30 Minutes
Title: 30 Minutes
Author: TheBlackRaveness
Author's Notes: I decided to go back and fix this story up a bit, not much, but enough to make it understandable. The first time I wrote this, I had no idea what I was doing as in the posting it online and how it would look. So uhm…enjoy.
Out of sight
Out of mind
Out of time
To decide
"Do you love me?" Beautiful blue eyes stared into mine, pleading with me. "I need to know…Please…I'm leaving from Timber today…I need to know. Please, do you love me?" A hand latched onto mine, as I just stood there, staring blankly. "I'll be leaving with that person." I watched, as the figure started to walk away, those majestic eyes looked back at me one last time.
Do we run?
Should I hide?
For the rest
Of my life
"Damn it." I cursed inwardly, "What would the others think?" I mumbled, watching the love of my life get on that ratty train. "…I don't know…I've hidden it for so long…What would he think…What would she think? What would they think?" I ran my fingers through my hair, frustration evident on my face.
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
I began to trudge towards the hotel. "Do I stay here…or chase after someone I've loved so much for so long? Everyone would hate us, reject us, and I can't do that…I don't think I can stand it." A dog followed me, whining and snuffling quietly. "Do you know what I should do?" I knelt down, petting the soft golden fur. Two crystalline eyes gazed up at me sadly, if it were possible, I think this dog's face mirrored mine. It whimpered and nudged my hand, demanding more attention, and that I gladly gave.
In the moment
It takes
To make plans
Or mistakes
I listened as the revving engines and hissing whistles signaled its departure. "No!" I stood abruptly, startling the content animal. I began to sprint towards the train station. "Oh Hyne, I hope I am not making the biggest mistake in my life." I ran with all my might, yelling for the train to stop.
30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes to alter our lives
30 minutes to make up my mind
30 minutes to finally decide
"You'll never catch it child." The ticket master told me sternly. "Ah, young love?" She smiled in deep thought. I could care less about her memories of past love and pain. This is my life. I ran from the station and towards my car. "The train is heading for Dollet City." The ticket master called after me.
"Thank you!" I yelled over my shoulder. Didn't I look stupid. Running after the love of my life…and not know where I'm going.
30 minutes to whisper your name
30 minutes to shoulder the blame
30 minutes of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes to finally decide
"Squall." I whispered his name, and smiled. "It's all my fault." I sped faster. "30 minutes…just thirty minutes." I slammed my brakes, and shouted out the window. "STUPID KID! GET THE HELL OUT OF MY WAY!" I honked the horn impatiently. "Am I doing the right thing?" I wondered, as it seemed years for the kid to move.
Carousels
In the sky
That we shape
With our eyes
"Squall, what took you so long?" The brunette stared at the man staring out the window.
"Don't want to talk about it." A soft murmur replied.
"My father will be proud of us." Brown eyes stared at the golden ring placed on a symbolic finger.
"Yeah…Woo…Can't wait to tell him the news." His blue eyes stared into the sky. Watching the clouds gather, he sighed and murmured someone else's name.
"What Squall?" a prying voice inquired, stepping closer to the hunched over man to find out.
"Nothing Rinoa…"
Under shade
Silhouettes
Casting shame
Crying rain
"Damn it." I cursed, as the kid finally moved, I glanced up at the sky, and the rhythmic pattern of pitter-pattering of the rain began to hit my windshield. "They'll hold me back no longer, I don't care about what they think!" I raged, and peeled out of Timber's exit, barely missing the happy little sign wishing for us to return to that hyne forsaken city. "I love you Squall. I'm not ashamed anymore." I smiled, "Almost there…So close." I saw the lights of a familiar city. I drove faster.
Can we fly?
Do I stay?
We could lose
We could fail
Either way
Options change
Chances fail
Trains derail
The train started to rumble a little more than usual. "Zone!" Rinoa cried, leaving the man alone.
"Finally." He sighed with relief, "I hate that woman." Running a hand through his soft hair he thought of the person he left at the train station. The sudden jerking of the train pulled him out of his nostalgia.
"Ladies and gentlemen we have a slight problem. The train tracks seemed to have separated slightly from each other. It's nothing to worry about. But please listen to the attendants as they go over safety crash procedures." A voice came over the intercom, and the unmistakable squawking of a woman in the background was heard.
"WHAT? CRASH PROCEDURES? I THOUGHT IT'S NOTHING TO WORRY ABOUT ZONE! WE'RE ALL GOING TO DIE!"
"Shut up, Rinoa!" Squall could not help but smirk to himself, despite the rapid jerking starting to get more violent.
30 minutes, a blink of an eye
30 minutes to alter our lives
30 minutes to make up my mind
30 minutes to finally decide
That's when it happened. A lone wheel of the train bumped off the raised railing, and with it taking along the rest. Metal groaned under the strain to stay upright, before it finally toppled over. The screeching of metal against the rocks as the fast paced train skidded across the ground, echoed into the silence.
30 minutes to whisper your name
30 minutes to shoulder the blame
30 minutes of bliss, thirty lies
30 minutes to finally decide
"Squall!" I stormed the General's house.
"No, sorry Rinoa and Squall haven't arrived yet." Caraway stared at me with wonder; "Their train is twenty minutes late. They want to tell me something important though."
"Good." I sighed, "You wouldn't mind if I waited here…and waited for them."
"Of course I don't mind." He smiled, and went back to staring out the window. Ten more minutes passed.
To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide
A single tear ran down his cheek, as time seemed to slow down. Everyone was dead. Soon he was to be too. He knew it. Blood ran from his body freely, all the broken bones, it didn't matter. "It doesn't even hurt anymore." He coughed, and smiled faintly. "I love you…"
To decide
To decide, to decide, to decide
"What's taking them so long?" I fumed, as the General looked at me with concern.
"What's wrong?"
"I…" I took a deep breath. "I love your Squall, and he loves me. He's only going to marry your daughter to make everyone else happy. They expect him to love her…Seems logical. But I love your him. Don't think of me as a freak. I don't want them to get married, I want to spend the rest of my life with him…and I lost my chance to tell him at the station…and he left." My lips pressed into a tight line as I frowned; a lone tear ran down my cheek, as I furiously wiped it away. The General just stared at me…did he believe my confession?
To decide
"Seifer…" Squall whispered, as he slipped into the deep sleep that would consume him forever.
"30 Minutes" sang by T.A.T.U