Love To See You Cry ~hotsleekeyz~
Chapter 17
Barren Paradise
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Hermione and Draco lay on his bed silent as they felt the moment. Never did it occur to them that they would share a bed together.
The flame emitted from the fireplace crackled to the unexplainable state of solace they experienced. Hermione was musing at the fast track of events. It all seemed to her a fairytale. It daunted on her that she was like the poor girl that the handsome prince loved---and that they had to surpass overwhelming odds to get together.
//Fine//
*If it was all like a fairytale, she would definitely want her happy ending- -- But when?*
Draco felt very tired. The torture wasn't much of a burden for him---the burning only made him sweat, the lashes were gone with the help of Hermione, but the Death Mark begun to take tow on him. He had to stop his evil side from winning over him every so often, especially with Hermione beside her in one bed.
He didn't have to think of Lucius until the third day when he's expected to wake up.
Yet he felt uneasy all those while---pondering.
Draco was concerned of Hermione's safety. If anyone else knew Hermione was there, they'd both be facing death.
They both stared at the top of the four-poster not saying a word. But Draco wasn't able to contain himself that he had to speak. "Hermione, thanks for coming over"
"No worries. I wouldn't feel as secured of myself and your safety if I didn't come tonight"
"Do you love me?"
Hermione tilted her head to where Draco lay. She stared at him not knowing how to reply. She knew she loved him. She was actually certain of her feelings. And she remembered the night before he left Hogwarts---in the Astronomy Tower. Draco told her that it was hard to say 'I Love You' when you truly mean it. She didn't realize that it as true until that time that she was the one confronted by the situation that she had to say the words herself.
"Well, do you love me?", Draco repeated.
"Yes. I wouldn't have gone here if I don't"
Draco tilted his head towards Hermione and cupped his hand over Hermione's cheek. He kissed her gently and then, pulled away as he gazed straight into Hermione's eyes.
"You see, I know we have this mutual understanding and intimate connection, and still, I haven't asked if we could be us. . . and, there is this huge problem I'm facing right now that I have to solve. But until I know there is 'us', I wouldn't be able to solve that problem. . .", Draco muttered, quite hesitant to go on further into the topic.
"Well? What's your problem then?"
Draco positioned himself to his side, turning away from Hermione. He thought he shouldn't have mentioned about it. "I reckon this is not the best time to talk about this"
"And when do you plan of telling me about it? I know it very much concerns me, as you wouldn't mention being 'us' if I'm not"
Draco let out a huge sigh and decided to tell Hermione just the same. He figured out that there was no turning back from their conversation. "You see, Lucius and my mother talked to me with regards to their plans for me even before we started the schoolyear"
"And?", Hermione asked as she listened intently.
"The usual---they want me to become a Death Eater, have good grades in school, assume position in the Ministry of Magic after graduating. . ."
Hermione leaned closer towards Draco.
"And they want me to have a family by next year. Lucius asked me about it--- whether I've found the girl I want to marry or not, and mother. . ."
"What did she tell you?", Hermione asked, not knowing what to expect, nor who they were talking about.
"Mother asked me why I have chosen that certain girl as they don't believe in intermarriages, or so they call it"
"Is she a muggle?"
Draco faced Hermione at last with a dim look on his face. "Yes, in fact, she is. She's a witch. . . a muggleborn. . . a Mudblood. . ."
Hermione was flabbergasted. She didn't know what to say, or even, how to react. She wasn't the least expecting that she was the girl Draco was referring to.
"Honestly, I want you to be my wife, Hermione. I've already told them that I've found the girl, though only my mother knows about you and that we still aren't committed or anything. . .", Draco mouthed embarrassed. His pale cheeks gained some blush.
"Your mother knows? What if she tells Lucius? He won't be pleased about it, for sure"
"She won't tell, and I don't mind. The thing is---"
Draco wasn't able to continue since Hermione cut him in.
"Draco, I'm more than willing to be your wife"
Draco just stared at the beautiful form in front of him. He was mesmerized by the angelic smile that has befallen Hermione's lips. It was too much for him---that such creature didn't deserve one as he. . . too much that a tear rolled down his flushed cheek. Hermione easily wiped the tear away with her thumb. To her hand, Hermoine felt Draco's head shake a couple of times.
