Hey Everyone, Thank you all for reviewing my fanfiction, I am going out of
town 2morro, and I won't b baq until FRIDAY, so I thought it would be a nice thing for me to post the next chapter, thank you for all of you who
gave me constructive critisism, I'm glad you guys are reading this!
Disclaimer: I do NOT own RFR, but I wish I did own Travis or Ray.
This is the 3rd chapter, the 4th one will be the last one, which I will post as soon as I get back from Niagra Falls, So everyone here is Travis'
Painful Secrets Chapter 3: The Monday After Everything
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!
Travis' Painful secrets
Ch 3- The Monday after Everything
Travis and Lily walk into school, immediately all attention goes towards them. Robbie and Ray walk over to them they start a mild conversation, not trying to upset either Lily or Travis.
Ro-Umm, hey guys how's everything today?
Ra-Yea how's it going?
L-gee, thanks for making it obvious, by the looks on your faces we know you want to know everything
Ro+Ra- NO!!
L- sure anyway this isn't the time, she glances at Travis whom hasn't smiled or said a word at all this morning, His mom di- Her thoughts were interrupted by the cougar radio voice Kim Carlisle
KC-Yo and Hello, Roscoe High, This weekend is homecoming for Basketball Go cougars Go! Anyway there will be a celebration dance on Tuesday, since the last game is on Wednesday the dance will be Tomorrow night, called, The Cougar Celebration Dance, you may bring a date if wanted, not mandatory to bring one but the dance itself IS tickets 5$ a piece they will be sold at the student store, So be there or Be Square!
Ra- (in thoughts) Lily I'm going to ask Lily, although she is trying to be good to Travis, I still want to ask her, but, Oh Gees this is crazy Maybe Travis should go with-NO I'm going to ask her out to the dance whether or not Travis likes it!
Ro-Yo, dude you there? You almost ran into this thing called a wall, as humans you CANT walk through it!( a few laughs escape from Lily and Robbie) They sure do give you a lot of time to find a date, since today is MONDAY, why couldn't it be on like Saturday or if that's to hard at least Friday, but tomorrow?! Because It takes me a while to find the PERFECT DATE.
All laugh except Travis, he is in this mind zone, his mom's gone, Ray is going to ask HIS love out to the dance and there is nothing he could do about it, he decided to skip RFR today, and didn't go to lunch, he didn't want to be around anyone today, he nearly cried on his way home to his Not- So-Permanent-Yet house, The Randall's', As he got to Lily's bedroom he felt his eyes become painful with his morbid tears, he was a 14 year old boy he shouldn't cry like this, but his mom had just died, he decided to let them out in a poem for Lily normally poetry wasn't his forte' but today was different he had true inspiration, and it was for the girl he loved it was entitled
Heart Sick My eyes burn with these tears uncried All of these months I've known you seemingly untried My heart stops when you are around I can't see or hear a sound I'm heart sick because of you But now I know for sure that it's true You look at me and see a friend And I try for more then it can This paper may end up tear stained But at least I let out some of my pain
He left it on Lily's pillow and signed it by "T", it had only 4 or 5 tear drops on it and left he walked as the rain poured down hopefully Lily would read his work, When he returned home, soaking wet with little drops of rain scattered through his hair, to Lily's he heard sobbing, he heard mumbling in his and Lily' s room she mumbled to herself
L- Travis, you never see any of my signs I try to give you, I laugh at everything you say, and I am always there for a hug, and I think it's so obvious that I haven't stopped thinking about you since I developed this crush on you! It's you I have fallen for why cant you understand it! I hate it when you don't realize me being around- She stops as Travis walks into her room and he talks finally
T- I do realize when you're around, Lily jumps up and realizes Travis has heard the entire thing, my poem was supposed to say something to you, Lily I... he stops and looks toward his feet
L-( in a scared but anxious tone)Tell me, Travis, speak your mind!
T- Lily, I love you, you and I speak the language of lov and understanding, we share this deep secret of connection between us, I knew it was you from day 1, and when I met you all I could think about was you and-
Lily leans in and kisses Travis, really passionate, Travis is in heaven, even though all the events that lead up to this, his mom and dad and home life, he wanted that kiss more than anything he had finally built up the courage to ask her something which was burning himself up
T-Lily, would you like to go to the dance with me?
