Disclaimer: sadly enough, I own nothing about Yu Yu Hakusho. I didn't write it, I didn't dub it, I didn't do anything that has to do with the anime or the manga. So I would appreciate it if you didn't try to sue me for writing about it.

I want to address the review from Curry. I am not planning on quitting this fic until I have it finished. See, I already have a lot of this planned out. Well, more or less anyway. I know what is going to happen and later twists to put into it, I don't know the end yet (hell, I may even put up two separate endings if I have to), so you don't really have to worry about me stopping the fic. By the way, in this chapter there may be some telepathic communication. I'm not yet sure but, if there is I will set it apart by putting it into // //. Thank you for reading through to the second chapter. Enjoy!

WARNING: This chapter may contain some things that is not really a healthful thing to attempt yourself. I give you this advance warning because some of the things that may be done really shouldn't be done. I put them here because it is an all too popular way to handle one's grief. Read ahead with slight caution.

Of course, Hiei hadn't heard me call to him that day. He hadn't heard, but I'm not too certain that he would have came to me if he had. Me claiming to be in pain was nothing really. Pain came and went for humans (and those who have to be in the body of one), pain was something that I had grown accustomed to. But that didn't mean that I enjoyed it, or wished it to continue.

My mother did, however, begin to notice a change in my behavior. She noticed that I stayed in my room for longer amounts of time than I usually did, that I didn't smile. But she didn't see the marks. For now the marks that were appearing don't mean anything…no new ones were visible, and no new ones would be until I had another breakdown.

Which I had one night. One night about two months after Hiei had first left. I sat on my futon crying, by this time I didn't even care about the tears. By this time I hardly noticed anything around me. I did notice the knife that lay beside me… I picked it up and stared at the gleaming blade. It had been used many times, many years ago. I had used it when I was still Yoko Kurama…and had only got it back one night as a surprise gift from Hiei. How ironic. The weapon given to me that used to inflict pain upon others was now used to inflict pain upon me. I pressed it to the soft skin on my arm. Grimacing slightly as I trailed it across my skin. Gods it hurt…I pressed deeper than I usually did. This one would scar worse than any of the others. I grabbed the towel that I had sitting beside me and wrapped my arm in it, marveling at how the blood seeped through the fabric.

My heart leapt when I heard a faint tap on my window. My head jerked up and I saw the unmistakable figure of Hiei. My Hiei! My beloved had came back to me finally! I rushed to the window and opened it quickly, letting him in, the towel fell from my arm as I did so.

He stared at it as if it were a monster. "Why did you do that to yourself?!" He asked gruffly, hugging me carefully. Undoubtedly trying to think of all the other ways I had found to hurt myself.

Suddenly it struck me that he had left me for months with no explanation! I shoved him away from me roughly. "You bastard!" I whispered the words as if they hurt me to say them, which they did, they hurt me so much. I could see that they hurt him to. His crimson eyes shimmered slightly, but he wouldn't cry. No, I doubted that he had cried once the entire time.

"You're wrong Kurama… I cried every night… everyday..every waking moment. I even cried while I slept." He whispered. That little telepathic asshole! He had been reading my mind and knew everything that I thought as I thought it! Not even my thoughts were safe from him…

"Then why did you leave?!" I cursed silently when my mother walked into the room. But, how did this look to her? Her son standing in the arms of another male. Thankfully, Hiei shielded my arm wonderfully.

Hiei pulled away from me and retreated toward the window. I fought myself not to grab onto him and not let him escape through the still open window. But he didn't make any move to run any farther. It seemed to me that he just felt safer with the window to his back, a convenient way for him to dash out if the insuring conversation became to heated for him to stand.

"Who is you friend Shuuichi?" My mother asked, looking from Hiei to me.

I fidgeted slightly. Was there any way to get out of telling my mother that Hiei was just a friend? How much had she seen? What was going through her mind. "It isn't what you think." It was Hiei who spoke first. Slightly surprising me.

"Then what was it?" She asked sternly, not liking the look of Hiei and not liking what she had walked in on. "Shuuichi, how often to you host boys in your room?"

Hiei blushed, and so did I. So she knew then? She knew what I had tried to hide from her. It could be worse though, it could be a lot worse. She could know that Hiei was a demon, or that she had been harboring a demon fugitive for about 16 years.