"I don't know how to break this. . . Hermione, I'm glad that you are willing to be my wife, having decided at such an early age to commit yourself to me, and considering the fact that we aren't committed yet. . . But there is something else you have to know about me", Draco stated. He actually felt a huge lump in his throat that seemed to have been stopping him from speaking any further.
Hermione saw the conversation was getting serious that she had the urge to kid around. "Your life is full of secrets! Maybe you'd care to share some", Hermione said teasingly.
"I've been thinking about this lately, ever since I pursued my connection with you. . . and the reason why I did this is because I love you. . . and Hermione, that is the same reason why I want to put a stop to this. I want you to be happy. . . I want to share my happiness with you---that you are with me and that you are mine. . ."
"What are you talking about?"
"Hermione, we can continue on like this and be happy, but in the long run, you'll only be disappointed. Your happiness will perish soon enough"
"I'm happy like this. I'm contented hiding from them. All that matters now is that I'm with you---that we are together"
"You don't understand! If we get committed, and soon marry, you'll have to take your words back!"
"Tell me why then!", Hermione spat as she get irritatingly furious of Draco's alibis.
"Being an Animagi, you have to sacrifice much more than you think you should. Only wizards of my kind are aware of this and never had it been revealed to others---even the Ministry, mind you. I don't know about James Potter's case why it was different from usual" Draco breathed hard and continued. " Hermione, I can't give you the future you dream about. It's not possible that we would forever be in bliss even in marriage. I can't--- I, I. . . I can't give you a family Hermione. I'm sorry. . .", Draco claimed as he sat up straight to draw his face away from Hermione. He was too embarrassed and he didn't want Hermione to see that tears actually had been welling up in his eyes.
Hermioen sat up behind him as well, and placed a trembling hand on Draco's shoulder. "What do you mean?"
Draco took Hermione's hand off him and put it away. His head was morosely lowered in humiliation. "Don't you understand? I can't give you a family. . . I'm infertile, sterile---what words do you want to put it else in? . . .And that is reason enough to end it all here", Draco replied with tears flowing down over his pale cheeks.
Hermione was speechless but thoughts in her head were in a rage. First, she allowed herself to commit, AND engage herself with Draco. Second, she didn't even think that she was only seventeen and they were talking about marriage, AND having children. . . though her thoughts came as hindrances, her heart beatinf for Draco, won over the overwhelming odds---add that they weren't supposed to be together because of their ancestry.
She held closer to Draco and embraced him tight from behind. She let her head rest on Draco's lean shoulder while she let him rest his head over hers. "I don't reckon we end it all here because of that. I love you Draco. Your incapabilities won't hinder us from being happy together, now would it?", Hermione whispered gently into Draco's ear.
"Tell me what you're thinking Hermione. . . I couldn't understand the simple words you're telling me. You don't know what you're talking about"
Draco's eyes were tightly shut in depression. . . confusion. . . and desperation.
"Draco, I accept your plan. I don't care if we won't have children, grandchildren, or even great grandchildren. . .even if we won't have the honor of being called their ancestors. . that's nothing Draco. We'll be together, and I'll be the happiest woman in the world for I have the love of someone like you. . ."
"You have to sleep now Hermione. You don't know what you're talking about"
Draco pulled Hermione back to bed and they both assumed to lay and rest. He was almost asleep when he felt Hermione's arm around him, with her warm breath on his face.
"I know what I'mtalking about. Hold me to my word, I vow myself to you Draco Malfoy"
They slept comfortably in each other's arms. I t was already morning yet the sun wasn't up. A few hours more and Hermione had to leave.
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Hermione woke up with a gentle hand brushing against her temples. She slowly opened her auburn eyes and saw Draco smiling sweetly at her.
"I hate for you to go Hermione. Now, you take your breakfast before we sneak out o the stables"
Draco snapped his fingers and a female house elf appeared. "Bring some food up here. Now you won't tell anybody that she's around or I'll have to kill you". The elf shivered in fear with her huge eyes watering when she disappeared. In half a minute, they were served a hearty breakfast of foods of different sorts. They ate without one talking. As they finished, Draco stood up and Hermione followed short. She grabbed the Invisibility cloak while Draco opened the window of his room.