L- what about you and Audrey?
T- you know that would of never worked, please Lily, I will brake things off with Audrey tomorrow, I love you more then any other guy could please believe me, he kisses her again, believe me
L-Travis Strong, it would serve me great pleasure to attend this dance with you.
Travis smiles the first smile he has smiled in a really long time
L- (with tears in her eyes) I honestly never thought I would see that smile on you again, one tear rolls down her cheek Travis' smooth hand brushes it away
T- I'll always smile whenever your around now, I'm glad you got my point in the poem, I was so sure of rejection, and it was hurting me inside knowing that you may in fact be falling for another guy instead of the one who has truly loved you since the day we met
L- Me too, I thought Audrey and you were too cute together, and it made me so angry to see you guys together at the same time, I knew it would seem crazy if I told her that I didn't want her to date you and a little obvious, laughs slightly, I love you Travis, was what I wanted her to know, but I couldn't come out with it
T- I love you Lily, and I always will
L- Me too Travis, I'm so glad we feel the same way, Leans in for a kiss which leads to a make out session on her bed, nothing more but a serious make out session and they couldn't help but thinking I'm kissing my best friend who is know even more whom is someone I truly love, With that they sat there on her bed until her mom knocked
Lily-Get down on the floor! My mom has been boy-crazy since I went on a date with Lee Johns!
T-okay, I'll be on the floor if ya need me!
Ms Randall- gets to bed you two
L- Travis is already asleep, and I'll be getting there soon
MR- ok are you sure you kids aren't doing anything funny in here, I'm still not accepting this great idea about my daughter sharing her room with what you would call and attractive boy
Travis was smiling his head off and yet it creeped him out knowing Ms. Randall considered him attractive, but soon she was off, and had given Lily the third-degree, about making right choices and not to fall for the wrong guy, because she didn't want Lily to make the wrong choices for her life, Travis nearly cracked up during a part of it but he bit his tongue.
L- Oh I'm sorry about my mom, she is really freaked out
T- no problem, but ah, don't consider me forward, but may we get back to where we were. Travis crawled on her bed and they started to kiss
In Lily's tree sat Ray, where he was trying to be romantic in asking Lily out to the dance by crawling through her window at night and giving her a rose, but he had walked...err um climbed in on what was sure to be the most painful moment of his life, Lily and Travis he thought, The girl he loved was TAKEN by his friend, the creepy ZEN FREAK TRAVIS! Plus they were going to the dance together, his dream was being lived out by his creepy friend, he felt his eyes watering, he didn't know he had cared THIS much about Lily, but as he climbed down the tree, and continued his walk home, he started to cry as he entered his own house he was confronted by his mom asking "Oh honey what's wrong?" They only thing he could manage to say was "Oh the usual, ya know, my life being ruined, by my friend Travis, that's it" as he cried all the way upstairs, his mom went upstairs but his door was closed and locked and on the other side laid a heartbroken Ray, knowing Lily, his best friend and the object of ALL his affections, was with Travis, the loner, the Zen weirdo. All he could do was cry, he was 14 and a 14-year old boy for that matter, he should never feel this way, there is only one thing that could make him feel a little better. He picked up the phone and dialed Lily's number
L- Hey Ray what's up?
T- (in his thoughts) This is not happening, this is so not happening, please let me wake up from this horrible nightmare, wait or would it be called a dream since I was just kissing Lily...Oh yea focus on that part Travis! Come on you know this would kill Ray if you let him know, but I think that is something you will have to do
R- Lily, I kind of have to tell you something
L- Hurry up I was kind of in the middle of something important Lily glances at Travis who is still thinking about this whole Ray and Him and Lily thing, but still manages to smile his trademark smile at Lily and realizing how beautiful she was, and that maybe Ray didn't have to know Right AWAY, but something that he didn't know, that Ray had seen them, and that this call could be very devastating for one of them.
