Their thought after the incident
Author's note:
Sorry for no updating sooner. Thanks for all the support of you readers, you don't know the satisfaction you feel when someone tells you that they love your story. The next chapters will be kind of sad, I'm trying to focus on their thoughts and feeling more than focusing on what they say. Thanks, keep reviewing please.
Prue was mentally kicking beating herself up.' Way to go Prue! You had to push her didn't you?' she thought in anguish. 'Now she'll never talk to me' Prue thought.
Piper could see the conflict going on her sister's mind. She knew that Prue was probably blaming herself like she always did when something bad happen to either one of her sisters. Piper didn't know what to do. She still wasn't over the fact that they almost lost their baby sister to that monster. Now she was home and safe but still so far away from them.emotionally.
Phoebe always came to Piper in this kind of situation, whenever she had a problem she would tell Piper first and usually Piper would give her an advice on what to do or something, but now Piper didn't know what to say to her. She didn't even know what happened yet.
They had never dealt with anything like that before. The only thing Piper wished for was for Phoebe to open up to her and tell her what happened in that place. But Piper knew Phoebe wasn't ready for it yet, and Piper wasn't ready to hear it either.
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Phoebe locked the door of her room and practically threw herself on her bed sobbing uncontrollably. She cried like she did the first time he had touched her like that. She wanted to run to her sisters, to cry in their arms and tell them everything about Ikarias, but the voices in the back of her head didn't let her. She knew she was gonna have to talk about deal with everything that happened at some point, and she wanted to deal with it alone in her own time. Right now all she wanted was to forget about it and just get her life back.
'Why can't they just leave me alone?' Phoebe thought. 'Why can't they stay out of my life? Don't they see I'm hurting right now' she thought. She immediately stopped herself. ' If they get involved in my life it's just because they love me' she thought. She had no right to think that kind of things about her sisters when they risked they life against that demon trying to save her.
After hour of crying she finally got out of her room and decided to head to the bathroom to take a shower. She felt disgusted with herself, so dirty. She stepped in to the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror. She could not stand to see herself like that. He had taken all the beauty away from her, away from her body. He had marked her body with his touch, and the mark of that would never go away.
She could feel the burden in her bruises as the water ran through her body. Leo had healed most of the wounds but before he could finish healing her he got called away for a meeting with the elders apparently.
She grabbed a towel and wrapped herself in it. She then looked at the mirror once again. She stared at her body for a while, watching all the bruises on it, all the scars he had left on her. Her body was his forever. She felt used and humiliated. She looked upon her own reflection and it made her sick
"He was right. I'm not beautiful" she whispered to herself at the edge of tears. 'I'm not funny or smart' she thought, not been able to talk anymore because of the tears. 'Otherwise I could have had stopped him but I didn't. I allowed him to do that to me' she thought. It was her fault.unless she fell that way.
She knew Prue was probably blaming herself as well but she couldn't talk to her yet. Not right now. As much as she needed comforting at that moment she couldn't talk to her sisters yet. Why? Because Piper wasn't gonna be able to handle it, and Prue was too strong and stubborn like to comfort her. 'It's not like you need their comfort anyway' the voice told her. Phoebe was about to think in something to disagree with her last thought but she couldn't help but to agree with it.
"I don't need their comfort, of their pity" she said to herself still looking at the mirror. 'Even if I tell them what happened they would blame me anyway, or be embarrassed for having a sister like me' she thought already feeling her anger against them.
And with those thoughts in her head she went to bed again. She went to bed with all the guilt, the pain and the anger against her own sisters.
Author's note:
Sorry for no updating sooner. Thanks for all the support of you readers, you don't know the satisfaction you feel when someone tells you that they love your story. The next chapters will be kind of sad, I'm trying to focus on their thoughts and feeling more than focusing on what they say. Thanks, keep reviewing please.
Prue was mentally kicking beating herself up.' Way to go Prue! You had to push her didn't you?' she thought in anguish. 'Now she'll never talk to me' Prue thought.
Piper could see the conflict going on her sister's mind. She knew that Prue was probably blaming herself like she always did when something bad happen to either one of her sisters. Piper didn't know what to do. She still wasn't over the fact that they almost lost their baby sister to that monster. Now she was home and safe but still so far away from them.emotionally.
Phoebe always came to Piper in this kind of situation, whenever she had a problem she would tell Piper first and usually Piper would give her an advice on what to do or something, but now Piper didn't know what to say to her. She didn't even know what happened yet.
They had never dealt with anything like that before. The only thing Piper wished for was for Phoebe to open up to her and tell her what happened in that place. But Piper knew Phoebe wasn't ready for it yet, and Piper wasn't ready to hear it either.
X x x x x x x x x x x x PHOEBE'S ROOM x x x x x x x x x x x x x X
Phoebe locked the door of her room and practically threw herself on her bed sobbing uncontrollably. She cried like she did the first time he had touched her like that. She wanted to run to her sisters, to cry in their arms and tell them everything about Ikarias, but the voices in the back of her head didn't let her. She knew she was gonna have to talk about deal with everything that happened at some point, and she wanted to deal with it alone in her own time. Right now all she wanted was to forget about it and just get her life back.
'Why can't they just leave me alone?' Phoebe thought. 'Why can't they stay out of my life? Don't they see I'm hurting right now' she thought. She immediately stopped herself. ' If they get involved in my life it's just because they love me' she thought. She had no right to think that kind of things about her sisters when they risked they life against that demon trying to save her.
After hour of crying she finally got out of her room and decided to head to the bathroom to take a shower. She felt disgusted with herself, so dirty. She stepped in to the bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror. She could not stand to see herself like that. He had taken all the beauty away from her, away from her body. He had marked her body with his touch, and the mark of that would never go away.
She could feel the burden in her bruises as the water ran through her body. Leo had healed most of the wounds but before he could finish healing her he got called away for a meeting with the elders apparently.
She grabbed a towel and wrapped herself in it. She then looked at the mirror once again. She stared at her body for a while, watching all the bruises on it, all the scars he had left on her. Her body was his forever. She felt used and humiliated. She looked upon her own reflection and it made her sick
"He was right. I'm not beautiful" she whispered to herself at the edge of tears. 'I'm not funny or smart' she thought, not been able to talk anymore because of the tears. 'Otherwise I could have had stopped him but I didn't. I allowed him to do that to me' she thought. It was her fault.unless she fell that way.
She knew Prue was probably blaming herself as well but she couldn't talk to her yet. Not right now. As much as she needed comforting at that moment she couldn't talk to her sisters yet. Why? Because Piper wasn't gonna be able to handle it, and Prue was too strong and stubborn like to comfort her. 'It's not like you need their comfort anyway' the voice told her. Phoebe was about to think in something to disagree with her last thought but she couldn't help but to agree with it.
"I don't need their comfort, of their pity" she said to herself still looking at the mirror. 'Even if I tell them what happened they would blame me anyway, or be embarrassed for having a sister like me' she thought already feeling her anger against them.
And with those thoughts in her head she went to bed again. She went to bed with all the guilt, the pain and the anger against her own sisters.