Disclaimer: Refer to chapter 1 for full disclaimer. Me no own evangelion.
Author's pre note: A thousand thanks to all who reviewed , I will try to
make the upcoming chapters longer for your viewing pleasure.
To jennyjennai : Since it was happening before the third impact , Asuka still had unresolved feelings towards Shinji. So that made her more 'bitchy'. Hopefully , in future chapters , Asuka won't be that mean. Plus , Shinji needed 'motivation'.
Paths & Choices : Clear Route Of Will
The late afternoon sun was bright , but it went unnoticed by a certain person. Once again , the sun will soon give way to night. Despite the fast occurence , it was a welcomed change.
~~~~~~
Shinji was unresolved over his decision. He had already gathered all his reasons to accept the offer by today ; The day of Judgement. But something was keeping him from fully embracing it.
Time past quickly for him as he lay on the motionless , staring at the ceiling for an answer. It was alright though, as his mind wanted to find an answer. How fitting that a simple answer would eventually turn his life into a complicating puzzle.
He had every reason to accept the offer. He knew that there was no future for him as his father's chess piece. He didn't want to be used. Not by Asuka . Not by his Father. Not by anyone. His features hardened at that line of thought.
But yet his decision on the matter was still clouded. His mind was in conflict as it gave valid reasons on why it should reject and accept it , the latter more than the former. He still had until night fall so it didn't really matter.
It all came down to a simple question. Will you care if I die?
Sargaus was right. He did feel light and happy.
Shinji merely smiled at the thought. He also started humming 'Ode to Joy'.
Wonderful.
~~~~~~
Asuka was hungry , and to feed the hunger , she had to go to the kitchen.
And into the kitchen she went , trying to find something edible. To her dismay , the fridge only contained Misato's unlimited supply of beer. Apparently , Misato's definition of "edible" is anything drinkable and alcoholic.
Deciding to call the baka , she went straight towards his room , preparing a fire storm to guarantee her sucess of forcing Shinji to make her a snack. She hesitated though , before entering his room , now having second thoughts as she recalled what he said at dinner yesterday.
If you have the perfect chance , you would grab it , wouldn't you?
Regardless of what she thought of it , she couldn't push the gut feeling that something wrong was going to happen. She quickly quashed the thought as soon as it arised. She wasn't part of the royal knights, for nothing.
With this renewed courage , she opened the door....only to find her lose it. The lights were off , the only lightning which was found were from the evening sun and even that was still outdone by the black depths of his room. She had never seen Shinji so calm and collected except when he was sleeping during their training; she was glad that his eyes were facing the ceiling. But what unnerved her was the unnatural silence. The rays of the setting sun on his face gave him a almost angelic porprty. Usually , Shinji would stutter and blabber when she entered his room. But instead , he held a face of a content person.
Uncertainy was on her face , as she realised that she stared at the baka. She tried to cover it up by thinking of something insulting to say. But unknown to Asuka, Shinji only registered her presence. He also felt it was the right time to ask the question which would determine his fate. Once again , she would be shocked.
"Asuka , would you care if I die?"
She was taken back but did not display it ; Why did Baka-Shinji keep asking her strange questions? But seeing the chance for a cover up for her pride , she ignored it; Her pride was the most important thing to her. Now without any moral restriction , she readied herself in the defense of her pride. Her face twisted into rage and mockery as swung her hand to deliver the coup de grace.
Pride which she will regret having.
~~~~~~
A hard resounding slap was felt on his skin.
Shinji barely felt it though.
His ears were not spared though.
"Why would you think that , I ,Soryu Asuka Langely , would even bother about your worthless exsistence!" Asuka huffled , flipping a lock of her auburn hair. She had long thrown all consideration into the wind.
" Why I even grace you with my presence is a mystery!"
One could detect that venom was dripping by the galleons from her words , with that she left the room. Had she noticed , a lone tear skipped down his cheek.
That really hurt. Sure , he had endured many scenarios such as this but it had hurt. To hear her say neither concern nor care about his presence rwally delivered the death blow.
From the outside , Shinji still had that content look , but in the inside it was a totally different matter all together.
His heart was broken to put it simply. He had hoped that Asuka would at least show some sort of compassion in her answer. Her words hurt more than the slap , stabbing his heart a thousand times. He thought that his room mate for 11 months would actually concern for him ,but of course, pride can do those things to people.