R-Lily, I well, this is hard for me to say but well I... Lily I, seem to have, um, Lily I like you
The other end of the line went dead, Lily was amazed at what she had just heard, Ray likes her, she had always thought of him as a friend specially that for the past few months she had had a huge crush on Travis, She realized it had been like 5 minutes since either of them had talked and Travis, still thinking about Ray, hadn't even noticed, but Lily seemed to mutter out the WORST possible answer ever
L- I like Travis...
This brought Travis out of his daze and realized they were STILL on the phone
R- I know, I was going to ask you to the dance and I climbed up your window to be romantic and I saw, Lily could sense his mode weakening from O.K. to sad, she could almost sense tears, I saw you and Travis, and I climbed down and went home and this is were it leads me, LILY no guy could ever love you as much as I do, Lily you have to trust me on this one, Lily I love YOU. The line goes dead, Ray hung up, He then called Robbie and filled him in on everything, but in the meantime, Lily and Travis were discussing things.
L- umm, that was Ray, and he just wanted to call and say you know that he loves me! Travis did you know about this?
T- I did
L- And you didn't let me know, She starts to feel saddened, her vision become blurry, she glances at the clock it reads 10:21pm, Travis I don't know what to do, I love you Travis but I'm afraid to let Ray down, So what should I do
T- You know what I would think, I want you to be with me, you're the only one who understands me, the only one who can stand to be bothered by my Buddha quotes the only one who I love and care about, the only one for me...But although this is what I may think, it's all up to you, and your heart to decide who is right for you...
L- Travis your sweet and I'm glad you understand me but right now, I think we both need some sleep, I'll decide in my dreams, or as I at least stay awake all night trying to figure this out, she smiles, Travis hugs her.
T- I trust you, and I know you'll make the right choice, and whoever you choose and no matter who you choose, he's the right guy for you
Lily pondered what Travis had said she realized the Audrey didn't care about him or notice anything about him, all she noticed was that he was HOT, but Lily saw deeper, she saw he had a good heart and an awesome soul and intriguing personality, he was always willing to listen, and was always there for his friends, even if they weren't his friends, he always had a nice Buddha quote or line of inspiration to help them through it. Ray was nice too, she he covered it up with his hilarity but she knew he had a deeper side, maybe even a side like Travis, or something like Travis. As she went on she realized she was looking for Travis' traits in Ray, and was thinking Travis was the perfect person that every guy should measure up to, but she had known him the least amount of time, as for Ray she had known him for her entire life. She soon looked at the clock it read 5:50am they would be getting up for school in 10 minutes, she hadn't slept all night, but she did accomplish a lot that night, in fact she had accomplished enough to decide that her boyfriend would have to be— Her thought were interrupted my her mom yelling from downstairs
Ms Randall- Get Up!! Breakfast is ready, come on don't want to be late for school, and tonight's the dance so I hope you have gotten a lot of sleep! L- O.K. I'm getting up she had almost forgotten about the dance but after her mom reminded her she immediately got into a better mood, Travis awoke, smiling to Lily
T- so did you dream up your perfect boyfriend? He smiles his famous smile
L- yes I managed out everything and I finally know, that, Travis...
T- got worried, he didn't like where this was going and got scared, I don't like suspense Lily specially this kind!
L- Travis... I decided that...
He looked scared and anxious
L- through an awful lot of consideration, and going through the things I wanted in a guy...
He nearly stopped breathing as she opened her mouth again to reveal more useless information
L- and that fact that I can not only look at how cute he is but the fact that I like him for who he really is...
T- Lily you are killing me, come one!
L- Travis...
T- That would be me Lily...
L- Travis I've picked you, she smiles.
T- he smiled this smile that had so much love in it, he knew Ray would be heartbroken and go into manic depression but he gets his girl, he hugs her, which leads to a passionate kiss.
T-I love you Lily
L- And I love you, Travis
They kiss real fast and get ready for school. Tonight is the dance and they are going together when they got downstairs they both had smiles on their faces they rushed to school and immediately bumped into the one person neither of them wanted to see all day, Ray. They could see he hadn't gotten much sleep, they both knew why, they could also see Ray would kill Travis if she had chosen him, Ray was standing there staring them both in the eye waiting for the worst moment or greatest moment of his life, so he stood there waiting for a moment...
town 2morro, and I won't b baq until FRIDAY, so I thought it would be a nice thing for me to post the next chapter, thank you for all of you who
gave me constructive critisism, I'm glad you guys are reading this!
