Pony's POV
"That was quick." Darry back up, "What happened?"
I brushed by my brother. He grabbed me roughly by the shoulder, "Ponyboy. I want you to get better." His hand was squeezing my shoulder too tightly. I shook him off and sat down in the car.
That night I woke up when someone was shaking me. The taste of blood filled my mouth, and Soda and Darry were with me again.
"I called her." Darry said to Soda. I didn't really pay attention to what he was saying. My oldest brother looked worried and scared. My hand was bloody where I had been tearing at it with my teeth. Something was wrong with me. Pain racked my arm and I nearly choked on the blood in my mouth.
The coldness of the house was disquieting. The heater didn't go on until 6am-it was only 3am.
"You were crying out for mom and dad." Soda whispered. His eyes were large and full. A sort of sick look was apparent on his features.
Darry looked p from bandaging my hand, "You need to get better, Pony. This can't go on."
I kept my mind carefully blank, "Ok." I said, "okay."
The doorbell rang, echoing through the house.
Soda ruffled my hair and went to answer it. Seconds later he entered with Doctor Brawning. She was wearing sweats and a football jersey. Still beautiful as heaven. Darry, I guess thought so too because he whispered with her for a minute then he and Soda left Dr. B and me together.
I sat and leaned against the wall.
"Hey Pony." She greeted, her green eyes foggy with sleep.
"Hi." I replied, "Sorry."
"What?" Dr. B asked me, "Sorry? For what?"
"I made you get up. I'm making your life miserable."
"Ponyboy, my life is already miserable. I wouldn't get too ahead of myself on that fact."
I didn't ask her what she meant. "I didn't come to help you because of my job. I came because I want to help you."
"I know." I sighed shakily, "But it's so hard to talk. You dig? My dreams." Against my will my voice cracked.
Dr. Brawning sat down beside me, "What do you dream about?"
"My parent. I used to not remember but..now.I know it's them that I dream about every night. Every night they de and it is always my own damn fault. Just like before." I was babbling brokenly, looking down. The reluctance to tell Dr. B everything was almost over powering.
I hadn't mean to say that much.but the words just spilled out of me, like someone else was controlling my lips. My fists were clenched white against the soft eggshell color of my sheets.
A powerful sadness grew in my chest and spread up, making me choke. When I heard the guilt in my own voice.I just lost it. Dr. Brawling didn't say, "They're just dream..hush up kid." Like I thought she would. "Ponyboy.." her voice trembled the slightest bit.
She took me seriously, no questions. I think maybe she was as tired and sad as me because tears filled her eyes. And believe me Autumn Brawning isn't nicknamed Dr. Ice for nothing. Those tears in her green eyes pushed me over the edge. I began to bawl great heartbreaking sobs of sadness.
"It's my fault." I cried, hiding my face shamefully in my hands.
"It's okay to cry." Dr. B touched my shoulder.
"No, it ain't. Don't lie to me!" I shook my head
"I don't lie." She said firmly, "Trust me. You'll be okay."
Autumn's POV
I figured every move I made tied me tighter to this boy. This troubled teen, was pulling at my heart, making me feel emotions more strongly than I had in years. With a flash of my green eyes I threw away my uncertainty.
"Pony, it's not your fault." I wrapped my arms around him. Strangely I like a mother and her child.
Ponyboy stiffened, the motherly gesture of kindness pushed him further into sadness. He clung to me and cried passionately. I knew I was helping to reawaken the feelings of longing he held tightly within himself. It had been so long since Ponyboy Curtis had had someone like a mother.
He fell asleep hours later in my embrace. Then I slept too, beside Ponyboy.
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I awoke some time later; Ponyboy's head was resting gently on my lap. Darry was watching my quietly from the doorway.
"What?" I asked, glancing at him, suspiciously.
"He didn't cry out once last night." Silently I felt him add, "while he was in your arms."
I smiled slowly and looked down at Ponyboy proudly.
"Thank you." The words were whispered and quiet but I heard Darryl's voice like a whisper in my ear. I nodded fondly. The handsome guy looked at his little brother tenderly with love in his eyes.
"Somehow, I don't think it's over for him." I didn't want to tell him tat Pony thought he had killed his own parents.
"Oh." Darry looked let down but not astonished.
I stroked Ponyboy's beautiful red hair softly, finding just the tips of the longer strands were bleached blonde. I didn't ponder over it and lifted him gently off my lap and onto the pillow. It was pity, the press didn't see me when I was in this maternal mood.maybe then they wouldn't have nicknamed me the Ice doctor. Ponyboy didn't know I cared for him enough to keep his secret for now..but this boy had my heart.
"You love him a lot don't you?" I inquired, pushing my hair bac and closing the door to Ponyboy's room.
Darry smiled, "Yah, me and Soda, we need him with us." This confession would be hard to make for some people but now Darry. I admired that.
"Will you answer my questions when I need you to?" I asked seriously, matching my green eyes to his blue ones.
"Yes." The answere was short but strong and sure. I knew he meant it.
"Good." I affirmed, "Now catch me when I fall."
Surprisingly Darry did and I fell back wards into his arms, out cold.
Author's note:
Sorry these first few chapters have been kind of short but (yes there is a but ^-^) I'm only making these short because the next few are really long and well my fingers get sore Lol. Butbutbut! I promise they keep getting longer.YAY!!!