Patience was said to be in great reserve for Shinji , but venom can melt through no matter how thick. For the first time in many years , Shinji cried.
Without any reason to stay behind on the plane of the living , Shinji awaits the third day to give his reply. He needed something to justify his passing , and that did the trick. Though it was a painful process , he needed to know wheather it was worth staying. Obiviously , he knew the answer long ago.
He quickly went into slumber , awaiting Death's arrival.
~~~~~~
From the office of the Supreme Commander of NERV , Gendo and Fuyutsuki were playing chess. A favourite thing to do when one needs to pass time. Business was often discussed during the game.
Gendo Ikari hardly makes a mistake.
But there are exceptions. Like now.
" Have we obtained the scrolls?" The Commander of NERV asked his second in command , moving his knight for the kill.
" The Scrolls of Casli are now in our pocession." Fuyutsuki said. " It was regrettable that the tablet of Adaria fell into SEELE's hands." He had placed his bishop to counter the knights advance.
" Nonetheless , the scrolls were secured." Gendo placed his hand to his chin, analyzing the situation with countless possibilities. " Even if they have the tablet , it is useless without the knowledge of the scrolls."
He had a small smile. A sly smile which was usually reserved victory. Fuyutsuki sighed as he had underestimated Gendo. Again.
He had to quickly readjust his plans. With the Third Impact postponed until god knows when , and the discovery of new prophecies and scrolls , SEELE had been thrown into a council of chaos and bickering. He was a step ahead of them by aquiring the Scrolls of Casli. The tablet had merely been a extension of the scrolls , providing indirect information on the very brief prophencic sentences. He will find out the cause of the delay.
Fuyutsuki knew it was time to break the bad news to him. Time to face the music.
" But our agent said that another person-likely a operative for SEELE , had gotten to the location first ." Fuyutsuki said. " He reported that a unknown creature chased after the agent. Probably guarding the scrolls. And I highly doubt that it is from our plane of exsistence." He carefully left out the descriptive death of the would-be SEELE agent by the hands of the unearthly monster.
Fuyutsuki regarded the bold move with caution.
" Still , it was fortunate that he managed to get the scrolls , considering his circumstances." Gendo let out a rare sigh of relief. " I shall have to go back to the Plane of Dreams to find out more about our situation."
" Check." Gendo blinked. It was rare when he made a costly mistake.
" I don't think so , Sensei. The loss of my queen won't happen again. I assure you."
Fuyutsuki knew his former student was troubled. He wouldn't make such a oblivious mistake unless he was distracted. Both he and Gendo hadn't counted on the interference of demonic or supernatural forces. If any at all. They both knew the countless complications if it was true. Plans had to be rearranged , adaptation of the scenario to suit the current situation were the least troublesome of .
" The translation of the scrolls is progressing smoothly. We would have our answers by next week." Still , worry was evident on his mind. He knew that while the scrolls may present an answer , it also can bring forth unanswerable questions. The Dead Sea Scrolls took them a long time to understand and predict the coming events. What new revelation could come from it?
" Don't worry too much , old friend. Our questions will be answered in time."
" Yes , for now we must wait." Fuyutsuki sighed. " But that IS the only thing we can do.
~~~~~~
Shinji found himself in room where he had previously been 3 days ago.
Patiently , he waited for Death.
And within a few moments , a voice which belonged to Sargaus spoke.
" I see that I have kept you waiting. I apologise."
" Don't worry , I hadn't been waiting long."
" I suppose you have an answer for me." Sargaus sipped his wine. " But if you still want to reconsider I won't mind."
" My answer is......" Shinji paused , thinking carefully. "..yes. I accept your offer."
Sargaus simply smiled. It wasn't one of joy nor mocking. It was grim but in a friendly way.
" In that case , Shinji Ikari , follow me. You have much to learn." With a wave of his hand , a blue portal appeared. " Say what you need to your loved ones , I will make sure they hear it."
" Misato , Asuka , goodbye." Though he thought that was impossible , he said it anyways. " May we never see each other again." With that done , both of them entered the portal , and it simply blinked out of exsistence.
~~~~~~~
With his last breath , Shinji Ikari died. Both Asuka and Misato burst into his room shortly after. Both of them muttered that it couldn't be true .But no matter how hard they cried , Shinji still did not move. But they knew deep down , he was gone.
TBC
Author's blah blah: Finally done!! I have to make it short (the note i mean): Shinji may be a bit OCC but it is for the plot! If I could , I would add more angst to it. With that I have no complains. All comments , ideas , flames can be send to heero1989@hotmail.com .