Draco conjured a ladder and they went down.
The two carefully walked past the shrubs and headed to the stable where Claude was. Claude was eagerly waiting for them. The horse took a front knee down to accommodate Hermione up.
As Hermione patted Claude's back, Draco reminded, "Take care of yourself, alright? Dumbledore will know what to do when you arrive. My owl had just returned so I'll send you anything soon". Draco kissed Hermione briefly. He led Claude out when they saw a dozen Death Eaters gaining, gliding towards them.
"Go!", Draco yelled as he hit Claude hard.
Claude was taking speed with Hermione sobbing atop, turning her head towards Draco's direction, and saw him being caught by Death Eaters. She was hesitant to go on further and she decided to come to a stop. Draco noticed at once.
Five hooded Death Eaters glided towards Hermione, with the remaining seven, trying ot duel with Draco.
"Hermione, go! Just go!", Draco yelled as he panicked in the midst of the Death Eaters.
Though Draco wasn't scared of them killing him, he was scared for Hermione who was nearly caught by the others. It was given that Draco could easily terminate the Death Eaters as he was the New Dark Lord and newly officiated Death Eater. All that ran through his mind was that, he would never let Hermione see blood spill from his hands.
Following what Draco told her, Hermione kicked Claude at the side and in a few moments, was lost from Draco's sight, leaving him once more to himself.
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Draco was walking back to his room with strong hands holding him, not allowing him to let go.
//Harry, take her back home---this is not the place for her. . . not here with me. . .//
Draco thought that the hostility on the Malfoy estate was not fit for someone as Hermione. He realized that the life he was starting all over again is not the life that Hermione should live. . . and that he can't ever give Hermione the happiness she deserved whenever the time came that they would be joint by marriage.
And so Draco entered his room once again and headed to his desk. He took hold of his diary, and started writing in it the whole story from where everything started, with the quill Hermione have him.
~Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling owns characters, setting, etc. Except: the plot is mine.~
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*BLECH!*
That was one of the most stupid-est chapter ender that I wrote. It definitely sucks like sh*t. Anyways, I promise you that next chapter would get even better. What you must wait for is the conversation that Hermione had with her friends and Dumbledore about the marriage of Draco and Hermione; the sudden change of living arrangements inside Hogwarts; and of course, the dialogue of Harry and Hermione in Hermione's room. *wink!wink!* [guess what happened. . . hmmm. . . *cheeky grin*] oh, I give this away, something's going to happen. . .just you wait and see!
COULD PERVY AND NON-PERVY PEOPLE STAND UP?! There. . that makes all of you guys. . . lmao. Anyways, what you're waiting for is on the next chapter. I hope I don't get sued for this. I don't want my story taken down because of the pervy scene. So, if you want the full account of the deed, you might want to go to the link on my biography for [adult fan fiction . net (remove spaces)]. Yeah, yeah. Terribly sorry. And for those of you who have been reading my other fic "Maybe Tomorrow". I'm really sorry for the stupid format. Just go to the other site, alright? I really have a bad feeling it's going to be put down soon as it contains rated stuff.
So there.
***POINTS : [do you still need this? Tell me if you still do for the next chapters. But if I know that you guys will have a huge question mark in your heads on some parts of the story, I'll have the initiative to clear it up before you complain. Lol.]
*Hermione and Draco were still on the bed. But no, you didn't get what you wanted there. I have to save that up for the next chapters.
*Draco said something about infertility. What he wanted to point out was that, Animagis aren't given the decision whether be able to have their children or not for it was long before given among them that they can not have children---and so Draco comments on how James Potter's case was different as he had Harry for a child. [wahaha. This one point is what you really need to mark in your head until I finish the story. Draco and Harry's true identities will be revealed in the last chapters. Also, Hermione's connection to what-could-happen in the next chapter *grin* and lastly, what will Harry do in the last chapter knowing that everything wasn't what it seemed all those time]
*and so Hermione was able to escape from the estate, and next scene would be back at Hogwarts.
I BEG YOU WONDERFUL PEOPLE, Review!
I really appreciate those who really comment on my writing and the story plot itself. I do enjoy reading them a lot and it never fails to put a smile on my face! [I am NOT kidding!]
