Consecration
Shinji lay in his bed pondering. Why me? Why would anyone want to love me? Am I special? I mean, I do pilot Eva, but other than that, I am just ordinary. What he didn't know was that he was special. He was different from every other person on Earth. As was every other person on earth different from each other. This made him special. This made him special to Asuka. Although his self-confidence had grown in the past couple of weeks, he still felt that he was unworthy of anything but the barest minimum of praise or love.
He looked over at the clock. It said 7:00. Why do I have a bad feeling about today? I guess Asuka is going to get tired of me, and dump me or something. I guess she's just tired of me waiting when it comes to the sexual part of our relationship. She just doesn't understand.
He got up, and stood before the dressers as though they were supposed to open on their own. After a few moments, he opened it, and removed his clothes. He started dressing when the faint droning of sirens could be heard walking across the city, and finally right outside the apartment complex that he called home.
Misato called down the hall, "Shinji, Asuka! Get up, we have to get to headquarters, pronto!"
Shinji finished dressing, then ran out of his room, and right into Asuka.
"Hey, watch it! Oh, it's you Shinji." That statement brought at least a small measure of comfort to him. "By the way, I need to talk to you, when we get some time." Uh-oh.
They ran down the hall, and found Misato coming out of her room, partially dressed, but hurriedly throwing clothing on her body. "Shinji, here are the keys, go get the car started. Asuka, see if you can find my bag in there real quick." She said pointing into her room.
"Ok." Asuka didn't like taking commands, but if it would get them out of the house quicker, and down to NERV, she could handle it. She picked her way through the room, wondering if there was actually a floor under all that mess. She spied the bag in question, and also saw a thin notebook. Glancing at the notebook, she found it was about her. "SECOND CHILD: SPECULATIONS ON ACTIVITIES" was written neatly across the front. "Hmmm." She picked up the bag along with the notebook. Leaving the room, she flung the notebook in her room, and took the bag to Misato, who was waiting in the living room, frantically putting on her jacket.
After getting the keys, Shinji raced down the hall, and into the stairs. They would be faster. When he reached the bottom, he ran out to the car, and got in. After starting it up, however, he figured he would make it easier for them, so he put it in gear, and backed out of the space, and put it in drive. Intending to go forward slowly, he lightly touched the gas, and the car lurched forwards, and his foot slammed down in surprise.
Misato exited the building to see her car racing around the parking lot, narrowly missing cars, and swerving all over the place before it finally came to an abrupt stop in front of the building. She ran out to her car, and opened the door. "What are you doing? Are you trying to kill yourself? All I asked you to do was start up the car. Move over."
"I'm sorry Misato, I was just trying to help; I wanted to bring the car around to the front." He scooted over so that the seat could be leaned over, and Asuka got in back. Misato stepped in, and it seemed like she hadn't even closed the door, before they were racing down the road, juking left and right to miss cars.
They made it to Nerv a few minutes later, and found that defensive preparations were already underway. Dr. Akagi sat behind a computer console, typing furiously. "I was wondering when you would decide to show up."
"Yeah, well, unlike other people, I actually live at home. What is it?"
"We can't tell much right now. Our sensors can't get a good look at it. It is staying in the upper atmosphere, between layers of clouds. We know it's near the average size and displacement of the first few angels, but it isn't giving off any energy readings whatsoever. So far all it has done is hover there. A weather satellite picked it up this morning. It just seamed to appear. Look at this." Ritsuko showed her a printout. On it was several pictures, arranged like videotape. On two there were just clouds, then on the third a large hard to make out shape appeared.
"What is the status of the Evas?" She asked.
"All units ready for startup procedure."
"Good. Shinji, you and Asuka go get your suits on, it's time to go to work. When you get back, we may have a briefing for you."
Shinji and Asuka hurried to the locker room, not taking the time to say much to each other.
After dressing, they were told to go to the briefing room. Rei, Fuyutsuki, Ritsuko, Misato, and the tech crew were inside. They sat down, and the briefing began.
"This is the angel. It hasn't made any moves yet, but it is hovering about 7½ miles above sea level directly over Central Dogma." An outline of the Angel appeared on the screen as she spoke, rotating a full 360 degrees. It was a large sphere studded with long sharp spikes placed seemingly randomly on its surface. "We don't know anything about it yet, except that we are unable to detect any energy readings in it. This is to say that it is strange, because it isn't using any energy to hold itself off the ground. It may have a naturally occurring negative gravity-well, but that is all we can come up with."
The image changed to a map of the surface. "All three units will deploy. You will be spread out like so. One mile from epicenter, in 120 degree directions." The map showed three dots forming a triangle around the overlay of Central Dogma, each a mile from the center of it. "Everyone understand? Good. This is going to be a reconnaissance mission. That means that you will not fire until fired upon, and you will make no aggressive movements towards it, until told to do so. Right now, we just want to know if it will do anything in your presence. That's all I have, report to your stations."
