Chapter 23: Feeling Awkward
A/N** AGAIN. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE REVIEWS!! YAY! THANKS!!
Yeah, the space ship thingy is highly advanced. Just try to think of Star
Trek Voyager. lol... ^_^;;;;
And if you would like to IM, do so!! It's greYSnoWBall on AIM; email me at
heyitschooney@cs.com and visit my site!
... well, it's only the intro
page finished. but that's ok. :D and talk to X-static process.
There's a bunch of other Robin and Raven stories, you should go read!
They're good! THEY'RE REALLY GOOD! BETTER THAN MINE! :D
As they, or at least Robin, enjoyed a simple yet in-depth kiss, Raven pulled away the bo staff. With one free hand, he placed another hand on the untouched side. Raven lifted her hands to keep on top of his.
'Why now? Why when he's with Starfire. why does he love me?' those thoughts pondered and whirled around, creating new fears. She didn't want to hurt Starfire's feelings.
"Stop!" she broke off her lips and shoved off his hands. He had a confused look on his face.
"What? Did I do something wrong?" he asked. She shook her head.
"I can't do this, you're not with me. You're with Starfire, Robin," she stated coldly. She pushed him back and looked into his eyes. Tears secretly sprang up. Not wanting to feel emotions, she forced the bird-a- rangs to hit her arms by telepathy.
"Raven," he called out, grabbing her arm as she was walking from him. She tore away. The fire flies danced around them as they stared at each other. "Just know... I love you, k?"
"Don't love me. Anyone who does gets hurt in the end," she scolded. "You won," she said, she then ended the hologram and walked out leaving Robin a little discouraged.
Showering, she thought about what he said. She was tender with her left shoulder.
Could it just be that he though they were going to die? Maybe he was drunk. no, no he wasn't. Robin doesn't drink. She finished washing out the shampoo in her hair, soaping her body and came out quickly. After drying herself, she looked in the mirror. Everything was fogged. She suddenly reached up and wiped it, looking at her reflection. Her eyes were clear and hid what she wanted to say.
'Robin wasn't thinking straight. Starfire's in trouble and he'll turn to anyone when he's not thinking. I hate it when he does this," she thought while drying her hair.
Robin was at the control center having flashbacks of their moment.
'What was I thinking? Sure, I could be in love with Raven, but I'm with Starfire, right now. I love her, not Raven. I love Starfire,' he thought aggressively to himself. However, he found himself bringing himself back to their one-minute moment. 'Who the hell am I trying to fool? I love Raven more then I can hold. Shit. Why am I with Starfire.? I love her, I know that. I love Raven too. a lot more.' He ended his thoughts as Raven walked in wearing the same old uniform. She was still holding her left shoulder.
"You okay?" He asked her, being the responsible leader he was. She kept silent. "Raven? I'm asking as the leader."
"I'm fine," she murmured. He walked over and placed a hand on her right shoulder. He was facing her back and she was looking ahead, to the stars. "What?"
He pulled her closer to him. She couldn't help but fall back.
"Stop," she begged.
"Just know-" he began.
"Just know that you love me?" she phrased. "Bull Shit. Pathetic. Unbelievable. Don't lie to me, Robin."
"I'm not lying to you," he responded. She sighed.
"Like I asked before, 'Why are you with Starfire', then?" she repeated.
He was silent and didn't say anything. She sighed again. She seemed to be doing that a lot lately.
"I thought so," she said. He froze, thinking, why couldn't he respond, why couldn't he say anything while she was walking through those sliding metal doors? Why the hell couldn't he tell her the reason?
Why couldn't he say, "I love you much more then you'll ever know. I'm only going out with Starfire because I only like her, like she loves me."? Or just "I love you."?
Robin stood there, watching the doors she left out of. It seemed like hours. Indeed, it was hours when she left.
Raven sat in the recovery and medical deck, tending to her shoulders. As she sat in one of the stalls, she took off her jump suit, only to reveal under garments. She was cautious of anyone entering in, or Robin barging through while she was only in her panties and bras. She turned the plastic curtains around her so that it was a full circle. A small metal table was standing at her right side and a small wooden stool welcomed her to sit on it. Raven winced with every piece of cotton drenched with alcohol stabbed at her injury.
Even though she though about Robin, she couldn't help but go back to the memories.
They kissed.
She couldn't help but stab at her wounds harder. The alcohol bottle was shaking slightly.