I stared at the ground, not able to look into mothers stern and demanding eyes. Why did she have to look at me the way I knew she was? Why did she even have to be in my room? Why couldn't she just try and forget what she had seen and leave me be? Why couldn't I go back in time and stop it from being seen? Why couldn't I be strong enough to look into my mother's eyes?

//Kurama…// Hiei said quietly.

//What?!// I was slightly snappy in my response, this entire situation had begun to annoy me.

//I think I know how to get your mother to leave…// Why was he being so calm and collected at a time like this!? How could he possibly think of something to do when not even I could?

//Really?// He was, however, beginning to spark my curiosity.

//First, it will require you lying to her convincingly. Can you manage that?// There was a small gleam in his eyes, and looked at it an captured it. It was breath taking. The shine in his already intense eyes. They looked as if he could make a hawk turn away its gaze.

//I can lie to her.// I muttered it angrily. Did he think that I was such a "god boy" that I had never lied to my mother?

//I never said or thought that Kurama…// He had been reading my mind yet again. How many time would he do this before he finally saw that it made me angry?

//What do you propose we do?// I asked with a hint of anger in my mental voice.

//You tell her that you are going out with me. But only on a trial bases. Only to test your limits and to test the friendships that you have.// His words stung my heart to its deepest crevices.

//I thought I was going out with you…//

//Kurama…I said lie to her, I never said that the whole thing would be a lie.// He looked at my mother briefly and then turned his gaze back to me. //I love you Kurama…now, lets get out of this little mess so that we can talk?//

//Alright.//

I swallowed and looked up at my mother. "Mother… I…" I began to tell her all that Hiei had told me to say and more. I told her that me and Hiei only wanted to see how all of our friends would react if they thought that we were seeing each other. After my explanation my mother looked extremely skeptical…

"Alright Shuuichi." she nodded slightly. "I'll leave you two alone then, but it is getting dark outside, so your friend might want to leave soon."

"Alright mother." I whispered.

She nodded and walked out of the room. Hiei then watched as I securely locked the door behind her. Once I had it locked he ran to me and threw his arms around my waist. I could feel his warm tears soaking through the thin fabric of my outfit. I slowly wrapped my arms around his tiny but strong frame. "I'm sorry that I ever accused you of not caring…"

"Don't apologize to me Kurama…I am the one who should…"

"No Hiei, it isn't your fault that you were scared." I whispered, cutting off his speech and trying to comfort him. "Whatever I said and did over the last two months can be repaired…it can all be fixed. It will eventually be as if nothing has happened… Don't worry about that."

"I wasn't" He whispered, nuzzling his head against my chest. "I never should have ran though… I should have known that it would hurt you if I did."

"Hiei…" I whispered, picking him up and putting him on the bed, you should know that I bounce back from things. After all that I have been through in my three hundred years of existence. I wouldn't have been able to survive this long if I didn't…"

"Sure you would have… you never really tried to love when you were Yoko did you? You stayed alone and solitary for that very reason… to avoid heartbreak."

"No." I whispered. "I had companions. Kuronue was my companion for a long time…"

"And it destroyed you when he was killed…"

"Not entirely. Because I did have my chance to love him…and he gave his life to protect mine. He wouldn't let me turn back to try and help him. And if I look back now, with unclouded eyes, I see that I wouldn't have been able to save him had I went back. I would have only made there be two casualties that day instead of only one."

"I'll never leave you again I swear it." Hiei looked up at me. "But we still have a long way to go, don't we? We still have many problems to work out?"

"Yes… Because I still want to know exactly what it was that made you so afraid to stay here with me. I still want to know why it took you two months to come back. I still want to know so many things." I kissed him softly on the forehead. "But not right now. Right now I want to go to sleep with you in my arms and be able to know that I have you back and that I will never loose you for any reason again. I want to sleep soundly for the first night in two very long months."

He smiled and laid down beside me. " I love you Kurama." He whispered.

"I love you too."

I hope you like the second chapter. I think that I may just wrap this one up in the next chapter. I know it wasn't a very long one, but, I'll start on my next fic as soon as this one is done. Please review.

~Khaos Angel