To jennyjennai : Since it was happening before the third impact , Asuka still had unresolved feelings towards Shinji. So that made her more 'bitchy'. Hopefully , in future chapters , Asuka won't be that mean. Plus , Shinji needed 'motivation'.
Paths & Choices : Clear Route Of Will
The late afternoon sun was bright , but it went unnoticed by a certain person. Once again , the sun will soon give way to night. Despite the fast occurence , it was a welcomed change.
~~~~~~
Shinji was unresolved over his decision. He had already gathered all his reasons to accept the offer by today ; The day of Judgement. But something was keeping him from fully embracing it.
Time past quickly for him as he lay on the motionless , staring at the ceiling for an answer. It was alright though, as his mind wanted to find an answer. How fitting that a simple answer would eventually turn his life into a complicating puzzle.
He had every reason to accept the offer. He knew that there was no future for him as his father's chess piece. He didn't want to be used. Not by Asuka . Not by his Father. Not by anyone. His features hardened at that line of thought.
But yet his decision on the matter was still clouded. His mind was in conflict as it gave valid reasons on why it should reject and accept it , the latter more than the former. He still had until night fall so it didn't really matter.
It all came down to a simple question. Will you care if I die?
Sargaus was right. He did feel light and happy.
Shinji merely smiled at the thought. He also started humming 'Ode to Joy'.
Wonderful.
~~~~~~
Asuka was hungry , and to feed the hunger , she had to go to the kitchen.
And into the kitchen she went , trying to find something edible. To her dismay , the fridge only contained Misato's unlimited supply of beer. Apparently , Misato's definition of "edible" is anything drinkable and alcoholic.
Deciding to call the baka , she went straight towards his room , preparing a fire storm to guarantee her sucess of forcing Shinji to make her a snack. She hesitated though , before entering his room , now having second thoughts as she recalled what he said at dinner yesterday.
If you have the perfect chance , you would grab it , wouldn't you?
Regardless of what she thought of it , she couldn't push the gut feeling that something wrong was going to happen. She quickly quashed the thought as soon as it arised. She wasn't part of the royal knights, for nothing.
With this renewed courage , she opened the door....only to find her lose it. The lights were off , the only lightning which was found were from the evening sun and even that was still outdone by the black depths of his room. She had never seen Shinji so calm and collected except when he was sleeping during their training; she was glad that his eyes were facing the ceiling. But what unnerved her was the unnatural silence. The rays of the setting sun on his face gave him a almost angelic porprty. Usually , Shinji would stutter and blabber when she entered his room. But instead , he held a face of a content person.
Uncertainy was on her face , as she realised that she stared at the baka. She tried to cover it up by thinking of something insulting to say. But unknown to Asuka, Shinji only registered her presence. He also felt it was the right time to ask the question which would determine his fate. Once again , she would be shocked.
"Asuka , would you care if I die?"
She was taken back but did not display it ; Why did Baka-Shinji keep asking her strange questions? But seeing the chance for a cover up for her pride , she ignored it; Her pride was the most important thing to her. Now without any moral restriction , she readied herself in the defense of her pride. Her face twisted into rage and mockery as swung her hand to deliver the coup de grace.
Pride which she will regret having.
~~~~~~
A hard resounding slap was felt on his skin.
Shinji barely felt it though.
His ears were not spared though.
"Why would you think that , I ,Soryu Asuka Langely , would even bother about your worthless exsistence!" Asuka huffled , flipping a lock of her auburn hair. She had long thrown all consideration into the wind.
" Why I even grace you with my presence is a mystery!"
One could detect that venom was dripping by the galleons from her words , with that she left the room. Had she noticed , a lone tear skipped down his cheek.
That really hurt. Sure , he had endured many scenarios such as this but it had hurt. To hear her say neither concern nor care about his presence rwally delivered the death blow.
From the outside , Shinji still had that content look , but in the inside it was a totally different matter all together.
His heart was broken to put it simply. He had hoped that Asuka would at least show some sort of compassion in her answer. Her words hurt more than the slap , stabbing his heart a thousand times. He thought that his room mate for 11 months would actually concern for him ,but of course, pride can do those things to people.
Patience was said to be in great reserve for Shinji , but venom can melt through no matter how thick. For the first time in many years , Shinji cried.