They betrayed Starfire's friendship.
She growled underneath her breath, causing her to poke at her wounds more aggressive than the last time. She shuddered at the pain and thought some more. The metal table was shaking, along with the objects on the top.
Raven was the one to let it happen, not Robin.
By this rate, the curtain-stall she was occupying was rattling from its hooks. She realized what she was doing and stopped thinking as much. Sighing to herself, she relaxed her back to let herself slouch. After calming herself, she continued to clean the wound.
Raven bandaging her shoulder, she slipped her costume back on and checked on the rest of her friends and team mates. After doing so she went to eat.
She sat by the window, looking at the stars passing by so quickly. She blinked several times just to not get carried away. While she was picking at her food, Robin came in. Things just became a little more awkward.
"Oh, I didn't mean to bother you. I'll leave," Robin said, turning on his heels.
"It doesn't matter," she retorted, still staring out the circular window with a fork in her mouth. She quickly removed it to pick up another piece of Macaroni and Cheese. He shrugged and sat at the same table as her. She turned her attention to him and raised an eyebrow. "I didn't say to sit in front of me."
"I just want to talk," Robin began. She shrugged.
"Alright, but it's going to be tough for you to get anything out of me," Raven seethed. They sat there, feeling awkward for several minutes in the state of silence.
"Er-"
"What?" Raven asked. She placed her plate in the dish-washer and sat back down. "What did you want to talk about?"
"About earlier," he began. She sighed and stood up. "Wait! Don't leave."
"Why?"
"Just sit down," he commanded as the leader. She rolled her eyes and sat in the chair.
"So, any answers? Yet?" Raven quizzed with her hood up.
"The reason I'm with Starfire is because- I love her- but, I'm quite sure you know I love you more, right?" he asked.
"Yes," she mumbled, looking away.
"So you do know," he smirked.
"Just go on," Raven responded, blushing furiously.
"I love Starfire; it's just that, I'm ready to be with her and everything but having you dead, I used her as something to hold onto you someone to love," he answered.
"Using her as a last resort?" Raven asked, offended.
"Sort of, but I love her, don't get me wrong," Robin said.
"Too late. Why did you do something like that? I thought you only turned to her while I was dead was because you two finally admitted that you loved each other," Raven pressed against his thoughts. "Starfire is my friend, Robin."
"I know," he grimaced, hanging his head.
"But you can stay with her if you want to," she said, getting up. "It's your choice." With those words still echoing in his head, she walked out of the door. Now it was his turn to watch the stars.
Several hours later, Raven ran through the mechanical sliding doors to Robin.
"Robin, come with me quickly," she requested. He nodded as they looked at the computer. "We're at our first destination."
"Alright, let's land," he said. She nodded and set their space-ship down. After checking the conditions of the air, they found out the air was safe to breathe. Stepping out, they realized it was a some what of a small planet. It was dry and arid. Raven looked up and noticed two suns.
"How can anything live here?" Robin asked. Raven shrugged.
"I can't sense any life forms here," Raven said.
"We'll just fly over the land, if you sense anything, we'll stop and look," he told. She nodded.
For several hours, they searched. Raven formed a head ache from concentrating on the land so much, but didn't complain.
"Do you feel anything?" Robin interrogated. She shook her head. He let out an exasperated sigh. "Then we'll go for the next planet."
After one week of seeking for Cold-Stone through space, they grew tired and mostly avoided each other. Sometimes they would accidentally find each other, eating in the same room or bumping each other through the halls.
Raven trained constantly while Robin did as well. He, however, only trained right after she got out. The telekinetic had seized the time to heal her wounds with the help of medicine and her empathy powers.
Another two weeks had passed and Robin grew agitated.
"Why aren't we there yet?! They're going to die!" Robin yelled to himself. He didn't know that Raven was standing right behind him.
"We'll be there; I can feel the presence of the planet coming forth," Raven whispered. She had spent much of her free time meditating. "And they won't die."
"Yea," he finally agreed.
"As soon as we get the antidote, we'll give it to them," She stated.
"And we'll be able to beat Slade, once and for all. He's been hard to take a hold of," Robin said. Raven nodded. For two days, that was the only interaction they had with each other, dismissing the fact that they bump into each other while turning corners, or training with each other.
As soon as the third day of little speaking, they came across each other on the main deck. The computer sent a message to them.