Far above the city that was Tokyo-3, the angel watched and waited for it's adversary to make itself known. After a while, they finally appeared, and took up positions around their base directly below it. It thought about descending, and dealing with them, but it figured it might hurt itself unnecessarily by staying in the city. So it slowly moved north, towards some mountains, and woodlands.
Below in Unit 01, Shinji was trying to figure out what was happening. The Angel had moved like they said it probably would, but it was moving away from them! Was it fleeing? Then it stopped. "Misato, what is it doing? Should we follow it?"
"Stay put for right now, I'll be back in a second."
Another screen popped up, and Asuka's face appeared. "Shinji, don't go running off to fight it without me. I don't want to lose you like last time. I know I may have been a little callused then, but I don't want anything to happen to you. OK?"
Misato came back on the screen. "OK you three, I want you to follow it as best you can. Try to keep the current formation, I also want you to follow it at its speed. Don't gain any ground."
"Roger"
"Yes ma'am."
"Who put her in charge, anyway?" Asuka whispered.
"Actually my father did."
"Well, she doesn't have to be so bossy. It's not like we're stupid or something."
The three Evas moved out slowly, keeping their distance with the Angel. After a while, they dropped their umbilicals, because they had reached the limit of their reach. After getting new ones, they each continued their trek.
"Misato, how far outside the city do the umbilicals go?" Shinji dared to ask.
"We have them installed for about 12 miles outside the city. We hoped to extend the range farther, but funding was not great enough to do so."
The angel kept moving at an incredibly slow pace. It was nearing darkfall when it finally came to a stop. It began slowly descending.
"Ma'am, what should we do. It's not falling on us. It's like a controlled descent."
"Wait for it to make the first move. This has turned from a recon to a standoff. We were unable to gain any more information about it, except that it is using an increasing amount of energy to descend. It's like it has to work to get closer to the ground. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing."
"Why do you say that?" Shinji asked hopefully.
"Well, taking that much energy just to stay on a level to fight you, it may be drained far below it's normal operating abilities. But at the same time, by showing us that it uses that much power for something as trivial as staying on the ground, instead of fighting, it shows us that it must control a huge amount of power."
They stood there for a few minutes, waiting for it to descend. When finally it did. It sat for a while, taking it's time.
Shinji eyed it when a strange sensation came over him. "Asuka Rei move back! Hurry!"
"What's the matter?"
Just then, the Angel pumped up, then back down like a heart, and a loud thud shook, then radiating out from the Angel a shockwave-like AT field rolled out of it, flattening and destroying trees in every direction. They could see the compressioon wave coming for them, but were powerless to react. It hit Rei's Eva so hard that she flew back into a mountain, and slid for about half a mile. Asuka and Shinji were just knocked down.
"Holy shit!"
"Did you see that?"
Getting up, Shinji contacted Asuka. "Are you OK?"
"Yeah, what about wondergirl? It looked like it hurt."
"Rei are you alright?"
"Shinji, what happened?" Misato came on.
"I am alright." Rei said monotonously.
"It looked like the Angel made an AT field like an explosion, it destroyed the forest everywhere around us, and knocked all of us down."
"The satellite picture shows that the blast took out a huge amount of forest. That AT field just mowed it down. Shinji, we need some offense, now, we can't just let that Angel walk over us like that. There is a heavy proton rifle in the arms building on the northern most side of the city. Get it." Misato said.
"Asuka, you and Rei back off a little. Since Shinji is closest, he is going to get a weapon.
Shinji ran his Eva across the forest, and snatched the rifle without slowing. Jumping, he landed on top of a building, did a quick turn around move, and raced back the way he had come.
"OK, Shinji, unfold your AT field, and fire when ready. I am pretty sure something will come up so that it won't be that easy, but this is at least a step towards finding out what it is."
Shinji stepped forward, and expanded hi AT field. The air shimmered for a second. "Here it goes." His Eva took up a classic standing firing position.
Energy-laced rounds and crackling lightning belched out of the muzzle of the weapon. Seeing that it wasn't doing anything, he advanced, starting with a walk, then to a jog, finally at a dead run he realized that he just wasn't going to penetrate the AT field. The weapon fired dry, he spun about, and ran back for the perimeter of the destruction. The expected blast from the Angel caught up with him while he was only halfway back. His Eva, caught in the throes of the compression, tumbled forward many times before finally coming to a stop a quarter of the way to the perimeter.
"Unnhh."
"Shinji!"
"I'm OK. Just gimme a minute." His Eva rose slowly, looking like it was a drunk man, wobbling to and fro, finally getting it's bearings, and making it's way back to the outside.