Without any reason to stay behind on the plane of the living , Shinji awaits the third day to give his reply. He needed something to justify his passing , and that did the trick. Though it was a painful process , he needed to know wheather it was worth staying. Obiviously , he knew the answer long ago.
He quickly went into slumber , awaiting Death's arrival.
~~~~~~
From the office of the Supreme Commander of NERV , Gendo and Fuyutsuki were playing chess. A favourite thing to do when one needs to pass time. Business was often discussed during the game.
Gendo Ikari hardly makes a mistake.
But there are exceptions. Like now.
" Have we obtained the scrolls?" The Commander of NERV asked his second in command , moving his knight for the kill.
" The Scrolls of Casli are now in our pocession." Fuyutsuki said. " It was regrettable that the tablet of Adaria fell into SEELE's hands." He had placed his bishop to counter the knights advance.
" Nonetheless , the scrolls were secured." Gendo placed his hand to his chin, analyzing the situation with countless possibilities. " Even if they have the tablet , it is useless without the knowledge of the scrolls."
He had a small smile. A sly smile which was usually reserved victory. Fuyutsuki sighed as he had underestimated Gendo. Again.
He had to quickly readjust his plans. With the Third Impact postponed until god knows when , and the discovery of new prophecies and scrolls , SEELE had been thrown into a council of chaos and bickering. He was a step ahead of them by aquiring the Scrolls of Casli. The tablet had merely been a extension of the scrolls , providing indirect information on the very brief prophencic sentences. He will find out the cause of the delay.
Fuyutsuki knew it was time to break the bad news to him. Time to face the music.
" But our agent said that another person-likely a operative for SEELE , had gotten to the location first ." Fuyutsuki said. " He reported that a unknown creature chased after the agent. Probably guarding the scrolls. And I highly doubt that it is from our plane of exsistence." He carefully left out the descriptive death of the would-be SEELE agent by the hands of the unearthly monster.
Fuyutsuki regarded the bold move with caution.
" Still , it was fortunate that he managed to get the scrolls , considering his circumstances." Gendo let out a rare sigh of relief. " I shall have to go back to the Plane of Dreams to find out more about our situation."
" Check." Gendo blinked. It was rare when he made a costly mistake.
" I don't think so , Sensei. The loss of my queen won't happen again. I assure you."
Fuyutsuki knew his former student was troubled. He wouldn't make such a oblivious mistake unless he was distracted. Both he and Gendo hadn't counted on the interference of demonic or supernatural forces. If any at all. They both knew the countless complications if it was true. Plans had to be rearranged , adaptation of the scenario to suit the current situation were the least troublesome of .
" The translation of the scrolls is progressing smoothly. We would have our answers by next week." Still , worry was evident on his mind. He knew that while the scrolls may present an answer , it also can bring forth unanswerable questions. The Dead Sea Scrolls took them a long time to understand and predict the coming events. What new revelation could come from it?
" Don't worry too much , old friend. Our questions will be answered in time."
" Yes , for now we must wait." Fuyutsuki sighed. " But that IS the only thing we can do.
~~~~~~
Shinji found himself in room where he had previously been 3 days ago.
Patiently , he waited for Death.
And within a few moments , a voice which belonged to Sargaus spoke.
" I see that I have kept you waiting. I apologise."
" Don't worry , I hadn't been waiting long."
" I suppose you have an answer for me." Sargaus sipped his wine. " But if you still want to reconsider I won't mind."
" My answer is......" Shinji paused , thinking carefully. "..yes. I accept your offer."
Sargaus simply smiled. It wasn't one of joy nor mocking. It was grim but in a friendly way.
" In that case , Shinji Ikari , follow me. You have much to learn." With a wave of his hand , a blue portal appeared. " Say what you need to your loved ones , I will make sure they hear it."
" Misato , Asuka , goodbye." Though he thought that was impossible , he said it anyways. " May we never see each other again." With that done , both of them entered the portal , and it simply blinked out of exsistence.
~~~~~~~
With his last breath , Shinji Ikari died. Both Asuka and Misato burst into his room shortly after. Both of them muttered that it couldn't be true .But no matter how hard they cried , Shinji still did not move. But they knew deep down , he was gone.
TBC
Author's blah blah: Finally done!! I have to make it short (the note i mean): Shinji may be a bit OCC but it is for the plot! If I could , I would add more angst to it. With that I have no complains. All comments , ideas , flames can be send to heero1989@hotmail.com .