"Three Weeks left!?" Robin cried out. "When we get there, it will mean that we'll only have three and a half weeks left. It could take us forever to find him!"
"Hold on," Raven muttered. He looked at her, not knowing what she meant. She placed her hands on the outer covering of the computer and shouted, "AZARATH, METRION, ZINTHOS!!!!!" She remembered the first time she had done this, with Cyborg's car, months ago, almost a year. Finishing those words, the ship rocketed ahead. Robin fell back wards and slid to the back.
"Ow," the boy wonder murmured. He steadily got up and hung onto the nearest rooted object.
"2 weeks left," Raven interpreted, after reading the screen on the computer.
"That's good! Let's keep it up!" Robin rejoiced. Raven nodded and repeated a chant.
After a while, Raven's head started to spin. Everything became dizzy to her. She couldn't take it anymore. The room tilted this way and that. A screeching noise came into her ear. Without hesitation, she picked up her hands and fell backwards. The ship suddenly halted and Robin came flying forward.
He sat there rubbing his head but caught a glimpse of Raven. She laid on the floor unconscious, her hands relaxed and her heart pumping at a normal rate. Robin picked her up and carried her to the Medical Deck.
Hours later, he waited for her to wake up. He paced across the room and left water by her bedside. As he watched through the cylinder glass, a cough was heard in the back ground. He turned to see Raven getting up.
"I have to continue," she stated.
"No, one week left till we get there is good enough. Just rest," he demanded.
"I can do it," she repeated.
"No."
"Yes."
"Stay."
"I won't."
"Just stay!" he kept on commanding. "You need your rest to help fight!"
"I can still fight even if I speed the rocket ahead, so let me go," Raven bit back. He kept blocking her way out the door. "Just let me through, Robin."
"Not if you're going to keep the speed up," he said clearly.
"I'm not; I'm just going to my room. Now let me through," she insisted. Robin looked at the seriousness of her face and let her pass.
"Ok," he muttered.
"Thanks," Raven said and ran past him.
"Your welcome, I guess," Robin said after she ran out.
Just moments later, Raven retreated to her room. She sighed once more and thought. 'Was it my imagination, or, did my dream come back?'
A/N** AGAIN. THANK YOU FOR ALL THE REVIEWS!! YAY! THANKS!!
Yeah, the space ship thingy is highly advanced. Just try to think of Star
Trek Voyager. lol... ^_^;;;;
And if you would like to IM, do so!! It's greYSnoWBall on AIM; email me at
heyitschooney@cs.com and visit my site!
... well, it's only the intro
page finished. but that's ok. :D and talk to X-static process.
There's a bunch of other Robin and Raven stories, you should go read!
They're good! THEY'RE REALLY GOOD! BETTER THAN MINE! :D
As they, or at least Robin, enjoyed a simple yet in-depth kiss, Raven pulled away the bo staff. With one free hand, he placed another hand on the untouched side. Raven lifted her hands to keep on top of his.
'Why now? Why when he's with Starfire. why does he love me?' those thoughts pondered and whirled around, creating new fears. She didn't want to hurt Starfire's feelings.
"Stop!" she broke off her lips and shoved off his hands. He had a confused look on his face.
"What? Did I do something wrong?" he asked. She shook her head.
"I can't do this, you're not with me. You're with Starfire, Robin," she stated coldly. She pushed him back and looked into his eyes. Tears secretly sprang up. Not wanting to feel emotions, she forced the bird-a- rangs to hit her arms by telepathy.
"Raven," he called out, grabbing her arm as she was walking from him. She tore away. The fire flies danced around them as they stared at each other. "Just know... I love you, k?"
"Don't love me. Anyone who does gets hurt in the end," she scolded. "You won," she said, she then ended the hologram and walked out leaving Robin a little discouraged.
Showering, she thought about what he said. She was tender with her left shoulder.
Could it just be that he though they were going to die? Maybe he was drunk. no, no he wasn't. Robin doesn't drink. She finished washing out the shampoo in her hair, soaping her body and came out quickly. After drying herself, she looked in the mirror. Everything was fogged. She suddenly reached up and wiped it, looking at her reflection. Her eyes were clear and hid what she wanted to say.
'Robin wasn't thinking straight. Starfire's in trouble and he'll turn to anyone when he's not thinking. I hate it when he does this," she thought while drying her hair.