"Can we get a reading on the power behind that AT field while it's in defensive mode?" Misato asked in the control room.
"Maybe. The extrapolation program is not quite complete, but it should give us at lease something to go by." Dr. Akagi stated.
"How does it work?"
"It works by taking data from previous instances, then runs the data through an algorithm to show a graphic representation of the field." She explained.
The view showed up on Shinji's interior just as it had on the other Evas. There was a large pinkish hemisphere over the Angel that was pretty thick. "This shows that the AT field is very powerful, but that it is even stronger when it uses it in the offense." The view shifted, and showed an animation of the same field only brighter radiating from the Angel.
"OK, you guys pull back, and we'll do some brainstorming here. The Angel doesn't look like it's going anywhere. In any case, keep your Evas powered up, in case it does something. Immediately respond if something happens." Misato disappeared from his screen. He joined Asuka and Rei outside the circle of destruction.
After about 30 minutes, Misato came back on. "OK, we have a little plan. Shinji, you and Asuka are on a secure channel. I am afraid that Commander Ikari doesn't want Rei to know about your little…ability."
"Why what about it?" Asuka asked.
"You told her?" Shinji asked, not knowing about Misato and Asuka's discussion from a few weeks before. They had explored the dreamworld, and it's possibilities for many hours, finding out what they could and could not do. They had even found out that they could do things in reality while they were in the dreamstate. They could see reality through their own eyes or from alternate points of view. But all that Asuka had revealed to Misato was that she and Shinji shared the connection, and that they loved each other.
"I…I had no choice. If I had waited and kept it a secret, and she had found out, she would have been hurt."
"Hey, you two, we can settle this later. Right now, we need your talent."
"Ok, what is it." Shinji replied exasperated.
"I want you two to power up your AT fields."
"What so special about that?" Asuka asked. "We have tried neutralizing its AT field. That didn't work now did it?"
"No, but you didn't let me finish. After your done, stay synched with your Evas, and go to sleep. Rei is going to fire another volley at the target, this time doing some damage…theoretically at least. We noticed that while you slept…." Suddenly Misato was cut off, and Commander Ikari's voice only box came up.
"This information has no relevance to the situation at this time. It will be revealed to you when it is appropriate. Now, do as the director says. That is all."
"Why do they always have to be like that?"
In the control room, Misato was fuming with anger. She didn't like being cut off like that. All Ikari had to do was say don't tell them about it, and she wouldn't. She didn't like secrecy, but she still respected his authority. She just gritted her teeth, and bore the humiliation.
In a moment, she reestablished a connection.
Misato's image appeared again, and Shinji was relieved. "Misato, Asuka and I are going to start now."
"Good luck." Misato said. She gave him a slight smile, and her window disappeared.
"Expanding AT field." The air shimmered once more, this time before both Evas. Shinji, who was feeling tired from a day of inactivity, smiled at Asuka, and adjusted himself in the chair.
Asuka looked at him a moment longer, then started to go to sleep herself. She met him in the same empty space as the first time. "Shinji, I'm sorry about not telling you. I didn't want to hurt Misato. She does mean a lot to me, regardless of how I treat her."
"I know, it just…took me by surprise. That's all. What did she say about us?"
"She told me that she figured that we were an item, but didn't know for sure. I found a notebook in her room this morning; I was planning on looking at it when we get back home. It's about me, and I want to know what she is reporting."
"Even though it doesn't seem right, I have wanted to know what she reports on me as well. I have noticed Nerv intelligence following me sometimes."
"Well, I think that since we haven't met like this for a while, we ought to have some fun, don't you think?"
"Maybe a little, but how about just kissing. I don't think I can handle much more right now, and we are in the middle of a crisis."
"I understand. I don't want you rushed. That makes it less attractive if it's rushed." Reached for him, and brought her face towards him. At the moment that their lips touched, They were both reminded about how much they loved each other. The waves of emotion crashed over them, and they soon found themselves holding each other, lying on the ground. Just holding each other tightly.
Shinji thought to himself. Why do I have to be like that? I am taking away from her experience by delaying it. I should be man enough to say that I'm ready. OK, that's it. I'll do it tonight. After this battle. When we get home. Home. He though about what that word meant. Lately, it had just been him and Asuka at home. Misato had picked up a larger workload, and was seldom around anymore. He missed her. They should go do something, he decided. Something that they all would enjoy. He would have to think about it.
Right now, he was the happiest man alive. Was he a man? Or a boy? What is it to be a man? Is it to be of age? Or is it to love someone over yourself? Or is it maybe to do something heroic?
Inside Central Dogma, the extrapolator was going crazy trying to keep up with the growth of the two AT fields. They were now bordering on the Angels own field, and showed no signs of stopping. The two Evas Fields merged into one, and flowed over the Angels, nulling the field, making the side closest to Rei vulnerable.