Chapter 17
Barren Paradise
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Hermione and Draco lay on his bed silent as they felt the moment. Never did it occur to them that they would share a bed together.
The flame emitted from the fireplace crackled to the unexplainable state of solace they experienced. Hermione was musing at the fast track of events. It all seemed to her a fairytale. It daunted on her that she was like the poor girl that the handsome prince loved---and that they had to surpass overwhelming odds to get together.
//Fine//
*If it was all like a fairytale, she would definitely want her happy ending- -- But when?*
Draco felt very tired. The torture wasn't much of a burden for him---the burning only made him sweat, the lashes were gone with the help of Hermione, but the Death Mark begun to take tow on him. He had to stop his evil side from winning over him every so often, especially with Hermione beside her in one bed.
He didn't have to think of Lucius until the third day when he's expected to wake up.
Yet he felt uneasy all those while---pondering.
Draco was concerned of Hermione's safety. If anyone else knew Hermione was there, they'd both be facing death.
They both stared at the top of the four-poster not saying a word. But Draco wasn't able to contain himself that he had to speak. "Hermione, thanks for coming over"
"No worries. I wouldn't feel as secured of myself and your safety if I didn't come tonight"
"Do you love me?"
Hermione tilted her head to where Draco lay. She stared at him not knowing how to reply. She knew she loved him. She was actually certain of her feelings. And she remembered the night before he left Hogwarts---in the Astronomy Tower. Draco told her that it was hard to say 'I Love You' when you truly mean it. She didn't realize that it as true until that time that she was the one confronted by the situation that she had to say the words herself.
"Well, do you love me?", Draco repeated.
"Yes. I wouldn't have gone here if I don't"
Draco tilted his head towards Hermione and cupped his hand over Hermione's cheek. He kissed her gently and then, pulled away as he gazed straight into Hermione's eyes.
"You see, I know we have this mutual understanding and intimate connection, and still, I haven't asked if we could be us. . . and, there is this huge problem I'm facing right now that I have to solve. But until I know there is 'us', I wouldn't be able to solve that problem. . .", Draco muttered, quite hesitant to go on further into the topic.
"Well? What's your problem then?"
Draco positioned himself to his side, turning away from Hermione. He thought he shouldn't have mentioned about it. "I reckon this is not the best time to talk about this"
"And when do you plan of telling me about it? I know it very much concerns me, as you wouldn't mention being 'us' if I'm not"
Draco let out a huge sigh and decided to tell Hermione just the same. He figured out that there was no turning back from their conversation. "You see, Lucius and my mother talked to me with regards to their plans for me even before we started the schoolyear"
"And?", Hermione asked as she listened intently.
"The usual---they want me to become a Death Eater, have good grades in school, assume position in the Ministry of Magic after graduating. . ."
Hermione leaned closer towards Draco.
"And they want me to have a family by next year. Lucius asked me about it--- whether I've found the girl I want to marry or not, and mother. . ."
"What did she tell you?", Hermione asked, not knowing what to expect, nor who they were talking about.
"Mother asked me why I have chosen that certain girl as they don't believe in intermarriages, or so they call it"
"Is she a muggle?"
Draco faced Hermione at last with a dim look on his face. "Yes, in fact, she is. She's a witch. . . a muggleborn. . . a Mudblood. . ."
Hermione was flabbergasted. She didn't know what to say, or even, how to react. She wasn't the least expecting that she was the girl Draco was referring to.
"Honestly, I want you to be my wife, Hermione. I've already told them that I've found the girl, though only my mother knows about you and that we still aren't committed or anything. . .", Draco mouthed embarrassed. His pale cheeks gained some blush.
"Your mother knows? What if she tells Lucius? He won't be pleased about it, for sure"
"She won't tell, and I don't mind. The thing is---"
Draco wasn't able to continue since Hermione cut him in.
"Draco, I'm more than willing to be your wife"
Draco just stared at the beautiful form in front of him. He was mesmerized by the angelic smile that has befallen Hermione's lips. It was too much for him---that such creature didn't deserve one as he. . . too much that a tear rolled down his flushed cheek. Hermione easily wiped the tear away with her thumb. To her hand, Hermoine felt Draco's head shake a couple of times.
