do Michael Jackson moves," Cyborg swanked, "Better than you!" He bent down to Beastboy's size and grinned while Beastboy pouted.
"For the rest of the day, Beastboy blew steam off by changing into a mouse and cowering in a vent as Cyborg improved his video-game playing.
"This. is so pathetic," Raven commented. She glanced over to Robin who glanced back at her. His yes seemed to show love. She wasn't quite sure on who he loved though. She ignored him, "I'm going to my room."
Robin turned his head away; he was still a bit depressed. He stood up and walked over to Raven's room and noticed that a book was dropped.
'It's probably Raven's form when I was collecting her stuff,' Robin thought. He picked it up and smiled. 'This is the gift I bought Raven.'
As he opened it, he saw three poems and one prose, but only read the first entry- the very first poem. If all the days were black. If all the nights were cold. If all the stars turned its back. All the Truths wouldn't be told
If no one had a heart. If no one had a soul. If everyone had to be apart. In everyone's life, there would be a hole
If words couldn't express love. If eyes couldn't tell. If hearts couldn't untangle the vines of. A person lied and already fell
Perhaps I wanted him Perhaps I needed him Perhaps I taunted him Perhaps I heeded him
What if I loved a bird? What if I loved a Robin of thee? What if I never said a word? What if it never chirped for me?
As soon as he finished the poem, he dropped the book and stared in disbelief. The diary was one thing, but this poem was another. He broke her heart and walked to Raven's room.
"I forgot about the diary!" he verbally abused himself. "What if she reads it? Would she know I was sleeping in her room? Arg. this can't be happening." the complaints kept on.
Raven was fixing her room, even thought everything was in place just as it was before. When she was straightening out her bed, she saw her diary. She opened it and read the last entry, remembering that Starfire and Robin were together.
January 13
Everything has gone wrong. I never knew that Starfire would know about my feelings. I said I didn't care about him. In truth, I do. I really do.
I don't want him to think I hate him. I wanted to Robin to know that I love him.
There was another entry, just three days ago to be exact, but she wasn't living. She read it. A surprising note was found in it and she was a bit happy to have read it, she was also a bit flustered. She didn't know what to feel.
**January 21
Raven died and I can't tell er anything now. I know she doesn't hate me, and I care about her too. I want to be with her, but Starfire already asked me to be with her first. Why did it have to be this way? It hurts just to see Raven with empty eyes.
I want Raven to know that I love her too. It just can't happen. She's not here to hold anymore.**
It wasn't her entry, it was an added one.
The precious hand-writing belonged to Robin.