KG: Hello! I finally got around to putting this up! I had it written out a couple of days ago, but I didn't have much time to type it up. I was asked to write this fic and well, here it is. I'm trying to avoid using the cliché plot for this pairing, ok? Anyways, I don't own Digimon Frontier or any other anime for that matter. Oh yeah, this is going to be in Kouichi's POV.
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Do You Love Me, or Not?—Do I?
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I stared out my bedroom window, watching the red and golden yellow autumn leaves fall from the trees in the light of the late morning. It was august, a month before school would begin, but that wasn't what was on my mind then. I flipped over and buried my face in my pillow, thinking back to the incident from four days ago…
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"Kouichi? Could I please talk to you?"
"Sure, you know you can talk to me about anything. What's wrong?"
"Well, I l-love someone...."
"Really? Who is it?"
"K-Kouichi..."
"What?"
"I-it's you... I love you…"
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I didn't respond to that last comment, I couldn't. I just ran. I ran and left behind a person that I cared about so much feeling pain and regret. Yes, that person was Kouji. I didn't want to hurt him, why would I? He's my brother, my twin brother. I love him and all, but just not that way. I really did feel regretful about what I did, running away like that. But then again, it wasn't like I had many choices at the moment... Why did that happen? Why out of all the other people out there, did he choose me? I would've expected him to like someone like Takuya, he was his best friend and they've known each other longer, since the beginning of the journey in the digital world... Me? I hadn't met Kouji until much later.
I closed my eyes now. I hadn't seen or talked to Kouji since that incident, I didn't know what I would say or do now. Strange, the very person I had searched for so hard I now tried so hard to avoid. He had tried to call me, but I wouldn't answer. My mom was visiting a relative of hers who was traveling abroad and I was alone for the next two weeks. I also had stayed at home to further avoid the chance of running into him. I did want to see him, but now I felt awkward thinking about him, he loves me. But he's still my little brother, I really shouldn't do this... I should go and talk to him. Maybe he only thought he loved me, yeah, maybe he just misunderstood close brotherly feelings for love. After all, it wasn't until just recently that he had truly opened up to others...that had to be it.
I slowly sat up on my bed. Besides, I did say he could talk to me about anything, right? I had to be there for him and anyways, I guess avoiding him wouldn't help anything. I got up and decided to pay my little brother a visit.
I looked at the trees as I walked down the streets that led to Kouji's house. Their autumn leaves were really a nice sight, it was just sad that they would all eventually end up on the ground. But then again, they would grow back in the spring and be adorned with beautiful blossoms. I soon saw Kouji's house and walked up the porch steps. I raised my hand, preparing to ring the doorbell and hesitated. What if he was mad at me now? I lowered my hand and then looked to the ground, maybe he wouldn't want to see me...
"K-Kouichi?"
I looked up, startled. Kouji had come to answer the door and I hadn't even noticed him open it, "K-konnichi wa, Kouji."
He looked at me in a sort of questioning way, "Why are you here?"
"You said that you needed to talk to me," I pointed to myself, "well, I'm, here."
"You just ran away... and then you avoided me," his eyes showed sadness and hurt, "why come now?"
"Because I'm your brother, Kouji. I care about you and I know that I shouldn't have done what I did... Gomen nasai..." I really wouldn't blame him if he didn't forgive me... Hell, how could I? It was my fault that he was sad...
"I forgive you."
I blinked, not really trusting the idea that my eardrums were functioning properly. I looked at him again, he seemed a little happier now. He moved to the side, "wanna come in? We could watch TV or something."
I couldn't help but smile, "Sure."
I walked in and looked around, the house looked empty. "Are your parents home?"
"Iie... dad's on a business trip, and mom went to a special event or something like that... I don't remember."
"Huh..." I sat down on the couch, Kouji got the remote and handed it to me.
"Want some popcorn or something?"
"Sure."
"Coming right up!" he replied with a wink as he left into the kitchen.
I chuckled a bit at that. Kouji had sure changed a lot... but I still wouldn't trust him cooking. That would still take some time.
I turned on the TV and stared flipping channels, looking for a good movie or show. Kouji returned a few minutes, holding a large bowl of popcorn. He handed me the bowl of popcorn, which I accepted and then sat down next to me.
"Here, I think there was supposed to be this good movie on." I handed him the remote and he found this channel showing some kind of.... romance movie!?
"My mom likes this movie a lot... I've watched it before..." at this point, I could not stop myself from staring at him. He watched romance movies!? Since when? I looked at Kouji's eyes. What was he thinking?
It took me all of my self-control to keep from exclaiming in surprise at Kouji's action. He closed his eyes and then leaned his head against my shoulder. I blushed a deep shade of scarlet, which Kouji of course did not notice. Had he planned this? I didn't move him, maybe he was just tired, but I still had my doubts... I decided to try and watch the movie and get my mind off of the situation, a task which was not so easy. I had to focus just to keep myself from falling asleep, after half and hour or so, I noticed that Kouji hadn't moved. I looked at him and noticed he had fallen asleep, a smile on his face, he actually looked kind of cute like that. Oh boy.... well, at least I didn't have to watch the movie anymore.
I looked around for the remote and saw it in Kouji's hand. I didn't want to wake him up, so I gently pried the control out of his hand and started to flip channels again. I came across an old mystery movie that seemed kind of interesting and decided to watch it. It was a good movie at first but towards the middle it started to lose my attention and so I decided to turn off the TV.
I yawned, not realizing how I had been restless for the past few nights. I decided that I should do the same as Kouji and get some sleep. I lay my head on the couch armrest, it felt cold against my warm face but it soon warmed up as it absorbed the heat from my body. It was so comfortable and I soon felt my eyelids droop. I really was tired, so I relaxed, let sleep consume me and let my mind be at ease...
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I don't know how long it had been, but I felt warmth near my face. I also felt something warm on my body as well. Then, I felt something warmer and soft being pressed against my lips... Wait a minute! On my lips?! I quickly snapped my eyes open to see Kouji on top of me, his lips on mine. He was kissing me!
I immediately pushed him away with my arms, blushing even worse than before.
"What are you doing?!"
Kouji flinched, it was not common for me to raise my voice, especially at him.
"K-Kouichi… I'm sorry. I-it's just that you looked so cute, asleep like that. I-I couldn't help it..."
My heart dropped. I immediately let go of any other possibilities. Kouji really did like me.
"Kouji..."
"I'm sorry! I can't help it, Kouichi, I love you..."
No...
"Kouji, I love you too... but as my brother."
"Is that the only reason you keep pushing me away?! Because I'm your brother?"
The impact of those words hit me over the head like a ton of bricks. Was he right? Was that the reason why I kept pushing him away? My mind drifted back to when he was asleep, with that smile on his face... 'he looks cute'... oh no...
Did I love him too?
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KG: well, there it is. I am going to start on chapter 2 soon, but I might take a while... I'm also gonna try to make longer chapters if I can. Sayonara!