Disclaimer: I do NOT own RFR, but I wish I did own Travis or Ray.
This is the 3rd chapter, the 4th one will be the last one, which I will post as soon as I get back from Niagra Falls, So everyone here is Travis'
Painful Secrets Chapter 3: The Monday After Everything
PLEASE REVIEW!!!!
Travis' Painful secrets
Ch 3- The Monday after Everything
Travis and Lily walk into school, immediately all attention goes towards them. Robbie and Ray walk over to them they start a mild conversation, not trying to upset either Lily or Travis.
Ro-Umm, hey guys how's everything today?
Ra-Yea how's it going?
L-gee, thanks for making it obvious, by the looks on your faces we know you want to know everything
Ro+Ra- NO!!
L- sure anyway this isn't the time, she glances at Travis whom hasn't smiled or said a word at all this morning, His mom di- Her thoughts were interrupted by the cougar radio voice Kim Carlisle
KC-Yo and Hello, Roscoe High, This weekend is homecoming for Basketball Go cougars Go! Anyway there will be a celebration dance on Tuesday, since the last game is on Wednesday the dance will be Tomorrow night, called, The Cougar Celebration Dance, you may bring a date if wanted, not mandatory to bring one but the dance itself IS tickets 5$ a piece they will be sold at the student store, So be there or Be Square!
Ra- (in thoughts) Lily I'm going to ask Lily, although she is trying to be good to Travis, I still want to ask her, but, Oh Gees this is crazy Maybe Travis should go with-NO I'm going to ask her out to the dance whether or not Travis likes it!
Ro-Yo, dude you there? You almost ran into this thing called a wall, as humans you CANT walk through it!( a few laughs escape from Lily and Robbie) They sure do give you a lot of time to find a date, since today is MONDAY, why couldn't it be on like Saturday or if that's to hard at least Friday, but tomorrow?! Because It takes me a while to find the PERFECT DATE.
All laugh except Travis, he is in this mind zone, his mom's gone, Ray is going to ask HIS love out to the dance and there is nothing he could do about it, he decided to skip RFR today, and didn't go to lunch, he didn't want to be around anyone today, he nearly cried on his way home to his Not- So-Permanent-Yet house, The Randall's', As he got to Lily's bedroom he felt his eyes become painful with his morbid tears, he was a 14 year old boy he shouldn't cry like this, but his mom had just died, he decided to let them out in a poem for Lily normally poetry wasn't his forte' but today was different he had true inspiration, and it was for the girl he loved it was entitled
Heart Sick My eyes burn with these tears uncried All of these months I've known you seemingly untried My heart stops when you are around I can't see or hear a sound I'm heart sick because of you But now I know for sure that it's true You look at me and see a friend And I try for more then it can This paper may end up tear stained But at least I let out some of my pain
He left it on Lily's pillow and signed it by "T", it had only 4 or 5 tear drops on it and left he walked as the rain poured down hopefully Lily would read his work, When he returned home, soaking wet with little drops of rain scattered through his hair, to Lily's he heard sobbing, he heard mumbling in his and Lily' s room she mumbled to herself
L- Travis, you never see any of my signs I try to give you, I laugh at everything you say, and I am always there for a hug, and I think it's so obvious that I haven't stopped thinking about you since I developed this crush on you! It's you I have fallen for why cant you understand it! I hate it when you don't realize me being around- She stops as Travis walks into her room and he talks finally
T- I do realize when you're around, Lily jumps up and realizes Travis has heard the entire thing, my poem was supposed to say something to you, Lily I... he stops and looks toward his feet
L-( in a scared but anxious tone)Tell me, Travis, speak your mind!
T- Lily, I love you, you and I speak the language of lov and understanding, we share this deep secret of connection between us, I knew it was you from day 1, and when I met you all I could think about was you and-
Lily leans in and kisses Travis, really passionate, Travis is in heaven, even though all the events that lead up to this, his mom and dad and home life, he wanted that kiss more than anything he had finally built up the courage to ask her something which was burning himself up
T-Lily, would you like to go to the dance with me?