Danielle
"That was quick." Darry back up, "What happened?"
I brushed by my brother. He grabbed me roughly by the shoulder, "Ponyboy. I want you to get better." His hand was squeezing my shoulder too tightly. I shook him off and sat down in the car.
That night I woke up when someone was shaking me. The taste of blood filled my mouth, and Soda and Darry were with me again.
"I called her." Darry said to Soda. I didn't really pay attention to what he was saying. My oldest brother looked worried and scared. My hand was bloody where I had been tearing at it with my teeth. Something was wrong with me. Pain racked my arm and I nearly choked on the blood in my mouth.
The coldness of the house was disquieting. The heater didn't go on until 6am-it was only 3am.
"You were crying out for mom and dad." Soda whispered. His eyes were large and full. A sort of sick look was apparent on his features.
Darry looked p from bandaging my hand, "You need to get better, Pony. This can't go on."
I kept my mind carefully blank, "Ok." I said, "okay."
The doorbell rang, echoing through the house.
Soda ruffled my hair and went to answer it. Seconds later he entered with Doctor Brawning. She was wearing sweats and a football jersey. Still beautiful as heaven. Darry, I guess thought so too because he whispered with her for a minute then he and Soda left Dr. B and me together.
I sat and leaned against the wall.
"Hey Pony." She greeted, her green eyes foggy with sleep.
"Hi." I replied, "Sorry."
"What?" Dr. B asked me, "Sorry? For what?"
"I made you get up. I'm making your life miserable."
"Ponyboy, my life is already miserable. I wouldn't get too ahead of myself on that fact."
I didn't ask her what she meant. "I didn't come to help you because of my job. I came because I want to help you."
"I know." I sighed shakily, "But it's so hard to talk. You dig? My dreams." Against my will my voice cracked.
Dr. Brawning sat down beside me, "What do you dream about?"
"My parent. I used to not remember but..now.I know it's them that I dream about every night. Every night they de and it is always my own damn fault. Just like before." I was babbling brokenly, looking down. The reluctance to tell Dr. B everything was almost over powering.
I hadn't mean to say that much.but the words just spilled out of me, like someone else was controlling my lips. My fists were clenched white against the soft eggshell color of my sheets.
A powerful sadness grew in my chest and spread up, making me choke. When I heard the guilt in my own voice.I just lost it. Dr. Brawling didn't say, "They're just dream..hush up kid." Like I thought she would. "Ponyboy.." her voice trembled the slightest bit.
She took me seriously, no questions. I think maybe she was as tired and sad as me because tears filled her eyes. And believe me Autumn Brawning isn't nicknamed Dr. Ice for nothing. Those tears in her green eyes pushed me over the edge. I began to bawl great heartbreaking sobs of sadness.
"It's my fault." I cried, hiding my face shamefully in my hands.
"It's okay to cry." Dr. B touched my shoulder.
"No, it ain't. Don't lie to me!" I shook my head
"I don't lie." She said firmly, "Trust me. You'll be okay."
Autumn's POV
I figured every move I made tied me tighter to this boy. This troubled teen, was pulling at my heart, making me feel emotions more strongly than I had in years. With a flash of my green eyes I threw away my uncertainty.
"Pony, it's not your fault." I wrapped my arms around him. Strangely I like a mother and her child.
Ponyboy stiffened, the motherly gesture of kindness pushed him further into sadness. He clung to me and cried passionately. I knew I was helping to reawaken the feelings of longing he held tightly within himself. It had been so long since Ponyboy Curtis had had someone like a mother.
He fell asleep hours later in my embrace. Then I slept too, beside Ponyboy.
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I awoke some time later; Ponyboy's head was resting gently on my lap. Darry was watching my quietly from the doorway.
"What?" I asked, glancing at him, suspiciously.
"He didn't cry out once last night." Silently I felt him add, "while he was in your arms."
I smiled slowly and looked down at Ponyboy proudly.
"Thank you." The words were whispered and quiet but I heard Darryl's voice like a whisper in my ear. I nodded fondly. The handsome guy looked at his little brother tenderly with love in his eyes.
"Somehow, I don't think it's over for him." I didn't want to tell him tat Pony thought he had killed his own parents.
"Oh." Darry looked let down but not astonished.
I stroked Ponyboy's beautiful red hair softly, finding just the tips of the longer strands were bleached blonde. I didn't ponder over it and lifted him gently off my lap and onto the pillow. It was pity, the press didn't see me when I was in this maternal mood.maybe then they wouldn't have nicknamed me the Ice doctor. Ponyboy didn't know I cared for him enough to keep his secret for now..but this boy had my heart.
"You love him a lot don't you?" I inquired, pushing my hair bac and closing the door to Ponyboy's room.
Darry smiled, "Yah, me and Soda, we need him with us." This confession would be hard to make for some people but now Darry. I admired that.
"Will you answer my questions when I need you to?" I asked seriously, matching my green eyes to his blue ones.
"Yes." The answere was short but strong and sure. I knew he meant it.
"Good." I affirmed, "Now catch me when I fall."
Surprisingly Darry did and I fell back wards into his arms, out cold.
Author's note:
Sorry these first few chapters have been kind of short but (yes there is a but ^-^) I'm only making these short because the next few are really long and well my fingers get sore Lol. Butbutbut! I promise they keep getting longer.YAY!!!
Danielle