"I don't know how to break this. . . Hermione, I'm glad that you are willing to be my wife, having decided at such an early age to commit yourself to me, and considering the fact that we aren't committed yet. . . But there is something else you have to know about me", Draco stated. He actually felt a huge lump in his throat that seemed to have been stopping him from speaking any further.
Hermione saw the conversation was getting serious that she had the urge to kid around. "Your life is full of secrets! Maybe you'd care to share some", Hermione said teasingly.
"I've been thinking about this lately, ever since I pursued my connection with you. . . and the reason why I did this is because I love you. . . and Hermione, that is the same reason why I want to put a stop to this. I want you to be happy. . . I want to share my happiness with you---that you are with me and that you are mine. . ."
"What are you talking about?"
"Hermione, we can continue on like this and be happy, but in the long run, you'll only be disappointed. Your happiness will perish soon enough"
"I'm happy like this. I'm contented hiding from them. All that matters now is that I'm with you---that we are together"
"You don't understand! If we get committed, and soon marry, you'll have to take your words back!"
"Tell me why then!", Hermione spat as she get irritatingly furious of Draco's alibis.
"Being an Animagi, you have to sacrifice much more than you think you should. Only wizards of my kind are aware of this and never had it been revealed to others---even the Ministry, mind you. I don't know about James Potter's case why it was different from usual" Draco breathed hard and continued. " Hermione, I can't give you the future you dream about. It's not possible that we would forever be in bliss even in marriage. I can't--- I, I. . . I can't give you a family Hermione. I'm sorry. . .", Draco claimed as he sat up straight to draw his face away from Hermione. He was too embarrassed and he didn't want Hermione to see that tears actually had been welling up in his eyes.
Hermioen sat up behind him as well, and placed a trembling hand on Draco's shoulder. "What do you mean?"
Draco took Hermione's hand off him and put it away. His head was morosely lowered in humiliation. "Don't you understand? I can't give you a family. . . I'm infertile, sterile---what words do you want to put it else in? . . .And that is reason enough to end it all here", Draco replied with tears flowing down over his pale cheeks.
Hermione was speechless but thoughts in her head were in a rage. First, she allowed herself to commit, AND engage herself with Draco. Second, she didn't even think that she was only seventeen and they were talking about marriage, AND having children. . . though her thoughts came as hindrances, her heart beatinf for Draco, won over the overwhelming odds---add that they weren't supposed to be together because of their ancestry.
She held closer to Draco and embraced him tight from behind. She let her head rest on Draco's lean shoulder while she let him rest his head over hers. "I don't reckon we end it all here because of that. I love you Draco. Your incapabilities won't hinder us from being happy together, now would it?", Hermione whispered gently into Draco's ear.
"Tell me what you're thinking Hermione. . . I couldn't understand the simple words you're telling me. You don't know what you're talking about"
Draco's eyes were tightly shut in depression. . . confusion. . . and desperation.
"Draco, I accept your plan. I don't care if we won't have children, grandchildren, or even great grandchildren. . .even if we won't have the honor of being called their ancestors. . that's nothing Draco. We'll be together, and I'll be the happiest woman in the world for I have the love of someone like you. . ."
"You have to sleep now Hermione. You don't know what you're talking about"
Draco pulled Hermione back to bed and they both assumed to lay and rest. He was almost asleep when he felt Hermione's arm around him, with her warm breath on his face.
"I know what I'mtalking about. Hold me to my word, I vow myself to you Draco Malfoy"
They slept comfortably in each other's arms. I t was already morning yet the sun wasn't up. A few hours more and Hermione had to leave.
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Hermione woke up with a gentle hand brushing against her temples. She slowly opened her auburn eyes and saw Draco smiling sweetly at her.
"I hate for you to go Hermione. Now, you take your breakfast before we sneak out o the stables"
Draco snapped his fingers and a female house elf appeared. "Bring some food up here. Now you won't tell anybody that she's around or I'll have to kill you". The elf shivered in fear with her huge eyes watering when she disappeared. In half a minute, they were served a hearty breakfast of foods of different sorts. They ate without one talking. As they finished, Draco stood up and Hermione followed short. She grabbed the Invisibility cloak while Draco opened the window of his room.