Robin was at the control center having flashbacks of their moment.
'What was I thinking? Sure, I could be in love with Raven, but I'm with Starfire, right now. I love her, not Raven. I love Starfire,' he thought aggressively to himself. However, he found himself bringing himself back to their one-minute moment. 'Who the hell am I trying to fool? I love Raven more then I can hold. Shit. Why am I with Starfire.? I love her, I know that. I love Raven too. a lot more.' He ended his thoughts as Raven walked in wearing the same old uniform. She was still holding her left shoulder.
"You okay?" He asked her, being the responsible leader he was. She kept silent. "Raven? I'm asking as the leader."
"I'm fine," she murmured. He walked over and placed a hand on her right shoulder. He was facing her back and she was looking ahead, to the stars. "What?"
He pulled her closer to him. She couldn't help but fall back.
"Stop," she begged.
"Just know-" he began.
"Just know that you love me?" she phrased. "Bull Shit. Pathetic. Unbelievable. Don't lie to me, Robin."
"I'm not lying to you," he responded. She sighed.
"Like I asked before, 'Why are you with Starfire', then?" she repeated.
He was silent and didn't say anything. She sighed again. She seemed to be doing that a lot lately.
"I thought so," she said. He froze, thinking, why couldn't he respond, why couldn't he say anything while she was walking through those sliding metal doors? Why the hell couldn't he tell her the reason?
Why couldn't he say, "I love you much more then you'll ever know. I'm only going out with Starfire because I only like her, like she loves me."? Or just "I love you."?
Robin stood there, watching the doors she left out of. It seemed like hours. Indeed, it was hours when she left.
Raven sat in the recovery and medical deck, tending to her shoulders. As she sat in one of the stalls, she took off her jump suit, only to reveal under garments. She was cautious of anyone entering in, or Robin barging through while she was only in her panties and bras. She turned the plastic curtains around her so that it was a full circle. A small metal table was standing at her right side and a small wooden stool welcomed her to sit on it. Raven winced with every piece of cotton drenched with alcohol stabbed at her injury.
Even though she though about Robin, she couldn't help but go back to the memories.
They kissed.
She couldn't help but stab at her wounds harder. The alcohol bottle was shaking slightly.
They betrayed Starfire's friendship.
She growled underneath her breath, causing her to poke at her wounds more aggressive than the last time. She shuddered at the pain and thought some more. The metal table was shaking, along with the objects on the top.
Raven was the one to let it happen, not Robin.
By this rate, the curtain-stall she was occupying was rattling from its hooks. She realized what she was doing and stopped thinking as much. Sighing to herself, she relaxed her back to let herself slouch. After calming herself, she continued to clean the wound.
Raven bandaging her shoulder, she slipped her costume back on and checked on the rest of her friends and team mates. After doing so she went to eat.
She sat by the window, looking at the stars passing by so quickly. She blinked several times just to not get carried away. While she was picking at her food, Robin came in. Things just became a little more awkward.
"Oh, I didn't mean to bother you. I'll leave," Robin said, turning on his heels.
"It doesn't matter," she retorted, still staring out the circular window with a fork in her mouth. She quickly removed it to pick up another piece of Macaroni and Cheese. He shrugged and sat at the same table as her. She turned her attention to him and raised an eyebrow. "I didn't say to sit in front of me."
"I just want to talk," Robin began. She shrugged.
"Alright, but it's going to be tough for you to get anything out of me," Raven seethed. They sat there, feeling awkward for several minutes in the state of silence.
"Er-"
"What?" Raven asked. She placed her plate in the dish-washer and sat back down. "What did you want to talk about?"
"About earlier," he began. She sighed and stood up. "Wait! Don't leave."
"Why?"
"Just sit down," he commanded as the leader. She rolled her eyes and sat in the chair.
"So, any answers? Yet?" Raven quizzed with her hood up.
"The reason I'm with Starfire is because- I love her- but, I'm quite sure you know I love you more, right?" he asked.
"Yes," she mumbled, looking away.
"So you do know," he smirked.
"Just go on," Raven responded, blushing furiously.
"I love Starfire; it's just that, I'm ready to be with her and everything but having you dead, I used her as something to hold onto you someone to love," he answered.
"Using her as a last resort?" Raven asked, offended.
"Sort of, but I love her, don't get me wrong," Robin said.
