Hia, thanks for the reviews for the last chapter – sorry it was short; I
think this one will be as well, but they are necessary for the story.
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Chapter 8 – Dreaming
It's been three months since I left. I don't know whether I regret it or not. Some days I really wish I was still there, and some days, I remember why I left, and I don't. I've been living the same way, doing the same thing every day, since she left. I get up, watch TV, eat if I feel like it, have a couple of beers, and fall asleep on the sofa, where I wake up the next day.
I know I'm throwing my life away, but I just feel too tired to do anything else. Besides, what's the point? What's the point in trying, if she's not there?
Daniel and Teal'c call round once in a while, just to let me know what's going on at the base, but since I really don't care, they've kind of drifted away. I do miss them, but I can't see the point in depressing them by keeping in contact with them. Just because I feel like this is no reason to inflict it on other people.
I consider going up to the cabin for a while, but I don't even want to leave the house. I think I'm still clinging on to that one hope that she might come back, even though I know in my heart that she won't.
I dream about her sometimes. I dreamt about her last night. She was here, and we were together, and I was happier than I had ever felt. And then I woke up, and it was like losing her again.
I know I need to get my life sorted. I can't carry on like this. But the thing is, I can't see any point.
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Malek ran as fast as he could across the grassy field. Three Jaffa were in hot pursuit, but he wasn't going to let them catch him. He had come too far to let that happen. He had to get this message to the Tau'ri, and he wasn't going to stop until it was delivered.
Making his way to the DHD, he typed in earth's address as fast as he could, and punched in the number of his GDO.
He leapt through the Gate, narrowly missing a staff blast as he disappeared through.
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Jack's been gone for a few months. People hadn't got over losing Sam, and now his retiring has really made the SGC go in to mourning – in the space of a year we lost the two best officers in the mountain.
Teal'c and I go to see him sometimes, but he's not really interest. He looks terrible. He doesn't eat, doesn't sleep. Losing Sam hit him harder than any of us. And why wouldn't it? It's obvious to everyone how much he loves her, and I know she loves him as well.
I don't know whether to say loves, or loved. I don't know where she is, or if she's dead or alive. And it's killing me. I love her too, not in the same way as Jack though, and to me and Teal'c, it's like losing a little sister.
The gate springing in to action wakes me from my thoughts. The technicians go to the computers. One of them shouts up "Receiving IDC sir. It's the Tok'ra" Anger rises through me. It's the same feeling everyone gets whenever the Tok'ra come nowadays. After all that's happened, no one trusts them anymore, not even me.
The iris opens. A Tok'ra comes jumping through, crying immediately "Close the Iris!" The iris closes, and we hear the weapons fire resonating on the titanium shield.
He looks up, and yells "I need to speak with General Hammond. Immediately!"
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There's a knock at my door. I get up, sending a couple of beer bottles flying as I go. It's Daniel and Teal'c. I really don't want to talk to them, and I'm about to yell at them to go away, when I see General Hammond is also with them.
He hasn't been to see me since I walked out. This intrigues me, so I opened the door.
Daniel is looking kind of excited. I really don't have time for this right now.
"Jack!" He says.
"What?" I snap, a little more coldly than I meant to.
"We've had a message from the Tok'ra. They know where she is" Reading my blank look wrongly, he continues.
"Jack – they've found Sam!"
TBC
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As always, please R n R!
Chapter 8 – Dreaming
It's been three months since I left. I don't know whether I regret it or not. Some days I really wish I was still there, and some days, I remember why I left, and I don't. I've been living the same way, doing the same thing every day, since she left. I get up, watch TV, eat if I feel like it, have a couple of beers, and fall asleep on the sofa, where I wake up the next day.
I know I'm throwing my life away, but I just feel too tired to do anything else. Besides, what's the point? What's the point in trying, if she's not there?
Daniel and Teal'c call round once in a while, just to let me know what's going on at the base, but since I really don't care, they've kind of drifted away. I do miss them, but I can't see the point in depressing them by keeping in contact with them. Just because I feel like this is no reason to inflict it on other people.
I consider going up to the cabin for a while, but I don't even want to leave the house. I think I'm still clinging on to that one hope that she might come back, even though I know in my heart that she won't.
I dream about her sometimes. I dreamt about her last night. She was here, and we were together, and I was happier than I had ever felt. And then I woke up, and it was like losing her again.
I know I need to get my life sorted. I can't carry on like this. But the thing is, I can't see any point.
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Malek ran as fast as he could across the grassy field. Three Jaffa were in hot pursuit, but he wasn't going to let them catch him. He had come too far to let that happen. He had to get this message to the Tau'ri, and he wasn't going to stop until it was delivered.
Making his way to the DHD, he typed in earth's address as fast as he could, and punched in the number of his GDO.
He leapt through the Gate, narrowly missing a staff blast as he disappeared through.
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Jack's been gone for a few months. People hadn't got over losing Sam, and now his retiring has really made the SGC go in to mourning – in the space of a year we lost the two best officers in the mountain.
Teal'c and I go to see him sometimes, but he's not really interest. He looks terrible. He doesn't eat, doesn't sleep. Losing Sam hit him harder than any of us. And why wouldn't it? It's obvious to everyone how much he loves her, and I know she loves him as well.
I don't know whether to say loves, or loved. I don't know where she is, or if she's dead or alive. And it's killing me. I love her too, not in the same way as Jack though, and to me and Teal'c, it's like losing a little sister.
The gate springing in to action wakes me from my thoughts. The technicians go to the computers. One of them shouts up "Receiving IDC sir. It's the Tok'ra" Anger rises through me. It's the same feeling everyone gets whenever the Tok'ra come nowadays. After all that's happened, no one trusts them anymore, not even me.
The iris opens. A Tok'ra comes jumping through, crying immediately "Close the Iris!" The iris closes, and we hear the weapons fire resonating on the titanium shield.
He looks up, and yells "I need to speak with General Hammond. Immediately!"
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There's a knock at my door. I get up, sending a couple of beer bottles flying as I go. It's Daniel and Teal'c. I really don't want to talk to them, and I'm about to yell at them to go away, when I see General Hammond is also with them.
He hasn't been to see me since I walked out. This intrigues me, so I opened the door.
Daniel is looking kind of excited. I really don't have time for this right now.
"Jack!" He says.
"What?" I snap, a little more coldly than I meant to.
"We've had a message from the Tok'ra. They know where she is" Reading my blank look wrongly, he continues.
"Jack – they've found Sam!"
TBC
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As always, please R n R!