Draco conjured a ladder and they went down.
The two carefully walked past the shrubs and headed to the stable where Claude was. Claude was eagerly waiting for them. The horse took a front knee down to accommodate Hermione up.
As Hermione patted Claude's back, Draco reminded, "Take care of yourself, alright? Dumbledore will know what to do when you arrive. My owl had just returned so I'll send you anything soon". Draco kissed Hermione briefly. He led Claude out when they saw a dozen Death Eaters gaining, gliding towards them.
"Go!", Draco yelled as he hit Claude hard.
Claude was taking speed with Hermione sobbing atop, turning her head towards Draco's direction, and saw him being caught by Death Eaters. She was hesitant to go on further and she decided to come to a stop. Draco noticed at once.
Five hooded Death Eaters glided towards Hermione, with the remaining seven, trying ot duel with Draco.
"Hermione, go! Just go!", Draco yelled as he panicked in the midst of the Death Eaters.
Though Draco wasn't scared of them killing him, he was scared for Hermione who was nearly caught by the others. It was given that Draco could easily terminate the Death Eaters as he was the New Dark Lord and newly officiated Death Eater. All that ran through his mind was that, he would never let Hermione see blood spill from his hands.
Following what Draco told her, Hermione kicked Claude at the side and in a few moments, was lost from Draco's sight, leaving him once more to himself.
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Draco was walking back to his room with strong hands holding him, not allowing him to let go.
//Harry, take her back home---this is not the place for her. . . not here with me. . .//
Draco thought that the hostility on the Malfoy estate was not fit for someone as Hermione. He realized that the life he was starting all over again is not the life that Hermione should live. . . and that he can't ever give Hermione the happiness she deserved whenever the time came that they would be joint by marriage.
And so Draco entered his room once again and headed to his desk. He took hold of his diary, and started writing in it the whole story from where everything started, with the quill Hermione have him.
~Disclaimer: J.K. Rowling owns characters, setting, etc. Except: the plot is mine.~
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*BLECH!*
That was one of the most stupid-est chapter ender that I wrote. It definitely sucks like sh*t. Anyways, I promise you that next chapter would get even better. What you must wait for is the conversation that Hermione had with her friends and Dumbledore about the marriage of Draco and Hermione; the sudden change of living arrangements inside Hogwarts; and of course, the dialogue of Harry and Hermione in Hermione's room. *wink!wink!* [guess what happened. . . hmmm. . . *cheeky grin*] oh, I give this away, something's going to happen. . .just you wait and see!
COULD PERVY AND NON-PERVY PEOPLE STAND UP?! There. . that makes all of you guys. . . lmao. Anyways, what you're waiting for is on the next chapter. I hope I don't get sued for this. I don't want my story taken down because of the pervy scene. So, if you want the full account of the deed, you might want to go to the link on my biography for [adult fan fiction . net (remove spaces)]. Yeah, yeah. Terribly sorry. And for those of you who have been reading my other fic "Maybe Tomorrow". I'm really sorry for the stupid format. Just go to the other site, alright? I really have a bad feeling it's going to be put down soon as it contains rated stuff.
So there.
***POINTS : [do you still need this? Tell me if you still do for the next chapters. But if I know that you guys will have a huge question mark in your heads on some parts of the story, I'll have the initiative to clear it up before you complain. Lol.]
*Hermione and Draco were still on the bed. But no, you didn't get what you wanted there. I have to save that up for the next chapters.
*Draco said something about infertility. What he wanted to point out was that, Animagis aren't given the decision whether be able to have their children or not for it was long before given among them that they can not have children---and so Draco comments on how James Potter's case was different as he had Harry for a child. [wahaha. This one point is what you really need to mark in your head until I finish the story. Draco and Harry's true identities will be revealed in the last chapters. Also, Hermione's connection to what-could-happen in the next chapter *grin* and lastly, what will Harry do in the last chapter knowing that everything wasn't what it seemed all those time]
*and so Hermione was able to escape from the estate, and next scene would be back at Hogwarts.
I BEG YOU WONDERFUL PEOPLE, Review!
I really appreciate those who really comment on my writing and the story plot itself. I do enjoy reading them a lot and it never fails to put a smile on my face! [I am NOT kidding!]