L- what about you and Audrey?
T- you know that would of never worked, please Lily, I will brake things off with Audrey tomorrow, I love you more then any other guy could please believe me, he kisses her again, believe me
L-Travis Strong, it would serve me great pleasure to attend this dance with you.
Travis smiles the first smile he has smiled in a really long time
L- (with tears in her eyes) I honestly never thought I would see that smile on you again, one tear rolls down her cheek Travis' smooth hand brushes it away
T- I'll always smile whenever your around now, I'm glad you got my point in the poem, I was so sure of rejection, and it was hurting me inside knowing that you may in fact be falling for another guy instead of the one who has truly loved you since the day we met
L- Me too, I thought Audrey and you were too cute together, and it made me so angry to see you guys together at the same time, I knew it would seem crazy if I told her that I didn't want her to date you and a little obvious, laughs slightly, I love you Travis, was what I wanted her to know, but I couldn't come out with it
T- I love you Lily, and I always will
L- Me too Travis, I'm so glad we feel the same way, Leans in for a kiss which leads to a make out session on her bed, nothing more but a serious make out session and they couldn't help but thinking I'm kissing my best friend who is know even more whom is someone I truly love, With that they sat there on her bed until her mom knocked
Lily-Get down on the floor! My mom has been boy-crazy since I went on a date with Lee Johns!
T-okay, I'll be on the floor if ya need me!
Ms Randall- gets to bed you two
L- Travis is already asleep, and I'll be getting there soon
MR- ok are you sure you kids aren't doing anything funny in here, I'm still not accepting this great idea about my daughter sharing her room with what you would call and attractive boy
Travis was smiling his head off and yet it creeped him out knowing Ms. Randall considered him attractive, but soon she was off, and had given Lily the third-degree, about making right choices and not to fall for the wrong guy, because she didn't want Lily to make the wrong choices for her life, Travis nearly cracked up during a part of it but he bit his tongue.
L- Oh I'm sorry about my mom, she is really freaked out
T- no problem, but ah, don't consider me forward, but may we get back to where we were. Travis crawled on her bed and they started to kiss
In Lily's tree sat Ray, where he was trying to be romantic in asking Lily out to the dance by crawling through her window at night and giving her a rose, but he had walked...err um climbed in on what was sure to be the most painful moment of his life, Lily and Travis he thought, The girl he loved was TAKEN by his friend, the creepy ZEN FREAK TRAVIS! Plus they were going to the dance together, his dream was being lived out by his creepy friend, he felt his eyes watering, he didn't know he had cared THIS much about Lily, but as he climbed down the tree, and continued his walk home, he started to cry as he entered his own house he was confronted by his mom asking "Oh honey what's wrong?" They only thing he could manage to say was "Oh the usual, ya know, my life being ruined, by my friend Travis, that's it" as he cried all the way upstairs, his mom went upstairs but his door was closed and locked and on the other side laid a heartbroken Ray, knowing Lily, his best friend and the object of ALL his affections, was with Travis, the loner, the Zen weirdo. All he could do was cry, he was 14 and a 14-year old boy for that matter, he should never feel this way, there is only one thing that could make him feel a little better. He picked up the phone and dialed Lily's number
L- Hey Ray what's up?
T- (in his thoughts) This is not happening, this is so not happening, please let me wake up from this horrible nightmare, wait or would it be called a dream since I was just kissing Lily...Oh yea focus on that part Travis! Come on you know this would kill Ray if you let him know, but I think that is something you will have to do
R- Lily, I kind of have to tell you something
L- Hurry up I was kind of in the middle of something important Lily glances at Travis who is still thinking about this whole Ray and Him and Lily thing, but still manages to smile his trademark smile at Lily and realizing how beautiful she was, and that maybe Ray didn't have to know Right AWAY, but something that he didn't know, that Ray had seen them, and that this call could be very devastating for one of them.