"Rei?" Misato ventured.
"Yes, ma'am."
"Fire at the Angel."
"Yes, ma'am." Rei aimed, and fired her newly acquired rifle empty on the Angel. It was dead with the first few hits, but she fired anyway, without knowing why. After settling a little, the Angel exploded. All three Evas were shaken, but surprisingly the blast was directed upwards. The pillar of flames reached at least a mile into the air, but did no damage to the Evas or what was left of the forest around it.
Shinji and Asuka were jolted awake, and sat upright, as the last rumblings of the blast settled into the background. "Did it work?"
"Yes. It worked. Good work you two." Commander Ikari said.
Shinji found that he no longer craved the compliments as much as he did before. They were no longer his reason for living. He looked to the image of his love, sitting there, squeezing the bridge of her nose, and relieving some of the tension that had built up over the past day.
After they had returned, and powered the Evas down, they exited, and headed for the showers. Shinji redressed, and went to the Lounge for a drink. He was halfway through his tea when Misato walked in, with Asuka in tow, and told him that they needed to go home. "Commander Ikari has decided that we can go home tonight, without a debriefing, and tomorrow we can have off. Let's not give him time to reconsider!"
They left Nerv, and drove home, considerably slower than they had gotten there that morning. They talked then for the most time that Shinji could remember. They talked of recent events, about school, about what dinner would be. They had a heated debate over who would be cooking, ending in Shinji and Asuka cooking, while Misato watched and learned. They had a good laugh over that.
Times were good. Shinji had his love. Shinji had his life. Shinji had his happiness. That night at dinner, he and Misato talked candidly about the Asuka situation. Asuka was there, listening to all of it, and she felt that now that things were out in the open, they were OK. No longer would she have to cry over her futures possibilities.
"So what are you going to do?" Shinji asked.
"About what?" Misato asked, trying to evade the question for as long as possible.
"About us, me and Asuka. I don't want my relationship invaded, and analyzed. It is mine, and I like it the way it is." He winked at Asuka. She caught it, and wondered silently what he meant by it.
Misato, gulping down a little more beer, thought for a moment. "Well, I am going to have to report it. But I will make sure that it is put as delicately as possible, and you won't be invaded. Even if he orders you chaperoned, or broken up, your relationship will be safe at least behind my doors.
With that she stood, and dumped her dishes in the sink.
"By the way, great meal. I should put you on full time." She laughed to herself.
"I don't see what's so funny. We're on full time anyway." Shinji said.
They finished up, and cleaned the dishes. Shinji noticed that Asuka looked lovely with her hair all mussed, her hands covered in suds. He reached over with a soap-covered hand, and caressed her cheek, slowly from her ear to her chin. She looked at him a little startled. She had been thinking to herself, and he had jolted her back to reality.
"I just thought of how beautiful you are. It made me feel…something I can't explain. It is a feeling that borders between joy and love, welling inside me. I can feel my heart beating."
Asuka placed her hand on his chest. "So can I. It's a strong heart."
"I haven't yet thought of a delicate way of asking this, so I will just ask it. I am ready, are you willing?" The semi frightened look in his eyes melted to relief. Relief that he had finally stood up to his fears, and faced down reality. That he didn't have to be ruled by fear, but by himself.
Asuka looked at him, and stepping into him, wrapped her arms around him, embracing him in a blanket of love. They kissed deeply, wanting never to break. They moved, somewhat clumsily down the hall, and into Asuka's room, mostly because it was farther from the sleeping Misato.
No words were needed. In that moment, they were one, moving in perfect unison, almost as if fighting the 7th angel, Israfael. The music was no longer classical, but it was the blood rushing through their veins, coursing throughout their bodies, making one immutable beat. What they had done in the dreamworld was now taking place in reality. It was no longer a measure of pleasure, but the result of a shove from their love.
They moved towards the bed, but missed, and flopped on the hard floor instead. Neither of them noticed. The beat was faster now. Deafening, it guided their movements. The clothes came off. The sex commenced. Asuka was writhing from the sensation, and Shinji was spent quickly, and although it had only taken less than 15 minutes from the beginning to the end, it had lasted an eternity. Their breathing and heart rates returned to normal, and they relaxed on each other, lying on the floor, dazed, and unawares of anything else around them.
"Shinji, I love you. I want you to know that. I pray that it will always be that way. Whatever you may think of me, I will love you." With that Asuka drifted to sleep in Shinji's arms. He slowly, ever so slowly eased from under her, and picked he up, and gently placed her on her bed. Feeling sleepy himself, he slid in next to her, and slept.
That night they slept. No dreamsworlds to occupy them, and no nightmares to haunt them, but pure blissful sleep. Shinji figured out 'why him'. There was no other explanation: 'Just because…'