"Too late. Why did you do something like that? I thought you only turned to her while I was dead was because you two finally admitted that you loved each other," Raven pressed against his thoughts. "Starfire is my friend, Robin."
"I know," he grimaced, hanging his head.
"But you can stay with her if you want to," she said, getting up. "It's your choice." With those words still echoing in his head, she walked out of the door. Now it was his turn to watch the stars.
Several hours later, Raven ran through the mechanical sliding doors to Robin.
"Robin, come with me quickly," she requested. He nodded as they looked at the computer. "We're at our first destination."
"Alright, let's land," he said. She nodded and set their space-ship down. After checking the conditions of the air, they found out the air was safe to breathe. Stepping out, they realized it was a some what of a small planet. It was dry and arid. Raven looked up and noticed two suns.
"How can anything live here?" Robin asked. Raven shrugged.
"I can't sense any life forms here," Raven said.
"We'll just fly over the land, if you sense anything, we'll stop and look," he told. She nodded.
For several hours, they searched. Raven formed a head ache from concentrating on the land so much, but didn't complain.
"Do you feel anything?" Robin interrogated. She shook her head. He let out an exasperated sigh. "Then we'll go for the next planet."
After one week of seeking for Cold-Stone through space, they grew tired and mostly avoided each other. Sometimes they would accidentally find each other, eating in the same room or bumping each other through the halls.
Raven trained constantly while Robin did as well. He, however, only trained right after she got out. The telekinetic had seized the time to heal her wounds with the help of medicine and her empathy powers.
Another two weeks had passed and Robin grew agitated.
"Why aren't we there yet?! They're going to die!" Robin yelled to himself. He didn't know that Raven was standing right behind him.
"We'll be there; I can feel the presence of the planet coming forth," Raven whispered. She had spent much of her free time meditating. "And they won't die."
"Yea," he finally agreed.
"As soon as we get the antidote, we'll give it to them," She stated.
"And we'll be able to beat Slade, once and for all. He's been hard to take a hold of," Robin said. Raven nodded. For two days, that was the only interaction they had with each other, dismissing the fact that they bump into each other while turning corners, or training with each other.
As soon as the third day of little speaking, they came across each other on the main deck. The computer sent a message to them.
"Three Weeks left!?" Robin cried out. "When we get there, it will mean that we'll only have three and a half weeks left. It could take us forever to find him!"
"Hold on," Raven muttered. He looked at her, not knowing what she meant. She placed her hands on the outer covering of the computer and shouted, "AZARATH, METRION, ZINTHOS!!!!!" She remembered the first time she had done this, with Cyborg's car, months ago, almost a year. Finishing those words, the ship rocketed ahead. Robin fell back wards and slid to the back.
"Ow," the boy wonder murmured. He steadily got up and hung onto the nearest rooted object.
"2 weeks left," Raven interpreted, after reading the screen on the computer.
"That's good! Let's keep it up!" Robin rejoiced. Raven nodded and repeated a chant.
After a while, Raven's head started to spin. Everything became dizzy to her. She couldn't take it anymore. The room tilted this way and that. A screeching noise came into her ear. Without hesitation, she picked up her hands and fell backwards. The ship suddenly halted and Robin came flying forward.
He sat there rubbing his head but caught a glimpse of Raven. She laid on the floor unconscious, her hands relaxed and her heart pumping at a normal rate. Robin picked her up and carried her to the Medical Deck.
Hours later, he waited for her to wake up. He paced across the room and left water by her bedside. As he watched through the cylinder glass, a cough was heard in the back ground. He turned to see Raven getting up.
"I have to continue," she stated.
"No, one week left till we get there is good enough. Just rest," he demanded.
"I can do it," she repeated.
"No."
"Yes."
"Stay."
"I won't."
"Just stay!" he kept on commanding. "You need your rest to help fight!"
"I can still fight even if I speed the rocket ahead, so let me go," Raven bit back. He kept blocking her way out the door. "Just let me through, Robin."
"Not if you're going to keep the speed up," he said clearly.
"I'm not; I'm just going to my room. Now let me through," she insisted. Robin looked at the seriousness of her face and let her pass.
"Ok," he muttered.
"Thanks," Raven said and ran past him.
"Your welcome, I guess," Robin said after she ran out.
Just moments later, Raven retreated to her room. She sighed once more and thought. 'Was it my imagination, or, did my dream come back?'