KG: Gomen!! I realize that I took longer than ever to get this chapter up and I apologize!! You'd normally think that teachers would leave less homework near the holidays, but no.... I got loaded and busy... :: realizes she is rambling:: um, anyways, got a bit of writer's block and took a while to type this chapter up, but here it is. Tanoshimu!
Disclaimer: I don't own digimon frontier or any of its characters.
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Do You Love Me, or Not?—No Matter What
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Kouji's father had just walked through the door, hoping to surprise Kouji, but ending up to be the one to receive the surprise. It turns out that his business trip had ended earlier than expected, which turned out being very unfortunate for us...
"Kouji?! Wha-" He held his hand to his face in disbelief, trying to compose himself. "I couldn't have just seen what I think I did, ne? You couldn't have possibly been kissing your brother..."
Kouji could not look up at our father's face and fixed his gaze on the floor instead, I in turn could not help but to move my foot in circular motions against the floor. "D-dad... p-please, don't say that..." Kouji let out after a few moments of uneasy silence. Our father looked confused at this statement, but I understood completely, this just wasn't making things any easier to explain. I knew that I had said that I would talk to our parents earlier, but it was now when I faced with the situation that I truly realized how much easier it was said than done.
"What is that supposed to mean Kouji? What is going on here?!" I disliked how our dad's voice was raising, I hated the disbelief and denial I heard in his tone and most of all, I hated how Kouji was the one receiving it all. I stopped moving my foot, balled up my hands into fists and felt my nails beginning to dig into my skin, I couldn't take much more of it.
"Leave. Kouji. Alone," I said, emphasizing on each word. "We love each other and that's all there is to it! We know we're brothers and that this will be hard to accept, but it doesn't matter!! We'll be together and that's all we want!!" I went on with growing confidence and seriousness.
Kouji looked at me in disbelief, I never was the kind of person to talk to adults or elders like this. I was surprised too, I never would have imagined that I really would have been able to express myself like that to anyone, let alone to our father.
Kouji and I weren't the only ones surprised by my outburst, our dad also seemed taken aback by it. He took a while to think and let out a sigh before speaking, "I'm sorry you two, but I can't let you two be together like this. Are you honestly thinking about how others will react to this? And besides, you are still brothers, it would not be allowed! Kouichi, I want you to go home and not come back here."
"But-!!"
"No protests, Kouji, you will stay here and you will not be allowed to see Kouichi for the time being. I will speak with your mother and his about this affair. Kouichi, leave now."
I shot I quick glance over at Kouji before opening the door and slamming it behind me and running into the now darkening streets, tears beginning to fill my eyes. I kept running, the realization of what just happened still sinking in. I opened the door quickly, slamming it behind me as I entered. I began to feel the tears threatening to fall as I closed all of the drapes in the house, shutting out the light and casting an almost pitch-black darkness inside the house.
I sat down by the main door, pulled up my knees to my chest and let the tears flow freely down my cheeks. I burrowed my face against my knees and sobbed uncontrollably. I couldn't believe the events that had taken place in that day... I discovered that I loved Kouji, we became a couple and were already being pulled away from each other...
"Doushite...? Doushite..." I kept repeating to myself, trying to figure out why things were the way they were. Why had our father arrived earlier than expected from his trip? Why had Kouji and I fallen in love with each other? He could have just as easily fallen in love with Takuya or Izumi... Why did things have to be such a burden? After everything that I had been through, I had begun to believe in destiny and fate, that things were always set towards a certain path. Was this the path we were destined to take? Were Kouji and I not meant to be together? But then why had I found him? There must have been a reason for that too.... These thoughts continued to occupy my head, until I eventually drifted to sleep on the cold, tiled floor.
It must have been around midnight when I was awakened by the sound of someone knocking on the door. I rubbed my eyes and was about to tell whoever it was to go away when I heard the last voice I ever thought I would hear.
"Kouichi!! Open the door!!"
"K-Kouji?!" I quickly stood up and unlocked and opened the door to a moonlit night and a desperate Kouji who flung himself at me.
"Kouichi!! I almost thought you weren't here! I won't let them keep me away from you!" he said as he immediately wrapped his arms around me and began to sob into my chest.
I was overjoyed to see him and began to cry as well, "K-Kouji, I almost th-thought that I w-wouldn't see you again..."
He turned his deep blue eyes up to mine, "but you promised that you wouldn't let anyone come between us..."
"Kouji, I know I did, I just couldn't think of a way of getting to you... but looks like you sure did."
"I told you Kouichi... I'm not going to let you go, no matter what. I've always had to leave people I cared I about in the past so many times, but I don't want to anymore! Even if I can only see you at night, I can sneak out after my parents fall asleep and come here. I really would..."
"Kouji..." Maybe there still was hope after all. Maybe we were still meant to be together, and if we weren't then we will go against anything that got in between, even destiny... after all, destinies can be changed.
"Well, Kouichi, what about it?" He looked at me, awaiting my answer.
I didn't exactly feel comfortable about having to deceive our parents, but I was willing to do it until we could find a real solution. "Of course, Kouji. I'll be waiting outside at the end of your street every night at around midnight."
"Okay then!!" He cried out as he squeezed his hold on me.
"Kouji... please not so hard... I'll suffocate!!" I said as I tried to loosen his grip.
"Gomen!" to my relief, he quickly loosened his hold. It seemed pointless to just stand around and do nothing so I was happy when Kouji suggested taking a walk together in the park. He let go of me and held out his hand to me. I blushed and gladly took it. We began to walk into the moonlit streets, free of worries... at least for now.
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KG: Well, that's all I have for now, gomen. Please R&R!!