R-Lily, I well, this is hard for me to say but well I... Lily I, seem to have, um, Lily I like you
The other end of the line went dead, Lily was amazed at what she had just heard, Ray likes her, she had always thought of him as a friend specially that for the past few months she had had a huge crush on Travis, She realized it had been like 5 minutes since either of them had talked and Travis, still thinking about Ray, hadn't even noticed, but Lily seemed to mutter out the WORST possible answer ever
L- I like Travis...
This brought Travis out of his daze and realized they were STILL on the phone
R- I know, I was going to ask you to the dance and I climbed up your window to be romantic and I saw, Lily could sense his mode weakening from O.K. to sad, she could almost sense tears, I saw you and Travis, and I climbed down and went home and this is were it leads me, LILY no guy could ever love you as much as I do, Lily you have to trust me on this one, Lily I love YOU. The line goes dead, Ray hung up, He then called Robbie and filled him in on everything, but in the meantime, Lily and Travis were discussing things.
L- umm, that was Ray, and he just wanted to call and say you know that he loves me! Travis did you know about this?
T- I did
L- And you didn't let me know, She starts to feel saddened, her vision become blurry, she glances at the clock it reads 10:21pm, Travis I don't know what to do, I love you Travis but I'm afraid to let Ray down, So what should I do
T- You know what I would think, I want you to be with me, you're the only one who understands me, the only one who can stand to be bothered by my Buddha quotes the only one who I love and care about, the only one for me...But although this is what I may think, it's all up to you, and your heart to decide who is right for you...
L- Travis your sweet and I'm glad you understand me but right now, I think we both need some sleep, I'll decide in my dreams, or as I at least stay awake all night trying to figure this out, she smiles, Travis hugs her.
T- I trust you, and I know you'll make the right choice, and whoever you choose and no matter who you choose, he's the right guy for you
Lily pondered what Travis had said she realized the Audrey didn't care about him or notice anything about him, all she noticed was that he was HOT, but Lily saw deeper, she saw he had a good heart and an awesome soul and intriguing personality, he was always willing to listen, and was always there for his friends, even if they weren't his friends, he always had a nice Buddha quote or line of inspiration to help them through it. Ray was nice too, she he covered it up with his hilarity but she knew he had a deeper side, maybe even a side like Travis, or something like Travis. As she went on she realized she was looking for Travis' traits in Ray, and was thinking Travis was the perfect person that every guy should measure up to, but she had known him the least amount of time, as for Ray she had known him for her entire life. She soon looked at the clock it read 5:50am they would be getting up for school in 10 minutes, she hadn't slept all night, but she did accomplish a lot that night, in fact she had accomplished enough to decide that her boyfriend would have to be— Her thought were interrupted my her mom yelling from downstairs
Ms Randall- Get Up!! Breakfast is ready, come on don't want to be late for school, and tonight's the dance so I hope you have gotten a lot of sleep! L- O.K. I'm getting up she had almost forgotten about the dance but after her mom reminded her she immediately got into a better mood, Travis awoke, smiling to Lily
T- so did you dream up your perfect boyfriend? He smiles his famous smile
L- yes I managed out everything and I finally know, that, Travis...
T- got worried, he didn't like where this was going and got scared, I don't like suspense Lily specially this kind!
L- Travis... I decided that...
He looked scared and anxious
L- through an awful lot of consideration, and going through the things I wanted in a guy...
He nearly stopped breathing as she opened her mouth again to reveal more useless information
L- and that fact that I can not only look at how cute he is but the fact that I like him for who he really is...
T- Lily you are killing me, come one!
L- Travis...
T- That would be me Lily...
L- Travis I've picked you, she smiles.
T- he smiled this smile that had so much love in it, he knew Ray would be heartbroken and go into manic depression but he gets his girl, he hugs her, which leads to a passionate kiss.
T-I love you Lily
L- And I love you, Travis
They kiss real fast and get ready for school. Tonight is the dance and they are going together when they got downstairs they both had smiles on their faces they rushed to school and immediately bumped into the one person neither of them wanted to see all day, Ray. They could see he hadn't gotten much sleep, they both knew why, they could also see Ray would kill Travis if she had chosen him, Ray was standing there staring them both in the eye waiting for the worst moment or greatest moment of his life, so he stood there waiting for a moment...